When I asked Diel to get Erhanâs help, he immediately declared he was out.
âIâm afraid of Master Erhan.â
âWeâve known him since he was a kid, and of course, he grew up unbelievably too big, but still, thinking back thenâŚ.â
âThe past is already past.â
Diel scornfully avoided my eyes.
âAnd I also predicted this future from when he was 13 years old.â (Diel)
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âWhen he grows up, heâll be terrifying enough to threaten my safety.â (Diel)
âHaa, DielâŚ. You cowardly, insignificant soul.â (Lise)
âAnyway, Iâm out. Good luck, Lise.â
So I had no choice but to go alone and meet Erhan. I knocked carefully in front of his door and a stiff and insincere answer came back.
âCome on in.â
As I went inside with an apprehensive look on my face, I wondered if I came when he was in the wrong mood. Erhan was looking at the document without checking who came in.
âExcuse me, Master Erhan.â
He almost dropped the document he was looking at when he raised his head.
âAre you busy?â
It was the moment that his blunt face changed immediately.
âNo, not at all.â
He smiled so softly that even his eyes smiled.
âI didnât expect you to come at this time. I wasnât keen enough. I will always be prepared from now on. Whatâs going on?â
âWell⌠I have a request.â
âYes, just say it.â
It was a completely different tone compared to when he roughly said to come.
âHow can someoneâs disposition change this quickly? Is there a problem with him?â
As I was seriously considering his state of health once again, Erhan rose from his seat slowly and gently led my hand.
âAnything.â
I can feel his firm hands full of calluses. It was a bit surprising to think that the soft and small hands of a child in the past changed like this.
âIâll listen to everything.â
The atmosphere inside the castle was so ugly that I felt nervous coming here.
âIf itâs what you want.â
Erhan smiled and replied happily as if he was rather having fun at the moment.
âWhen I see him like this, it seems that the kindness he had in his childhood remains as it wasâŚ.â
Of course, I always tried to find Erhanâs cuteness at that time, but it was nigh impossible.
I strangely felt instinctively depressed when I saw him smile with a face of boredom while leaning against the chair and reading the papers earlier.
âI know youâre especially handsomeâŚ. But how could it be this fatal even though youâre not doing anything?â
I sat face to face with him, making a reasonable inference that the rumors circulating in the Dukeâs castle mustâve been due to this unique atmosphere around him.
âSo, the thing isâŚOh, before that.â
We used to hold hands often in the past, but now, if we were to hold his hands like this, it somehow felt different from then.
âYou shouldnât just hold a womanâs hand easily like this since youâre not a child anymore.â
âA womanâs hand.â
Erhan looked at me with his drowsy eyes.
âYour hand is the only one Iâve ever held. Iâve never held another womanâs hand.â
âUhâŚ. Huh?â
âSince childhood.â
âOh, then you canât just casually hold my hand anymore. That was then, and now is now.â
âWhy?â
âCan the man who will rule the Duchy in the future just leisurely grab his doctorâs assistantâs hand and follow her around without worrying about his honor? You were weak in your childhood, so it was okay then.â
âHolding handsâŚ. with the assistant?â
Erhanâs gaze of absurdity reached my hand, which was held in his big hand.
âYou have to walk on your own confidently now. I canât drag you around forever.â
âWell, if you donât like it, thereâs no helping it then.â
He very slowly let go of my hand so that I could feel the friction of our skin as it gradually fell off each other.
âI donât think itâs a pain in the neck, so you can hold mine whenever you want to.â (Erhan)
âYes, of course. There are times when I need it for the treatment.â
âAnytime, even if itâs not for medical treatment.â
âAnd why would I? Thereâs no need for me to hold the hand of a grown man without any reason.â
âWho knows.â
He smiled at me with his chin down.
âI want to hold yours any time. When I was young and even now.â
I shrugged my shoulders as I recalled the cold words he nailed in me about never thinking of me as his sister.
âI heard youâre learning how to manage the Duchy. Youâve been working hard.â
âOh, yes. I canât wait to be the Duke.â
Erhan said while pushing the documents aside.
âI have to make the territory a better place to live anyways.â
I was impressed by him and nodded.
It seemed that the rumors that he had a bad personality and that he came back because he became weird were just because of his scary impression.
