Chapter 86

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“I’ve already bought take-out.” Feng Fei stood up and replied, “I am going to heat up some milk. Come down after you’re done tidying yourself up.”

Hai Xiu stopped lazing around in bed. He got up, folded his blanket neatly before heading towards the bathroom to wash up. 6J1V3U

Feng Fei took a side glance at Hai Xiu before heading downstairs, feeling slightly guilty within his own heart.

When his own mother came, Hai Xiu had no qualms when he was forced to leave, and hide from the former, showing concession towards her. In Feng Fei’s opinion, this wasn’t an act that any man could do.

However, since today’s situation was quite unique, Feng Fei could not allow Hai Xiu to stay here.

Even after Feng Fei had finished preparing the dishes, Hai Xiu was still tidying up the bedroom. Therefore, Feng Fei went back upstairs and reminded him, “Stop with your tidying and have breakfast first.” 4K2wPg

“Yes, yes, I’ll come over in a second.”

Hai Xiu keenly tidied up his own things in a self-conscious manner, stuffing them all inside his own small cabinet. After stuffing the cabinet to the brim, he placed one of Feng Fei’s t-shirts on top of his pile of clothes to serve as a concealment device before closing the cabinet. For his other miscellaneous things such as watches, sunglasses and so on, he tried his best to hide them, and those that couldn’t be hidden were all stuffed in his own backpack which he would carry back to his own home later.

Feng Fei watched as Hai Xiu naturally tidied up until not a trace of him was left. While his heart still felt sour, he spoke to Hai Xiu with a faint smile, “Baby, what is this? Are you not coming back?”

“No.” Hai Xiu reciprocated the smile and replied, “I’ve only been playing around the past few days and haven’t done any tidying up, so the whole place was completely messy. I thought I might as well tidy up some things while I’m at it…I haven’t only been tidying up my stuff. I’ve also neatly tidied your clothes just now and placed them all inside the wardrobe. Though, I still haven’t managed to iron some of your shirts since I didn’t have time, so I simply hung them up instead of stacking them in the drawers.” MmLpuR

Feng Fei lightly heaved a sigh before taking a step forward, hugging Hai Xiu to his chest before caressing him.

The sudden movements caused Hai Xiu to freeze for a second, before he managed to say in a dazed manner, “Have you prepared for breakfast already? Did you make them?”

“I’ve bought breakfast…” Feng Fei smiled and responded, “I’ve bought them from that Cantonese place that just opened, since we’ve never gotten the chance to try the dishes from that restaurant before. Since you said that you wanted to try it, I took the chance while you were still lazing around in bed to go and buy food for you.”

Hai Xiu felt sweet on the inside as he nodded and said, “Perfect. Let’s go and eat!” pzZbCr

After having breakfast together, Feng Fei drove Hai Xiu back to his home.

Hai Xiu rode shotgun and yawned. Taking a look at the time, he found that it was just 8am.

Feng Fei tilted his head to observe Hai Xiu, stating, “If you’re still sleepy then sleep for a bit. I’ll wake you up again when we arrive.”

“Not sleepy.” Hai Xiu straightened his body and asked, “Your father isn’t coming over this time?” ANH2dO

Feng Fei shook his head and replied, “No time. He said he’ll find some time next month to come…but he isn’t certain.”

“En.” Hai Xiu responded in acknowledgement. Then, he suddenly went into a trance before abruptly shouting in an alarmed manner, “OMG! The clothes on the balcony!”

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Feng Fei frowned, “What’s the matter? What clothes?”

“I forgot to put away the clothes hanging on the balcony!” Hai Xiu really looked frantic this time as he continued, “The clothes that I hung on the balcony for the past two days are still there! There’s the underwear as well! My clothes…they’re all still hanging on the balcony!” Tdbwj1

Feng Fei gave a nonchalant smirk in reply, “I thought it was something serious…it’s fine.”

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Feng Fei chuckled and replied, “Don’t make trouble. It’s fine. Just be good and stay seated here.”

Hai Xiu frowned and chided, “What do you mean it’s fine? What if….” o4JlFO

“If she knows, then she knows.” Feng Fei did not want Hai Xiu to worry, so he added, “When I pick her up later, I’ll find a way to pack all your things before she can even take a good look…It’s not like she’s coming to check on our rooms, how could she spot your clothes instantly? So don’t be so anxious.”

Hai Xiu stared at Feng Fei in a daze, before abruptly speaking up softly again in a few seconds. “Feng Fei, did you…are you going to tell aunty about us?”

