It was Kaelusâ first outing since his suicide attempt. Of course, the butler and the other servants were full of worry.
âLady Hestia, please take good care of Lord KaelusâŠâ
Uross whispered in a low voice, so that only I could hear him. I also nodded discreetly so that Kaelus wouldnât see.
âDonât worry.â
Kaelus looked a little pale, perhaps nervous about his first outing in a long time. Nevertheless, the peculiar coldness remained.
âLetâs go, Hestia.â
âYes.â
Leaving behind the butlerâs worried eyes, he quickly climbed into the carriage.
For the first time, I went out with my favorite, but honestly, I was more nervous than excited. Pleasant excitement is only possible when youâre at a moderate distance, and now!
âWhoaâŠ.â
âHmm? Is there anything uncomfortable?â
Itâs because of you, you!
âNo, Iâm just a little nervous.â
âHmm.â
The purple eyes looked at me in disbelief, but I didnât try to meet them.
The carriage soon fell silent. It was because we werenât the type to say anything to break the silence. The most confusing thing at times like this is the eye contact. All I did was look outside once in a while, touching the window only with my fingers.
Unlike me, Kaelus stared through the carriage window with a blank stare. The expression was so beautiful that my heart throbbed for no reason.
ââŠ.â
ââŠâ
Feeling his gaze, I deliberately lowered my head in fear that his concentration would be broken. And in my head, I focused on what I would do when I met Helios at the palace.
Todayâs goal was to learn about Dianaâs tea party preparations in addition to delivering my foreshadowing to Helios. It would be nice if I could snoop around here and there as an excuse for a long visit to the palace. Itâs icing on the cake.
In the current imperial family without an empress, Diana holds the highest position as a female adult. How much did she control the experienced servants who had been with the royal family for decades? In fact, itâs not an exaggeration to say that the success or failure of this tea party is in their hands.
âDo you have any concerns?â
âWhat?â
I was surprised by the unexpected voice. Kaelusâ expressionless face was looking at me.
âAh⊠I was just thinking about this and thatâŠ.â
âIs it something serious?â
âNo, itâs not like that. But I thought it was my first visit to the Imperial Palace..â
Come to think of it, Iâm accompanying Kaelus now. Then I should reconsider going around the palace. Wouldnât it be a problem if he ran into someone uncomfortable â Diana or Helios? Unfortunately, we have no choice but to take a rain check on the preparation of the tea party.
âYou didnât look around properly the other day.â
I gave a general nod to Kaelusâ question.
âYes, I was very nervous because it was my first visit.â
I answered casually and waved my hands hastily.
âBut Iâm not going around the palace today. Since youâre here this time, Iâm just going to finish my business and go home.â
Kaelus muttered bitterly.
âIs it because of me?â
âAhâŠâ
I shouldnât have said, âBecause youâre here, too.â I think I made Kaelusâ heart heavy for no reason.
Whether he knew how I felt, he continued in his usual indifferent tone.
âThen letâs go back on our own as soon as weâre done. I donât have to wait for you, and you donât have to worry about me.â
âWhat? ButâŠâ
I was embarrassed and immediately tried to refute it. But Kaelus raised his hand to shut me down.
âI know you donât trust me, but Iâm not a child. Donât worry, Iâm not stupid enough to follow you around and take care of you.â
âNo, itâs not like that. What are you going to do if you fall down?!â
His answer went to the back of my mind. My voice raised without my intention.
Nevertheless, Kaelus answered indifferently without changing his countenance.
âIâm not that weak. Anyway, thatâs what I think.â
ââŠ.â
That stubborn, single minded bonehead. It was the real appearance of my favorite Kaelus that I had forgotten. Iâm angry right now, but Iâm also happy to be honest. Gradually he seemed to be returning to his old days.
ââŠI see.â
I guess he thought it was unexpected for me to accept it with a sigh. Kaelusâ eyebrows were raised slightly. But thatâs all. He didnât say anything else.
Yes, the crown princess, who is busy preparing for the tea party, wonât rush around to the palace where the emperor lives in this situation. I can only hope sheâs stuck in the lily palace.
As soon as the carriage entered the palace, I signaled the coachman and stopped the carriage.
âIâll get off here and walk to the lily palace. See you at the marquis.â
As I walk, I can see the atmosphere of the servants and above all, isnât it better to give up the carriage to the patient?
ââŠI wonât.â
Kaelus turned away without much objection. Although he didnât look at me, I got off with a smile.
I looked for a moment at the marquisâ carriage, which was slowly moving away. And soon, I walked vigorously toward the crown princeâs residence.
