On the other hand, Iâm bothered, really bothered.
Kami-sama, the one who is right before me, is also the culprit of all my worries.
One whole day has already passed, but he is still in his human form, and unfortunately, we still donât know why. He still hasnât regained his memories, either.
Not only that, Eric went missing after he came out of this room yesterday.
Of course itâs impossible for me not to be bothered by this.
And yet â Kami-sama had zero self-awareness.
âYouâve been spacing out ever since you stepped into this room today. Is there anything bothering you?â
We were sitting across from each other with the table between us.
Kami-sama was bending over enthusiastically toward me.
At this rate, the tip of our noses would touch if he moved his face just a little bit closer.
I stiffened because weâre way too close for comfort.
The distance, coupled with that face thatâs gorgeous enough to make me breathless, had already chased away all the thoughts I had in mind.
âEleanor-san?â
The image of Kami-samaâs soft smile, so sweet itâs like dripping with honey, was swirling in my mind instead.
The crazy pounding of my heart woke me up from my reverie, and I unwittingly averted my gaze.
âOh dear, what on earth happened to you? You wonât look at my face, wonât look me in the eye either, and you immediately avoid my gaze whenever you happen to glance over.â
Kami-samaâs smile dimmed while staring at me.
His voice sounded dejected â at least that mannerism of his was still the same as how it was when he was in his previous form.
If he still was in that black round figure, he would probably be jiggling and wiggling sadly by now. The current him only had drooping shoulders as he shook his head.
And yet, that gesture was strangely so him .
I couldnât face him because I was so sure Iâd be captivated once I looked at him.
âJust what sort of expression should I have, then?â
He had been the jelly, squiggly Kami-sama just a few hours ago.
Black and stretchy, jiggly when poked â yes, thatâs just how Kami-sama was .
âYou wonât even touch me now. If itâs the usual, Eleanor-san would already touch me to purify the filth.â
Kami-sama stretched his hand â oh shocks, my goodness, just how magnificent is this guy!?
His fingers are slender and a bit long. I could see how shy he was as he hold his hand out, but there was no hesitation whatsoever.
Without any hesitation, he slowly tried to touch my hand that was on the table â
âW-We can purify the filth tomorrow! Tomorrow!â
I hurriedly retracted my hand just when we were about to touch.
I gripped it with my other hand as if to protect it while my eyes darted around, desperate to cover up my awkwardness.
My heartbeat had spiked up as if horses were galloping inside my chest. I couldnât look at Kami-sama.
âI-Iâve been okay with him before, so whyâŚ?â
I had no qualms whatsoever touching Kami-sama and being touched by him before, not to mention looking at him.
I poked him all I wanted whenever I purified his filth; I even pinched him and squeezed him a lot.
And yet now I couldnât meet his eyes at all, let alone look at him head-on.
âI-Isnât it like Iâm being too conscious of him just because he changed his appearance!?â
Thatâs not my intention at all.
Yes, thatâs not what I wanted â so I thought, but I was aware how clearly my actions and attitude had changed.
âI-Itâs not like Iâm judging him because of his appearance! Oh, but itâs true that itâs much better when heâs a beauty!!â
Yeah, itâs much better!
He had nothing to lose with having such a nice face like that. My mind tells me so, butâŚ!
âButâŚâ
I was fine even if he didnât change.
His outward appearance didnât matter at all.
That smooth black round lump, if itâs Kami-samaâŚ
Thatâs what I believed, and yetâŚ
âEleanor-san.â
âHyeeaaohhh!?â
Another weird sound came out of me when Kami-sama peered into my face.
His glittering eyes reflected my face, and they were sucking me into their depths.
I was about to drool over that gorgeous face so I tried to avert my gaze again, but Kami-sama continued staring at me. He looked hurt.
âSorry, I tried to touch you without your consent⌠Did you hate it?â
âN-NoâŚ!â
If heâs asking me if I hated it, then thereâs no way thatâs true.
He didnât need to apologize. No matter what I think about it this situation, I was the one at fault for being too conscious of him.
âE-Er, I-I was mulling about something. Yes, I was thinking about Eric! I was surprised so I retracted my hand!!â
The words that came tumbling out of my mouth was actually the matter that had been bothering me not so long ago.
It wasnât a lie, so I continued talking more confidently.
Besides, Kami-sama also knew about Eric. If the incident occurred the day before yesterday, then it was something I had to relay to Kami-sama too.
With that thought in mind, I finally turned my gaze towards Kami-sama â
âHeâs been missing since he came to this room the day before yesterday. They said he was attacked by Filth. It bothered me, so I couldnât help but mull over it.â
âEric-sanâŚâ
Kami-samaâs expression made me gasp.
âBy Filth, huh⌠I see.â
His voice was deathly quiet.
Even his expression was the same. Too quiet, if you get what I mean â it was blank, devoid of any emotion.
He stared at the door that Eric passed through when he left â