Chapter 69 - Reasons for breaking up

Chapter 69: Reasons for breaking up

Xiao Jiashu felt embarrassed. He really made a slip of the tongue! What the hell is an Empress? It’s a shame to be canonized in front of the people of the whole country! He covered his face and groaned while pushing Ji Mian, begging, “Ji Ge, please do something.”

Ji Mian smiled back and said, “All right, stop fooling around. Xiaoshu is shy.”

“Pfft! The emperor dotes on the empress, and I can’t wait for her to retire!” Ji Mian’s fans initiated another wave of teasing, and then retreated one after another, making the audience almost laugh. Today’s Ji Mian really opened their eyes about him. He could talk about any subject, pick up on any topic and joke around. It simply overturned everyone’s general impression of him. It’s undeniable that he’s even more likable this way—he feels so real.

Lin Leyang stood up in a daze after watching the two of them happily talking to each other, his whole heart was dripping with blood.

Chen Pengxin rushed up to assist him with an anxious expression. The viewer rating of this program has set a record for many reasons, but the director told him after the analysis: whenever Xiao Jiashu and Ji Mian interact, the audience rating will rise a little, which shows that the viewers love them. However, Lin Leyang’s performance in the program was extremely bad, his expression was stiff, he chatted awkwardly all throughout, and he didn’t communicate with his co-actors. Even a blind man can see that he is isolated, which makes it even more difficult to dispel the rumors that he is at odds with Miao MuQing and Xiao Jiashu.

“Come on, smile, the camera’s still shooting.” Chen Pengxin pressed on Lin Leyang’s shoulder.

“I can’t laugh.” Lin Leyang was choking up, but the corners of his mouth still contained a smile though he could barely hold on.

“Let’s go to the dressing room first.” The two went backstage hand in hand.

At the same time, Xiao Jiashu is also very worried. He followed behind Ji Mian like a small tail and wanted to say something, but he didn’t know how to say it. He wanted to tell Ji Mian that he didn’t mean to pry into his private life. He liked him so much that he unconsciously paid attention to details about him and kept them in his mind. He can’t control his thinking, but he can control his behavior. He will never pester him, nor will he demand anything just because of his infatuation. He wanted to silently support Ji Ge and give him a place in his heart to keep himself entertained.

This was all he was thinking about, but he didn’t realize that he had been circling Ji Mian for a long time, going around left and right, almost knocking into Ji Mian’s assistant.

When the assistant was squeezed into a corner by him, Ji Mian finally said, “Aren’t you going to go back to remove your makeup and change your clothes?”

“Eh?” Xiao Jiashu looked up before he realized he had followed Ji Ge to the door of his dressing room, and replied nervously, “I just wanted to see you off, then I’ll go first.” He finally did not dare to say his thoughts, but he will express it with his actions – he will never trouble Ji Ge, as he is not a brainless fan, but a loyal1 + sensible fan.

“OK, go home early and get some rest.” Ji Mian looked down at him with a glimmer of light in his eyes.

Xiao Jiashu waved his hand, walked around the corner to leave before suddenly heard a huff of laughter behind him. He looked back but found that Ji Ge looked very tired, rubbing his brows. He urged, “You too go home early and get some rest.”

“Hmm.” Ji Xian nodded slightly and waited for the person to walk away before releasing a small smile.

“Mr. Ji, do you think Xiao Jiashu really admires you or does he want to use you to stir up hype?” The assistant was worried.

“With his contacts, does he still need to attach himself to me?” Ji Mian pushed the door in and said faintly, “Although the entertainment circle is very chaotic, there are still really upright people.”

The assistant saw that his expression was not right, so he did not dare to say anything more. Fang Kun walked in from the outside while on the phone, hung up and cursed, “Damn, the audit department itself did not pass the investment plan of《A Hundred Years of Dream》and 《The Cold Prince’s Lady》, How can I be the only person being blamed? If it wasn’t for that kid Lin Leyang ……”

He stopped the topic in time and asked weakly, “Ji Ge, didn’t you say to invest in your own name? Why didn’t you invest?”

“I didn’t want to invest anymore. One person could be full by eating pie, but if two people shared, one of them would have to starve. Besides, even without me, these two dramas were still made, and they are very well shot.” Ji Mian was lying on the sofa pretending to be sleeping, and the makeup artist was removing makeup from him.

Fang Kun pinched his fingers to calculate, and couldn’t help but choke. You know, at the beginning, Ji Ge planned to invest 40 million in those two dramas. If he divided it proportionally, he would have earned three or four times as much now! Regret ah!

He didn’t dare mention it again. He silently opened his mobile phone to catch up with the show. Halfway through, the door was knocked. Lin Leyang’s voice came from the outside, “Ji Ge, are you in there?”

“Not in!” Fang Kun yelled impatiently.

It was quiet outside for a while, and then he knocked persistently, “Ji Ge I want to talk to you.”

