The faint light had a fluorescent pink colour, resembling neon streets.
A young man and woman in uniform were in the room.
I sat close to one side of an L-shaped sofa that was placed along the wall.
At first glance, it would look like we’re a high school student couple being ‘lovey-dovey’.
However, it wasn’t like that.
There was no romance between us.
What we had in common was being ‘rotten’.
‘A rotten heart’ that sometimes creates deep and strong bonds.
“I’m refilling my juice, how about Akira-kun?”
“No need. You sure talk a lot……”
I was currently being locked up in a karaoke room in the commercial facility that I came with Kaede last time.
The executioner of this prisoner was Sasaki Fuuko.
I ran away as fast as I could when I was found out by Sasaki-san, but I was intercepted easily ahead of another route.
“Let’s talk somewhere where nobody can hear us,” she said and I could only nod.
“If you refuse, I’ll speak loudly right here,” She threatened me.
The possibility of being questioned by anyone was gone now that we’d moved places, but ‘Let’s admit that I’m a fudanshi and have a BL talk!’ I was receiving mental damage at the thought.
I don’t want that!
I was once a rotten girl, but I insist that I’m a healthy boy now!
I absolutely don’t want to have a rotten conversation with a girl.
Even though I don’t have any BL stories to talk about, and Sasaki-san is just going to go with the flow.
Give me a break already…!
“Students who don’t have any money go to the karaoke place instead of a love hotel. But wouldn’t it be completely visible depending on the type of door? It’s common for a normal straight guy to witness a BL couple getting it on.”
“……”
“The straight guy who finds out is normally their ‘classmate’. Ah, or should I say ‘sibling’. It’s natural for them to be jealous and attack their sibling immediately after the latter returned home.”
“I don’t know anything about that.”
“But I want to push the “Part-time”-kun who accidently brought the juice to their room at the wrong timing and from there, fell in love with someone from the BL couple. And so, he naively entered the world of BL……But it was an unrequited love, so he went to the gay bar and fell even deeper.”
“Gay bar, you say……”
It sounds like an R18 manga I saw before in my previous life.
I don’t touch those ‘things’, I only imagine scenarios in my head.
I do feel like touching them and I want to talk about it, but ‘I’m a boy now!’ I’m restraining myself from doing so.
I have to keep it to myself, it’s the end for me if I get found out.
I kept my eyes on the stains on the wall expressionlessly as I pretended to be enlightened by our conversation.
I was so focused that I suddenly felt like cleaning the stain.
“What’s wrong? Come closer! I was hoping to have an intense talk with a fudanshi!”
Sasaki-san, who sat right next to me, opened her arms and asked me to join in with a gesture that looked similar to a move used in wrestling.
I firmly refuse to.
“Who’s a fudanshi?”
“You are.”
“You’re wrong!”
We’ve had this conversation many times already, I’m getting tired of it.
It was becoming even more troublesome to deny it.
I say that, but the fact that I can’t just say “Yes” and get it over with is really tough.
“But didn’t you understand the meaning of uke?”
“That’s……”
“By the way, for Kaede-kun’s case, he’s an uke now but with the desire of having him dominate you, I’ll treat it as you being ‘an uke with all of them in the future’.”
“I don’t need an explanation for that.”
I don’t really want to hear whether I’m a seme or uke.
Rather, ‘all of them’, who does she assume I’m with other than Kaede?
I’m too scared to ask.
“I’ve heard that you’ve been aware of your brothers for a long time. You seem to understand a lot, so I thought you were being suspicious. It seems like we can be great friends!”
“I don’t want to……”
“I think you have no choice but to admit it though? Or should I discuss it with Hina? Whether Amachi-kun is a fudanshi or not.”
“Wha-!”
Wasn’t that a threat!
It wasn’t like I’m denying that I’m a fudanshi.
It would be embarrassing for big brother and Hina, the people around me, to know that I had these kinds of thoughts.
”
”
As for my brothers, it would be as if I’m acknowledging that I’m watching them in a way.
I absolutely don’t want that!
