From the Yuri works I enjoyed, I always thought that an impossible love was a constant painful thing. The friendship with your crush and the trust given could become a burden. You could just smile, but youâd want to cry.
However now that Iâm in this position, itâs painful but surprisingly I donât feel that sad. Of course itâd depend on the occasion, whether itâs friendship or something else, itâs just nice to be liked and trusted. I want to keep the smile that Iâve grown fond of.
She gives a high pure amount of trust and friendship as she is relaxing on my lap like a cat. I donât want to hold any of those inexcusable feelings now.
âSummer vacation starts tomorrow.â
I muttered as I stroked her hair like a cat on my lap, she then gave a
Sad âThatâs right.â
âHuh? I thought you you were looking forward to summer vacationâ
âI was, but During summer vacation I canât meet Shiori-san everyday, and I can only meet my school friends on days we have plans on. I just realized how lonely it is that I canât meet anyone except on those days. . .â
âAh-, well living alone can feel like that.â
In the case of Sara, her family is overseas due to work, so unlike people ordinarily living alone, she doesnât have a home to go home to. And it doesnât seem like she is going to go overseas to see them.
âShiori-san, come stay again~!â
âEh, I donât want to be a hug pillow again. Itâs hot, and freaky.â
Please forgive me for not wanting to share a bed after realizing I like you.
That level of contact is different from a lap pillow.
Even if she gives me puppy eyes on my lap, no matter how many times she asks, itâs still no good. Itâs best for the both of us. Itâd be a different story if there were two futons.
âAh, Well, how about you visit my home?â
âEh? Shiori-sanâs house?â
âYeah, we have extra futons for our guests, and my mother already asked for you to visit us.â
If we do this, Sara wouldnât be so lonely. I think it was a good idea.
The plan was originally for her to simply come over and play, but it isnât a lot to ask for her to spend the night as well.
âEehh, but wouldnât I be a nuisance to Shiori-sanâs family. . â
âI think it will be okay, but letâs ask my mother just in case.â
Today my mother said sheâd be home, so I should be able to get in touch with her soon. I took out my smartphone as Sara excitedly got up from my lap.
My mother answered with a voice that sounded like she was in a good mood.
âUm, Mom, I know we talked about Sara coming over to spend time, but would it be okay for her to stay over that night?â
(Ara, thatâs fine. When does she want to come?)
âWhatever matches your work schedule. . .â
So is it okay? I looked at Sara with my eyes seeing if that was right, she nodded her head with a tense face.
After confirming it, I said âShe said whenever is okay.â then my Mother reapplied with an additional question (How many nights?)
I understood it would be okay for her to stay the night, but was it okay for her to stay consecutive nights just because itâs summer vacation?
âSara, how many nights?â
âEh!? How many. . . But Iâd be in your care for too many days.â
(Ah, are you with Sara-chan? In that case Iâll talk to her directly, hand her the phone)
I gave my smartphone to Sara, she was close by listening so it took no time. She gave an, âEhh!?â as I handed it to her. Her shoulders stiffen as she gave a solid âPleasure to meet youâ it was a pretty comedic sight.
My parents are easygoing, so I think you could relax.
I watched the pleasant scene as the two talked, it seems like they are able to talk easier as time went on. My mother hung up, and my smartphone was handed back to me.
âSo how did it go?â
âUm, Tomorrow Iâll go over to play and spend two nights and three days there. . .â
âTomorrow? W-Wait already?â
I have to immediately do major cleaning when I get home. I havenât even hid my yuri books from my bookshelf yet, I have to vacuum and clean the areas where Iâd usually ignore.
âI-I havenât stayed over at a friendâs house since I was in kindergarten! I havenât played since then either! W-What do I do!?!â
âCalm down. Youâll be fine.â
âSouvenirs. . ! Would it be best to wear tidy, neat clothes!?â
âSara, honestly calm down. Thatâs the stuff you do when you are seeing your boyfriendâs family, not your friendâs.â
If possible I would have loved it if I was in that position! Though Iâm not going to say that. Her giving me that thought was a surprise attack, I took a little damage.
You have to calm down, Iâm an inexperienced person, Iâm scared Iâd say something bad. Iâm also scared of this natural airhead.
Um, but I would like to see Sara in neat tidy clothes. Sheâd look absolutely adorable.
âYour clothes are fine. You donât need to buy a present, if it really weighs on your mind we could pick something up on the way.â
âY-Yeah, thank you. Iâm sorry for pushing this on you.â
âYou say that, but my mom is pretty coercive so I donât think it was just you. However itâs rare for me to invite a friend, so she did look strangely energetic.â
The day I went to visit sick Sara. When I got home and told my mother she agreed, she was awfully cheerful.
She asked what kind of food Sara liked, asked if Sara would be annoyed if my Mother talked too much when she came. This and various other things. I told her just to be normal, but perhaps she was looking forward to it more than I imagined.
If you think about it, this is the first time Iâve invited a friend over since elementary school.
âI see, Iâm glad thatâs the case. Shiorâs mother sounds like a fun person. Iâm looking forward to meeting her.â
âWell, she isnât a bad person.â
The girl I like meeting my mother is making my heart feel itchy, but if she is coming to stay I hope she can enjoy her time.
For now Iâll have to do my best to clean up tonight. In my heart I swore to hide my Yuri books deep deep in my closet, so she can never find it.