Feng Fei instantly felt dumbfounded before giving a good laugh without saying anything.

Hai Xiu was actually sensitive to these things. How intelligent. 0ck7El

Forcing him to wake up early and not letting him tidy his stuff might have inadvertently revealed some traces of suspicious activities…everything felt too abnormal. Hai Xiu understood Feng Fei too well, so it didn’t take him long to realize what the latter was planning.

Just by coincidence, the car was currently at a standstill due to a red light. Feng Fei lowered his sunglasses before speaking in a calm manner, “Don’t fuss about it too much. Just go home. If you have anything you wanna say, wait until I’m done with everything first, okay?”

Hai Xiu lightly shook his head and denied, “Take a left turn at the next intersection and go directly to the airport. I’ll go with you.”

“Don’t make trouble, how can I suddenly take a left in such a busy street.” After the light turned green, Feng Fei took a right turn instead. As the mood lightened after a period of silence, Feng Fei reiterated, “Don’t make trouble with me. The situation today is not certain. I’ve already said to myself that whether I’m coming out or not, at what time, how to come out, I’ll…I’ll just play it by ear, so as not to mess up. My mother isn’t a gullible person, if you were to go, the situation will become even harder to control.” U3bBdj

The rims of Hai Xiu’s eyes reddened as he refuted, “We’ve already talked about this before, together…”

“It’s fine, there’s no need to make a mountain out of a molehill.” Feng Fei cut off Hai Xiu’s sentence. He raised his palm over and caressed Hai Xiu’s head for a bit. “I was even able to take care of the mother-in-law. Taking care of my own mother wouldn’t be as hard. Naturally, I have a plan.”

Afraid that Hai Xiu might continue to persist, Feng Fei added, “I’ll tell you the truth. I didn’t even let my brother or my sister-in-law go today. This situation is not suitable for the participation of many. You already know that based on what you’ve seen of my mother previously, the reason we were able to negotiate with her successfully was partly because there weren’t that many people…When a person is in an agitated state, their emotions can change easily. With a swarm of people coming, and one talking after another, it would result in even more chaos. Even a single unpolished statement can cause an argument, making it even more annoying.”

Hai Xiu’s eyes fell, still feeling worried. Gkf9Px

Feng Fei smiled and continued, “My brother and I have scolded one another millions of times. My mouth has been tempered since I was young, gaining much experience in talking sh*t. So it’s better to listen to me.”

While talking, Feng Fei had already arrived at Hai Xiu’s block.

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Feng Fei stopped the car, removed his seatbelt before leaning over and giving Hai Xiu a kiss, chuckling in a gentle manner. “Wait for my brother’s good news. You don’t need to worry. If a situation comes up, I’ll immediately contact you, okay?”

Feng Fei had already said his part, so Hai Xiu didn’t dare to insist. He could only nod his head in a rather worried manner. “Remember to contact me.” UMniAI

“Of course.”

Feng Fei watched Hai Xiu get out of the car and head up the stairs, before backing his car away and heading to the airport.

Since Feng Fei left early, add to that the fact that there wasn’t any traffic jam, he managed to arrive an hour early.

While waiting for Lu Haoli, Feng Fei’s became abnormally clear-headed. Simulating all the situations he might encounter within his head, he contemplated what he would do in the worst case scenario, while also calculating the chances of success when he comes out to his mom. His thoughts were clear, and he managed to think of everything that he needed to avoid so that the worst case scenario never happens. 3xuzyF

When he finally saw Lu Haoli, Feng Fei gave a self-deprecating smile. This might be the most he had used his brain since the gaokao.

Li Haoli saw Feng Fei from afar, her face turned into one with an unceasing smile. She skipped a few steps before pulling on Feng Fei’s hand as she spoke, “When did you arrive?”

“I arrived at 8am.” Feng Fei restrained himself, blinking a few times as he tried his best to conceal his look of exhaustion. He took over Li Haoli’s suitcase and said, “I was afraid that there might be a traffic jam, so I came early.”

Li Haoli felt moved to the point of not being able to say anything for a while before she finally managed to speak, “Idiot! Then at what time did you wake up? Are you tired? Why don’t I drive instead?” Je xpg

“How can that be?” Feng Fei rubbed his eyebrows and forced out a smile as he said, “I’m really fine…Where do you wanna go? You wanna go home first or go somewhere else?”

Li Haoli observed her dear son with distress before taking a look at her watch. “No need to hurry. Let’s wait for your older brother. Where is he?”