It was very rare for a noble woman to walk alone without a single maid. Perhaps because of that, the passing people of the palace did not seem to think that I was the talk of the town, Marchioness Hestia. Everyone passed by indifferently without looking back.
I didnât come to Helios because I didnât set a time to meet anyway, so I walked leisurely. I think it was good that I decided to act move from Kaelus. I am grateful to him for the delay.
But after a while.
âItâs quite spaciousâŠ.â
Before, I didnât know I had to walk this much because I came to the lily palace by carriage. I regret getting off at the front gate now, but what can I do?
âYou have to walk.â
I answered my own question.
My feet are beginning to hurt in my shoes. I couldnât sit down anywhere, so I looked up and around. Just in time, I found a bench moderately covered by shrubs, and I sat on it with a slight limp.
âPhewâŠ.â
I slipped off my shoes and hung them on my toes. I thought I could only live when the pressure on my feet disappeared.
Then, chatter came from afar. I stopped breathing without realizing it.
âMadame Merope seems to have a lot of difficulties in many ways.â
âItâs been a while since she had a tea party this big.â
âAnd itâs not easy to convince her highness.â
âI know. Itâs not just a difference of tasteâŠ.â
The voices quickly faded away.
ââŠ.â
It was a short conversation between the ladies, but it was enough to grasp the situation.
Madame Merope. The maid who served the deceased Empress. She was one of the most experienced people in this palace. Her inability to âpersuade her highnessâ meant that Diana and her were at odds over the tea party concept.
Of course, Diana had the right to decide when the two are at odds. But it would be better to accept Madame Meropeâs opinion. Because her years and experience are no match for that of Diana, who has just risen from commoner to crown princess.
Judging from Dianaâs taste in the novel, Diana would definitely want a tea party with a simple and frugal atmosphere. However, they are not unmarried young ladies, but the Crown Princess is meeting with the noble ladies in charge of each family for the first time, and the concept of simpleness is not suitable. Even if you donât wear fancy gold jewelry recklessly, you need to raise your dignity. Didnât Madame Merope probably emphasize this?
I wish we could bump into each other. The imperial palaceâs sense and the new royal family member that just rolled in. It just so happens that the confrontation is so clear!
Iâm going to have to tell Countess Erinnis about this. She may be able to attract some useful public opinion because she is a quiet woman when her best friends sit together.
I applied for an audience and waited for a while, but soon I was called into Heliosâ office.
âItâs surprising that you came to see me first.â
Helios said this as soon as he saw me. Itâs rather good that you donât have to set a cumbersome example. I immediately went to business in a dry tone.
âI have to tell you about the upcoming future. I apologize for the bad news, your highness the crown prince.â
âItâs a bad future?â
Helios came up at once with a grimace and sat down.
âTell me, marchioness.â
âIn a few days the emperor will suddenly fall ill. But I donât know the exact time or what kind of disease it is.â
â!â
He froze.
After a moment of silence, questions poured out as if a bank had burst.
âYou donât know when? So you can stop him? Can he recover?â
My voice was calm while his voice was growing louder.
âTo be honest with you, you canât stop it completely. However, keep your royal highness as close as possible to his majesty. Then, even if an accident occurs, you will be able to use her healing power immediately. Of course, there will be less aftereffects.â
Heliosâ face flushed in confusion.
âThe future you originally saw⊠How was it?â
I replied in a dull way.
âHeâll collapse while youâre dealing with the affairs. The servant, who was nearby, ran straight to the palace and called for the holy princess, but the time was delayed, and the kingâs movements became uncomfortable and his energy was greatly reduced.â
âAhâŠâ
Helios covered his face with his hands. Even if it was a future that had not yet happened, it seemed quite shocking.
âTotallyâŠunstoppable⊠I meanâŠ.â
âI understand that your highness the crown princess still sees him every night and exercises her power. And yet this is bound to happen.â
âThen what the hell is she doingâŠ!â
I didnât feel a hint of pity at the sight of the man muttering hopelessly.
So who said to monopolize the power of healing only for imperial family? Even if you get a holy healing shower every day, those who are sick will get sick and those who will die will die.
âBut if you know in advance and prepare yourself, he will recover quickly even if he falls. Donât worry too much. Thatâs why Iâm telling you about the future.â
âWhooâŠ.â
Helios breathed a deep sigh. I waited in silence for him to regain his composure.
In a moment,
ââŠthe only way to prepare is to keep Diana near the king?â
âThat was the best I could think of, but if you have any other good ideas, you may do so.â
âDiana is so busy these days.â
âItâs because of the tea party. Itâs a tough job.â
Helios looked up at me.
