CH 2

Episode 2 – Melancholy

I, Otonashi Naru, on the last day of middle school, I broke up with my girlfriend, Wada Aika, who shared the joy and sorrows for the last three years.

It looks like she has found another person, and her feelings won’t return anymore.

I was planning to always be with her even if I went to high school.

Aika felt the same as well, until she had a change of heart.

By the way, Aika and I went to the same high school.

More importantly, for some reason, we’re in the same class.

It would’ve been delightful if our relationship continued as it was.

But the truth is, it didn’t actually happen.

I wonder what kind of punishment game that i got when i saw the class announcement.

I resent God.

I even considered transferring schools.

But the problem is not that simple.

Honestly, every day was depressing.

I can’t easily forget it, even if I wanted to.

My best friend Yukki A.K.A Yukimura Nobuyuki, encouraged me by saying that i have to fall in love, even if it’s new love, soon i’ll be able to forget about her, but i can’t do it right now.

I don’t want to be in pain anymore.

I don’t like that feeling in my chest.

No matter what I do, I can’t calm down.

I have no appetite.

I got upset over trivial  things.

I couldn’t sleep at night.

I felt more and more melancholy.

I don’t know what to do with these vague feelings….i hate it all.

To be honest, I wanted to disappear.

I wonder how long will I have to deal with these vague feelings.

I really feel like I’m going crazy.

Up until now, I’ve been influenced by the positivity in love, but now it’s the exact opposite.

I’ve been receiving a lot of bad influence in my love life.

Broken heart.

I’ve comforted my friends who’ve gone through a broken heart before, but I had no idea how painful it was for them.

I had no idea that they were going through such a hard time, and I gave them light words. I felt a sense of guilty.

Where’s the idiot who said [TIme will heal you]….the vague words that doesn’t relieve you from your current suffering.

I’ve learned from my own experience that it was irresponsible words with no awareness coming from the parties involved.

So depressing…i want to disappear.