Renatoâs expression stiffened when seeing Khalid saying as if his fainting had a specific cause. Khalid immediately asked back, perhaps because he had been waiting.
âHave you ever heard of trauma?â
âTraumaâŠâŠâ
âIn other words, Iâm talking about post-traumatic stress disorder. It refers to the situation when a person who was severely traumatized by war or disaster feels the same fear or pain when they encounter a similar situation.â
âAh.â
âShould I explain it more simply? A person who almost died from drowning will never be able to swim again, or a person who was nearly stabbed to death by a sword will hyperventilate just by looking at a sharp objectâŠâŠ These are typical symptoms of trauma.â
Renatoâs pale violet-colored eyes shook because of Khalidâs explanation. Renato seemed to understand why the man was saying that to him. So, Khalid meant thatâŠâŠ
âAre you saying I have post-traumatic stress disorder?â
âIf I put together what I have felt after seeing you and what I have heard from Dame Luna today, that seems to be the case, Your Imperial Highness. Perhaps that scar was the cause.â
Khalidâs gaze went down. Realizing where he was looking, Renato reflexively shrank his waist. With just the manâs gaze, subtle heat rose from his scar. It was a strange feeling, different from the pain that normally tormented Renato.
âWith those symptoms, you must have noticed as well, Your Imperial Highness. Have you ever felt that your condition was strange lately?â
âA little bit. But today was the first time I fainted.â
âConsidering what happened today, such symptoms happen when you see a sword or blood, right? Your body trembles, or, conversely, hardensâŠâŠ You will probably find it difficult to breathe. And when I look at you earlier, I feel like you had phantom pain as wellâŠâŠâ
âH, how.â
Renato couldnât deny any of Khalidâs examples. All of them were things he had experienced. The pain from the scar that came up every moment, the tremors that could not be controlled, and other symptoms all occurred after he returned to the past.
So he thought it was the aftereffects of regression. But was it because of trauma, not aftereffects?
Renato bit his lower lip with a confused expression. Khalid didnât know this, but besides seeing a sword or blood, there were other times when he panicked as well. It was when he met Maximo.
Perhaps that man is the cause of the trauma.
Renatoâs face darkened when he thought of Maximo. Just thinking about the man made him feel a tingling, aching sensation near his scar.
âSo I reallyâŠâŠâ
Unable to continue his words, Renato closed his mouth. If it was made certain that he was having a trauma, his plans for the future might be disrupted.
âYou will have to be diagnosed to know for sure, but I think itâs likely to be post-traumatic stress disorder.â
âHow do you know this, your highness?â
âPost-traumatic stress disorder is a disorder that many knights and soldiers suffer from. I have seen countless people with the same symptoms as Your Imperial Highnessâ over the years.â
It was very arduous to stay sane on the battlefield where people died every day, where a comrade who laughed and chatted with them in the morning returned as a cold corpse in the afternoon.
The wound caused by the death of a comrade, the guilt of murder, the primal fear of dyingâŠâŠ Khalid had met people who suffered from traumas because of various reasons.
Some of them eventually gave up the sword path. In severe cases, they even took their own lives. That was why he felt worried about Renato.
âIf you leave it like this, your symptoms will only get worse. You should start treatment right away.â
âButâŠâŠâ
Renato hesitated with a troubled expression. If he was fortunate enough, he might be able to receive treatment without Marquis Medus knowing, but he was not confident to explain when and how this scar appeared.
Is it also because of Marquis Medus?
Seeing Renato hesitating to seek treatment, Khalid recalled what he had seen in Nasirâs report. Renato had made up his mind to part ways with Marquis Medus, so it was understandable that Renato didnât want to show his weak side in front of that man, but if he didnât get treatment, his symptoms would only get worse.
ââŠâŠWould you like to meet the military doctor on our side?â
After agonizing for a while, Khalid carefully recommended. He knew it wasnât good to do Renato a favor when he still couldnât decide whether he would be with Renato in the future or not, but he couldnât turn a blind eye to a sick person.
