Today, she is about to take a long-distance flight. Before leaving the room, she personally placed the signed divorce agreement on the dresser.
In fact, she is not surprised by this result. This marriage is what she is seeking. She naively thought she was married, she could have him, thinking that time can change everything, and he would slowly fall in love with her instead of hating her.
It turns out that she lost.
In the five years of marriage, what she got was cold and ridiculous. It was his cold of indifference day after day. She watched him appear in newspapers and magazines, hugging his beloved tenderly.
Her original match was ridiculed by everyone and she was also seen as a joke. She knew people were talking behind her back.
They said — she deserved it. This is the retribution of the person who robbed someone’s man, don’t know shame, no wonder it’s treated like this.
They’re right, she doesn’t deny. Knowing that he had a girlfriend and they talked about marriage, she still set a trap to force him to marry her.
She succeeded and she married him.
On the day of the wedding, she was happy, and even if no one blessed her, she didn’t care because she married him.
At that time, she loved him to love stupidity and loved him to love everything.
Regret? No, she doesn’t regret it.
Yesterday marriage anniversary was the fifth year she married him.
According to the usual practice, every year on their marriage anniversary, she will take a day off for the maid, personally make a beautiful and delicious cake, cook a table of his favorite dishes, and then put on the newly bought clothes, put on beautiful and meticulous makeup, and smile, waiting for him at the table.
Then, what she wait for was a room of loneliness, the cold meals, the melted cake, and her, sitting alone at the table.
When it’s dawn, she will pack the dishes and the cake, one by one, pack them into the garbage bag intact, and then return to the room.
Even if she is sad, she is not allowed to cry.
This marriage is what she wants. Even if everyone persuaded her, she still insisted on her own way. And finally the only relative–the brother who loves her the most does not support her.
“Tao Xinya, you, this idiot! You know that he loves someone else, but still… damn it! Don’t come crying back later!”
When her brother knew that she was going to marry him, he had scolded her with anger. It was heartache, anger, and deep disappointment.
And she, but couldn’t listen to it, even told her brother, “No! He will fall in love with me! One day he will fall in love with me!”
In the face of her stubbornness, her brother was disappointed to leave, and she was still standing straight on her back, watching her brother’s departure, stubbornly thinking that she was right.
She is right! She loves him, and in order to love him, she is desperate, and be despicable to get him.
She won’t cry, how can she cry? When you cry, you admit defeat on your own behalf.
Don’t cry, can’t cry —
Every year on the marriage anniversary, she told herself: Tao Xinya, can’t cry, marry him, and sooner or later he will fall in love with you.
Said many sweet lies, but she believed.
On the fifth anniversary of the marriage, she was still waiting at the table, watching the flashing candles burn out and go out in front of her eyes.
The bell rang and the twelve bells told her that the marriage anniversary of the year had passed.
She smiled, reached for a piece of cake and ate it, with strawberries flavored cream, sour and sweet, slipping into her heart.
She ate it bit by bit, and even those cold meals were eaten. Although the dish is cold, the taste is still very good.
In order to please him, she ran to learn cooking, and prepared a table of good food every day, looking forward with joy, but he never ate.
She remembered that when she was cooking for the first time, she was burnt with oil because she was scared by the fish that jumped up. Her hand was scratched by the knife, but she still smiled, thinking that this was the dish she cooked for him even if she was injured she felt as sweet as honey.
How stupid!
Tao Xinya smiled, all around her mouth was covered with cream, her hands were all greased, watching the single shadow on the wall, she smiled, and the tears of patience finally dropped.
Time’s up, her forced marriage, for five years, she didn’t get him. He didn’t fall in love with her, his heart has always been in his favorite person.
She lost and lost completely, however she wasn’t allowed sympathetic at all.
Because this is the marriage she forced.
She gave herself five years, she failed, then she should let go.
Heartache, pain, sadness, but what about it? She failed, it is time to let him free, the world of three people… No, there have been only two people — she forced herself to intervene between them, but can not destroy them, only to become a hateful clown.
Today, this clown should leave.
She returned to the room — this room has always been her alone, he never came in, there are only her things in the room, and there is no trace of the owner of a man.
This house has always been only one main person.
Tao Xinya looked at the already packed baggage and looked at the divorce agreement that she had signed her name. Her cheeks were already covered with tears, but she was still smiling.
She takes the wedding ring on the ring finger, the diamond symbolizing eternity seems to be laughing at her – it’s hard to come by, after all it doesn’t belong to her.
She smiled softly and gently put the ring on the divorce agreement without nostalgia.
It was dawn, she carried her luggage and left the single-family villa that she was staying on their marriage before the servant had returned.
She set foot on the plane, not trying to escape. She just wanted to walk around, wandering or exiled. She just wanted to be alone, but she didn’t expect this to be her end point–
Looking at the screaming crowd in the plane cabin, Tao Xinya is still sitting in a comfortable leather seat, and her heart is strangely calm.
She even has the mood to think, what would be the expression when he saw the divorce agreement, would he be happy? For her, she is no longer entangled; and when he knows the news of her death, what is the expression? Will he feel a little sad?
It doesn’t matter whether he will or not.
When she signed her name on the divorce agreement, she decided not to love him anymore.
Tao Xinya slowly closed her eyes and felt the strong pressure when the plane crashed. In a split second, she felt difficulty breathing, her eardrums were very painful, and the warm blood filled her nose and mouth.
She’s still smiling, and even if she has tears in her eyes, she won’t allow herself to drop.
Really, she set him free…
One hundred and one days.
The clock pointer crossed twelve o’clock, Valentine’s Day passed. Unpacking the golden wrapping paper, eating the chocolate to be sent to him, one after another, the rich bitterness spread in her mouth. Strange, why is it so bitter?