going to make and they needed fabric for the costumes.\n(We still have an entire monthâŠbut I guess it is best to get
this done sooner rather than later.)
She sighed while following after her classmates. Her earnest
personality meant she always worked hard on these school events and she was
looking forward to this festival, but she still could not muster much
excitement.\n
(We were still first years last year, so we only had to
decorate our own classroom.)\nShe had been a lot more excited during the preparations back
then. Her spirits had been high even when accounting for it being her first
school festival, so she had enjoyed chatting with her friends while out
shopping like this.\n(So why arenât I this time? âŠOkay, fine! I know why.)\nQuestioning herself was pointless when she already knew the
answer: he was no longer here by her side. She had long since realized that his
absence was messing with her mood. Koshigaya Kazuki had confessed to her twice
early this school year and then more or less gone missing after temporarily
leaving the school.\nKoshigaya Kazuki. Simply thinking that name made her blush
and filled her body with heat. He was a childhood friend and former classmate
who had seemed like a permanent fixture in her life.\nIn the dozen or so years she had known him, she had learned
that he was a hopeless pervert who was horny around the clock. And he also had
the terrible taste to fall in love with a girl who disliked that sort of thing
and tried to keep up an innocent appearance.\nAfter that girl had rejected two confessions from him, he
had disappeared, but only then had she noticed the faint feelings inside herself.
Realizing how dense she had been had only led to regret for wasting that
opportunity. If she were a boy, she doubted she would want a girlfriend like
that.\n(Whenever I try to look at my actions objectively, I end up
insulting myself.)\nThe more she thought about it, the less she could figure out
what about her he had liked, but the even greater mystery was why he had
suddenly disappeared without telling her anything.\nA lot of their classmates had asked her about it, but she had
nothing to tell them. Every one of those questions was a reminder that he had
vanished without telling her a word and she started to feel like it must be her
fault, so she kept hurting herself more and more. The others had stopped asking
her about it as a kindness to her and they had insisted on inviting her out
during summer break, but she had never managed to shake free of this gloom.\n(It isnât like he never contacts me, but itâs only once a
month at best.)\nIt was always by email and only to let her know he was safe
and sound. He ignored all of her questions about where he was and what he was
doing and, whenever he did respond to her questions in the next email, he would
only give excuses about it being a company secret. He had not even returned
home for the bon festival, so she had not seen him at all for several months
now.\nShe had barely seen his face after what happened: she had
rejected his confession twice, she had gotten in an argument with him after she
saw him flirting with a younger girl, and she had argued him with a lot before
all that as well. She felt even more anger toward him, disgust toward herself,
and general awkwardness than ever before and it all came from the fact that she
had refused to be the one to give in. So she felt like it was her own fault
that she felt this way.\nShe understood all that. She really did. ButâŠ\n(This is my fault, butâŠitâs his fault too. Are you really
okay with this!?)\nHis feelings for her had been strong enough to try
confessing to her again after she rejected him the first time, but did he not
mind at all that he had been away from her for so long? She did not understand
his feelings in the slightest. UnlessâŠ\n(Could he really be with that other girl? Is he using an app
or something to send her emails or letters or whatever every day?)\nShe shook her ponytail to reject that unpleasant thought.
She had been with him for as long as she could remember, so she refused to
accept that. She did not want to imagine all of that could have fallen apart in
an instant.\nâOkay, what else did we need to buy? Wait, whereâs the list?â\nâUmmm, I think you left it with Juri. Hey, Juri?â\n
Her classmatesâ voices dragged her back to reality, so she raised her head and
looked around in surprise. She found she had fallen a good bit behind her
friends, so she jogged up to them.\nâS-sorry. Um, what were we talking about?â\nâThat we should probably keep the shopping list with us.â\nHer friend snatched the list from her pocket and breathed an
exasperated sigh.\nâYouâve really got it bad, huh?â âYou were thinking about
Koshigaya, werenât you?â\nâWha-? I-I was not! Why would I be- wait, why are you
laughing!?â\n
She picked up her pace to chase after the teasing girls as they ran away from
her.\nâHey, youâre not supposed to run here! You need to sto- kyah!?â\nShe ran into someone who stepped around the street corner
and fell back onto her butt.\nâOw, ow, ow, ow. S-sorry, I wasnât looking.â âNeither was
I.â\nShe apologized and frowned while rubbing her butt to soothe
the sudden pain. Her friends noticed the accident and ran back over to
apologize to the person she had run into.\nâSorry, that was our fault!â âAre you okay?â\nFrom what she could see down on the ground, she had run into
someone in a suit. So probably an adult man. But he did not seem to be a mean
person because he stopped her from apologizing any further, slowly stood up,
and reached out a hand to help her up like a gentleman.\nâIâm- I am fine. And I must apologize for this.â\nRelieved by his kind behavior, she realized it looked bad to
stay down on the ground, so she quickly took his hand to stand up.\nâN-no, it was my fault. Thank you veryâŠmuch!?â\n
As soon as she looked up at his face to take his hand, her eyes widened in