Chapter 58Â Original and most updated translations are from volaretranslations.
His smile was so cheerful. I felt like the victim of his latest prank, my mind filled with a buzzing drone. He hugged me very tightly, enough for me to feel his body temperatureâŠI took a deep breath and said in a shaking voice, âWhen did you find out?â
He paused, before dragging out the answer. âIâve known you all my life.â
Iâd be holding myself back all this time, yet heâd saw through me from the first moment.
âVery good,â I lowered my head, lips curving up into an ironic smile before laughing at him. It startled himâŠand I used a bit of inner qi to easily push aside his hand, pinching his chin while my other hand closed around his neck. Although surprised, he continued to smile, raising an eyebrow as if confident in his success. His eyes slanted sideways to look at me before lightly waving his hand, causing the wine cups on the table to clatter against the groundâŠ.
âEmperor, is anything the matter?â
The silence that had stretched on like dead water was immediately thrown into disorder. The doors were forced open, and a crowd of soldiers wearing armor entered, pointing their shiny weapons at meâŠthis battle arrayâŠseemed to have been prepared ahead of time just to counter my move. Han Zichuan, did you even anticipate such a thing?
I looked at him, copying his earlier moves as I leaned in to whisper in his ear. âDo you think they can stop me?â My grip on his throat tightened. âWith you here, Iâm not afraid of anything.â
His eyes twinkled briefly before adopting an expression of deep sorrow.
âGeneral Qiâs daughter has taken the emperor hostage and rebelled.â
âYou traitor! Donât think of doing anything to his majesty or hurting his body!â The people outside were rather clever, shouting one after the other without anyone taking a step forward. I squinted.
âIs there anything aifei wants to tell Zhen?â
âShut up.â
âBut Zhen has words to say,â Despite being held captive by me, he still raised a hand to pat my shoulder comfortingly, the other hugging me around my waist. âAll of you, back down. Without Zhenâs commands, no one can come in.â
The crowd stood looking at each other. I grew angry and muttered in a muffled voice, âLeaving isnât allowed.â At least let the two of us leave firstâŠbefore you all scatter.
âYouâre losing your temper again,â Though I had him in my grip, he still managed to look at me with a doting expression. Meanwhile, the various guards and servants had slowly started to back away. A damned servant sprawled on the ground to sneak a peek at me, before pulling the door after him in terror. It closed with a pah!, leaving the noisy rabble outside. What kind of situation was thisâŠ?
There were only the two of us left in this room. The lamplight flickered as noise resounded across the floors, making my expression turn black.
âLook at you, youâre always so muddle-headed when you do things so itâs easy to predict your actions,â he gave me a sideways glance, eyes roving from my face to my neck. I glared at him before speaking quietly.
âYouâre not even worried about the fates of the Qi Family you mentioned? Conspiring against the throne isnât a nice accusation.â
âSo what?â he said.
Despite my smile, my eyes turned cold as from his words. âIâm only concerned with you. All matters of life-and-death from this incident rests in your hands. Iâm not going to beg forgiveness on behalf of your aifeiâs family.â
âYou still donât understand?â he took a deep breath before actually daring to caress my face. âZhen only has one empress.â
Surprised, my heart began to poundânot from being moved, but from uneasy shock. âWhat did you do to her?â
âZhenâs Shaoâer really catches on quickly. That woman was originally bait to lure you out. Even though you hid her underneath the bed, I sent people to kill her to avoid future hassles. If General Qi discovered his daughter was replaced before the wedding and charged into the palace, how would Zhen be able to marry you? âŠand how else would you end up as Zhenâs one and only empress?â
No wonder Little Li had dawdled at the generalâs estate after Iâd gotten onto the sedan chair. Was it to make sure his men had enough time to get rid of the generalâs daughter? I suddenly felt shaky on my feet, staring at the man before me in astonishment. He was smiling slightly as he sized me up. How could he speak so casually about a personâs life? This Han Zichuan, was he really the same youth that lived in the house amongst the bamboo grove with me?
âZhen knows that youâd come back eventually for the wedding day. If you donât want to take anotherâs place as empress, Iâll give you back your real identity. General Qi might be one of the founding members of the dynasty with military might, but after your little act, all those witnesses saw you wearing his daughterâs face to rebel against me. Iâm afraid itâll be impossible for him to deny it. This sort of crime can implicate nine generations of his family, so it wonât be long before military power returns to Zhenâs hands.â
âFormidableâŠyou even calculated me into your schemes.â
Under the gentle glow of lamplight, his smile was mesmerizing. It was the same smile as beforeâŠand yet, completely different. I knew then that the boy who was once bathed in sunlight as he smiled at me from the bamboo was never coming backâŠand the monarch standing in his place was so unfamiliar, I hardly recognized him.
