Chapter 119

If it were Summer, it would be dawn right now. But instead, it was the longest night of Winter. Dark clouds still filled the entirety of the sky, causing the entire place to be immersed in intense darkness.

Su Jingmo’s last attack was much weaker than before, so Lin Zuo knew that Su Jingmo was reaching his limit. As soon as dawn came, the battle was bound to end.

The ghosts that escaped from the tomb not long ago, were still crowding within the range of Su Jingmo’s ghostly qi. But now…. 70 to 80% had disappeared…. Su Jingmo himself was aware that his soul was weakening. Now that he had recklessly left the tomb, which had already collapsed, Su Jingmo feared he had no more than two hours left.

If he can’t kill Lin Zuo, it will be difficult to relieve the hatred present in Su Jingmo’s heart. Although Su Jingmo’s end was drawing near, Lin Zuo was also seriously injured, and his soul was damaged. Therefore, Lin Zuo cannot use techniques, and can only escape for his life. If Su Jingmo tried his best, it may be possible to make Lin Zuo die with him.

‘ Even so….. I still want to see Qin Cheng. ’

‘ I still want to keep this incomplete soul of mine to see him again…. ’ Su Jingmo suddenly didn’t want to pay attention to this old hatred anymore. ‘ What’s the use? Can this hatred be eliminated just by killing Lin Zuo? Lin Zuo was right when he said that if it weren’t for the so-called Immortals in the Heavens, he wouldn’t have the chance to erase more than 200 years of history. ’

‘ Even if I can kill Lin Zuo, I wouldn’t be able to kill the Immortals behind the scenes. After the death of one Lin Zuo, there will be a second and a third ‘Lin Zuo’ that will finish destroying what little remains of the Xu Dynasty. ’

At that moment, a familiar figure appeared at the foot of the mountain, and Su Jingmo’s heart trembled slightly as he looked down the mountain. Although Su Jingmo longed to see Qin Cheng, Qin Cheng actually came to see him.

The sword in Su Jingmo’s hand slowly lowered.

Lin Zuo wasn’t like Su Jingmo. Over a thousand years ago, Monk Xuyun forced Lin Zuo to destroy his Immortal body, so he had no other choice than to live in Su Jingyan’s body.

‘ Now, over a thousand years later, if it hadn’t been for Xuyun, how could a mortal like Su Jingmo gravely damage my spirit?! How can I not hate him? How can I bear it? ’

After noticing Su Jingmo’s hesitation, Lin Zuo’s eyes lit up.

‘ I will not lose to a mortal! How can I lose to a mortal?! ’

Lin Zuo, already possessed by his own demons, jumped out from the rubble and charged at Su Jingmo at high speed!

Above the collapsed mountain, a golden light suddenly shone in the dark sky, heading towards a place that was even darker than the dark night.

Qin Cheng stumbled as he rushed to the foot of the mountain immersed in darkness, knowing who would be there…. When Qin Cheng saw the golden light, his heart turned completely cold. With a hoarse and trembling voice, Qin Cheng yelled: “Jingmo! Be careful!”

However, Qin Cheng’s shout came too late. By the time Su Jingmo felt Lin Zuo approaching, it was already too late for him to dodge the attack. Su Jingmo could only use his remaining ghostly qi to swing the hilt of the sword in his hand. The same sword that could pierce through Lin Zuo’s soul and cut through his spirit. At the same time, the Soul-Scattering Seal summoned by Lin Zuo fell on Su Jingmo.

“I won…..” Lin Zuo’s shell, Su Jingyan’s body, had his eyes wide open with a hideous smile on his face.

However, Su Jingmo no longer had time to care for it.

The Soul-Scattering Seal is a technique created by the former Heavenly Master, Zhang Daoling, by borrowing Spiritual Guardian Laojun’s techniques to destroy Gods and kill ghosts. However, even though this technique was created, it was forbidden to be used by future generations.

