We were walking home from the station. Sayu, who had been silent almost the whole way, suddenly spoke.
âYoshida-san, is there anything you really want to do right now?
That sudden question made me tilt my head in confusion.
âWhat are you talking about?â
âCome on, think of something.â
Something I really want to do⊠The question was too vague. I already told her that I have no interests or hobbies, and thereâs nothing specific that I want to buy. I like my current job as it is, so I donât have much desire to move up any further.
No matter how much I thought about it, nothing came to my mind.
âNothing in particular.â
When I answered, Sayu chuckled and said, âI seeâŠâ
âAh.â
I said as if remembering something.
âIâd like to sleep for a week.â
Sayu laughed. It reminded me of how much I like the way she laughs.
âDid you really come up with something that stupid?â
âWell, excuse me for having such stupid desires.â
When she finished laughing, Sayu pointed ahead.
âOver there.â
âHuh?â
Sayu ran and stopped by a telephone pole, then turned to me. Wondering what this was about, I looked closely at the telephone pole and realized.
âThis is where I met you, Yoshida-san.â
ââŠYeah, thatâs right.â
Thatâs right. This is the place where I first met Sayu and picked her up. I closed my eyes and recalled that event. Although it happened only a few months ago, my memories were quite hazy. But come to think of it, I was really drunk at the time. All I remembered was her smile and black panties.
âSo much time has passed already.â
When I said that, Sayu smiled and nodded several times.
After standing silently under the telephone pole, she spoke.
âI gave everyone else a different name, except you, Yoshida-san.â
Not understanding her train of thought, I tilted my head in confusion. Sayu smiled gently and continued.
âEach time I moved to a new place to stay⊠I gave them a fake name.â
Ah, I see. I remembered that altercation with âKyouya Yaguchi.â He called her âMiyuki.â So thatâs the name she used with him.
âBut for some reason, when you asked for my name⊠it really surprised me, and my real name slipped out. I wonder whyâŠâ
Sayu closed her eyes as if reminiscing about that moment. I just looked at her and remained quiet.
âAfter giving you my real name, I thought I might not be able to run away anymore⊠At first, I was really negative about it.â
She paused and looked at me. Illuminated by the light from the street light directly above her, Sayu looked somewhat amazing.
âThanks to you, Yoshida-san, I wonât need to run away anymore.â
What Sayu said sounded strangely powerful, even though she didnât mean for it to be that way. I canât put it exactly into words, but I felt a lot of determination in what she said and it sounded uplifting.
Sheâs definitely trying to move forward. I could feel it, and it made me happy. But at the same time, it made my heart ache a little. Perhaps she meant that she had made up her mind and was ready to leave. While I was thinking about it, Sayu suddenly looked at me sideways.
âYoshida-san, if I werenât a JK, and you saw me out here, would you still have picked me up?â
âHuh?â
That question caught me off guard.
If Sayu wasnât a high school girl. I tried to imagine it, but it didnât work out. While I was thinking, she continued to speak.
âYou probably would have. If I were an OL1, would we have had sex?â
She smiled and laughed.
âProbably not.â
She said that before I could say anything.
Even if Iâm desperate, I wouldnât have sex with a woman I donât love. I even refused an invitation from Kanda-senpai. So, Iâm sure of it.
âAnd in the same wayâŠâ
Sayu said in a hushed tone.
âEven if you werenât a bearded salarymanâŠâ
She suddenly stopped talking and just stood there with her mouth open.
âUm⊠whatâs the matter?â
I tilted my head in confusion. Sayu waved her hand and smiled embarrassedly.
âNo, itâs nothing.â
Then she grabbed me by the shirt and slightly pulled.
âLetâs go home.â
âYeah.â
That was an unexpected detour. But it wasnât that far from this pole to the house after all.
Walking away, I looked at it again.
I thought to myself, âSo, this was the place where I met Sayu.â Itâs such an important place, and yet, I just walk past it every day.
When I glanced at Sayu, I saw that she appeared to be deep in thought while walking, but with a slight smile on her face. Something about it didnât feel right.
âHey, youâre acting a little strange today.â
I said to Sayu as she was putting the food she bought into the fridge. She looked at me in surprise but then shook her head.
âThatâs not true. Iâm acting as usual.â
âOh, yeah?â
Something mustâve happened. But I couldnât put my finger on it, so I didnât pry any further.
âPutting that asideâŠâ
Sayu looked at me mockingly.
âWas your dinner with Kanda-senpai fun?â
âH-How did you know it was Kanda-senpaiâŠ?â
Hearing my response, she pressed her lips together.
âAs I thought⊠It really was Kanda-senpai.â
âWhaâ You tricked me?â
âIt wouldnât be fun if I just asked you. You really like her, huh?â
âItâs not like that.â
I frowned at Sayuâs obvious teasing. She chuckled and closed the fridge.
âWhat should I eat?â
âHuh? Oh, right⊠So, you went grocery shopping and then went straight to Mishimaâs house.â
She could have at least served her dinner.
As if reading my mind, Sayu spoke.
âWell, Yuzuha-san did give me hot milk to drink, but that only allowed me to hold back the hunger a bit. If I donât eat anything, Iâm going to starve. Do you mind if I prepare something?â
âYou think Iâd say no? You should eat properly.â
I replied. Sayu smiled and went to the bathroom to wash her hands.
She barely moved before, but now she was unusually active. It was unlikely that she could recover that quickly, so her legs are probably still sore. Although this was barely noticeable from the way she acted. That could only mean that she had some kind of emotional shock.
The more I thought about it, the more irritated I felt.
It wouldâve been fine if the changes were good. But I didnât like the fact that something had changed in her, and I couldnât even tell what. However, the most annoying out of all this was the realization that I am too concerned about it. I donât know why Iâm feeling this way.
Sayu came out of the washroom and asked me.
âIf I make miso soup, will you have some? Are you full?â
âAh, no⊠I think Iâll have some. Iâve eaten too much fatty food.â
âMmm, got it.â
She nodded and began to fill the pot with water.
I couldnât help but feel a sense of discomfort as I watched Sayu preparing to skillfully make miso soup.
Unable to figure out what had changed within Sayu, I felt somewhat bored. So, I went out to the balcony and had a smoke.
1 An office lady, often abbreviated OL (ăȘăŒăšă«), is a female office worker in Japan who performs generally pink-collar tasks such as secretarial or clerical work.