âShaoâer, wonât you get tired if you keep choking me like this?â he paused, leaning against my shoulders with eyes shut to take a deep breath. âWould you like your husband to pour you a cup of water?â
âShut up. Iâm just going to ask you one question,â my back was stiff, and my tone was cold. âBack thenâŠwas it you who carried me out of the palace?â
âNot me,â he looked at me calmly, but added on, âIt was me who told Little Li to send someone else to do it. Did they get you to Fang Huaâs house safely?â
Great, just great.
âThen Iâll have to trouble you to come back on a trip with me.â
He arched an eyebrow, looking at me in surprise, but I held him in place with my arm. The smile on his face faded. âThatâs not very difficultâŠjust tell me why?â
You should be clearer than anyone, Zichuan. If you could predict that Iâd sneak into the palace and take General Qiâs daughterâs place for the wedding, why wouldnât you know why I wanted you to see Fang Hua?
âI need you to go back and save my master.â
He suddenly smiled, lips parting slightly as he spat out one word: âFine.â
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My expression gradually relaxed.
âI just need you to help me finish one last thing.â He grasped my hand and gently took it off his throat, only to turn around and pour two new full cups of wine. âDrink these cups of marriage wine with me.â
I gave him a scornful look. The color of the wine was like jade, clear and pure. As it swayed in the jade cups, a cloud of sweet fragrance reached my nose. âYou think paralyzing poisons will work on me?â
âI know it wonât. I added nothing to these because I was afraid of wasting the wine.â
I stared at the wine cup, my throat feeling puckery. âThereâs no need.â
âWeâve gone to the ancestral hall and met the civil and military officials. Since weâve completed the ceremony to confer you a title, we just need to share this wine before we become husband and wife.â He took my hand, picking up his own cup with drooping eyes as he drew closer. His breath was right by my ear, extremely itchy.
I didnât move.
Yet he kept his grip on me, eyes never shifting from my face as he spoke in a low tone. âYou can pretend this is just a dream and youâre acting a part in a play, all right?â
At that moment, my face changed slightly. He smiled and gave a shallow sip. I didnât wait for him to finish, but struck him hard with my hand to knock him out. This scourge was definitely someone to guard against. The entire night heâd been doing nothing but making my heart pound.
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With the emperor as my hostage, I took to the rooftops with my lightness technique, outrunning everyone who chased after us by means of twists and turns. The archers could only strain their eyes in vain. No one dared to aim their weapons towards the emperor in this time and age unless they wanted death. I heaved a sigh. By the time I dragged the unconscious man out of the palace, it was already beginning to get light. My movements naturally grew more leisurely after escaping the court. Who knew how chaotic things were inside?
The weight of his tall figure was pressed completely against my body. I walked towards the western city gates, passing over the chilly flagstones and desolate lanes. This place really was tranquil and still. A cough came from my side, where an unobtrusive old man sat atop a carriage. Seeing me approach, he rose to his feet and nimbly helped Han Zichuan into the carriage without a word.
Though his hands were emaciated, they were full of strength. It looked like this was a sensible sort of guy. He kept his eyes low and didnât look around wildly. Han Zichuan was currently dressed in clothing from the palace. Although they were plain white robes, the dancing dragons against the fabric were very obvious, and the jade plate hanging from his waist spoke of his esteemed position. But that old driver didnât raise an eyelid when he helped him inside, nor did he speak. After he was arranged neatly, the old man backed out of the carriage and drew down the hanging screen door.
He definitely deserved the title as one of Firstâs chosen men, with his prior experience and trustworthy character.
âLord First received your letter and instructed me to wait here until Master you arrived. Everythingâs been arranged for the road, so please set your worries at rest. As soon as day breaks, there will be 100 other carriages in the exact same colors heading to the north, south, east and west gates. The imperial court will naturally be too busy to keep track. Since time is pressing, please hurry on.â
âPlease give thanks to your master on my behalf, I owe him one,â I sat atop the carriage and drew the reins. The old man made a small affirmative noise as I leaned down to clap the horse. Snorting, the animal swished its tail and broke into a gallop. I chanced a glance back, watching as his form grew smaller and smaller as he stood at the edge of the hazy horizon with a calm smile.
