Tsuru didnât know anything about Arinaâs condition. The fact that she had a dual personality disorder. The fact that she had amnesia. The fact that she had a past she wanted to forget.
It was clear from the way she acted that Arina didnât tell anything about it to her, even though the current Arina should think of her as her best friend.
That was why I decided to not tell her anything.
âDonât cry, you look ugly.â
âIâm not crying.â
âThen, whatâs that thing coming out of your eyes?â
âCalpis.â (T/N: A Japanese soft drink)
âMy, this uncle is suprised!â
She wiped her tears with her sleeves, revealing the red, swollen corners of her eyes. Her eyes were still moist though.
âYouâre the worst⌠Suddenly yelling at me like thatâŚâ
âMy bad.â
âI was so scared! Grr!â
âWait, calm down, stop hurting the poor desk!â
The girl grabbed the desk and shook it wildly. The corner of the desk hit me on my stomach repeatedly. It was painful, but I couldnât stop her from going wild.
Though the damage I received was pale in comparison to the damage the poor desk-kun took. Imagine being him, one day, human suddenly came to your house, murdered you, mutilated your body and turned you into a forgotten furniture. On top of that you still had to endure this kind of abuse.
I couldnât take it anymore, he was too pitiful. I grabbed his body and stood my ground. Eventually, the girl stopped her abuse.
âHaaâŚâ
âTired?â
âWhy are you so strong? Arenât you just a simple idiot?!â
âForget about that. So, whatâs your plan now, Niwatori Tsuru-san?â
âIâm going to find out about everything.â
âWhat do you mean?â
âI know roughly what the current situation is. Arina forgot everything about you, but she remembers us. If youâre the only one she canât remember, that means one thing. Youâre someone important to her, even more than the rest of us.â
âImportant as in, Iâm the target of her revenge?â
âDumbass, if you actually think like that, then you really are a dumb blockhead! In any case, I donât know the cause, she probably hit her head or something, but this seems to be the case of a temporary memory loss. But, the cause of it isnât important right now.â
She crossed her legs and continued her words with a serious expression.
âWe need to solve this using a rather extreme method. Youâll have to interact with her again so she can slowly remember everything about you.â
I immediately rejected that idea.
âI wonât. I told you that I donât want to get involved with her ever again.â
âWhy are you like this? What made you avoid her so much? Are you hiding something?â
âIf Arina didnât tell you anything, then I canât tell you anything.â
âCanât you just tell me?â
âNever.â
âIâll shake the desk again.â
âIâll stop you with all my power.â
âTry me.â
We reached a stalemate and silence enveloped the room.
Our gazes met as we eyed each other like tigers.
Since she didnât seem to be giving up, I decided to tell her what was in my mind.
âTsuru, just let it go. This doesnât concern you at all. You can still hang out with her like before and whatever happens between me and Arina wouldnât leave any impact in your school life. Think about it, you wonât be able to hang out with her as much when you two graduate. Make use of your time and make some precious memories with her.â
âAre you implying that youâre okay with all this?â
âYes.â
âStop lying! You think sacrificing yourself will make her happy? Stop deluding yourself!â
âIâm not sacrificing myselfâŚâ
âThen why did you say that doing this is hard for you, you dumbass?!â
I couldnât say anything to that.
She lost herself in anger but her words were completely right.
If I were to tell her everything, I could probably convince her.
Maybe she would apologize to me for not understanding the circumstances, not understanding how much pain Arina suffered and for scolding me like this. But what was the point of that? I didnât want to guilt trip herâ
Suddenly, the sound of a door being opened echoed through the room.
We immediately turned our gazes toward the door.
The opening was barely noticeable. If we didnât hear the sound, we probably didnât know that someone had opened the door.
âCome in.â
Tsuru called out, but the person behind the door didnât reply.
When said person came out, our minds went blank. Ghosts didnât exist, that was my belief, but when I experienced something strange like this, my mind would wander to the various methods of exorcisms involving throwing tomatoes from my bag. Sadly, I didnât have any in my bag currently.
âSorry⌠I didnât know that there were people hereâŚâ
The person who peeked in from behind the door was Arina.
* Â * Â *
Arinaâs PoV
There was something that had been bothering me.
A boy called Sakaki Sui.
Ever since I contacted him half a month ago, Iâve never interacted with him again. Mainly because he said that I used to hate him.
It wasnât like I didnât try to talk to him, I did, but he wouldnât even try to look at me. Maybe he hated me too, like how I used to hate him?
But, soon enough I found out that he was lying.
I went through my note and there wasnât a single word that described my hatred toward him. I didnât remember when I wrote about him though, so while reading, it gave me a strange feeling.
In any case, in the note, my impression of him was favorable. I hated him? I branded him as trustworthy, there was no way that I would hate someone like that. I checked through my phone, we called and texted each other a lot, it was obvious that we were quite close.
So, why did he lie to me?
The note told me that he helped me with all his might. He earnestly tried to help me cure my amnesia and personality disorder.
Both were the secrets that I kept even from my closest friends. Aside from him, only mom, Akakusa-sensei and Kazawaguchi-senpai knew about it.
I tried to remember him and I vaguely remembered the traces that he left behind. But, his figure was foggy. I couldnât remember what he looked like or how our interactions went.
âArina-san? Where are you going?â
The girl in tennis wear, Shirona, called out to me.
âThereâs something that bugs me⌠I want to go to the old staffâs room.â
âAh~ Are you meeting up with Sui?â
âNo.â
âBe careful, okay? If heâs doing something strange, just tell me, Iâll whack him good!â
âIâll be fine.â
I left her after that. I tried to hide the fact that I forgot everything about Sakaki Sui. It made me always on edge whenever his name was brought up, but it seemed like nobody could tell that I was pretending.
But at this point, I was pretty much convinced that Sakaki Sui lied to me. Shironaâs actions and words were enough as proof. But, why did he lie to me?
In my foggy memories of him, I vaguely remembered the thing we did in the old staffâs room. Back when I was reading there with my momâs preserved flowers that I brought over. Though, I didnât remember his presence there.
To find out about the truth, I decided to visit the place itself. So, I headed toward the old staffâs room.
When I arrived, I had a sense of deja vu. I remembered that I used to change into my gym clothes here. I would put my hair up and store my underwear in my bag.
I placed my hand on the door as I felt someoneâs presence inside. There were sounds of footsteps coming from the room. I decided to leave the place but, suddenly, a familiar voice called me from inside the room.
âCome in.â
Tsuru? Why was she here? A secret rendezvous with her boyfriend maybe? You canât do that, Tsuru! This is the school! Wait, does that mean itâs okay if she does that outside? No, hell no!
Curiosity got the better of me and I peeked in fearfully.
âSorry⌠I didnât know that there were people hereâŚâ
Aside from Tsuru, there was a wide-eyed Sakaki Sui inside.