Fang Kun was about to shoo him away when Ji Mian said indifferently, “Let him in. You guys go out first. ”

Several people filed out, leaving space for the two of them.

“What do you want to say? “Ji Mian washed his face and was slowly wiping the drops of water from his forehead with a towel. He looked so calm, Leyang couldn’t see the look of being in love at all, nor the haggardness after the breakup.

Lin Leyang secretly swallowed a mouthful of saliva and said in a trembling voice, “Ji Ge, are you with Xiao Jiashu, otherwise he wouldn’t know you so well. Did you break up with me because of him?”

“He and I are just ordinary friends. You still don’t understand why I broke up with you?” Ji Mian put down the towel with a solemn expression.

“I don’t understand. We’ve been in love for several years. We’ve never had a fight or had too many conflicts. How can I figure out why you wanted to break up?” Lin Leyang summoned up all his courage to ask these words. No one knew that when he saw that Ji Ge and Xiao Jiashu were getting along so happily, his heart seemed to be getting cut with a blunt knife, and the pain was unstoppable!

Ji Mian looked at him steadily, and sighed at the end, “Do you not understand or do you not dare to think about it? What do you think is the most pleasant way for us to get along?”

Lin Le Yang was stunned for a long time before he said, “I thought we were always happy.”

“When I interfere with you more and more, do you feel happy? No, you have never been happy, you were just being patient. Do you understand what you want from me to be satisfied? You need me to support you unconditionally, tolerate you unconditionally, understand and even give in unconditionally, so that you can gain the greatest sense of security. If I restrain you a little bit, you will prick up all over thinking that I have limited your freedom and have not treated you as a person equal to me. But is this really the case? I have given so much to you2, you can accept it with peace of mind as long as you say, ‘I really love Ji Ge,’ and then stay where you are. You never want to be close to me. Why? Because you don’t like men, you changed your sexuality for me and that’s the biggest sacrifice. So you will never be satisfied, and you will never feel that you should do anything for me. ”

Lin Leyang was speechless as if struck by lightning.

Ji Mian lit a cigarette and continued, “It’s true that you said our status was unequal, but the person with the upper hand has never been me, but you. No matter how much I give, it will not be enough for you, because you were bent by me, and you changed from a straight man to a disgusting homosexual. This is my original sin, and I am indebted to you all my life. ”

“No, no, no, I never thought of it that way.” Lin Leyang shook his head weakly.

“Whether you think that way or not, may not be clear in your own heart, but your actions clearly show it.” Ji Mian exhaled a mouthful of smoke and said slowly, “When I forced Chen Pengxin and Chen Pengyu to write IOUs, did you ever hate me?”

Lin Leyang wanted to shake his head, but couldn’t move. In Ji Mian’s gaze, he felt that he had nowhere to hide.

“If those photos and chat records were exposed, do you think it’s me who will be affected the most, or you? To put it bluntly, with my current position, what kind of black material can bring me down? If they do, I can still live without the entertainment industry. You never thought about who I really wanted to protect when I treated Chen Pengxin and Chen Pengyu so harshly? Who is the biggest beneficiary? Whenever I encounter a difficult situation, I will subconsciously take you under my wing, but you are the exact opposite, and you can immediately stand on the opposite side of me. Since you and Chen Pengxin came from the same hometown, I’m the bad guy. You can forgive Chen Pengyu’s betrayal, but you can’t understand my feelings. Is it really fair for you to treat me like this? Who are you to resent me as much as they do? Even if I have wronged the whole world, I have not wronged you. Our love for each other was free, I didn’t force you to reciprocate and change your sexual orientation, it was your own choice. If you didn’t want to, you should have told me you were straight. “

Lin Leyang unknowingly shed two lines of tears, unable to refute anything.

Ji Mian put out the cigarette, sighing, “Do you know why Xiao Jiashu knows me better than you do? Because he used his heart. You were my lover, we have been together for so many years, have you used your heart for me? Admittedly, I don’t know what you really like, but I have tried so hard to understand you but it was you who closed your heart to me and hid your true self from me, so what I thought I knew was nothing more than an illusion you created for me. What I like and what I hate, if you look carefully, you can also find out, have I stopped you from coming into my heart? No, on the contrary, I have been dragging you towards it and you have been resisting.”

“You cut us off from each other first and then asked me why I wanted to break up with you. Do you think we can really last in this situation? One person keeps trying to get close, while the other person hides in a transparent cover and watches. Can their hands be held together? Lin Leyang, you overestimate my perseverance, and I may be able to stick to it for two years, three years, but I can’t stick to it all my life. “

He put on his coat, opened the door of the room, and explained in a deep voice, “I won’t look back, you have to move on. Let’s go our separate ways.”

The door closed gently, and Lin Leyang looked at the vanity mirror, and found himself in tears. If he didn’t come this time, he might still be able to deceive himself, and he could still swear that Ji Ge still loves him, that they could keep going and be as happy as before. But it turned out that he had never been happy, he had been struggling with contradictions and unease, and Ji Ge had already seen him through.