I was floating in a soothing, warm place engulfed in white light.
I can almost feel my brain melting from all the tranquility and serenity, and before long, I recall something.
āOh, rightā¦ Iā¦ got into an accidentā
I finally took a leave from work after a long time. When I said a long time, I mean a really long time since like 8 months ago. I threaten my superior while in tears, that I will commit suicide and haunt him on his bedside every night if he wouldnāt let me took a leave. So I took off for a vacation to refresh my mind.
Then I got into an accident. The last thing I could barely remember is that I was driving along a ridge in a small rain before my car slipped and crashed into the railings. I had to arrive at the next town by the next day if I wanted to make it during my leave period, so I forced my way through the rainy dark night to have my vacation as planned.
I know, itās really stupid. I must be an idiot.
Now hereās the question, did I actually die, or Iām currently in a vegetableĀ state [1] ā¦?
āI can talkā¦ā
I could hear my own voice dispersing into the endless light. If I could talk, then does that mean Iām still alive? Then Iām in vegetative state?
Nah, if thatās the case, I shouldnāt be able to even think, right? I remembered that when being in a vegetable state, you canāt think and can barely breathe, and your brain waves is also all flat. Well, I donāt know whether itās true or notā¦
Then, what is this place?
Calm down, myself. Calm down. So what if I died or turned into a vegetable, I am still myselfā¦ Thereās nothing to worā¦
Hm?
Huh?
Hmmmmmm?
āWhoā¦ am I?ā
Hey guys, itās me. Itās been a while since the last time I thought about who I am, so I decided to stop thinking about it. Well, what can I do?
I do remember about the moment I got into an accident and things that are connected to it, but I canāt remember anything else! I canāt remember my own name, my family name, or my loversā name.
Oh, about that lover thingā¦ I remember her being inside a PC, but thereās no way a person can get into a PC, so maybe my memories are a bit jumbled. But I can still remember anything else as long as itās not about a certain personās identity. Letās say, I do remember the math, from the simplest 1+1=2, up to those probably upperlevel high school math.
Iām kind of surprised I can barely remember English, but Iām totally fluent with Russian. I can also remember from the most common things, till expert level knowledge of a certain field. It seems like I was a researcher, or maybe something related to it. Well, itās not like all of it matters nowā¦
But normally, youād feel sad if you canāt remember your own name and your family. Call me apathetic, but I barely feel anything about it. But thanks to that, I also donāt feel restless or anything, so I can enjoy this warm comfortable life every day.
āDamn! Not again!!ā
I was spacing off as usual, then suddenly my surroundings shook. After being in this place for a while, I learned that this place would shake at random intervals. At first, the tremor was so weak I can barely tell if itās shaking or not, but lately itās getting worse. It would stopped after a while, but lately I feel like itās getting more and more frequent.
āDonāt tell me this place is started to falling apart?!ā
I was worried at that thought to the point I had to say it. No, I donāt want to goā¦ I donāt want to leave this comfortable place! At the same time, I can also feel myself giving it all upā¦ Guess this is the end, it felt so short yet so longā¦
āWell. For an idiot like me, a luxury break like this was more than enoughā¦ā
After I said that, the bright light got even brighter, I was engulfed in a light so bright I canāt keep my eyes open.