All because this technique wasn’t only used to exorcize ghosts, but because ghosts can be driven to total extinction. With such an unpleasant technique, its use would naturally not be allowed. However, although its use was prohibited, it didn’t mean that Taoists were prohibited from learning it. After all, all Immortals were like that. Saying one thing, but doing another.

When Su Jingmo was hit by the Soul-Scattering Seal, he felt his soul tremble for a moment. It was as if millions of insects were gnawing on him, digging thousands of holes into his soul. In an instant, the personification of his soul suddenly scattered into particles, as if it wanted to float in the air! Su Jingmo’s mind was already confused, aware that his consciousness was slowly collapsing. Even then, Su Jingmo wasn’t worried.

‘ I already knew my end was near, didn’t I? It’s just happening earlier than I thought…. ’

Glancing at Lin Zuo, Su Jingmo could see that several rays of light scattered from his body, receding into the distance. Su Jingmo realized what it was at that moment. Although he didn’t know for sure if Lin Zuo had died or escaped, even if Lin Zuo didn’t die, Su Jingmo’s sword had pierced through his spirit. In other words, Lin Zuo will not be able to obtain a human form for thousands of years.

With that in mind, Su Jingmo felt relieved. In fact, he felt relieved for the first time in a long time. Su Jingmo had died more than 1600 years ago, but he also persisted for 1600 years. Although he was unable to protect the tomb in the end, he was completely sure that even without the tomb, there would be a person in the future who would unearth the secret of the Xu Dynasty for him.

Perhaps it was because his mood had lightened, or perhaps it was just an illusion, but as Su Jingmo slowly floated down in the air, he began to feel as if the speed at which his soul was dissipating became slower and slower.

At the foot of the mountain, Qin Cheng desperately scaled the ruins to reach Su Jingmo. As for Su Jingmo, he was also slowly walking towards Qin Cheng.

The rain, mixed with ice particles, stopped falling at some point, while the dark clouds in the sky began to disperse little by little. When both men stood facing each other, the sky was faintly bright.

But, right now, Qin Cheng could barely see a glimpse of the silhouette of the man in front him….

Qin Cheng felt as if his heart had been forcibly cut off, causing blood to flow out indiscriminately. The blurred figure in front of Qin Cheng was like a sharp knife that was removing his bloody heart out of his chest, blocking his throat and preventing him from breathing.

Qin Cheng slowly walked forward, and with trembling hands, he tried to hug Su Jingmo. But no matter how hard Qin Cheng tried, he couldn’t touch anything.

Qin Cheng didn’t give up and fiercely jumped on Su Jingmo. However, the only thing he managed to do was cross over Su Jingmo’s soul body, as if it was made of air.

After staring at his hands while in a daze, Qin Cheng hunched back and fell to the ground on his knees, trembling.

“Ha—hahahahha…..”

When Su Jingmo heard Qin Cheng’s uncontrolled laughter behind him, Su Jingmo couldn’t help, but squeeze his eyes shut and close his hand into a fist. Although Qin Cheng was laughing, his laugh sounded too hollow and sad. In fact, it was as if Qin Cheng was yelling at the sky through that laughter….

Su Jingmo didn’t dare to turn around to look. Not even for a glance.

“You should have known this would happen sooner or later.” Su Jingmo opened his eyes and whispered: “Just let it go.”

Qin Cheng didn’t reply. Not because he hadn’t listened, but because Qin Cheng didn’t want to. ‘ Leave it? How can I let it go?! ’

For some reason, Qin Cheng felt like his heart was being shattered. So much so, that when the time came when he should be crying, all he managed to do was laugh out loud. Qin Cheng laughed so hard that the tears in his eyes finally spilled down his cheeks. He laughed so hard that his heart began to tremble in pain…. Qin Cheng slowly opened his mouth, and said in a low voice: “I love you…. Su Jingmo….I really love you……”

Su Jingmo smiled as he faintly said: “I know.”

“I want to be with you every day and every night. I want to share every moment of my life with you.” Qin Cheng stood up and slowly walked towards Su Jingmo, staring at the person he loved the most in this world. “Can I go with you?”

Su Jingmo shook his head: “Qin Cheng, I’m already dead. I have been dead for a long time.”