It would be impossible to escape from Sasaki-san.
Without a doubt, this fujoshi will chase after me forever.
If so, we should minimize the damage.
I have to make sure my rotten thoughts don’t leak out.
I took my eyes off the stain on the wall and turned to Sasaki-san.
She looked at me nervously, probably because there was a slight change in my attitude.
Let’s talk.
About my previous life.
So that Sasaki-san can be convinced.
She may be convinced even if I don’t tell her about it, but I want her to know that I’m not just a fudanshi. I want her to know that I’m rotten because I have ‘memories from my previous life’.
“You might not believe me, but……”
This was the first time that I told anyone about this.
I talked as I reminisced about it.
When I was in my third year of middle school, I witnessed my brothers’ love affair and remembered that I was a fujoshi in my previous life.
This is the world of the BL game I played when I was a fujoshi.
Big brother was the main character, Haru-nii and Kaede were characters of the game.
I truly spoke about everything I could remember.
Sasaki-san was excited by the fact that she was hearing about how big brother’s relationship developed, but somewhere in the middle, she started frowning.
She probably thought I was saying something ridiculous.
Even I thought I was crazy for talking about it.
I was prepared to see her frightened of me and call me a sick person, but……Sasaki Fuuko was different.
Although she was frowning before……She was now looking at me with sparkling eyes.
“That’s wonderful! To be honest, I’m still in doubt, but……I don’t care about that! It’s fantastic that this is the world of a BL game! No wonder there were so many lovely homos around me! I mean, it’s weird to be so blessed!”
“You’re convinced about that part!?”
That was more than what I had expected.
Rather than being frightened, she was so excited that her eyes seem to pop out and I think it’s good to say that she’s ‘crazy’.
Rather, I’m the frightened one.
“Hey, did I appear!?”
“I don’t remember seeing you. I wasn’t in it either.”
“Is that so? Amachi-kun might not know, but if there’s a sequel, don’t other characters appear? You could be the extra’s main character? Amachi-kun doesn’t feel like a mob character, you know?”
“Sequel!?”
I had no idea about that, but……Indeed, it was a really popular work that it wouldn’t be a surprise if a sequel was released.
Even if it wasn’t a sequel, it might have been a “best version” with additional elements added.
Therefore, there may be times when a new character is added.
I don’t want to think about the possibility of me being one, so I ignored that thought and felt suspicious about Natsuhi-senpai.
I once said, “He’s just an ikemen mob,” but there was no way a mob can be such an ikemen.
It was definitely like that……So it was the sequel……It had been a blind spot.
Thinking that I was in the world of a game I knew, I was confused by finding a new possibility, but the fujoshi sitting next to me was so excited that she didn’t realize and slapped my arm while talking to me.
So noisy. I want to calm down and think, but……
“Ahh, I’m so jealous! You get to actually experience BL!”
“I don’t want to experience it, I won’t!”
“Why? You have memories of being a fujoshi, right? Such a waste!”
“It’s not something you turn into. You watch it.”
“Oh my, there’s nothing better than experience. I really want you to experience it and report it to me.”
“Sorry. I’m not that rotten.”
I turned back to the stain on the wall and was reminded of something.
To attain enlightenment and self-renunciation.
Move, stain!
“Hey, tell me more about it!”
“I told you everything.”
“Really? Remember well. Bring all of your memories out!”
Even if you say that……The details of those characters were likely to be a violation of their privacy, and I didn’t want to talk about it without permission.
“Hey, I have a suggestion.”
“No.”
“First of all, Amachi-kun and Kaede-kun are dating.”
Even though I said no, she wasn’t listening.
Rather, what did she just say!?
“Listen to me, wait a minute!!”
“And, that’s where we join forces.”
“Huhh!? I don’t understand! You talk as if we’re meeting up or something, you say really weird things!”
“Really?”
I don’t think so, but is this person serious……
“Do you actually like Kaede?”
“I do! But you see, that’s something normal for a fujoshi, you know? It’s the same as ‘I will allow it if he’s cheating with another man’.”
I understand, but I don’t want to understand.
