CH 77

Chapter 77: Change

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“Is there anything you don’t like about me?”

“Huh?”

He seemed to have intuitively figured out what I was going to say. Those blue-grey eyes glanced down at me.

Perhaps, because I looked at his face, I inadvertently blurted out something.

“Uh, face?”

“Fiona, do you remember you said you liked my face the most when we were young?”

“….”

Apparently, I did say that. Seriously, he was the main character, so there was no way I wouldn’t like him.

“Well, then, personality.”

I bit my tongue as I said a very nonsensical reason. Because, pointing out Sigren’s personality meant my personality also had some problems. Also, since we were kids, it was me who took care of him.

Sigren grinned.

“Fiona, wasn’t it you who told me that I should be nice to the person I like, a long time ago?”

“….”

I certainly seemed to have said that. But that was because of the “good personality development of the male protagonist’. Definitely, I said that to him so when he met Eunice, I wanted him to be nice to her, not me.

“Wait, what other things did I tell you to do when you find someone you like, again?”

“A lot. For your information, I also remember everything.”

Sigren looked at me. “Looking at you, you don’t seem to remember.”

First thing first, in order to kick Sigren, I think I would have to hit the old me first. What the hell was I talking about? In any case, now I know very well that those words had a profound effect on Sigren.

“Fiona, I told you. Sometimes your thoughts jump in strange ways when you think of me.”

“…”

“But, if you’re thinking of backing down, saying it was for me again this time…”

He lowered his head slightly and said, “I’m not going to give up easily either.”

It was then that I also looked directly at Sigren. I wanted him to be happy. And Sigren’s greatest happiness that I knew of was falling in love with Eunice, just like in the original story. But now that it was like this, it won’t flow like the original plot. That was all I knew.

I reached out and stroke Sigren’s cheek. He flinched.

“Someone must have worn a Sigren face mask..” I said seriously.

“Fiona, I think you really have a knack for breaking the mood.”

Well, I’m sorry I couldn’t catch the mood. But I’m serious.

“Is this your real personality?”

Sigren put his hand over my hand that was holding his cheek.

“That’s because you always think you know me very well.”

I couldn’t deny it.

“You’ll soon realize what a big mistake that is.”

Well, that realization had just occurred to me. I really had been arrogant.

You know what’s in the water, but you don’t know what’s inside a person.

It seemed like Sigren was already aware of my attitude, which was based on the premise that I had “perfect knowledge” of him,

“Does this mean that the you I know and the real you are different?”

Sigren laughed briefly.

“I don’t know.”

I stared at him very closely. I really couldn’t get used to the Sigren in front of me.

‘As expected, someone must be wearing a mask of Sigren’s face.’

Okay, let’s admit it. I really never expected this guy to be so languid and sweet to me. To be honest, it was my first time being treated like this by Sigren. It was very awkward. But thinking about him again, I didn’t know how this guy could endure it until now.

“Wait a minute, my head is muddled.”

Eventually, I pulled my hand away from him, then subconsciously fiddled with my hair and became lost in thought.

I really couldn’t be very cold-hearted when it came to Sigren. I might have to say no to his confession, but I was not very confident about being cold to him as if I disliked him.

‘Maybe this coldness is limited to only the male protagonist?’

Did Sigren know this too? However, it turned out he could not be indifferent enough to be dragged on by an ambiguous relationship that neither completely refused nor accepted.

‘I agree, the next step would be lovers.’

Male and female relationship.

After thinking about this scenario, a slightly different way of solving this problem appeared.

Where in this shallow world could the deep relationship between a man and woman be found? The ‘true love’ relationship between Sigren and Eunice was even created by me for the novel I wrote, so in other words, if we saw the reality, it was impossible.

That kind of thing, I didn’t believe.

Now, with this problem, if I were to consider it and say yes, and then think about things in a realistic way, wouldn’t it be more likely for us to break up later? At most, the relationship perhaps could last only a few years after our adulthood, because Sigren would face many crises as the story progresses. Therefore, there would be a day when his burning passion cools off. Like most young love.

Eventually, Sigren would realise this too. That there was a better woman in the world, not just a girl who decorated his childhood memories. Because people after all, at least once, has a person like this in their life. Today’s Sigren may be like that too. Maybe for one year or two years. Even if he dated me now, one day, his passion would cool down. And when that affection cooled down, I just needed to let him go. Even more, there would be a good chance that Sigren would fall in love with another woman after that.

With that being said, there was also a high possibility that there would be some deterrents to the original plot where Eunice was his partner. But even then, if it turned out that girl was not Eunice, then Eunice may have to find another way to awaken her power.

‘First love, then confession, and then young lover.’

The more I rationalised, the more certain I was that if I had this relationship, it would someday break. Even if everything shone beautifully like the stars in the night sky, the relationship would eventually scatter like the foam of waves hitting the rocks.

I have concluded that accepting Sigren wouldn’t be too much of a problem. After all, I would be more anxious if I couldn’t have my hands on this change. Well, an extra point was added to the fact that this also would make him happy. Wouldn’t his hormones be affected and he felt happy for at least a few months?

Moreover, I didn’t particularly dislike it either. Sigren’s face was handsome, and I liked his personality. And because he was a good friend, I felt like he wouldn’t be bad as a romantic partner either. He would never treat me badly during the dating period. Well, if there was anything that bothered me, it was that I haven’t really seen him as a man until now….

I put my hand on his shoulder. It was so strong that it could never be compared to mine. His height had already been different for a long time.

‘Well, he definitely doesn’t look like a child.’

That point should be enough.

“Alright, Sigren.”

“What?”

I tiptoed, leaned forward, and wrapped my arms around his neck.

For a moment, Sigren flinched.

Oh, it was the same reaction as when we were children. Ah, seeing this side of him that has been missing since a long time ago was kind of making me a little happy.

I whispered in his ear. “Your confession, I accept it.”

Yeah, what was the problem with dating at this age? I was not even getting married.

Then I kissed Sigren’s cheek lightly. Right away, I could feel his small startled gasp. He certainly looked naive like this. Where was the man who said he wanted to do this and that yesterday? How could he be this flustered with just this much?

Sigren exhaled slowly.

“Fiona….”

I opened my eyes widely.  “Didn’t you lock the door because you wanted to do this?”

“Actually, there’s another reason.”

Wait, did I just get too excited?

Sigren grinned while seeing my expression. “Well, it doesn’t matter.”

Then there was the moment when he bowed his head as if to kiss….

BANG!

“Get out now.”

The door that Sigren was leaning on shook and Abel’s voice was heard.

Sigren paused and his expression looked stern as if he had expected it.

“I knew it.”

Aha, so he locked the door to stop Abel.

“Sigren, come out by the count of five.”

Immediately, beyond the door, Abel’s voice was heard counting.

One, two, three—.

Oh my gosh, it was only in times like this that that guy was acting as my guardian!

In the end, I groaned while pressing Sigren’s lips with my index finger.

“This, there is next time.”

“….”

I smiled when I saw his distorted expression.

Yeah, let’s do this, a romantic relationship.

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