âOnly then will Lise be happy in Cerseus for a thousand years, not anywhere else.â
âYes. Iâm a pacifist with a lot of respect for life so thatâs a very important factor.â
I replied resolutely, hoping that the same thing would not happen again.
âBy the way, whatâs your request?â
âAbout thatâŚ.â
No matter how kind he is, I was just a commoner to him anyway. I couldnât say the names of Baron Ishid and Wederick without any evidence, so I cleverly hid them and answered.
âDo you know Kane Ashills? Heâs from the Knights.â
âOh, just the face and name.â
There are quite a few members of the Knights but Erhan immediately answered as if he knew all of them.
âWeâre not personally acquainted since he stayed here without going to the south with us. Heâs a commoner, so heâs not particularly high in class.â
He suddenly stopped talking and raised his eyebrows.
ââŚ.Why? Do you like him?â
âWhat?â
âDo you have interests in short guys? If I cut my leg off, Iâll sufferâŚ.â
âNo! No! No! I like tall people.â
I was astounded about what he was saying so I hurriedly opened my mouth.
âGood. So do you like gray hair with an ambiguous color?â
âNo, I pursue the aesthetic value of features rather than those extremely personal tastes.â
âI donât have to dye my hair then.â
âItâs not like thatâŚBut why is the conversation going that way anyway?â
âIâm just being a little vigilant, in case youâre still a player like in the old days.â
I was stunned and clicked my tongue.
Losing the will to respond, I went straight to the main point. He has indeed become somewhat weird, so I shouldnât get myself too involved.
âAnyway, that guy named Kane Ashills is suspicious.â
âReally? Then should I kill him?â
âWhat?â
âNo, is it easy for him to say heâll kill the man because heâs just a commoner?â
Well, it was common for nobles to regard commonersâ lives as insignificant.
Even a fallen aristocrat like Aaron could be ordered by Baron Ishid, so it was only expected for someone like Kane to be dispensable to them.
Looking at my round eyes, Erhan hurriedly changed his words as if he felt sorry for me.
âOh⌠Yes, the idea of respect for life⌠Then shall we kick him out?â
âWhy donât you ask me first whatâs going on?â
âBecause itâs you.â
He smiled so beautifully I was slightly horrified. Iâm worried he would cut a person with a straight face without hesitation if I said, âPlease kill him.â
âYou said youâre always right.â
When I swallowed my dry saliva, he slightly tilted his head and said, âStill, let me hear the reason. Why do you think heâs suspicious? If what youâre saying was found true, it could be a big deal.â
âBig deal? Why?â
âKaneâs in charge of Commander Joaquinâs weaponry. It changed a while ago.â
âWhat about the original weapons groomer?â
When asked questioningly, Erhan replied with a suspicious look.
âI heard something happened back in his home.â
As expected, my analysis was correct. I bit my lower lip with a serious expression. It was a similar repertoire used when they planted Esther by letting Jenny leave.
Planting oneâs own person by creating problems with the other personâs private life at the right time.
âMaster Erhan, no matter how suspicious it is, it means nothing if there is no evidence. And even if you do have evidence, if you donât know whatâs behind it, itâs useless.â
âYouâre telling me not to catch him all of a sudden, is that it?â
Erhan immediately noticed what I meant.
âYes. We caught both Hans and Esther but in the end, we didnât have any leads.â
âThatâs right.â
âIf that man⌠tries to harm Commander JoaquinâŚ.â
Erhanâs expression became serious.
âWhat do you think heâs going to do? Iâm sorry but I donât know much about knights, swordsmanship, or anything in regard to that.â
âWhy the hell is Kane trying to hurt Commander Joaquin?â
âBecause heâs an important member in the Cerceus DuchyâŚ. Isnât his role somehow good to be an outside informant?â
Erhan nodded his head in thought. He also knew that there were people who were after Cerseus anyway.
There were so many enemies that the Duchess couldnât even point out who was behind it.
âSureâŚ.â
Erhan muttered with an eerie expression.
âThere are some exculpations, but as you said, thereâs no evidence. So I should take this opportunity to find out whoâs behind it.â
I also nodded because it was what I wanted.
It struck me that the opponent he was expecting would be Wederick and Baron Ishid, but I could not make a statement questioning his blood ties.