âSafe travels.â
I had the sudden feeling that I knew that man.
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I couldnât help but take another look back. Right at this time, something pressed against the hem of my robes as a steady voice spoke from within the carriage, his tone a little strange. âYouâve already left, but you still begrudge parting with him?â
I lifted open the hanging screen to look inside, where my hostage was leaning comfortably against the seat as if he hadnât been kidnapped at all. He lifted his head to give me a look, his legs stretched out so the heels rested on my robes.
âWhen did you wake up?â
âA while ago. I never expected aifei would take this many pains to kidnap me.â
I didnât answer, but concentrated on hurrying the horse along.
He actually came to hug me from behind, drawing closer to speak in a soft voice. âItâs warmer inside. Donât worry about making haste on the road. How about Zhen issuing a decree to stop them from posting arrest warrants everywhere?â
I curled my hands into fists, dearly wanting to knock him out again. He curved his eyes into a smile.
âZhen knows that aifei wants to spend time alone with Zhen, and thatâs why she put on this farce. Kidnapping is charming in its own way, I suppose.â
I refused to be distracted and kept urging on the carriage, even as he gave an exclamation of surprise.
âWhatâs in this first row of cabinets?â
âFood.â
âWas this gauze made by silkworms? What can you do with this, wear it as a head wrap?â
âItâs for tying you up.â
There was the sound of someone sifting through things before his voice rose again. âWhy does the last compartment have nothing but yellow papers, are they for going to the toilet?â
ââŠthose are for writing charms to seal your mouth.â
He wanted to say something else, but I stopped the horse, threw aside the reins, and entered, preparing to paralyze his acupoints. My glance was cold. âAre you done messing around yet?â
Han Zichuan didnât avoid me, but gave me a happy smile. âNot even for the rest of our lives.â
I was completely speechless. Instead of wasting words on him, I sealed the acupoints in his upper and lower body to keep him paralyzed. Heâd already made a mess inside the carriage. Various snacks and pastries were lying on the ground, all things I was familiar withâŠit was definitely snuck in by the other princes while First wasnât looking. I was running for my life after a kidnapping, yet they were treating it as a tour of the countryâŠstepping past the items, I retrieved the reins again and gave Han Zichuan a threatening glare.
Perhaps Iâd used a bit too much finger strength when paralyzing him, but Han Zichuan was now lying motionless on the seat, his hair fanning about his shoulders like a pool of water. He gave me a mild look, much less lordly than before, as sunlight passed through the screen to leave patterned shadows on his face. The smile on that face was gentle and soft.
âShaoâer, doesnât this feel like weâve gone back to the old days?â
I gave a dry smile and silently drove the carriage. Even if those old days were beautifulâŠit was a place I could never return to again.
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As long as I opened my mouth to ask First for something, heâd always find me the best. This time was no different. Though this horse didnât look like much, he was a colt who could run 1,000 li. The two of us escaped from the palace to the little village by Fang Huaâs house in only one and a half days. I glanced at the immobile Han Zichuan lying docilely in the carriage and laughed in spite of myself.
He really was being very cooperative at the moment.
With the emperor missing after an attack by the assassin, various city gates were all on high alert. I expected these level of difficulties when I left, but before I could force my way through, the emperor leisurely stuck out his head to impatiently wave his hand. He ordered the guards back and angrily issued a decree to revoke all orders for carriage and body searches. It was not only immoral, but seriously interfering with the lives of the common people. Then he used a brush to write a letter to the imperial court, saying that he was visiting the common people to drive away his cares, so there was no need for the officials to take such pains to rescue him. Afterwards, he sealed the missive with a fiery red stamp and a pleased look in his eye.
Even a simple letter called forth his imperial jade sealâŠI really didnât know how he managed to sneak that thing on him when we left.
Weirdo.
When a shivering guard knelt by the carriage to inquire whether heâd like a page to drive the carriage instead, I finally lost my patience, paralyzed him again, and dragged him back inside. And thus, the rest of our journey continued without troubles. I could count on my fingers the time weâd arrive at home. If he didnât keep staring at my back with so much tenderness and love, Iâd probably be in a better mood.
