Loretta and I entered the castle without hesitation. As I somewhat understood where he was, I led Loretta and walked through the castleâs hall, feeling his boundless mana in the surroundings.
Mm, this isâŚ
âHe has two true names, huh.â
When I murmured, Loretta tilted her head curiously.
âTwo? Thatâs impossible. Kain⌠Kain Zerahard only has one true name.â
âNo, he has two. He either hid one, or he must have obtained one afterwards.â
[Iâm surprised you found out.]
After his voice rang out in the communication channel, a wall in the hallway rose up like a curtain. Almost like a hidden room from the movies, beyond the wall was a small room.
Kain Zerahar greeted us, half lying on a giant sofa that seemed to serve as his bed.
âYouâreâŚâ
When he saw me, he opened his mouth, then closed it soon after. I took this time to examine him closer.
The first thing I noticed was his clothes. Translucent silk-like clothing covered his body, shining with all sorts of colors. The tiny bit of skin he showed on his neck showed how pale he was.
He had a long and slender neckline, and he was beautiful enough to be considered a woman. I thought Lin was pretty, but Kain Zerahard even surpassed Lin. Left alone for a long time, his hair was longer than an average girlâs and that seemed to add to his charm. I finally opened my mouth.
âHow handsome.â
âIndeed, youâre handsome.â
Almost as if he was copying me, Kain Zerahard commented on my appearance at the same time. Realizing that we talked over each other, we both closed our mouth. An awkward silence descended.
⌠I began to doubt whether Loretta judged people based on their appearance.
Soon, he eyed Loretta and spoke briefly.
âItâs been a while.â
âYes, itâs been a while.â
That was it. It must have been centuries from the last time they saw each other! Of course, I wasnât generous enough to happily watch Loretta talk to her first love, and since Hwaya must be fighting one of the kings even now, I moved the conversation forward.
âMy comrade⌠A precious person of mine is in a life-or-death situation where a single second is important. Please, your power can save her. We need Odinâs Gungnir.â
âSo you want me to use Gungnir?â
âYes. If you want something in return, I would be happy to anything as long as itâs within my ability.â
Even as I spoke, I knew in the corner of my mind that he wouldnât accept this request. He had lived in a secret room of his castle for centuries while hiding having a godâs true name. I felt like I knew what this meant.
Even so, I came to see him because I had a card in hand. In the process of coming to meet him, I became certain of its usefulness.
âI refuse. Thereâs nothing I want.â
As expected, he replied instantly.
âThereâs nothing you want?â
âThatâs right. Everything I want disappeared long ago, and thereâs no way to turn back time.â
âAs I thought.â I murmured inwardly. As I had heard about him from Loretta and others, I knew what he meant.
He was the last survivor of his world. In other words, he abandoned his dying world and escaped with the worldâs power. It had to have been hundreds of years ago.â
âYou should know what I mean. What do you think Iâm doing right now?â
âYouâre hiding.â
âRight, Iâm hiding.â
When was the last time he moved his body? He raised his long and thin fingers.
âI lost everything I had to protect and escaped cursing everything. As I have no right to live, Iâm simply waiting for death to come take my life. Unfortunately, my boundless mana wonât allow me to die easily, so Iâve been waiting for a long time. Perhaps, Iâll have to wait eternally.â
âI donât think Iâll be able to change your mind⌠but youâre wrong.â
Loretta spoke out. Her voice was filled with faint anger.
âDo you see me, Kain? Do you see what all administrative guilds are doing? If you help, we can save countless others who are in the same position as you. Even just a little bit would have been fine. The dungeon always cheered you on, and everyone supported you. But youâŚâ
âYou donât understand, Loretta.â
âWhat donât I understand!? I experienced the same things you have! Everything I wanted to protect! Everyone I wanted to protect! I lost everything that supported me! Parents, siblings, friends, comrades! My world and all lives living in it! Youâre telling me I still donât understand!?â
âI lost the woman I love, the one person I cared for more than the entire world.â
At his calm tone, Loretta retorted in a frighteningly quiet voice.
âYes, if there was one thing I didnât understand, it was the feeling of losing a lover. Is that why you taught it to me? How kind of you.â
ââŚâ
âI didnât want to make Heroes of other worlds face the same reality I did. Thatâs why I accepted Lordâs offer and helped create the dungeon. I create pathways to countless worlds being attacked by worldsâ enemies and helped explorers walk the right path. At first, you were one of them, Kain.â
All explorers were indebted to the dungeon. There was no doubt about it. By entering the dungeon, we obtained the power to resist our enemies, and we grew stronger by relying on the dungeonâs power.
