Thereâs been too much happening lately and it feels like my head is going to explode. When I woke up after going to bed in a huff and looked at things calmly, even I wonder what was up with me yesterday.
What Wrath was saying is correct. Even now I still canât remember Felmina and so on, or rather, I donât think I even have any awareness of her. Even I can realise that that is cruel. I myself understand one-sidedly treating someone like an enemy, having them take no notice of me, and then suffering the crushing shock of not even being recognised. Because I have experienced that myself. To Wakaba Hiiro, the existence of Negishi Akiko, was like that. After we have been reborn, being able to have our current relationship, gives a strange feeling though.
What Iâve done to Felmina, is bad Iâm sure. I understand that. I understand it, but I donât feel like simply apologising.
The heck? Felmina-âchanâ, eh! Iâd never have expected -chan. For THAT goshujin-sama, to AMIABLY, use -CHAN!
Sigh. Calm down, me. Recently, havenât I become a bit strange when it comes to goshujin-sama? Iâm aware of how things were in our previous existence, but it somehow feels like things have recently been developing in an entirely different direction. This is a bad trend Iâm sure.
However, I canât deny that Iâve thought of Felmina as being annoying anyway, and I donât think that feeling will change either. If I actually apologise with things as they are now, itâd simply be for formâs sake and without an ounce of sincerity. If Iâm going to apologise it should be after repenting honestly and my feelings having cooled down.
Besides all that, the one who annoys me the most right now, is that damn outsider who stuck his nose in and acts as if he owns the place and told me to apologise â Wrath. Whatâs with that high-and-mighty view of his own opinion! Bad things are bad!? I understand that without being told! Thatâs why recently Iâve been vomiting while agonising after all!
Spurred on by my seething irritation, I get up from the bed I was lying on. In the end I didnât return to the dormitory yesterday, and was put up at the mansion overnight. When I open the curtains, Iâm bathed in refreshing sunlight. It wonât turn me into ashes of course, but that light makes my heart melancholy.
Iâm sure they were waiting until I was awake, since with good timing there is a knock on the door. When I reply, one of the maids of the mansion asks if I need assistance with getting ready. I politely decline, and head over to the dining table where breakfast is being prepared. I find that other people are already there.
One of them is goshujin-sama. Her expression is the same as ever, but thatâs the face of someone thinking of nothing else but the breakfast she is about to eat. With that mood about her, Iâm sure she wonât respond.
I exchange greetings with Wrath, the other person already here. As if the room temperature had literally decreased, a battle of dangerous glares unfolds between us. Neither of us intend to yield, that much is clear.
A while after we start glaring at each other, the food is brought in. Iâm sure just entering into this space where Wrath and I are trying to stare each other down is painful, so Iâm impressed that the serving maids didnât allow anything to show on their faces. I separate my gaze from Wrath whose spirit had wavered, and take a seat next to goshujin-sama.
The entire meal time is silent. After weâve finished eating, Wrath turns to look at me. That is clearly telling me that he wants to talk afterwards.
ăSophia, this is convenient timing so letâs go visit the Divine Word Religion.ă
Ripping that apart, is a rare long sentence from goshujin-sama. In this atmosphere, to completely ignore that and talk about taking me somewhere, her nerves are the same as ever, but where did you say youâre taking me? If I didnât mishear, she said the Divine Word Religion or something?
ăEh? What do you mean?ă
Itâs a bad habit of goshujin-sama, but she orders other people about without explanation, only giving the conclusion from her own reasoning. No matter what, I donât understand why I should be visiting the Divine Word Religion. Saying that, where exactly is the Divine Word Religion? Doesnât the Divine Word Religion have locations spread out around the world though?
Goshujin-sama is expressionless. Saying that, I donât think itâs just my imagination that she appears to be astonished. Why doesnât she ever realise that her explanations are lacking, I really wish she would stop that.
ăDivine Word Religion?ă
While Iâm agonising over what to do, Wrathâs murmur brings me back to my senses. From the way he said it, it seems like he didnât understand the meaning of the words âDivine Word Religionâ. Ahh. I guess that would be the case for those living in the demon territory? I havenât heard Wrathâs detailed personal history, but Iâve heard he was a goblin though. Then I guess itâs no surprise that he doesnât know about the religions of the human territories, since they donât exist in the demon territories either.
ăThe Divine Word Religion is a religious belief worshipped widely amongst the humans. Calling the System messages the Voice of God, they promote actively raising levels and skills in order to hear it more often, or some such nonsense.ă
Privately though, I attach the comment that theyâre the bastards who killed my parents. Thatâs not relevant right now though, so thereâs no need for me to go out of my way to explain that to him, so Iâll conceal it instead. Or rather, you should just be glad to have a decent explanation. To my explanation, Wrath makes an âhmmâ expression and then his face seems to tighten in sudden realisation.
ăShiro-san, that doctrine isâŚă
To Wrathâs words, goshujin-sama nods. Hey, what are you two doing ignoring me and having your own private understanding? How did you communicate between you with just that?
ăWould it be possible for me to come as well?ă
Goshujin-sama nods yet again. This is a nod to affirm that itâs okay to come, right? Is it just me who keenly feels that a troublesome situation, has suddenly gotten even worse?