I pulled on the reins to stop the carriage before the bamboo grove, before drawing aside the curtains to help him off. This part of the journey had to be taken on foot. He was breathing heavily, probably because Iâd been too quick to paralyze him these few days, so Iâd obstructed his circulation. I could even feel that his body was cold beneath all the clothing. He was leaning almost entirely against me as I carefully supported him by the arm, yet still stubborn enough to rest his head by my ear.
âShaoâer, canât you just unseal my acupoints? Iâm afraid of being a deadweight.â he suggested helpfully.
I ignored him and quickened my pace. I feared that once I unsealed his acupoints, heâd do more than simply be deadweight. The wind brushed past my cheek, carrying with it the cool and refreshing air of the mountains. It was very tranquil. Returning to the place where I used to live made my heart surge with emotion.
âSee that yellow dirt hill? We went there once when we were younger. I vaguely remember there was a grave there, right? And you were the one that helped me down back then, too.â
âShut up.â
âYou liked to take baths in the pond behind the house. I used to see Fang Hua ladling the water there for his tea, too.â
â⊠âŠâ
âDonât push me away so far. Youâve sealed my acupoints, so I canât walk by myself.â
âZichuan.â
âWhat is it?â
âWeâve already spent a day and a half on the road,â I reminded him helpfully. He wore a âand so?â expression on his face.
âSealed acupoints usually unseal themselves after 24 hours,â I patted his shoulders and shoved him aside again. So you seeâŠdonât take advantage of things to get close to me. If he was really paralyzed, could I still support him to walk this far? Even Immortals would have some trouble. Moreover, Han Zichuanâs blood was as precious as gold, perhaps with the key to save Fang HuaâŠI wouldnât risk stopping his blood flow for long periods of time. Maybe I jabbed him with more force than necessary, but there was no real power behind it. With his abilities, he could break through in the time it took a stick of incense to burn, but he insisted on clinging to me instead. I turned to give him a vicious glare. âDonât play tricks with me.â
He only smiled and said softly, âI really canât walk any further.â
Han Zichuan stood unmoving. Not far behind him was a house hidden in the bamboo. My eyes darkened as I grabbed his sleeve and kicked off into the air, dragging him through the forest. A light breeze greeted me as I travelled between the shadows of the bamboo. He didnât say a word but raised his head to look at me, his gaze sharp and complicated. My heart felt light and cheerful.
Fang HuaâŠI canât wait to see you again.
As soon as we landed, I threw Han Zichuan on the porch. He seemed to be in a bad temper as he lowered his head to straighten his robes, retying his sash as he smoothed out wrinkles along the fabric. The words he spoke came from between gritted teeth. âEver since we grew up, youâve been the only person who still dares to mistreat Zhen and gives us the cold shoulder.â
He was probably really angry if he was using âZhenâ again.
I gave him a passing glance but didnât bother arguing. I rapped on the doors of room after room, calling out, âFang HuaâŠâ with no response.
The rooms were cold and cheerless.
Han Zichuanâs form was immeasurably elegant as took a leisurely stroll around the grounds. He suddenly stopped before my old room and raised a hand to knock on the door. My heart leapt up as I ran over to push him aside. Not bothering to see whether he fell, I kicked open the door with my foot to run inside. âSecondâŠare you here?â
The room was completely empty. There was no tea in the pot on the table, and a layer of dust on one of the stools
âMasterâŠâ But there was no reply. A roaring started in my head. Now everything was a mess, and Iâd lost my sense of time. I turned to make my way past the dividing screen, only to see Fang Huaâs bed had nothing but his disordered covers. There was no sign of Fang Hua himself. When I dug my hand deep into the covers, they were coldâŠ
A perfectly good person had disappeared. What was going onâŠwasnât he too weak to move? Didnât Second promise to take good care of himâŠ? So why was he gone now? Could it beâŠ
âShaoâer,â a voice called from outside. Han Zichuanâs slow and steady steps led to to the bed by my side.
There was no time to think, so I grabbed him by the collar as tight as I could. âIt was you, wasnât it? Where did you hide him?â Surprised, Han Zichuan gave me a blank stare, hurt showing in his eyes.
âShaoâer, Iâm only interested in youâŠthe one person I care about. Since I agreed to let Fang Hua leave the palace back then, how could I hide him away now? Would I really agree to come here with you if I did?â
My mind turned blank. Somehow I released him without realizing it, all the energy gone from my body. I collapsed onto the bedâŠas a hand came to rest upon my shoulder. It gradually tightened its grip as Han Zichuan spoke in a kind tone.