But Kain holed up in Beyondâs Residential Are with the power he received. Simply put, he had washed his mouth clean after being treated. Even after hundreds of years, he was the strongest explorer. If he joined an administrative guild or worked as a Dimensional Mercenary during this time, he could have saved many worlds from ruin.
Still.
âHeâs not obligated to do anything, Loretta. No one can force someone to do something⌠Even if Loretta did in the past.â
âYes, I was the one who disappointed myself. Because I believed in him, I received more shock when I realized the truth.â
Through Kain, Loretta learned that excessive trust only led to her getting hurt.
⌠How she acted in an inexplicably exaggerated manner around me and how she told me to escape if things got hard surely had something to do with her trauma from this incident. Because she didnât want to be hurt, she had lowered her expectations.
To be honest, it was quite absurd. This weakness and softness shouldnât have been the charm she felt from me.
â⌠Loretta, thereâs something us guys have to talk about.â
I spoke out before she became more emotional. Not only Loretta, but Kain Zerahard also widened his eyes. It seemed he didnât expect me to do this.
âThereâs nothing else I need to hear. I just wanted to see what you were going to say. If you know my circumstance, you should know I only have one answer for you.â
âKain, help Shin-nim! You should be able to do this much! Itâs not like youâll suffer a loss⌠Ubub!?â
I blocked Lorettaâs mouth.
âLoretta, thank you for helping me get here. You did what you needed to. From now, Iâll be fine on my own. I can convince him.â
âS-Shin-nimâŚ!?â
Loretta made a funny expression like she couldnât understand what I was thinking. Although her flapping ears were adorable, as I wasnât in the best place to show her my affection, I simply nodded my head for now.
âLeave it to me.â
â⌠Y-Yes.â
In the end, Loretta nodded with a flushed face.
âT-Then Iâll see you later. Iâll go back for now! Kain, Sikatra says hi! Make sure you help Shin-nim!â
Loretta then turned around and left as she frantically fanned her reddened face. Seeing her leave quietly, Kain muttered.
âThanks.â
âItâs nothing you should be thankful about. I love her and she loves me. Thatâs all there is to it.â
â⌠Youâre right.â
After murmuring in agreement, he spoke up with a stiff voice.
âBut I still refuse.â
âReally?â
âThereâs nothing you can say thatâll convince me. Leave me be.â
âIs it the feeling of loss thatâs controlling you?â
âNo, it might have been for the first two hundred years, but itâs been a long time since I got over that.â
After hearing him, I took a quick breath. Then, I quickly added.
âThen itâs the feeling of helplessness.â
Kainâs eyes widened slightly. It wasnât a laughable situation, but I couldnât help but grin slightly.
âAre you ready to talk to me now?â
âYouâre a rookie who just entered Beyond⌠You know about it?â
âI donât mean to brag, but Iâm about to enter Beyondâs 31st floor. Iâm on the First Dungeonâs 81st floor too.â
Though I was the one who said it, I felt proud. I had come this far. So many things had happened on the way, and thankfully, I had grasped onto many things without letting them go.
It seemed I wasnât the only one who thought this way, as Kain spoke dumbfoundedly.
â⌠You already surpassed me in Beyond. In such a short time too⌠Are you really human?â
âIâve been doubting it recently, but I was indeed a human when I was born.â
âTalent⌠Is this what they call talent? How ridiculous. In my long life, this is the first time Iâve seen someone like you.â
I smiled at his murmuring.
âOf course, compared to the years youâve lived, mine must feel as light as a feather. But Kain, ah, I can call you Kain, right?â
âYou have the qualifications.â
âKain, my feather is a bit big. Perhaps, itâs so big that even you wonât be able to see it in its full.â
My Evil Eyes were shining on their own. Depending on their userâs mood, Evil Eyes sometimes activated on their own. That was one of the flaws of Evil Eyes, but it didnât matter as Kain was not so weak as to be affected by my Evil Eyes.
âLetâs talk, Kain, as quickly as possible if possible. I promise to give you something I can give, so lend me your power.â
âSomething you can give⌠you say.â
âHow I can be so certain even after realizing the same thing you have. Thatâs what I can give you.â
Sorry, but I canât guarantee anything. Iâm just doing my best.
Kain also saw through my little bluff, but surprisingly, he broke out in a smile.
âI can see why Loretta fell for you.â
He got up. His hair fluttered, and even after hundreds of years, his silk clothes covered his body softly and tightly. After standing on his feet perfectly, he took a light breath and infused life into his body.
Then, he stared at me.
âLetâs hear it then. No one can bother us here, so rest easy and show me your everything.â