âIf you donât know when heâs going to faint, it means you donât know if itâs today or tomorrow, right?â
âYes.â
I didnât hesitate to say yes.
Helios sang his servant with a pale complexion.
âZenon!â
The chief of the lily palace, which is the closest to the crown prince, came running like a log.
âDid you call me, your grace?â
âTell the crown princess. Head for the main palace right now. Iâll catch up soon.â
â!â
It was rather me who was heartbroken by his instructions. Kaelus was in the emperorâs place right now!
Zenon, the captain of the ship, ran back like the wind. I didnât have time to catch him.
âOhâŠ.â
Looking at the back of it in a stupor, Heliosâ voice rang.
âWhatâs wrong? Is there a problem?â
âItâsâŠ.â
I grabbed my forehead without realizing it. What should I do? Should I tell you the truth?
âIâm asking you what it is, marchioness.â
The same seemed to be true of Helios, who was nervous. The hesitation will only make him even more anxious. I closed my eyes tightly and confessed.
âMy husband is now at the palaceâŠ.â
âWhatâŠ?â
I guess he didnât expect this kind of answer. Heliosâ expression was rarely very blank.
I answered him again.
âKaelus is presenting to his majesty the emperor. To avoid encountering the crown princess, we were supposed to return separately as soon as the meeting was over..â
ââŠ.â
Helios shut up at once and for all.
âItâs going to be okay, right?â
ââŠIf Kael is talking to him, we can run into him outside after.â
There was no room for further hesitation. I got out of my seat right away.
âIâm sorry, your grace. Iâm worried about my husbandâs condition, so I have to get up first.â
âI said Iâd go anyway, so letâs move together.â
We left the lily palace and headed for the emperorâs residence.
It is also called the emperorâs main palace-the lion palace because of the statue in front of the palace. I hurried to the door.
While he was catching his breath, Helios asked the guard in front of the palace.
âDid Marquis Kaelus come out yet?â
âYes, your highness,â
This time I asked.
âHas the crown princess entered yet?â
âYes, she went into his majestyâs place after receiving urgent messages.â
â!â
Oh, my God, Diana. Youâre incredibly quick. Helios suddenly ordered to go to the emperor, but you came running without a question? The saint who used to scold the high priests!
In any case, the reality remains unchanged. Kaelus eventually met Diana at the palace.
Helios and I had no choice but to wait until the two of them came out to us. First of all, it was not possible to invade the place where the emperor and his subjects were talking alone, and the grounds for our invasion were weak.
Diana was the exception. Thanks to her healing powers, she was able to ignore most taboos in the palace. Unless the emperor specifically ordered a ban on entry, Diana could enter and leave the bedroom where he slept.
It was a privilege that transcended even the crown prince.
â⊠The crown princess seems to be really concerned about his majesty.â
I was a little choked up, so I couldnât stop talking. I have to control my emotions perfectly, but I failed this time.
Helios sighed quietly, too.
âThe other servant said he was walking near the Lion Palace just in time. Thatâs why she arrived so soonâŠ.â
Itâs funny that coincidences always overlap when theyâre bad. It has already happened anyway. I hope Kaelus comes out without a hitch.
Then I heard Heliosâ bitter voice.
âThe marquis once told me,â
â?â
You must be talking about when you came to check on Kaelusâ marriage. I waited quietly for his next words.
âWith me and Diana⊠He said he couldnât smile like he used to.â
ââŠ.â
Is it a kind of declaration of an end to friendship? Of course, it doesnât mean that youâre going to quit your relationship at all, but at least itâs a sign that youâre going to abandon your position as a best friend.
Prior to his return, he lost Kaelus to death, and after my return, he followed his own will. Helios was destined to lose his best friend in life anyway.
His face stiffened and he could hardly straighten it out.
âMy husband sometimes has difficulty breathing when heâs in a bad emotional state. Your Highness is around, so first aid will be quick.â
ââŠ
â
Helios couldnât say anything at my complaints.
Dianaâs appearance was simply a sickening drug cycle for Kaelus. Kaelus himself said itâs okay because heâs found some stability, but thatâs what he says when sheâs not in front of him, and no one knows whatâs going to happen if he encounters her in person.
Still, itâs a relief to see that there is no particular disturbance inside. If any one of them fell down, it would have gone crazy.
After awhile,
â!â
â!â
The door to the living room room opened. A white-faced Kaelus came out.
ââŠ.â
He glanced at the hardened Helios, and then immediately turned his gaze to me.
âYou came after all. You donât have to worry.â
I held out my hand like I was possessed by something. in a perfectly natural motion As if asking him for an escort.
And Kaelus gracefully held my hand in front of Helios.