“Leaving that aside, I’d rather go back and resolve the misunderstanding between Hina and me.”
“Speaking of which, I ran along the lines and pretty much understood everything, but what’s happening?”
“Nothing much.”
“Hmm?”
When I was frustrated by the way Sasaki-san looked at me as if she could through everything, the phone on the table lit up.
Since it was on silent mode, it vibrated and made a rattling sound.
The name that showed up on the screen was “Haru-nii”.
Judging by the timing, it seemed to be related to Hina.
Sasaki-san was here, making me hesitate to leave.
“You’re not going? I don’t mind.”
“No, I’m good.”
Even if I talked about the situation with Haru-nii, I feel like he’d complain a lot so I don’t want to.
“Hmm? Hina-chan?”
“No, her brother.”
Sasaki-san’s eyes lit up when I said it was Haru-nii.
When I saw her expression and realized I made a mistake, it was already too late.
“The ‘Real Seme’-sama! Then you have to pick it up! Here you go!”
She took my phone, pushed the answer button, and handed it to me.
This girl……!
“Sighh……Hello.”
“……Akira.”
He called my name in a tired voice.
What’s wrong, did something happen?
Maybe it wasn’t about Hina, but another fight with big brother?
As I was worried about him, Haru-nii started talking slowly.
“When she got home, she cried and said, “I hate BL!”……”
“……”
Uwahh, it was my fault.
It was my fault, but why would you hurt Haru-nii, Hina!
The injury was too deep for a stray bullet!
“Nothing comes to mind. Rather……There is one thing, but the timing is weird……Akira, you know anything?”
Perhaps Haru-nii thinks that it was his fault because he was a BL, but he was getting really serious about it.
I apologize.
“Sorry. It’s my fault. Hina misunderstood about Kaede and me……Tell her it’s a misunderstanding.”
“You and Kaede?…… So that was it. I understand.”
He paused and thought for a bit.
There was no way Haru-nii was suspecting me of being a homo, right?
“It’ll become a reality soon! Not before long!”
The fujoshi raised her voice at a distance where Haru-nii could hear.
Don’t just join in like that!
I pushed her shoulder away without thinking, but she pushed back with great strength.
“Hm? Is someone there?”
“T-there’s no one here!”
“I want to hear a seme’s voice too!”
She tried to listen to his voice by placing her ear near my phone.
You’re in the way!
“I’ll stop by on my way home! Bye!”
It was a pain to continue talking to Haru-nii in this situation.
My business was done and it was a little aggressive, but I was able to end the call.
“Hey! You’re a hindrance!”
As I was arguing with the fujoshi, the phone in my hand lit up and started vibrating again.
What is it this time!?
Does Haru-nii still have something to talk about?
When I saw the screen, Kaede’s name was being displayed on it.
“Ah, Kaede.”
The moment I muttered that, the phone in my hand disappeared.
“Hello, Kaede-kun? Oh my, you’ll figure it out immediately? I’m so happy. Eh? I’m sorry, I’m busy with Amachi-kun right now. Bye.”
I just regretted answering someone’s call. Was it my fault for not learning from my mistakes?
My phone was taken away and on top of that, she answered the call and hung up on him too.
If you looked closely, the power balance was off as well.
“Don’t hang up on your own accord and don’t turn it off!”
“It’s fine since he’s Kaede-kun. Also, he’d call back immediately, won’t he?”
“Well, I guess so, but……”
“Kaede-kun must be angry this time. Hehe-”
“You’re being gross.”
”
”
“Love forms when you don’t see each other.”
Weren’t those words from a nostalgic melody?
Yours definitely wasn’t that good!
“Does love form from just a phone call?”
“For example, you turn Kaede-kun down with just your voice. This will make Kaede feel bothered and thus, love evolves from the conflict.”
“Anyone would feel bothered if they get hung up on like that and can’t connect to the other person’s phone anymore.”
“Is that so?”
“Yes.”
When we bickered like so, a call from the front desk came.
Even though we were in a karaoke room, it finished without us singing a single song.