On the way back to the carriage, Evan seemed silent and angry.
For the first time, he looked out of the cold carriageâs window.
The night breeze blew over the open window and muddled the muffler. Juliana endured the silence, touching her muffler that fluttered according to the tune of the wind.
It wasnât long before Evan spoke.
âWhen you were sick for two days or so. You probably didnât know how much I wanted to stay with you. Iâd have served you better than a maid who just started working.â
With one hand hanging by the window, he spoke quietly as if he were talking to himself.
âI can pay the price for more than everything thatâs around you. Am I, not once, of any use to you?â
âItâs very useful. Iâm sorry, Iâm sorry.â
Juliana barely answered. And frowned her straight eyebrows.
âYou knew I was stuck in bed, but you didnât know what I read there. Anna used a gardener to smuggle this book in.â
Juliana took the book out of her bag.
It was a novel that satirizes the divorce between aristocrats in a cheerful tone. Maybe thatâs why the fame of the book spread like a pandemic among the nobility, saying it was very different from other novels.
It was also a novel that introduced a way to âdivorceâ in the Ariakne Empire. For the latter reason, Juliana intended to take it as a light reference.
However, when she was reading it, she couldnât complete it because she was so bitter that the middle process of an uncontested divorce was still so hurtful to one side.
Why couldnât she read a novel in which neither side of the relationship would be hurt?
Juliana sensed directly that her mind had changed. Unlike the past, when it was easy to hurt Evan, it wasnât the case these days.
However, that didnât mean she really trusted him. Two months after she became aware of her previous life, Juliana was not confident enough to believe or to love him.
She just wanted to run away. The thought that she died in her previous life because she couldnât escape from a miserable life was indelible.
â Leave me alone.
Juliana was 20 years old who had lived two lives, so she was very tired.
How could she explain all that? Would he love her if she told him this?
Maybe heâs stubborn in love because she didnât accept him. Even if she accepts his heart, he will still fall in love with the heroine according to the original probability. Soon Juliana will be an obstacle to her.
âI donât want to consider divorce in this childish way. Thatâs too childish.â
âDo you still think Iâm lacking for you?â
Evan stretched his hand out the window and let it pass through the night.
He frowned slightly on his left eyebrow. He looked more like a god than the stone statue she saw in the temple, perhaps because his skin looked blue in the moonlight.
Juliana swallowed her saliva and tried to look like herself from the past.
âOf course.â
âHmm.â
Even though Evan moved inside the rattling carriage, he crossed over without shaking. Then he bent his knee in front of her, and Juliana stuck closely to the wall of the carriage behind her.
âWhat, what are you doing?â
âJuliana. You know what?â
âWhat?â
Juliana quickly turned her head. One side of the crumpled muffler rubbed Evanâs cheek.
Why?
With his eyes closed, he put his head on her trail muffler and raised the corners of his mouth to smile.
âThe blue rose contest will be held soon. Itâs a stupid jousting contest where all the nobles with two legs and arms can participate. Well, you know. Knights riding on the horsebacks. Iâm also prepared to have my heart pierced to dedicate roses to the idolized Lady.â
âIs that so?â
âYouâre pretending you donât know. I know you received many roses at the last contest.â
âAs you said, itâs all useless.â
Juliana smiled awkwardly. And the Duke looked out of the window and held his sight on the view. Evan answered without looking at her.
âI know. Itâs useless. Thatâs why I havenât participated. Just because you put a lance in the hearts of the young people doesnât mean youâll get the love youâre begging for.â
âYou know.â
âBut-.â
Evan said, carefully grasping the end of the fluttering muffler.
âThat doesnât mean that I will miss the chance to legally deal with some fools who bother you. Donât you think you should keep up with me since youâre taking me out in public and keeping an eye on them?â
ââŠâŠyou know.â
Juliana forced herself to speak in a haughty tone.
Before she wouldnât have had any qualms about using him, but now it was different.
Juliana lowered her eyes, trying to ignore the stiff pain. Evan looked at her and wrapped her fluttering muffler around her neck.
âJuliana.â
ââŠ..â
Juliana looked up cautiously at the sound of her name.
She was trembling with fear. He couldnât guess where the fear came from, and whether it would disappear, so Evan just looked at her and whispered.
âItâs okay. You can use me. In return, donât try to take advantage of me by saying youâll leave.â
As soon as he finished speaking, she let out a sigh.
At the same time, Juliana bit her lower lip. Evan felt nervous as he greedily looked at her plump, tinged lower lip that was slightly pressed.
The nervous tension wasnât so bad. Juliana Auburn didnât know that even though he was angry and nervous, he would never do anything wrong in front of her.