I was completely restless after returning from Saraâs house. I could only think about her. I was trying to read my favorite Yuri book in the bath as a distraction, however I was still on the same page. The hot water had already become completely cold.
This is a serious illness. The sickness of love. This Isnât the Kusatsu Onsen.
If I stay here Iâll likely get another illness.
The reason for my headache is 80% due to the Sara spoiling, and the remaining 20% is Yoko and Koharu saying we act like âLove birdsâ.
We arenât love birds! I want to be though! !
I wish I could say that without needing to endure the pain. I want to declare it, I want to flirt. Even if right now the skinship is at the stage it would objectively be seen as flirting, but Iâm trying to do it as lovers! I want to flirt with her! And if Iâm lucky, go up the stairs of adulthood ! !
âI donât hate it, rather I think I really like it. . .â
That is the problem though.
I have read many yuri books from my previous life. So therefore I donât have high hopes things can come just from skinship. The protagonist who is torned by a one-sided yuri taught me this.
As the ancient proverb goes.
Donât get tricked by a straight girlâs skinship.
A high school girl who is fine with skinship, treats their best friend like a lover, casually uses words like âloveâ or âdatingâ, even uses heart emoji in the middle of messaging.
Sara also sent me a stamp of throwing kisses, but by no means does she mean it. Itâs the straight girl trap!
Stuff like that works up my feelings, but itâs no use to expect it to go anywhere. Perhaps Sara as well.
How happy would I be if we were lovers? My face is getting mushy just imagining it, if it happened- â -Iâd have to train my facial muscles.
â. . .Confess, when would I be able to do that?â
My desire to confess is increasing, I want to tell you! Thatâs my feelings, but the reality before me wouldnât allow it.
I canât say itâs fully not that Iâm good for nothing and using it as an excuse, the main reason is to avoid the bad endings. It is shaking me to my core just thinking about it, but if I confess and it doesnât go the way I want, I canât stay by Sara like I used to.
If I couldnât stay by her side to protect her, she could end up going on the nightmare route without my knowledge. Iâd have so much regret if my confession led to her death. Compared to Saraâs life, my love is nothing.
Therefore the time for any confession must be determined beforehand. When should I? Under what circumstances even if â â -Sara breaks my heart, will she be safe?
âIf we follow the game logic, she would be stabbed in autumn. It will be a little after the school festival is over.â
So late October? Perhaps early November at the latest.
The setting has changed a lot from the game, so Iâm wondering if an event will occur at the autumn school festival.
Perhaps there is a possibility that weâd reach the new year without any changes.
So with that in mind, perhaps it isnât time but circumstances that matter.
âWhen will Sara become safe. . ? When Koharu is happy?â
If Koharu is happy, the knife wonât come out. Is it tied to Aoi? I donât know if something else could fill that, if there is anything else Iâd like to make it happen!
At that time I can finally confess. . . For better or worse.
In that case thatâs the challenge, I had to settle Koharuâs love before my own.
First of all, the problem is Aoiâs love for me. Itâs not that loving somebody is bad, but Iâm sorry itâs honestly annoying.
Despite me trying so hard not to get close to her, why did she have to fall in love with me??
Because she never confessed, nothing changed. So the stalemate continued for a long time, and itâs getting tiring. I want something to happen soon.
Besides, even if I shake off Aoi, I donât think she will fall for Koharu anytime soon. On the contrary, Iâm worried about leaving Koharu to Aoi, who treats her precious childhood friend so carelessly. Koharuâs face in my dream doesnât seem like a good finish. Although there is no place for me to be between those two. Iâd be at the level of not getting in the way, but also not supporting.
â. . .I wonder if itâs the true ending.â
There are three endings for the âKoharu â route in the game. Happy Ending, Bad ending, and true ending.
Now that the happy ending has disappeared, the only remaining one for Koharu to possibly be happy is the true ending. However the risk is too high. Because in this ending, Koharuâs heart is broken.
âHappy ending is mutual love, bad ending is remaining friends without confessing. Why is the true ending the broken heart ending?â
Normally the broken heart ending would be the bad ending.
Following the game scripts, Aoi was confessed to by Koharu, she was troubled and tried to accept her feelings for a while, but after much thinking she couldnât see her as more than a friend. It goes roughly like that.
Yeah sure enough, bad ending. . . Right? Because itâs only a broken heart for Koharu, itâs not a bad ending for Aoi? Ahh, this is complicated.
Well I guess Iâll take what I know. Koharuâs having a broken heart is a bad ending, no questions asked! Geeze, what is so bad about my cute junior.
I am learning from my experiences so far. That will probably be the case if the scriptâs true ending happens.
There must be some hope that it isnât like itâs pictured in the game. I want to believe. Otherwise, Koharu will not be happy on any route.
Although there are only two endings for Sara and I, having the extra ending for Koharu must not be pointless. A broken heart that she can process and understand may be her key to happiness. That is the good she can get from that ending.
I built up a large sigh after thinking about it for a while.
I tried to explore various possibilities, but in conclusion, it seems that my love is dependent on Koharu. However, in order for me to confess, I have to have Koharuâs heartbreak. It leaves a pretty bad impression if you look at it like that. However I also wish for Koharu to be happy.
Still, How the heck do I convince her to get her heart broken. . ?
âAhhhhh, geeze! A confession is a long way from now!!â
A path to that rosy future is still unclear.
However I did find the direction to it, I must have faith in it and proceed.
For the sake of Sara, Koharu and myself.
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AN: The truth of the true ending that was hinted at in the first episode was finally shown.!