It was finally here. The day of Tomoe-senpaiâs graduation.
As the Student Council President, naturally Tomoe-senpai was the one giving the address. Aahh. This would be the last time seeing Tomoe-senpai in his uniform. Goodbye, first love of mine. âŠJust kidding. I just felt like being a little extravagant.
First I congratulated the graduating Pivoine members as a fellow member. After that I made my way towards Tomoe-senpai. Around him was a huge crowd of other graduates. It was a little nerve-wracking.
âCongratulations on graduating, Tomoe-senpai!â
âThanks, Kisshouin-san.â
Uu, being so close was making me teary⊠Itâs going to be so lonelyy.
âThanks for the chocolate the other day. Kasumi was overjoyed too.â
âYes!â
Ah, he just said Kasumi. Was that okay now?
I looked at him questioningly, and he smiled and nodded.
âKasumi!â
Kasumi looked up with a start amidst her group of friends a distance away.
Seeing us, she walked over and then wrapped her arms around his shoulders and dropped her bombshell announcement.
âEverybody, weâre dating!â
As the former Student Council President and a member of the Pivoine, the news caused quite a stir.
Both the Student Council and the Pivoine had taken quite a shock.
I was moved though, and began clapping passionately. Uwaah, uwahh, this was the world of shoujo romance that I admiredd!
After graduating they didnât really have much to with the Pivoine or StuCo, right! Now they could walk happily through university with their hands held, right!
Influenced by my own clapping, other people began to follow. The applaud grew louder and louder.
Tomoe-senpai smiled and waved, but Kasumi-sama had turned beet red. She seemed happy though. Aaahh! Kasumi-sama was crying! Oh no, now I was crying! Iâm so happy for you, Kasumi-sama! Youâve had to hide it for so long. It must have hurt not being able to tell anyone.
The two of them slipped out of the crowd of shocked onlookers and came to where I was.
I gave them another clap of the hands.
âThank you, Kisshouin-san.â
âThank you, Reika-sama.â
âCob-, cobgrajul-, leshonss!!â
Oh no, my nose was all stuffy from the crying.
I pulled out a handkerchief and stealthily wiped away the mucus along with my tears. âŠPhew, I could finally breathe again.
âI am so glad for you, Kasumi-sama. You can finally love each other in public.â
âThank you for everything, Reika-sama. I was really happy to have somebody like you to talk to.â
âKasumi-samaaa~!â
And now I was crying again. And she was too, as we held hands. Oh, no, Kasumi-sama, this handkerchief has my snot on itâŠ
âKisshouin-san, Iâve always thought of you as a cute little sister as well. Thanks for everything. I hope you and Kasumi will stay close even after weâre gone.â
âYes. I will always wish you two well.â
Tomoe-senpai rubbed me on the head. Uwaaan! Are you really okay with this good-for-nothing as a sisterrr!?
Oniisama, Imari-sama, and now Tomoe-senpai. I was blessed by wonderful Oniisamas all around!
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After seeing them off, I realised that my tears had finally stopped.
It was a little embarrassing to have bawled like that, so I found an abandoned corner of the school building. I was finally alone. Pulling out some tissues, I blew my nose hard. Aahh, finally clear!
Hahhh. It was amazing how much better I felt now.
But Tomoe-senpai really was amazing. Even once would do, I wanted to experience having somebody profess their love to me at graduation like that!
While bells were ringing in my head, somebody tapped me on the shoulder. Mn?
I turned around to find Kaburagi, standing there looking sorrowful.
What on earth was he doing here?
âUmm⊠is something the matter?â
It was a completely reasonable question.
Hand still on my shoulder, the sorrow on Kaburagiâs face deepened before he spoke.
âYouâre amazingâŠâ
âEh?â
Amazing? At what?
