I couldn’t stop crying. My chest felt like it was going to burst.
Until a moment ago, I was able to laugh, but now……
Ever since I started dating her, I have always been happy.
Every day was filled with an indescribable sense of completeness.
There were times when I was full of jealousy, envy, and unpleasant feelings, but I was able to laugh it off as one of the spices of love.
However, this was different……
“I can’t go out with you anymore, Naru…this is goodbye.”
“It’s not like I hate you or something, okay?”
“…..Eh, what……what are you talking about?”
I thought that it was some kind of a bad joke.
“I found someone else that I like.”
“…..Eh….i-if it’s some kind of a joke, it’s not a joke that can be laughed at, you know.”
“No, it’s not a joke…..I’m not kidding.”
I didn’t want to believe it.
“It’s a lie, lie , lie !”
I don’t want to believe it.
“No, Naru, I’m not lying.”
“Because we’ve always been together….and….from now on also.”
“No, Naru….from now on, we’ll be walking separately.”
Separately….i never thought about it. I always thought that we would be together forever.
“…Can’t you reconsider it?”
“…My feelings won’t go back, you know? Does Naru want to go out with me like that?”
I couldn’t say anything more.
Now that I know she doesn’t have any feelings for me, I have no choice but to accept it.
“Goodbye Naru, thank you for everything.”
She said goodbye to me, with a smile full of tears on her face.
I couldn’t say anything and just stood there.
I don’t really feel like saying [Thank you].
I can’t even make a smile.
However, she said [Thank you] with a smile.
I guess that’s the distance between my heart and hers.
I thought that love was a wonderful thing.
Just thinking about her made me feel happy.
But that was only one aspect of love.
My mind and my heart are a mess.
Tears kept flowing and I couldn’t do anything, so many passers-by might have seen me, but I kept crying out loud.
If im….if im going to……if i’m going to go through so much pain,
Then I don’t need love anymore.
That’s what I really thought.