I Am Troubled That My Fiance Is a Villain Chapter 15
I thought that Lila falling down the stairs would be the talk of the school for a while, but a week has passed since then, and that unexpectedly wasnāt the case.
Because the preparations for Thanksgiving have begun.
Thanksgiving is held at the Royal Academy grounds, especially with it being the venue for nobles.
Since itās only held every five years, students who are attending school at the time are able to participate in the preparations.
Although itās not as student-centered as the cultural festivals in my previous life, clubs, such as the art club with their exhibitions and the drama club with their concert, are motivated. Even though youāre allowed to not participate as well, thereās no way you can let such a chance slip away, since the festival only happens once every five years.
Along those lines, as an official member of the Hidden Student Council, Iām helping with our exhibition. Seemingly as if having been unbound from that day onward, Katerina has been busy assisting the Drama Club with their play, having alsoĀ pulled Ionius along with her. Whatās more, it looks like sheās having fun.
Speaking of which, it seems that the rumor about me having pushed Lila was forgotten with the flurried preparations for Thanksgiving.
In its place, something else was stirring.
āIt was a winter day when I was 8 years old. In the middle of the courtyard covered in the previous dayās snowfall was a girl. It was early morning, with everyone still asleep except for us. Though I think it was more of dawn than anything⦠The whole place was really quiet, as if the snow absorbed all the noise entirely.
As though she was unconcerned with the piercing cold of the morning air, she stood with a thin dress adorned with white lace. The silver embroidery on her dress glittered with the morning light, I was so sure that she was a snow spirit.
When I look back on the days I spent with her, for a moment, Iām filled with regret of not having sketched her before she died. Even if I were to say that now, thereās nothing I can do about it. The moment she noticed me, she turned around. I really didnāt think she was of this world. No matter how beautiful the morning or night was, it was no match for her.
She had lustrous obsidian-likeĀ hair. Her black hair was striking, like the only drop of ink in a white world⦠When I asked her, āYouāre a snow spirit. Wonāt you disappear once the sun rises?ā She replied with a disgusted face, āAre you stupid? Saying things like snow spirit, youāre weird.ā Ah, even as Iām remembering it right now, knowing that Iām the only one who was able to look at that beautiful person, Iām shivering in happiness!ā
āWhat is he sayingā¦ā
āDonāt look, Lizzy.ā
Looking at Lucas shivering, overcome with emotions, I got the chills for some reason. Wow. I didnāt think that the temperature would drop just by looking at a pervert.
āSo mean, since you said you wanted to know about her, Iām even acting out my important memory.ā
āWhat I wanted to know was her identity, not Senseiās memory. Anyways! Why are you sitting at our table?!ā
Even though I finally have a moment to eat an elegant lunch with Bern, this suspicious, masochist teacher arbitrarily brought his own chair and sat with us.
It seems that because the security for Thanksgiving was pushed onto the school, he ran away from the staff dining hall and came here.
So now, as I was asking Bern about Lucasā first love, he appeared with the worst timing. Weāve been listening to him reminiscence for a while now.
Even Bern plans on just treating him as if heĀ isnāt there, breaking apart the meat from the cabbage roll-like meat dish. Even though they taste good togetherā¦
āWell, whenever Iām with students, they run away from me super fast, and I donāt get much time with them. No matter how close I am with them, everyone just leaves me and runs away. They leave me behind here. I wonder if you guys are gonna immediately do that as well. So if you guys keep me company for a little more, Iāll think about not flicking your foreheads.ā
āKeep you company!?ā
I screamed at Lucas, abandoning my polite language and looked at Lucas with his never-changing smile, not knowing his true intentions.
āIf I apologize right now, he might forgive me.ā I felt uncomfortable having such thoughts.
āWhatāre you shouting for?ā
I turned to look towards the angry, exasperated voice Iāve gotten used to hearing behind me, and there was Darius.
āWoah, there he is.ā
āYouāre rude, saying that as soon as you see someoneās face.ā
I donāt want to be told that by Darius of all people.
As I thought rapidly of how to answer back, Darius forcibly placed his own tray on the narrow table and brought over a nearby leftover chair.
The table originally made for two people became crowded with trays of four people.
