Chapter 1517 Extra Chapter: Isis Episode ~ ~ Past ? ~ ~
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After being picked up by Kuromueina and becoming a member of her familyā¦ā¦ Isisā happy days continued.
She met and spent her days with family members who, like Kuromueina, werenāt afraid to talk to her, and her days were filled with the warmth she had always wanted.
Recently, a mysterious girl named Shalltear, a person who came from another world, joined the family, and the environment surrounding her became more and more lively.
The days she spent with her family were boisterous, but full of happiness. Howeverā¦ā¦ For some reason, there were times when she suddenly felt loneliness she couldnāt quite express.
Whenever she felt this, she would fall asleepā¦ā¦ and dream about her other self.
āā¦ā¦We sure meet a lot lately.ā
[ā¦ā¦What you had saidā¦ā¦ everything is wrongā¦ā¦ Iāmā¦ā¦ reallyā¦ā¦ happy.]
It was as if she were saying that to herself. In response to those words though, the other Isis replied calmly without hesitation.
āIs that soā¦ā¦ Then, āwhy did you come here again?ā
[ā¦ā¦Eh? ā¦ā¦That isā¦ā¦ becauseā¦ā¦ you called me here.]
After her abrupt sleepiness would always come to this dreamā¦ā¦ this conversation with her other self. Isis thought it was because her other self was calling her.
However, the other Isis, clad in a black robe, quietly shook her head.
āYouāre mistaken. I havenāt called you here. You came here by your own will.ā
[ā¦ā¦What do you mean?]
āā¦ā¦What weāre currently in is the deepest place in our heart.ā
[ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦ā¦]
Calmly pointing to the skies, the other Isis spoke in a voice that even sounded gentle. As if guided by his movements, Isis looked up at the sky and only saw dark, thick clouds.
āYou said you are happy. We are indeed happyā¦ā¦ but deep down, our heart is still covered by thick clouds. Not a single ray of warmth had reached us.ā
[ā¦ā¦What areā¦ā¦ you saying? ā¦ā¦I donāt understandā¦ā¦ I have no ideaā¦ā¦ what youāre trying to say.]
āIt was just as I told you before. You will realize the things that weād be better off not realizing. Noā¦ā¦ This is something youāve realized all along. Thatās why you feel lonely even when youāre with Kuromueina and the others.ā
[ā¦ā¦I donāt know! ā¦ā¦What are you trying to say!?]
The words of the other Isis, the dark, enclosed skiesā¦ā¦ It brings about an irresistible sense of frustration to her mind, making Isis scream. In response to such an Isis though, the other Isisā¦ā¦ spoke to her in a calm, gentle voice.
āā¦ā¦Please donāt get me wrong. Iām not trying to hurt you. The two of us arenāt separate entities. You and I are both Isis Remnant. Your happiness is my happiness, and what makes you sad also makes me sad.ā
[ā¦ā¦Thenā¦ā¦ why do youā¦ā¦ keep onā¦ā¦ denying my happiness?]
āI donāt think either of us is the leading self or anything like that. Both of us are Isis Remnant. Everyone has feelings deep inside them that they donāt want to show to othersā¦ā¦ feelings that you keep on turning your eyes away from. The reason why you keep on meeting meā¦ā¦ The reason why you keep on coming here is because you keep on turning away from your true feelings.ā
[ā¦ā¦Myā¦ā¦ true feelings? ā¦ā¦Tell me thenā¦ā¦ Why is itā¦ā¦ that even though Iām happyā¦ā¦ that I keep on feeling lonely? ā¦ā¦What is itā¦ā¦ that I kept onā¦ā¦ looking away from?]
āā¦ā¦If you can keep your eyes averted, you will definitely be happy. But if I had realized this, you will realize it someday. No, it seems like youāre already on the verge of realizing itā¦ā¦ In that case, maybe I should just tell it to you here?]
Saying this, the other Isis looks up at the dark cloud-covered sky. Her hair as white as Isisā hair spilled out from between the gaps in her robe, swaying along the occasional breeze.
