Just Blame Me For Being Blind in the Beginning Chapter 8
Ambiguity makes us suffer.
After Pei Ying returned home, Song Nanchuanâs words still lingered in her head.
She pat her chest, her heart still pounding. Then she texted Ren Shanshan, âShanshan, do you still remember the breakfast I posted to my friend feed? Song Nanchuan saw it and then sent me some recipes. And now heâs given me all the ingredients to make the recipes.â
[Ren Shanshan] âŚSo instead of sleeping in the middle of the night, youâre here to show off? (smile)
[Pei Ying] No, I just think that⌠Do you think he wants to pursue me? (shy)
[Ren Shanshan] I think he wants to bed you. (smile)
Pei Ying, ââŚâ
This old driver, Ren Shanshan, was really too filthy-minded. (Note: I guess âold driverâ means experienced person? Iâm not super up on the internet slang, so apologies in advance if I mess them up or donât explain themâŚ)
[Pei Ying] If you got to know him, youâd know that he was a true gentleman. (bye) And that tear birthmark is filled with restraint. (smile)
[Ren Shanshan] âŚ
[Ren Shanshan] If youâre not scared a rogue is cultured, you should at least be scared that a pervert is patient
Pei Ying, ââŚâ
She held her phone and thought for a moment. Then she sent another text, âOh yeah, didnât I post that photo from the drama before? When I was leaving today, he told me not to post those kinds of photos to my friend feed anymore. What do you think he means?â
[Ren Shanshan] The photo that was all legs under the chest? What were his exact words?
[Pei Ying] I saw your photo. It was really pretty, but donât post those kinds of photos to your friend feed anymore. Mm, it was pretty much like that.
[Ren Shanshan] (smile) CEO Song wants to keep you for himself to lick and doesnât want anyone else to see you. Tsk tsk.
[Pei Ying] âŚDo you have to be so vulgar?
[Ren Shanshan] The world was originally this vulgar. (smile)
[Pei Ying] âŚBut it was for the drama. Even if I donât post it to my friend feed, itâll show up on TV later anyway.
[Ren Shanshan] WahâŚ
[Ren Shanshan] Looks like CEO Songâs going to have his fair share of jealousy~
Pei Ying, ââŚâ
She closed her Weixin app, no longer wanting to chat with Ren Shanshan.
Over the next two days, Pei Ying once again lived her idling life. She didnât have to rush to the filming site early in the mornings anymore, but neither did she sleep away the day. Every day, she woke up at 8:30 and opened up the recipe that Song Nanchuan sent her. Then, with the ingredients heâd bought for her, she made a nutritious breakfast.
She took a picture of the breakfast sheâd just finished making and then posted it to her friend feed.
Ever since Song Nanchuan left for his business trip, she hadnât received any messages from him. There werenât even any likes from him on her friend feed.
She didnât wait for Song Nanchuanâs like though. After she finished eating, she carried out a pet bowl to feed the cat.
There was one more stray cat in the courtyard. Pei Ying crouched down and watched them eat. She let out a sigh. âBlackie, Flower, what do you guys think Chuan Chuan is doing right now? Is he very busy?â
âMeow~â Blackie and Flower responded casually as they ate.
Pei Ying sighed once more. Originally, sheâd thought that Song Nanchuan was pursuing her, but once he left for his business trip, heâd forgotten her entirely. Seems like she wasnât that important after all.
Pei Ying curled her lips, a bit turned off by her current state.
She was like a little schoolgirl that had just fallen in love, thinking all sorts of thoughts and sighing all over the place over some trivial things. She really felt somewhat sorry to her 23 year old self.
Pei Ying crouched down again and pulled out her phone to bother Ren Shanshan. âAmbiguity makes us suffer grievances. (sad)â (Note: This is the first line of Rainie Yangâs .)
[Ren Shanshan] âŚ
[Ren Shanshan] If youâre so free, come over and help clean up the inventory. (smile)
Pei Ying thought for a bit. She didnât have work these days, and she didnât have any classes either. Maybe she really ought to help Ren Shanshan with the store.
She sent back an OK and waited for the cats to finish eating before collecting the empty dish and heading upstairs. She changed into jeans and a long coat, slung her bag over her shoulder, and headed back out the door.
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Aside from Ren Shanshan, there was also one male and one female employee at her studio. They were currently busying themselves with the warehouse inventory. Pei Ying walked over and looked at the pile of clothes on the ground. âWhatâs going on here?â
Ren Shanshan rolled her eyes. âYou donât pay much attention to the internet mall, do you? The whole siteâs having a big promotion in a few days, and out storeâs participating as well. My plan is to put up a load of new outfits and also mark down the prices for the older stock.â
âOhâŚâ Pei Ying nodded. âHow much is a load of new outfits?â
âMore than twenty. There will be two sets with different styles.â Ren Shanshan straightened her back and stood up. âThe new clothes arrived a few days ago. I didnât tell you about it then because you were so busy. Everythingâs taken care of now though, so we just need to hurry with the pictures. Trust me, your life will be filled to the brim. You wonât have the time to feel aggrieved.â
Pei Ying, ââŚâ
She put down her bag and helped out with the inventory and warehouse. In the afternoon, Ren Shanshan dragged her out for the photo shoot, leaving her without any time to rest.
This time, Ren Shanshan came up with two especially romantic themes for the clothes. One was âYoung and Beautiful,â and the other was âParis Diary.â
As the names suggested, âYoung and Beautifulâ carried pretty and fresh-feeling female attire, whereas the âParis Diaryâ fashion was very urban and chic.