âMilitary doctor?â
âYes. Sir Souad is an expert in trauma therapy. I think itâll be fine if you receive medical treatment for a short while whenever you visit the diplomatic office for business.â
Even Marquis Medus would not know the details of what was going on in the diplomatic office where Khalid exerted influence. Khalid was confident that if Renato wanted to, he could get treatment without even his closest aides like Luna and Louis knowing.
âYou donât have to worry about words leaking out.â
âIt would be great if I could get treatment, butâŠâŠ Why are you doing this kind of favor?â
Renato asked with a confused expression. He knew Khalid was a kind person. But the goodwill he was showing now was excessive.
âIâm not sureâŠâŠ Hmm, I guess itâs because Iâm worried about the health of someone who might be my companion in the future.â
Khalid muffled his words for a moment, then playfully responded. Truthfully, he himself didnât even understand why he cared so much about Renato.
But one thing was certain: he would continue to be swayed by Renato in the future. His intuition, which was much stronger than othersâ, was shouting like that to him.
âSo please answer me.â
Khalid leaned his body towards Renato. His hand once again accurately touched the scar hidden under the shirt. The sudden touch made Renato gasp.
âWho made this scar?â
Khalid lightly rubbed the scar at his fingertips and asked in a quiet tone. Then, he recalled the scar he had seen a few hours ago.
The new skin that grew on Renatoâs pure white skin without blemishes was definitely caused by a stab wound. Moreover, the shape of the scar was also unusual. It was clear that the person who wounded Renato wasnât just any random person, but someone who had used the sword quite a bit.
If this scar remained even with the unique healing power of the imperial family, it would have been so serious to the point of endangering Renatoâs life.
The more he thought about the culprit who wounded Renato, the angrier he strangely became. He applied more force to the scar at his fingertips.
ââŠâŠUgh, what will you do if you know?â
Letting out a short groan, Renato grabbed Khalidâs hand on his waist. He bit his lip, desperately holding back the groans that were about to come out of his mouth.
âBecause a madman that stabbed an imperial family member with a sword should be punished, am I wrong? Ah, or is that person already dead?â
Khalid took his hand off the scar and pretended not to know. In fact, he had some guesses as to who the culprit was. There was only one person who had made Renato show strange reactions so far.
Maximo Florence.
Khalid slightly frowned, remembering their meeting at the welcome banquet. Back then, Renato had the reactions of a typical assault victim.
âMy scar has nothing to do with you, your highness.â
âMaybe it will have something to do with me in the future.â
Hearing Khalidâs words, Renatoâs expression subtly changed. He felt like he was continuously swayed around by this man from a while ago. Feeling choked up for some reason, Renato pursed his lower lip. Renato was slightly annoyed by Khalidâs attitude of acting vaguely as if he would accept the proposal, while still attempting to solve his own curiosity.
ââŠâŠIf you are curious, please marry me.â
âExcuse me?â
âIâll let you know when you accept my proposal, your highness.â
âI beg your pardon?â
âI am not yet your companion, your highness. Iâm just someone who might be your companion. So I donât feel obligated to answer your question.â
Renato refused to answer Khalidâs question in a sullen tone. Khalidâs face became blank for a moment because of the sharp reaction that was unlike Renatoâs. But soon, the corners of his lips went up, and he let out a soft chuckle.
âYou are right, Your Imperial Highness. I was being rude.â
With soft laughter, Khalid lightly retreated as if admitting his defeat. However, the distance between the two was still close enough to faintly feel each otherâs breath. Feeling uncomfortable, Renato moved his body back.
âIf you know nowâŠâŠâ
âHowever, you know what it means to become an Alphaâs companion but still insist on marrying me, right, Your Imperial Highness?â
âExcuse me?â
Renato was about to ask Khalid to part away from him, but stopped when hearing the manâs words. Knowing what it means? His light purple eyes stared at the red irises with suspicion.
Khalid smirked when seeing Renato react like that. It was a mischievous smile just like a villain who found someone to tease.
âI donât know about marriages with Betas, but Alphas and Omegas have the duty to consummate the wedding even if they are married for convenience.â