âLetâs go back, Kaelus.â
âAlright.â
He turned his back and glanced at Helios. Helios only stood beautifully like a pillar of ice.
Kaelus really didnât say a word to Helios.
âAre you okay?â
ââŠ.â
In the carriage homeward, Kaelus was white and quiet. As if to prove that he was fine, his expression was very disturbing.
âKaelus.â
ââŠ.â
I grabbed his hand quickly. It was cold.
âYes, itâs all right. Itâs all over now.â
How do you feel when you suddenly face the cause that made you want to die? I donât dare to guess.
Terrible love and hatred. He wanted to die because of her, but his heart beats because of her again. How on earth should we deal with this terrible contradiction?
âYou did a great job. Kaelus, you did a great job.â
My favorite who must have been overwhelmed with shame when facing Diana. How much he must have wanted his heart to be firm as a rock. Nevertheless, walking straight out without being disturbed to the end is proof that Kaelus himself tried hard enough to not die.
Kaelusâ blank face slowly turned toward me.
âIâve done a good jobâŠ?â
His eyes turned into a cold sneer.
âWhat do you know, Hestia?â
ââŠâ
As a reader of this novel many times, I probably understand more about the world than you do. Kaelus.
But I didnât plead. Because itâs not my goal to be recognized and accepted by Kaelus. He may vent his resentment on me. If only it would comfort him and make him feel at peace.
âI guess your foresight must be able to read peopleâs minds, right? Is that why youâre pretending to know?â
ââŠâ
Kaelusâ sharp purple eyes flew towards my face and stayed there. I bowed my head in silence. Rather than those sharp eyes, it is more painful to worry about the pain he is unable to talk about. I wish I could scream.
I felt his cold anger that could even freeze my breath, but I was rather happy.
ââŠIâm sorry.â
Rather, I lowered my body so that he could pour out his emotions to his heartâs content.* This is all I can do right now.
*TN: sheâs looking down so he can sort out his feelings without her seeing
ââŠ.â
ââŠ.â
The carriage soon became so quiet that I could not hear a breath.
âHow have you been?â
The butler and the lady-in-waiting came out to greet us.
ââŠ.â
Kaelus went up to his room, building a cold air, without replying. They looked at me with round eyes.
âMadamâŠâ
âPhew, the marquis, heâs in a very bad mood. Iâll tell you the details later.â
The butler and the lady-in-waiting looked at each other for a moment and immediately nodded.
âThen Iâll see you in your room after I go to Kaelus.â
âYes, Uross.â
The butler went up the stairs to Kaelus, and only Clarice the maid remained behind me.
âWhooâŠ.â
She asked anxiously after a long sigh.
âDid anything bad happen?â
âYes, the thing I wanted to avoid the most happened. Oh, by the way, howâs the tea party dress going?â
âOh, I told the tailor the design you wanted. The sketch will arrive soon.â
âI see. Itâs going well.â
With the help of Clarice, I took off my dress and removed my accessories, and soon the butler Uross reappeared.
âKaelus says he wants to cool off by himself.â
âPhew, yesâŠ.â
I informed the two that Kaelus met Diana while talking to the emperor alone. And also that Diana had the power of healing and was able to go in and out of the emperorâs room without restriction.
The butler and the lady-in-waiting were very embarrassed.
âBut thatâs why thereâs no point in being alone, right?â
âThere was no way to stop it because the Emperor did not forbid it.â
I purposely hid the story that Helios sent Diana in a hurry because of my âpredictionâ. Since I could not mention the contents of my foresight to them.
The butler shook his head.
âMaster must have been quite surprised.â
âIâm afraid so. And on the way back, he felt even worse because I said something a little presumptuous.â
âMadamâŠâ
Clarice looked embarrassed next to him, too.
âIâm fine though. Because Kaelus showed his feelings a little bit. If he had kept it to himself, he would have had difficulty breathing as before.â
The butler bent down at once.
âIâll have to go to Kaelus again with the doctor, Lady Hestiaâ
âOkay, letâs do that.â
After sending out the maid, I laid my nervous body on the bed.
âHaâŠ.â
I should have stopped him more aggressively when he said he was going to the palace. I didnât know the prince would send Diana as soon as I said the emperor was about to collapse.
I should have calculated the future more closely. I should have figured that Helios would act more hands-on when I informed him of my foreshadowing.
âPlease stop making mistakesâŠ!â
I bit my lip. Itâs a shame that Kaelus held out so firmly, wasnât it almost a big deal?
In the future, if I want Diana and Helios to kneel in front of Kael, I must not be sloppy for a moment. We donât know what kind of butterfly effect a minuteâs mistake will cause.