With her car filled with people, Ren Shanshan drove to a touristy scenic area. The whole street was lined with hostels disguised as small, single-family villas, very reminiscent of Japanese-style homes. Clean roads, blue sky with white clouds and a shining sun, and peach blossoms lining the street. This was Ren Shanshanâs ideal shooting location.
Model Pei Ying, on the other hand, was greatly tortured. Since there were no changing rooms for her, she had to run back to the car to change each time. After photographing some tens of outfits, she was dead tired.
The photographer called out from the side, âMove your head to the left a bit. Yeah, like that. Smile.â
Pei Ying smiled.
When they finished the shoot with the final color of the last dress, Pei Ying nearly plopped down right onto the ground. She felt this wasnât right though. She should see this schedule to the end, lest Ren Shanshan abuse her to death afterwards.
Ren Shanshan was standing beside the photographer, extremely satisfied. The photos were nearly the way sheâd imagined them, full of spring. Looking at them, even your breathing became romantic.
âPei Pei, come over and look. The photos are so pretty.â She beckoned to Pei Ying with a hand. Pei Ying was still lingering in the same spot, really not wanting to move. âBring it over here.â
Ren Shanshanâs lips dropped and she brought the camera over. Pei Ying looked at a few shots, and indeed, they were very beautiful. Whether it was the color or composition, it was all especially pretty.
Ren Shanshan sighed. âWhen our brand gets bigger, with daily revenue in the millions, Iâll take you all around the world, and we can take photos there too!â
Pei Ying recalled their current daily revenue, feeling a slight bit of despair. âMillions? How long will that take?â
âMm⌠Three, five, maybe seven years.â
Pei Yingâs eyes jumped out. âIâll be 30 by then⌠Canât you make it so that I can travel the world before Iâm 30?â
Ren Shanshan retorted, âYouâre not even 23 yet. In seven years, youâll still be 29!â
âIâll be nearly 30. Whatâs the differenceâŚâ
âIn any case, when someone asks you later, youâre not going to say youâre 30. Youâll say youâre 29!â
Pei Ying thought for a moment. âNo, Iâd say I was 16.â
Ren Shanshan, ââŚâ
âAlright, weâll finish up here today. Everyoneâs worked hard. Dinnerâs on me tonight.â Ren Shanshan announced in a very boss-like manner as she collected her camera equipment.
âLetâs just eat here,â Pei Ying suggested. âI canât walk anymore.â The restaurants at the resort area were usually pretty expensive. She had to make Ren Shanshan pay at least that much, in order to make up for her dayâs hard work.
Ren Shanshan glanced at her but didnât respond She had everyone pack up and put the materials into the car. Then they headed to a nearby restaurant.
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When they were sitting at the grilling table, Pei Ying finally recovered a bit. Ren Shanshan was holding several meat skewers in her hand as she asked, âWhat was with you in the morning? Your CEO Song isnât paying any attention to you?â
Pei Ying swallowed the veggies in her mouth and answered, âHeâs on a business trip.â
Ren Shanshan blinked. âHe told you that? He even reports his schedule to you.â
Pei Yingâs face turned red at her words. âWhat do you mean report? He just mentioned it casually.â
âOhâŚâ Ren Shanshanâs tone and expression were both very profound. âSo he went on a business trip and hasnât contacted you, right?â
Pei Ying silently ate the food in front of her. Ren Shanshan looked at her and knew sheâd guessed correctly. Then she said, âIf he doesnât contact you, you can contact him. Someone has to make the first move.â
Pei Ying said, âIâve thought about contacting him, but what if heâs really busy? How can I be so inconsiderate and bother someone else like that? Weâre not a couple after allâŚâ
âAh?â Ren Shanshan looked at her with ridicule. âAre you complaining about your lack of status right now?â And then she even sang out, âAmbiguity makes us suffer~â
Pei Ying, ââŚâ
âYoung person, if you donât want to suffer, you have to make a move and make him yours.â Ren Shanshan pat her shoulder as she spoke seriously.
âI already made a moveâŚâ Pei Ying mumbled softly. She was the one to get Song Nanchuanâs contact information. When he was on a business trip, she had to be the one to contact him too? Her intentions would be made so obvious.
Although thatâs what she thought, Pei Ying still couldnât help checking her phone. When she opened up her Weixin app, she saw a new notification. She clicked to see what it was, and suddenly a smile appeared on her face.
âWhat is it?â Ren Shanshan asked at her side as she grilled the skewers.
Pei Ying responded, âSong Nanchuan liked my photo.â
Ren Shanshan, ââŚâ
She was silent as she looked at Pei Ying for awhile. Then she shook her head and said, âLittle girl, acting this way is very dangerous.â
Pei Ying curled her lips, not paying any heed to the words. How could Ren Shanshan understand that moment of calm that came across her when she saw Song Nanchuanâs like.
After they finished eating, Ren Shanshan didnât forget to outline the work for tomorrow. When Pei Ying returned home, she showered and laid down on her bed. After a moment, she grabbed her phone. Without hesitation, she opened her texts with Song Nanchuan and started writing. âCEO Song, are you busy?â
With just those few words, she felt the message was too abrupt and quickly deleted it. She bit her lip and started writing again. âCEO Song, how is your business going along?â
Ah ah ah, thatâs not right! How can she ask like sheâs checking up on her partnerâŚ
After a brief back and forth in her mind, Pei Ying finally sent her text.