I Favor the Villainess Chapter 52
The second chapter for today
The following morning, when I opened the door of my room, Manaria-sama stood there.
She stared at me with a displeased face.
I vaguely expected what Iâd be told, but I pretended to be unaware.
âDonât play dumb. Itâs about Claireâ
Manaria-sama didnât let me escape.
Sheâs glaring at me with intense eyes.
âLast night, she suddenly came to my room and cried for a long time. She didnât say the reason, but I can mostly guess what happenedâ
Hearing Manaria-samaâs words, I couldnât stay still.
I want to immediately rush to Claire-samaâs side and embrace her even if Iâm hated.
But, that wonât be fulfilled anymore.
âPlease take care of Claire-sama. Because, Claire-sama is lonelyâ
As I canât stay at Claire-samaâs side anymore, I have no choice but to ask Manaria-sama.
Itâs unpleasant to ask my rival in love for Claire-sama of that, but if itâs Manaria-sama I trust her enough to leave Claire-sama to her.
I bowed my head to Manaria-sama.
And, grabbing me by my uniformâs collar, she forcibly raised my body and slammed me against a wall.
âIf you understand Claire that much, why wonât you try staying at her side!â
Manaria-sama tightened her grip on my collar with her light brown eyes burning with fury.
âI lost to Manaria-sama. I also quit being her maid, I have no pretext to be at her sideâ
Listening to my complaints, Manaria-samaâs expression became more and more severe.
Her well-ordered beautiful face is tainted with icy anger.
âWill you give up with that! Are your feelings like that!â
Manaria-sama told me while breathing heavily, anger is gradually welling inside me.
âAre you the one to be saying this! The one who took Claire-sama from me is no one but you!â
I tried shaking off Manaria-samaâs hand that was grasping my collar.
However, Manaria-samaâs hand didnât give an inch.
âI took her away? Thatâs wrong. You gave her up on your own. Youâre just running awayâ
Manaria-samaâs voice carried a hint of provocation.
âI also didnât want to give up! I didnât think of something like running away! If you werenât here, Iâââ
The tone of Manaria-samaâs voice dropped.
She continued in a quiet voice.
âEven if I hadnât appeared, youâd still give Claire-sama up somedayâ
âWhat are you basing it onâââ
âItâs fine if my feelings arenât rewarded, itâs okay as long as Claire is happy â itâs because youâre saying such pretty thingsâ
Manaria-samaâs words cut deeply into my heart.
However, I canât accept it.
âWhatâs wrong with that! Whatâs wrong with wishing for the happiness of the person you love!â
I invoked water magic and threw ice fragments at Manaria-sama to drive her off.
I indeed must have caught her by surprise as she released her hand and stumbled a bit.
âNot wishing for reciprocation? How admirable. Do you intend to become a saint?â
âThatâs not my intention!â
âI bet. You are scared of being hurt. You donât want to despair that Claire doesnât have feelings for you. So you gave up from the start. To ensure you always have a way outâ
Though I denied, in the back of my mind I thought ah, thatâs right .
Thereâs no lie in this feeling.
But, is it true Iâm not wishing for reciprocation.
Donât I wish to have Claire-sama smile at me?
Donât I wish to have her embrace me?
Donât I wish to kiss her?
Donât I wish for her to have feelings for me?
âNo matter how I wish it wonât come true! Claire-sama is a woman. We have the same sex. And, she has a person she lovesâ
âSo youâll give up. Without even fighting, youâre satisfied with only a shallow relationship? Do you think this one-sided relationship that doesnât seek reciprocation will continue forever?â
âThatâs fine with me! If itâs for Claire-sama, Iâll kill these feelings!â
While saying these words, something deep in my chest screamed.
âItâs impossible. Such relationships will sooner or later break down. How do I know? Because it happened to meâ
Saying so, Manaria-samaâs mouth twisted from how she torments herself over it.
âI dropped out of the succession struggle because I was exposed as a homosexualâ
With these words, I recalled Manaria-samaâs 'settingâ.
Manaria-sama is a homosexual just like me.
She only loves women, and actually she fell in love with a maid.
She kept her feelings hidden at all cost, but one day she couldnât suppress them and had a relationship with that maid.
It was a one-sided thing that used the difference in status between royalty and a maid.
After a short time, the maid left the royal palace.
Thatâs what Manaria-sama constantly regrets.
It reached the point where Manaria-sama, desperate to not repeat the same mistake, hid her social status and frequented brothels.
As she only had physical relationships based on money, she thought it wouldnât cause any future trouble.
However, someone recognized Manaria-samaâs identity and reported it to the royal palace.
The result being, Manaria-sama was driven out of the royal palace.
âThe feelings that donât seek reciprocation always distort. A humanâs heart, is not that strong or prettyâ
It was a quiet voice, but without a doubt it was filled with the pain sheâs enduring.
It looks like Manaria-sama also anguished over the weakness and dirtiness of her heart.
â⌠About what Manaria-sama has been saying since a while ago⌠What are you saying I should doâ
Iâm dumbfounded, I have no more words to say, Iâm simply at a loss.
To such me, Manaria-sama spoke without answering.
âIf you stubbornly intend to give Claire up , I will comfort myself with Claireâ
What, did she just say�
âClaire has a liking for me. Thereâs a gap to take an advantage of. Of course, Iâm aware her liking is of a different type than oursâ
What is this person saying�
âClaire resembles the person I love. I will cherish her to my utmost as a substituteâ
Saying so, Manaria-sama sneered.
Her beautiful face looked uglier than any human that Iâve seen.
âAre you seriously saying that?â
âOf course Iâm serious. Have you forgotten why I was banished? I played with women too much. I have nothing to lose at this point. Iâll enjoy myselfâ
Kukuku , Manaria-sama laughed strangely.
However, her eyes arenât smiling.
Dark⌠Her bottomless, dark eyes are seeing something other than me.
âI wonât let you do that!â
âOh, how? What can you, who lost to me, and stopped being her maid, do?â
Manaria-sama said in a ridiculing tone.
I canât hand over Claire-sama to this person alone.
Such a person is not suitable for Claire-sama.
As for me, if I could make Claire-sama happyââ!
âThereâs Amourâs Festival, right?â
âAt the end of the monthâ
âAre you aware of the practice of using the love scales there?â
âYup. Iâve heard about it. The depth of feelings is measuredâ
âLetâs have a match with itâ
But , Manaria-sama continued.
âI won one match. I canât accept without getting anything â
âThen, what should I do?â
âIf I win this match, youâll give yourself to meâ
âOh, is it okay to make such a promise lightly? Beyond becoming my thing, you will completely give up on Claire-sama?â
âI donât care. I wonât loseâ
âArenât you confident. Nice eyesâ
Manaria-sama showed a satisfied smile.
âThen, itâs a match. Show me how you struggle to your utmostâ
Saying so, Manaria-sama turned back.
Seeing off her back, I resolved myself.
To win this match, I will do anything.
âClaire-sama, please watch meâ