9/18 Lady Marechan asked me to keep a diary to practice writing. Every evening, Iām supposed to write down what happened during the day. I earnestly wrote and then practiced with the rapier today. When I tripped over my feet during rapier practice, Gunter-san got angry at me and said that a nobleās sword isnāt that messy. Though, he also taught me never to rely on a sword alone. Iām not even a nobleā¦
9/22 I had too much homework yesterday and didnāt have time to write in this diary. I have a lot of homework today too. I was told that I would start table manners today, so I was lectured while eating. Why do they want me to learn table manners? I didnāt feel like eating at all.
9/25 I can forget about rapier practice, homework and writing practice, right? Why canāt I do it for longer instead of only doing it in the afternoon? Why do I have to learn how to dance?
9/25 I have more rapier training even though my homework hasnāt decreased. Dance has also increased. Dammit.
10/4 Lady Marechan told me to use I[1]Ā in this diary as well. She blabbered a lot about the way I talk and walk, so it took me around 30 minutes to walk from one end of the corridor to the other. My food was cold. The food I was waiting for was ruined. But my teacher praised me for getting better at using my rapier. I have a lot of homework so itās terrible, but rapier practice has gotten a little more fun.
10/9 I have a lot of homework today too. I studied more about laws on how to determine tax. Am I supposed to understand what she does? Why do I have to?
10/10 Eliza came home before I realised. They say sheās hurt. She doesnāt come out of her room. I have a lot of homework, so I havenāt come out of my room today, except for when I went to rapier practice. I did a lot of math today. My head hurts.
10/14 Iāve been doing a lot of math lately. She still hasnāt come out of her room. Are her injuries that bad?
10/15 Iām back to studying law. That also made my head hurt.
12/16 Lady Marechan took me to secretly attend the funeral of Igor-san and the others. She secretly told me that this was Elizaās order.
13/13 I knew it. Sheās completely forgotten about me. Speaking of forgetting, Iāve[2]Ā completely forgotten to write I[3]Ā in this diary. Iāll be helping her with her work from tomorrow. I feel like Iāll be doing three apprenticeships at the same time, but is she serious?
13/14 Work, work, work. Then study. Itās tough.
13/18 I went to see Elize-sama for the first time in a while. She seemed extremely worried since we hadnāt seen each other in a long time. We ate the snacks that Eliza made me bring. I wasnāt sure if it was alright for me to eat them with Elize-sama, but she giggled and told me it was ok. She listened seriously when I told her about my studies and stuff, and praised me for studying hard. She said that I was learning more than her. We played with the beautiful dolls that Eliza made me bring. I was told that the doll was a gift from Elize-samaās uncle. I wasnāt sure if it was alright for me to touch the doll, but Elize-sama giggled and told me it was alrightā¦ (omission) ā¦ Itās already winter, but there were flowers that I had never seen before in Elize-samaās room and they smelled really good. She told me Rashiok brought them. Thereās no way.
13/21 Work is hard. But Eliza and Lady Marechan cleared out three times as much paperwork as I did. Anyway, itās hard. I was told that I wonāt have to work in the mornings and will begin spear practice tomorrow. Seriously? Will there be less work?
13/22 Spear practice. I ran 20 laps around the mansion. Whatās a spear?
13/22 I ran another 20 laps today. Thatās something an adult
13/24 I fell asleep while writing in the diary yesterday. Iāll write a proper entry today. It seems that Eliza told Claudia-san, my spear teacher, to cut back on the laps, so I ran 15 laps today. I ran until the end, but I reached my limits from running. All I did was run and was told not to touch the- (it seems like the ink is blotting)
13/25 I practiced todayĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I finally touched a spearĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā I feel like I can hear godās voice soon.
13/28 Today I had a day off from practice. I finished work and went to Elize-samaās room. Things were easier for her in winter since she had fewer seizures, but her body is weak, so she gets fevers easily. Poor Elize-sama. Eliza gave me some kind of meat pie today to give to her. She said itās nourishing. Did she hunt this for Elize-sama? If so, then Iād like to go hunting next time. Elize-sama ate it happily. I would have loved to have a picture of Elize-samaās blossoming smile at that time. I hope she gets well soonā¦ (omission)ā¦ Then we talked about what I usually do. I thought it would be boring for her to hear me talk about work, homework and practice all the time, but she happily listened to what I had to say. Itās really tough to talk about how Claudia-sanās training nearly killed me, but Iām willing to work as hard as I can as long as Elize-sama is happy.
1/21 I was measured for clothes today. Eliza asked me to come with her when she goes to the royal capital. She said sheās going to make me some new clothes to wear there. Is that ok? But itās the first time Iāve had clothes made for me. Iām looking forward to it. Iām happy.
1/22 I was wondering how she was going to pay for the clothes and asked about my wages, which was awkward. Itās not much, but my hours are properly calculated and sheās keeping my pay. Sheās keeping my pay for me since she said I have no use for it in this fief anyway. She also said that clothes and food arenāt related to my wage. Eliza grumbled and said that she wasnāt corrupt, so she wonāt make me do slave labour. She really hates what the previous feudal lord didā¦ I nearly cried.
1/24 Claudia-san is weird. How can she bring down a bear in one shot? Weird.
1/25 It seems like Bellway-san will start teaching me tomorrow. I study with Lady Marechan, practice with Claudia-san, and now I have to learn from Bellway-sanā¦
2/18 The clothes arrived. The uniform is for women, and when I asked Eliza about it, she made fun of me, āDonāt you remember that I told you to be a maid?ā It was an annoying way of speaking. It seems I have to act like the maid, Elize, whenever Iām outside. Well, alright. But womenās clothesā¦ I seeā¦ Iām happy that she made clothes for me, but I canāt be happy about thisā¦
2/21 I caught a snow snake in the courtyard today. I wanted to show Elize-sama because it was so beautiful and white, but the girls in the village didnāt like snakes very much, so I thought better of it and let the snake go. Then Eliza got angry at me for some reason. She said it was a waste. What is?
3/11 We went to the royal capital. Iām tired. Womenās clothes are too hard to move in. Why is it that I, a guy, has to wear womenās clothes when Eliza and Claudia-san, women, wear menās clothes? Itās strange.
3/12 My next uniform is a dress? Well, it seems like Eliza is having a harder time today, so itās fine. Anyway, she doesnāt really suit dresses. Iām probably cuter in a dressā¦ Isnāt it usually the other way around? Am I weird? No, is Eliza weird?
3/22 This is the last page. There were a few days when I couldnāt write, but Iāve managed to write a lot. I feel a bit peevish when I look back at the beginning when I didnāt know much about nobles yet. A lot of things have happened even though it hasnāt been a year yet. Today, I went out for a little while in the afternoon and bought a new diary. I found another diary in the same style, so I bought that too. Itās the first time Iāve spent my pay, so itās kind of a keepsake. But if Iām going to keep writing in a diary from now on, then why shouldnāt I have an extra diary? Iāll put it away until I need to use it. I wonāt forget.