âYouâve liked him all this time, right? The Student Council President.â
âEh?â
âIt must have been tough being told that you were like a little sister to himâŠâ
âEh? Ah, wellâŠâ
Kaburagi had a knowing look on his face as he slapped my shoulder a few times. That hurts, damnit. And stop misunderstanding things on your own. Seriously, what the heck was this guy saying.
âIâm in the same position as you, so I know. Being told that youâre a sister by the person you loveâŠ!â
Kaburagi gripped my shoulder as he was overcome with emotion. Oww oww owwww!
âBut you were amazing. You even smiled as you congratulated them. You did great.â
This time it was my back that he was smacking. That hurts, goddamnit!! Iâm not a sumo wrestler so stop hitting me already!
âKaburagi-sama, might you be misunderstanding something?â
I casually put some distance between us and escaped the reach of his hand. But this time he grabbed me by both shoulders.
âDonât worry. I wonât tell anyone. Seeing you really encouraged me. The way you watched those twoâŠ! Youâre so amazing, Kisshouin! After watching you, I realised that I wanted to follow your lead and start facing forwards as well⊠So I donât let yourself lose to a broken heart either!â
Grind, grind, grind. Oww, oww, owwww! He was pushing me into the ground!
My shoulders and my back hurt so much that I was starting to tear up, but then Kaburagi saw and started tearing up as well.
âIf it gets to be too much, come talk to me. We both have to try our best⊠We can both get over this, I know itâŠâ
Kaburagi turned away from me to hide his tears as he wiped his face.
âDonât do anything rash,â he said, before leaving.
âŠâŠâŠâŠ
What the hell was that?
And what do you mean rash? Did you think I was going to go on a journey as well? Um, Iâm really not, okay? Toujinbou is freaking cold.
But wow, did Kaburagi have some strong ideas about things. Arbitrarily getting the wrong idea about Tomoe-senpai and I, too. That was ages ago. And it was a bit troublesome how because of the little sister comment he started thinking of us as comrades or something.
Sometimes I called people idiots in my head, but just now was the real deal.
My shoulders still hurtâŠ
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The next day I went to school with some analgesic strips on my shoulders. When I got to school, Kaburagi silently handed me a poem anthology.
âEh-, I donât want this,â I thought and tried to hand it back, but he slapped me on the shoulder again so I nodded.
âOur feelings are in this bookâŠâ
What do you mean âourâ⊠I told you to stop lumping us together.
âŠHeine was the one who said âlove is always a kind of madness.â
You spent all that time reading poems, but you didnât learn a thing, did you Kaburagi.
âAlso, Kisshouin, take care about your crying face. You look pretty horrible.â
ââŠHah?â
Apparently having said everything he wanted to, Kaburagi left for his own classroom with a satisfied expression.
Enjou, looking extremely pleased with himself, came over and spoke to me.
âBecause of you, Masayaâs looking a lot better now. Thanks.â
âŠHaaah!?
Donât feel better by making out other people as heartbroken rejects! And sorry for being ugly when I cry! Instead of bringing me a poem anthology, bring me some heat strips instead! Odourless ones!
Since people were watching I couldnât exactly throw it away, and so I was left bringing it back with me.
âKaburagi-sama gave Reika-sama a love poem anthologyy!â they squealed as I entered the classroom. God, could this get any worseâŠ!?
âGiving a girl a poem anthology!? Heâs so sensitive and dreamy!â some other girl pitched in. You think so? Iâm not happy at all.
The thing was an anthology of poems read over two months by some sobbing reject. Just having it in my bag felt like it was harming my love fortunes. It was like a mass of bad luck!
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When I got home and slammed my bag down, the head from a Japanese doll fell off.
âlove is always a kind of madnessâ
Apparently the original and full quote was,
Die Liebe ist immer eine Art Wahnsinn, mehr oder minder schön
for any of you Huns out there. I donât read German unfortunately, so I canât verify that it actually was Heinrich Heine who said that. Iâd like to learn German one day, but the genders just make it soooo haaaardâŠ