“I know!!”

“I won’t reincarnate either.”

“I’ll stay with you!”

“My soul will scatter away! I won’t have another life, even if you want to follow me….” Saying this, Su Jingmo whispered with a bitter laugh: “You can’t come with me.”

“I can’t just let you go. Not like this.” Saying this, Qin Cheng, who had been confused for a long time, picked up Su Jingmo’s sword that had fallen on the ground. Without saying a single word, he pulled the sword out of the sheath.

At that moment, Su Jingmo’s face suddenly darkened and he rushed to stop Qin Cheng. However, the only thing he managed to do was discover that he couldn’t touch Qin Cheng at all. Su Jingmo panicked, and he had no other choice than to raise the hilt of his sword to knock it out of Qin Cheng’s hands. But in the process of doing so, Qin Cheng’s neck was slightly slashed, letting some blood ooze from his skin. Su Jingmo was so angry upon seeing this that after taking the sword hilt, he threw it back at Qin Cheng.

‘ Alright. Fucking great. ’

“Do you want my last hope to be ruined?!” Su Jingmo’s voice trembled slightly as he said sternly: “If I had known that you despise your life so much, I shouldn’t have saved you in the first place!”

“You never asked me if I wanted to live!”

“So what did you want me to do?!” Su Jingmo said angrily. “You know what, Qin Cheng?! Although I, Su Jingmo, have a cold heart, it is not dead!”

“There is only one fool in this world who would let himself be at my full disposal. Only one fool would say ‘I’ll do it’ so willingly, even after knowing about my schemes.” Su Jingmo stared at Qin Cheng and said: “How can I not be swayed…..?”

“But I’m really willing to….” Qin Cheng walked forward, holding Su Jingmo’s face even though he couldn’t touch it. As tears fell from his eyes, Qin Cheng said: “You can take advantage of me….”

Su Jingmo originally thought that he had already made up his mind, so he wanted to look away. But when Su Jingmo saw Qin Cheng’s appearance….his heart ached. “You said it yourself….you told me that you couldn’t let me guard the tomb alone…. How can I be willing to give up now….?”

Su Jingmo had thought that if he disappeared, in the next few decades, without him in the world, Qin Cheng would surely marry and have children. Su Jingmo thought that the love that should belong to him would be directed to others. That the arms that should belong to him, would embrace another woman….

However, the more Su Jingmo thought about it, unexpectedly, the more he hated that woman who hadn’t appeared yet….

Su Jingmo has never let anyone meddle in his affairs. It’s not that he hadn’t thought to end these feelings, to stay with Qin Cheng so that his ‘wife and children’ wouldn’t appear. Su Jingmo wants Qin Cheng to belong only to him. He doesn’t want to give Qin Cheng to anyone else. He wants Qin Cheng’s eyes to only look at him for all eternity….

‘ However, in the end I couldn’t do it. Not because I wasn’t sure whether Qin Cheng would be able to bring up the lost history of the Xu Dynasty for me, but because I couldn’t bear…. I couldn’t bear the thought that Qin Cheng would be all alone in the tomb, year after year. I can’t bear to trample on his love for me, just as I can’t bear to ruin his future….. ’

Through Qin Cheng’s shoulder, Su Jingmo saw Qu Zhiwen coming running towards them. Su Jingmo smiled slightly, and said: “Qin Cheng….let me ask you something. Do you really want to die with me?”

“I do.”

“Do you love me?”

“I love you.”

“Then promise me one thing, alright?”

After looking at Qu Zhiwen for a brief moment, Su Jingmo nodded at him. Qu Zhiwen lightly sighed with a complicated look. Before Qin Cheng could reply, Qu Zhiwen drew a pentagram with his fingertips and flew towards Qin Cheng.

Seeing the tall, skinny young man lying unconscious on the ground in front of him, Su Jingmo smiled and looked straight ahead: “….Promise me that in the next few decades, you won’t fall in love with anyone else…. Alright….?”

Only this time….no one ever answered his words again.

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