As she lived a life where death was predestined, Kirona learned a truth. Even if a person disappeared, the world continued to revolve. There was no such thing as an indispensable person in the world. This world, was ruthless. But a living person had to continue to live.
Eventually, one would get used to it.
In the end, Jade was right.
It had been five years since Jade Eclipse disappeared. Kirona had already become accustomed to the world without him. When she first heard the news, she cried. Her uncontrollable sobs racked her whole body so terribly, that the moisture in her body almost left her.
But now, it was all right.
She was still sad and missed him...but that was all. After all, Jade Eclipse to Kirona, was not an âindispensable person.â
Well, she would die soon anyway. It was comical to think about someone being indispensable.
Jade Eclipse, you idiot. If you're going to die like that, at least say something before then go. I would have listened to anything. Do you know if you had confessed your love straight away, my heart would have been shaken. We could have slept together that night, if we were in the mood.
No, was that really love? Can I be sure that what I saw in Jadeâs eyes that day was love?
Kirona shook her head. Five years was a long time. Now, she could not remember what his eyes were like.
âYour Highness!â
Zelda, who sat across the desk from  her, shouted at Kirona, whose expression was blank as her thoughts wandered. Kirona looked up in surprise.
âYour Grace, are you listening?â
âHuh? I'm listening.â
âIâm reading the Your Highnessâ candidates for the birth father. Candidate number one, Count Adelon Bubahakasu. Newly emerging tycoon in the Midlands. In fact, heâs the power of the Midlands these days. Unmarried, twenty-six. He hasnât been able to marry due to trade business in the pastâŚâ
âWell...â
âYour Highness, you were really listening, right?â
âOf course. I was listening. Keep reading.â
Kirona laid down the teacup and leaned against the armchair. Zelda Black, a knight who had been successfully filling Jade Eclipseâs vacancy for the last five years, took his eyes off the list he was holding and glanced at Kirona.
Kirona shrugged.
âI really was listening. You were talking about Count Habakazu.â
âItâs count Bubahakasu.â
âDarn it. Yeah, Bubahakasu or Buhakasuba, him anyway. Thatâs a very difficult name. Heâs a foreigner? Did I ever sleep with a guy like that?â
âHeâs not a foreigner, his mother is a South Coast immigrant. I guess thatâs why the last name is exotic. Oh, looking at it again, itâs âBuabahahuk-Kahalesuâ*. Five years ago, Iâm certain he was your lover when you conceived Yuli. Thereâs a lot of evidence.â
âGive me a portrait. Letâs see. I might remember.â
Zelda pulled a sheet out of a mountain of piled paper. He was a muscular man with tanned skin and dark eyes. Kirona threw paper on the floor. He looked too hot.
âDrop him.â
âWhy! I personally like this candidate the most!â
âNo, I donât like him. Drop!â
Kirona boldly dipped a quill in ink and crossed out the name of Count Bua-Ba-Ka-Hasu. Zelda yelled and hugged the portrait.
âJust because you donât like his face doesn't mean he canât be a good father to her Highness Yuli. Please look at it broadly, Your Highness. I think heâs fine.â
âZelda, do I look like a shameless person who chooses her daughterâs future by her preference in men?â
âYes.â
âNo, seriously, listen. Of course, amongst the candidates, heâs the wealthiest. But his family is weak. Though itâs the golden age of fame, the old capital aristocrats are still in a rut. Money isnât the only thing that you need to protect Yuli. I need a name too. The name of a dignified family! But Bua-ba-ka-hasu? Not this one. Itâs too hard to pronounce, let alone talk of dignity.â
Zelda gave a look of doubt, but nodded, seemingly convinced. After a brief moment of silence, Kirona added.
â...Yes, to be honest, there are some that I didnât like because they look so greasy. Was he really my lover? Did I sprain my eyes five years ago? Or was his face deteriorating in the meantime.â
âHeâs so handsome. Itâs because youâve seen so many handsome men. According to the investigators, itâs clear as day that they were your lovers. The timing also aligns.â
Kirona muttered that it wasnât possible, but sheâd had so many lovers that she could not remember most of them.
Wasnât that thick pile of portraits only from the lovers who sheâd met at the time of her pregnancy? Among them, she must have narrowed down those who were good enough to be behind Yuli.
Zelda, who was flipping through the bundle of portraits of all the handsome men in the Empire, suddenly inquired out of curiosity.
âYour Highness, is there any man you think is really handsome?â
âOf course, I love handsome men.â
âNot just that, but to the point of admiration. You scoff unless theyâre extraordinarily good looking. Looking at these portraits, you donât seem to have a particular taste. They come in all sorts of types.â
âLook at Yuliâs face. Amongst the countless men, the man who made me give birth to Yuliâs face, must be the man that looks like Yuli!â
âSince Her Highness Yuli looks just like her mother, we are able to choose amongst these various candidates. Because we canât find the biological father by face, everyone is so anxious that they snoop around the Imperial Palace. In the midst, they hope that they can become the biological father.â
âYeah, I know she looks just like me. You know Iâm joking. Thanks to this, the Imperial Householdâs gold has become plentiful. Sheâs my daughter, but sheâs praiseworthy.â
Kirona grinned and thought of the daughter she had in her belly. Yuli was the child who inherited golden eyes, the symbol of the imperial family, and Kironaâs wavy nightshade hair.
She was five years old this year. The first child born in the royal family in a long time.
Every spot the child stepped on was filled with laughter. The knights could not hide the smile that bloomed around their mouths whenever their eyes met with the child. The servants could not take the eyes off the child for a moment, fearing she might fall. During meal times, the Emperor only started to eat after seating the child on his lap.
*âë¸ěë°íí-ěš´í뼴ě¤â This name got me dying.
//this series is on indefinite hold (aka dropped) until I finish translating other series. If any translator would like to pick it up and wants raws, let me know~