Feng Fei felt dazed for a while, looking as though he had just woken up from a dream as he smiled and replied, “I was too busy and forgot to tell you! Last night, he said that he needed to work overtime and so didn’t have the time to come pick you up. It’s all right, there’s no need to wait for him. Wherever you wanna go, I’ll take you instead.”

After hearing this, Lu Haoli did not blame his older son, it was just that she spoiled her younger son a little more, so she couldn’t help but find fault. “Your older brother is too hasty; your sister-in-law is still pregnant, yet he still went out on his own to play while also getting you to wake up so early to pick me up.” u5TZyt

“Does it matter who comes to pick you up?” Feng Fei placed his arm around Li Haoli’s shoulders and chuckled. “I think he knows that the person you wanted to see the most right now is me, so it doesn’t really matter whether he comes or not.”

Feng Fei’s joke made Li Haoli laugh out loud as she followed him outside the terminal.

Li Haoli felt that Feng Fei could not hide the fatigue on his face, so she made the excuse of wanting to rest, stating that she wasn’t in a hurry to go home, so the two of them headed to a teahouse close to the airport, so she could chat with her own little son.

“When your grades came out at the time, your dad and I were in a meeting.” Li Haoli shook her head and let out an emotional sigh. “Right in the middle of the meeting, your dad’s secretary came in and said that he had a private call. I took the call for your dad. Then I told the secretary to tell him to dismiss the meeting first. Your dad was initially unwilling, so finally, I had to go in myself and tell him that his son’s gaokao results came out….” cX9Iey

Li Haoli kept on talking nonstop, her eyes darting about the corner. “Both of us…forgot that that day was the day that your results would come out.”

Li Haoli had always felt troubled within her heart for the longest time when she realized that they hadn’t been looking after their younger son well.

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Thinking of how early it took just for Feng Fei to pick her up, while they themselves hadn’t ever spent that much energy on their son before, it wasn’t as though Li Haoli’s heart didn’t feel guilty. She forced herself to smile and said in a low voice, “These years, both of us have treated you….”

“You and dad have been treating me quite well, ah.” Feng Fei gave a light smile and replied, “I’m not joking. I know that both you and dad are always busy, so I understand. I don’t think there’s anything wrong.” HS3YyP

Li Haoli used a napkin to press against the corner of her eyes as she continued to speak in a low tone, “This year, when you were at your hardest, the both of us were still not there for you….”

“But instead, I got over it by myself; my final grades were also quite good.” Feng Fei expressed a smile and continued, “It’s not like I haven’t suffered this year, however…It’s alright that only I understand how hard it was. You only need to know that I haven’t been wastefully spending all the money you and dad have earned, nor have I been lazing about at school not learning anything.”

As her own son, Feng Fei stabbed Li Haoli right in her sore spot, being even more ruthless and accurate than any of his mother’s business rivals, Feng Fei lightly added, “I am Feng Shizhuo’s son…I haven’t caused him to lose face. ”

Li Haoli’s eyes brimmed red.  18ddo0

Feng Fei’s heart felt as though it was stabbed a few times. He sat next to Li Haoli and smiled, “What’s wrong? You’re really…I’ve already finished my exams, you only need to be happy, so why are you crying?”

Li Haoli did her best to try and calm herself, taking a few deep breaths while staying silent for a long while.

Feng Fei stared out the window, in a trance.

What Li Haoli hated the most was to cry in front of other people. After calming herself, she gave Feng Fei an affectionate smile and said, “It’s fine…let’s stop talking about this. Come, tell mom, is there anything bothering you lately?” gn3Bzk

The corner of Feng Fei’s mouth couldn’t help but raise lightly. He quickly adjusted his mood and shook his head, stating, “Nothing much.”

“Can’t you be honest when you’re around me?” Li Haoli shook her head and continued, “The second we met I could see that you haven’t been sleeping well lately, so there must still be something on your mind…what is it? ”

To make himself look even more haggard, Feng Fei stayed up all the way until 2am last night before waking up at 5am to go out and buy breakfast. It would be strange if his complexion looked good.

Feng Fei kept mum for a while, staying silent before finally shaking his head as he gave an exhausted chuckle. “I’m really fine. Where do you wanna go? Should I send you to my sister-in-law’s place?” 8eUR6A

“Mom doesn’t wanna go anywhere.” Li Haoli observed Feng Fei with concern as she continued, “I’ve come all the way here for you, why would I go look for someone else? Good boy…pray tell, what do you want? Whatever you want, mom will prepare it for you.”