āā¦ā¦This is happiness, isnāt it? We have a family, we all laugh togetherā¦ā¦ Thanks to what Kuromueina has taught us, weāve been able to suppress the magic power of death, even if only to a certain extent.ā
[ā¦ā¦Unnnā¦ā¦ With Kuromueinaā¦ā¦ With everyoneā¦ā¦ Surrounded by familyā¦ā¦ I amā¦ā¦]
āHowever, āZwei was afraid of us at firstā.ā
[!? ]
With those words, the black snow that continued to fall around them seemed to gain momentum. Feeling as if her heart was rapidly cooling down, Isisā eyes opened wide and she looked at her other self.
Indeed, it was just as the other Isis said, the Zwei created by Kuromueina had been terribly afraid of Isis when she was just created. Let alone talk to her, she didnāt even try to approach her.
However, that was in the past. Now, Zwei talks to Isis just as she does to the others and adores her as a family member.
[ā¦ā¦That isā¦ā¦ Butā¦ā¦ now!]
āUnnn. Itās alright nowā¦ā¦ ābecause she had learned how to clad herself in magic power enough to resist our magic power of deathā.ā
[ā¦ā¦Eh? ā¦ā¦Ahh.]
āā¦ā¦In the end, thatās all there is to it.ā
Astonished, Isis stiffened. Itās as if the place where she now stands is crumbling beneath her feet, feeling helpless. Yes, she had realized it, what exactly her other self said that she was better off not noticingā¦ā¦
āKuromueina held out her hand to us. However, thatās only because Kuromueina is āstronger than usā. Lillywood and the others call us their family. However, thatās only because āLillywood and the others are capable of resisting our magic power of deathā.ā
[ā¦ā¦Ahā¦ā¦ Ahhhhhā¦ā¦]
āWithout the power to resist our magic power of death, Kuromueina wouldnāt have reached out to us. Lillywood and the others wouldnāt have called us their family. Yes, not one of themā¦ā¦ āwould have ever accepted usā.ā
āIn the future, Kuromueina and the others will be accepted by those without power. However, they wonāt accept usā¦ā¦ There is no one who will unconditionally accept us. Thus, there will never come a time when their warmth would reach the depths of our heart.ā
[Stop!]
Isisā voice sounded like she was about to cry. The words of the other Isis violently shook the true wish that had remained dormant in the depths of her heart.
What Isis really seeks is unconditional warmthā¦ā¦ just like the one given from a parent to a child, happiness that seemed to envelop her body.
However, such a thought kept on following Isis, she kept on thinking about the future. No matter how well she meets someone she gets along with, the thought that āif they donāt have the power to resist her magic power of death, they wouldnāt have accepted herā wonāt go away from her mind.
āā¦ā¦Why donāt we just compromise? Thereās no one who will unconditionally accept us. So, why donāt we be content with what we have? If you can keep looking away, youād better off just keeping your gaze away. Otherwise, we will continue to suffer for a long time to come.ā
The other Isis told her in a gentle voice. As the other Isis herself said, itās not that she wanted to make Isis unhappy.
Thatās why she proposed this. Keep on turning her gaze away from her true wish and give upā¦ā¦
[ā¦ā¦It might just beā¦ā¦ that we havenātā¦ā¦ met yet.]
āā¦ā¦Youāll never meet such a person. Ever.ā
[ā¦ā¦ Thatās not trueā¦ā¦ Iām sure ā¦ā¦ Iām sureā¦ā¦ They must be out there.]
āā¦ā¦ I understood it. I am also you after all. Thatās why, I knew you wouldnāt give up. However, I donāt think weāll ever find someone like that.ā
No further words were exchanged between the girls. Only the black snow that continued to fall increased in amount, freezing the depths of their heart.
The other Isis was right. But even if thatās so, Isis could not give up. She couldnāt give up on itā¦ā¦ on what she wanted the mostā¦ā¦ beings who would unconditionally accept her everything, beings who would take her hand even if they held no power to resist the magic power of death.
āā¦ā¦Iām sorry. If I could disappear, you would be saved, but please forgive this me who was unable to do anything.ā
Isis is already awake. The murmur of the other Isisā¦ā¦ āThe murmur of the Great Evil God, the origin of her magic power of deathā never reached her ears.