I was completely restless after returning from Saraās house. I could only think about her. I was trying to read my favorite Yuri book in the bath as a distraction, however I was still on the same page. The hot water had already become completely cold.
This is a serious illness. The sickness of love. This Isnāt the Kusatsu Onsen.
If I stay here Iāll likely get another illness.
The reason for my headache is 80% due to the Sara spoiling, and the remaining 20% is Yoko and Koharu saying we act like āLove birdsā.
We arenāt love birds! I want to be though! !
I wish I could say that without needing to endure the pain. I want to declare it, I want to flirt. Even if right now the skinship is at the stage it would objectively be seen as flirting, but Iām trying to do it as lovers! I want to flirt with her! And if Iām lucky, go up the stairs of adulthood ! !
āI donāt hate it, rather I think I really like it. . .ā
That is the problem though.
I have read many yuri books from my previous life. So therefore I donāt have high hopes things can come just from skinship. The protagonist who is torned by a one-sided yuri taught me this.
As the ancient proverb goes.
Donāt get tricked by a straight girlās skinship.
A high school girl who is fine with skinship, treats their best friend like a lover, casually uses words like āloveā or ādatingā, even uses heart emoji in the middle of messaging.
Sara also sent me a stamp of throwing kisses, but by no means does she mean it. Itās the straight girl trap!
Stuff like that works up my feelings, but itās no use to expect it to go anywhere. Perhaps Sara as well.
How happy would I be if we were lovers? My face is getting mushy just imagining it, if it happened- ā -Iād have to train my facial muscles.
ā. . .Confess, when would I be able to do that?ā
My desire to confess is increasing, I want to tell you! Thatās my feelings, but the reality before me wouldnāt allow it.
I canāt say itās fully not that Iām good for nothing and using it as an excuse, the main reason is to avoid the bad endings. It is shaking me to my core just thinking about it, but if I confess and it doesnāt go the way I want, I canāt stay by Sara like I used to.
If I couldnāt stay by her side to protect her, she could end up going on the nightmare route without my knowledge. Iād have so much regret if my confession led to her death. Compared to Saraās life, my love is nothing.
Therefore the time for any confession must be determined beforehand. When should I? Under what circumstances even if ā ā -Sara breaks my heart, will she be safe?
āIf we follow the game logic, she would be stabbed in autumn. It will be a little after the school festival is over.ā
So late October? Perhaps early November at the latest.
The setting has changed a lot from the game, so Iām wondering if an event will occur at the autumn school festival.
Perhaps there is a possibility that weād reach the new year without any changes.
So with that in mind, perhaps it isnāt time but circumstances that matter.
āWhen will Sara become safe. . ? When Koharu is happy?ā
If Koharu is happy, the knife wonāt come out. Is it tied to Aoi? I donāt know if something else could fill that, if there is anything else Iād like to make it happen!
At that time I can finally confess. . . For better or worse.
In that case thatās the challenge, I had to settle Koharuās love before my own.
First of all, the problem is Aoiās love for me. Itās not that loving somebody is bad, but Iām sorry itās honestly annoying.
Despite me trying so hard not to get close to her, why did she have to fall in love with me??
Because she never confessed, nothing changed. So the stalemate continued for a long time, and itās getting tiring. I want something to happen soon.
Besides, even if I shake off Aoi, I donāt think she will fall for Koharu anytime soon. On the contrary, Iām worried about leaving Koharu to Aoi, who treats her precious childhood friend so carelessly. Koharuās face in my dream doesnāt seem like a good finish. Although there is no place for me to be between those two. Iād be at the level of not getting in the way, but also not supporting.
ā. . .I wonder if itās the true ending.ā
There are three endings for the āKoharu ā route in the game. Happy Ending, Bad ending, and true ending.
Now that the happy ending has disappeared, the only remaining one for Koharu to possibly be happy is the true ending. However the risk is too high. Because in this ending, Koharuās heart is broken.
āHappy ending is mutual love, bad ending is remaining friends without confessing. Why is the true ending the broken heart ending?ā
Normally the broken heart ending would be the bad ending.
Following the game scripts, Aoi was confessed to by Koharu, she was troubled and tried to accept her feelings for a while, but after much thinking she couldnāt see her as more than a friend. It goes roughly like that.
Yeah sure enough, bad ending. . . Right? Because itās only a broken heart for Koharu, itās not a bad ending for Aoi? Ahh, this is complicated.
Well I guess Iāll take what I know. Koharuās having a broken heart is a bad ending, no questions asked! Geeze, what is so bad about my cute junior.
I am learning from my experiences so far. That will probably be the case if the scriptās true ending happens.
There must be some hope that it isnāt like itās pictured in the game. I want to believe. Otherwise, Koharu will not be happy on any route.
Although there are only two endings for Sara and I, having the extra ending for Koharu must not be pointless. A broken heart that she can process and understand may be her key to happiness. That is the good she can get from that ending.
I built up a large sigh after thinking about it for a while.
I tried to explore various possibilities, but in conclusion, it seems that my love is dependent on Koharu. However, in order for me to confess, I have to have Koharuās heartbreak. It leaves a pretty bad impression if you look at it like that. However I also wish for Koharu to be happy.
Still, How the heck do I convince her to get her heart broken. . ?
āAhhhhh, geeze! A confession is a long way from now!!ā
A path to that rosy future is still unclear.
However I did find the direction to it, I must have faith in it and proceed.
For the sake of Sara, Koharu and myself.
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AN: The truth of the true ending that was hinted at in the first episode was finally shown.!