Feng Fei continued to stay silent, his eyes looking more and more decadent as he spoke again, “I…The person I fell in love with…his (gender neutral) mom doesn’t like me, and wants him to break up with me.”

Li Haoli’s heart lit like a fire. She even dared to slap heavily on the table as she spoke, “That crazy b*tch! I already haven’t done anything to her, and now their family wants to pick a bone with you?！Give me her (gender neutral) mom’s number, I’ll go have a talk with her! If the kids are willing to be with one another, the parents have no right to mess with them!”

Feng Fei lowered his head, in an instant, he looked like a broken person when he spoke, “I’ll talk straight to you. Since it’s already come to this, and the worst has already come to light, I myself already have nothing to fear….” 69aqB

Feng Fei stared straight into Li Haoli’s eyes and said, “I was lying to you just now. There is no crazy b*tch. From start to finish, the person I like is Hai Xiu, and only Hai Xiu.”

Li Haoli’s expression instantly turned stiff.

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“Go on, you can scold me freely…I wouldn’t mind.” Looking as though all his hopes had been dashed, Feng Fei gave a pained laugh and said, “For the whole year, especially when you and my dad left…my heart has never changed. It is filled completely by him. Today, I’m not afraid to tell you, since it’s already like this, even if I tell you, my heart…”

Feng Fei’s eyes brimmed red as he spoke, “My heart these days, each day feels as though I’m being sliced by a knife.” BMZkbe

“I also wanted to be like you and dad; I wanted to be like my older brother and sister-in-law; I also want a…person to spend my life with. I know, a normal person wouldn’t pick a person of the same gender, but I’ve already made up my mind! What can I do?！” Feng Fei wiped the corner of his eyes and laughed, “I admit it. I fell in love.”

“But I know I’m not worthy of him. He’s afraid I might get too pressured. Did you know? He, the no. 1 student in the entire country…he told me that he would enter the same university as me. He said that his grades are good, so he can go wherever I go.”

“I’ve pulled him into this quagmire, so I already feel sorry for him. You think I still dare let him ruin himself again? I especially—like a complete idiot—spend day after day stuffing information into my brain. You know ah, my foundations aren’t good, you have no idea how many times I’ve said that it’s already enough, but he….”

Feng Fei’s voice suddenly choked up. JMqRsz

“It was him…it was him who was watching over me 24 hours a day, wasting all of his time just to accompany me. The teachers, his elite classmates, all of them couldn’t take it and said that he should stay away from me.”

“But he never listened. Like an idiot, not even caring how deep the quagmire was, he jumped in headfirst.”

“He said…he said he wanted to go to the same university as me, he said he would let me suffer a bit first. When we enter university, the two of us can stay together all the time. I believed him ah. I did not dare to hold him up…I was afraid I might make him feel sorry for spending all this time with me, but now….”

It was all an act, initially, but Feng Fei inadvertently blurted out the truth. Feng Fei clenched his fists tightly, trying his best to suppress his throbbing heart. 42iYuG

He had originally never wanted to lose himself in this way.

But when his own mother started talking about Hai Xiu, talking about the year they spent together, Feng Fei wasn’t able to keep silent anymore.

Feng Fei himself was unsure whether or not he was still acting or actually recalling past memories.

Hai Xiu. These two words were the only thing he strived for in his early rebellious period,  and the only thing that he had ever fought for. AkdGpv

This was the most colorful part of his youth, whilst also the purest and cleanest.

He never would have had this experience before this period, nor will he have this ever again.

It had nothing to do with puppy love; neither did it have anything to do with the gaokao, even affectionate love was irrelevant.

“Hai Xiu”—these two words, they were all of his youth. gPBIZb

Feng Fei gave a low chuckle and said, “If I didn’t have him in my life, I would never want to recall anything from my high school years, not even once.”

Because in every memory of his high school years, they were all related to him.

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Feng Fei closed his eyes and said, “I’m sorry ah, mom….”

Li Haoli tilted her head over and started weeping silently. CuOsVi

After a long period of time, after taking a deep breath, Li Haoli suppressed the tears coming out from her eyes as she spoke in a deep tone, “Haven’t you heard what I’ve said earlier? Give me his mother’s contact information, I’ll personally tell her…If the kids are willing to be with one another, the parents have no right to mess with them.”

Feng Fei’s eyes flashed as his tears started falling again.\n