āGood timing. Iām also sitting here. I was worried about having to look for a seat.ā
āHey, wait.ā
And just like that, there were four people sitting now.
Wait a minuteā¦
āBeing surrounded by The Three Musketeers of not listening to people⦠Iām doneā¦ā
āāThe Three Mus-ke-teersāā¦?ā
āJust donāt mind my monologueā¦ā
I see, thereās no Three Musketeers in this world. Thatās to be expected. I wonder what would be the closest thing to it would be. The Three Wise Men? The Three Wise Men of not listening to people⦠No can do. I mean, theyāre supposed to be wise men.
Ah, but Bern trying to pronounce it just now was cute, so Iāll let it be. Yep.
āSo, the matter with Johann Drexler that you asked me about.ā
As soon as Darius spoke up, a serious atmosphere befell the table.
The truth is that Johann is involved in the ripple going through the school.
āThe day after testifying that Carneille-san was pushed down the stairs, Johann took a leave of absence from school. He persistently said it was a family matter. His close friends donāt know anything either. Though it seems like Count Drexler himself hasnāt gone home.ā
Eh, why is Lucas joining in as if itās normal? And being impressed as well.
āThen itās safe to say something happened.ā
Ah, Bernās in villain mode.
Although Iāve been saying a lot of things inside my mind up until a while ago, I feel that Iām instead sticking out like a sore thumb.
āPlusā¦ā
Bernās gaze suddenly turned to somewhere far away. Everyone present looked at where he was looking, and watched as His Highness and Lila went up to the second floor.
Lilaās twisted right arm was hanging, with His Highness carrying her tray.
Then Lila, who was always two steps back previously, as if being humble, was now snuggling closely to him. As if they were fiances.
That wasnāt the only thing that changed.
āOh myā¦ā
āBeing that close.ā
āAlthough Katerinsama herself accepted breaking off the engagement, to be that bold. How thoughtless.ā
āIāve thought so for a long time now.ā
āActually, me tooā¦ā
āWhatās going on? The moment Drexler disappears, theyāre suddenly attacking Lila.ā
Bewildered, Darius muttered.
āMan, girls are scary.ā
Lucas jokingly said, having lost interest already, and heartily tore his bread apart.
The torn apart pieces of bread werenāt scattered about on his plate, it actually looks methodical.
The women werenāt the only ones raising their eyebrows at Lila. As if having been suppressed and suddenly bursting out in one go, everyone started murmuring complaints about Lila.
I wonder just what Lilaās trying to do.
Even though sheās been behaving up until now, since the incident, she hasnāt been able to control her surroundings.
I wonder if it has something to do with Johannās absence.
I faintly hear Lilaās unnatural laugh from the second floor.
For some reason, that didnāt feel like it came from the bottom of her heart.
With todayās classes over, I packed up my things, left the classroom, and there waiting for me outside in the corridor was Bern.
Although itās not that weird for third-year classes to end at the same time, I wonder how heās able to come so quickly to the first-year classrooms. Maybe he went through the windows. Hmm, impossible.
āIāll stay with you until dinner today.ā
āIs that okay?ā
In addition to what happened with Lila, with him not entrusting his ducal work to somebody else, Bernās been busy. I was shocked at his words.
āSeems that someone from outside came back with information about Johannās whereabouts, and it might come as early as the day after tomorrow. Because of that, Iāll be busy again. It looks like the matter with the territory has been settled as well.ā
āI see.ā
Heās going to be busy again.
I wish thereās something I could do to help, but Bernās not going to like that.
If something bad happened to me, like for example, someone threatens me, or even reaching out to someone from his so-called shady business, heād hate that as well. Though I believe he wonāt wrongfully hurt someone. Thatās why even now, to not worry me, Bern himself doesnāt let me get close to anything related to it.
I donāt know if itās because heās worried about me or just doesnāt want to be hated.
So that means today we get to relax for a while, and I said,
āThen Iāll take you to my secret spot!ā
Eagerly taking my hand, like all those years ago, he delightfully laughed and said, āPlease lead the way.ā
With the never-ending, recent back and forth of information, I feel like Iāve been tossed about, but with Bernās never-changing habit of holding hands together, I feel a small sense of security.
I discovered this secret spot with Darius. Behind the Third Building was a considerable thicket, and beyond that was a meadow. A little farther to the west of that were bushes of wild strawberries.
With it being the right time, small pale pink and purple flowers were blooming ā it felt a little bit like a fairy-tale.
Not expecting this kind of place to exist at the back of the school, as soon as Bern came out of the thicket, his eyes widened.
The slightly higher than ankle grass was swaying in the breeze, waving like the ocean.
I took a deep breath, overcome with emotion ā it smelled like summer, the scent of the torrid soil and grass mixing together.
āIt really looks like the meadows where we rode your horse, doesnāt it?ā
By the way, knowing that itād be troublesome if Darius found us, we decided to lie down.
Feeling nostalgic at my mention of horse riding, Bern squinted his eyes.
As expected of a sunny place, itās warm, and because of that, we sat down side by side under the shade of a tree.
There was a dent in the roots of the tree that was just right, and impressed by just how comfortable it was, we laughed.
I mean, the fit was just amazing.
Relaxed, Bern poked at a mushroom that was growing under the shade of the tree. Although the color looks amazing, I wonder if itās okay to poke it. Iām worriedā¦
But Iām glad.
Since Bernās been so busy recently, he hasnāt been his usual absent-minded self that much and I was beginning to worry a little bit.
A particularly strong breeze blew, and my hair flew in my face. Reflexively closing my eyes, when I move them out of the way, there was Bernās face, much closer than before.
Silently not saying anything, his beautiful face resembled that of a doll.
Without fixing his, he instead fixed my own disheveled hair. As if satisfied with it, Bernās face came closer. W-wait, donāt tell meā¦! I put up my guard in vain, as Bern rested his head on my shoulder.
Thinking for a moment that he was going to kiss me, I felt embarrassedā¦
As I was writhing in shame and sadness, Bern inconsiderately buried his head further into my shoulders.
It hurts a little bit, but Iāll let you do as you please.
āā¦Iām a little tired.ā
āYou can sleep, you know. Iāll wake you up later.ā
āIām sure youāll sleep as well, so I refuse.ā
āI wonāt.ā
He laughs, āHehehe,ā and his breath tickles me.
For some reason, he reminds me of a big animal as he buries himself further into my neck. Like a horse thatās happily being brushed.
Because Bern was finally able to rest after such a long time, the talk about Johann from lunchtime, whether or not Lucas was an ally, as well as the various questions I wanted to ask him ā I left all of those behind for now.
I wonder why I could only do this much.
Or rather, even if I knew, I have a feeling Iāll be kept from doing anything. Thatās what Bern will probably do.
Thatās why I donāt think I should keep on being like this.
Because the things I wanted to know might be unpleasant, Iāve been idle and running away from the things I donāt know.
Ah, but to ask him right now might be a littleā¦
Okay. Iāll ask him tomorrow. Thatās what Iāll do. I canāt run away from this. Since Iām an anxious woman.
āLizzy.ā
Bern turns my head sideways, and looks at me.
Although our faces were unthinkably close, the sunlight filtering through the trees shines in his grey eyes as I stare at them ā they felt mysterious and gentle.
Bern opens and closes his mouth ā two, three times, hesitating to say something.
As if waiting quietly for that chance, a rustling noise came from the thicket, and when I looked over, there was a girl clenching her hands into fists and glaring at me.
Because Iām fixing the plot, there have been various changes done⦠I donāt care what happens after anymore, though I wonder where my Golden Week wentā¦
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH BERNāS A DAMN TEASE.
Also, about Bern saying āThe Three Mus-ke-teers?ā and Lizia going āThe way he pronounced it was damn cute,ā was actually supposed to be āBern saying the hiragana (or trying to) was damn cuteā but ya know, this is in English so it doesnāt make sense that way so thatās what you guys get lol.
Author: adorkablerika Name's Erika. For some dumb reason, I decided to major in Physics. I'm stuck in this major now. I used to translate manga and light novels a few years back, left, then came back cause I found some good novels to read. I'm the only TLer on my site, so rip. I'm apparently also good at drawing, and I also like kpop (BTS, I mean, I have Hobi as my pic). I don't bite, so feel free to chat me up on here or on NU @adorkablehiko.