Chapter 57

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“How long have you guys been together?”

“Half a year.” Feng Feiyu pulled out a tissue and pressed it against the corner of his mouth. The sting made him mock Feng Xuan again. aGRu2n

“I’ve been paralyzed…”

Feng Xuan squeezed his eyes shut, resisting the urge to hit him, and then continued to ask questions.

“Have you always liked men in the first place, or is it only after meeting him…”

“I’ve always liked men.” Feng Fei blurted without thinking. “It has nothing to do with him.” qxpuas

Feng Xuan took a careful look at Feng Fei, and said, 

“You’re lying.”

Feng Fei didn’t want Feng Xuan to push all the blame for his sexuality on Hai Xiu.

Feng Fei didn’t want to say anything else about this matter and fired a question back. zEXvy5

“Why do you keep asking so many questions? I was born with my sexuality. Hai Xiu and I are already together, why are you trying to dig deeper into the past? It doesn’t matter what you ask, we’ll be together for a lifetime.”

Feng Xuan sneered.

“You’ve only just turned eighteen, and you’re telling me that he’s ‘the one’?”

Feng Fei raised his eyes and said coldly, HG3Qhs

“Dad and mom were about our age too! Dad was sixteen, and mom was fifteen. You and my sister-in-law were about our age as well! You two had only just started high school. What makes you think I can’t know?”

Feng Xuan’s words got stuck in his throat.

The people in the Feng family were all in love, that was true.

Feng Fei threw the tissue aside, and said, “When I said I’d be with him for a lifetime, I meant it.” aKcSbs

Feng Xuan calmed down completely. He took a few deep breaths and said,

“This matter…I won’t tell our parents.”

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Feng Fei looked at Feng Xuan distrustfully, and Feng Xuan said angrily,

“They’ve only just settled down, how could I tell them about this kind of thing?!” zZ8rmA

Feng Fei relaxed a little and said, “I’ll tell them about it myself in the future.”

Feng Xuan glanced at him and said nothing.

“Before I tell them, act like you don’t know.” 

Feng Fei thought about what he had previously said, and apologized first, “I lost control just now, and didn’t think about my words. Don’t take it to heart.” w56LUl

Feng Xuan harrumphed. Feng Fei turned around and threatened, “But if you still try to intervene on this matter…”

“I didn’t want to intervene in the first place!” Feng Xuan said angrily, “Would I have hit you if you hadn’t infuriated me?!”

In fact, Feng Xuan had only wanted to remind Feng Fei, and let him know the importance of his decisions. To make sure he didn’t just muddle through his emotions, so as not to regret it. Who would’ve thought that things would develop to the point that they were exchanging blows.

After all, it had already been a long time since Feng Xuan had raised a hand against Feng Fei. Rt2oMi

Feng Xuan looked at how the corners of Feng Fei’s mouth were broken and felt a little guilty, saying, “Come here, let me see.”

“What’s there to look at! It’s all okay now.”

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“You… make sure you guys discuss your plans clearly later.”

Feng Fei squinted at Feng Xuan, and made a snarky remark.

“Now you know it’s impossible to end our relationship? What would you have done if mom and dad were at home? How would you have explained it when they saw it? Have you thought about the consequences?!”

Feng Xuan almost blew up again when Feng Fei waved his hand and said,  Z3CWyp

“It’s fine. I know to discuss it with him. Whatever happens, he won’t blame you.”

Feng Xuan relaxed a little. He had already hit Feng Fei anyway. The two boys would be taking the college entrance examination soon, and if this matter affected Haixiu, he would feel guilty.

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“Since we’re done, then get out of my car.” Feng Xuan didn’t want to care about Feng Fei anymore. “I’ll say it again. Don’t do things that you’ll regret.”

Feng Fei got out of the car and smiled scornfully at Feng Xuan. tb5Mxp

 “You don’t need to worry. Out of all the things I’ve done, this is the thing I regret least.”

Feng Fei slammed the car door and turned to go home after watching Feng Xuan drive away.

Feng Fei locked the door, changed his shoes, and went to the mirror to look at his face. He immediately wanted to curse. His entire left cheek had swollen!

Feng Fei originally thought that the left half of his face was flushed at most, so if he washed it with cold water and was careful when he returned to the bedroom, he could hide it for the night. He did not expect to have a few clear swollen prints on his face! He couldn’t hide it even if he tried! XfSuCv

The corner of his left mouth was still bleeding. Feng Fei touched it with his thumb and grimaced in pain, cursing Feng Xuan to the heavens in his heart.

If anybody else dared to hit him on his face, he would break their legs in retaliation, but it was Feng Xuan, and Feng Fei was unwilling to do anything bad to him, infuriating him even more.

Feng Fei hissed in pain, opened the refrigerator, and took some ice cubes. He didn’t know where the cold pack was stored at home and didn’t bother to try and find it. Feng Fei went to the kitchen and pulled out a ziplock bag, put the ice cubes inside it, and pressed it to his face. Feng Fei was careless and used a bit too much strength when he pressed the ice cubes against his face, causing him to suffer through another pang of pain.

“Feng Fei?” bY6LcX

Hai Xiu asked in confusion as he stood on the second floor, “Are you back?”

“Yeah…I’m back.” Feng Fei was worried that Hai Xiu would see him and told him to go back to bed as he walked over to the bathroom.

Hai Xiu agreed, then urged,

“Hurry up, it’s late.” zwM5Cb

“I will.”

Feng Fei’s hand turned red from the cold. He waited for a while, and when he estimated that Haixiu had returned to the room, walked out on tiptoe and crept to the hallway. He opened the decorative false window, exposing the main electric control system inside. The indicator light under one of the switches was flashing.

Feng Fei pulled the switch, sending the house into instant darkness.

Feng Fei threw the ice bag into the bathroom sink, quickly walked upstairs in the dark, and shouted, “Hai Xiu! The power went out!” JhOY2N

Hai Xiu, who had already gone to bed, was taken aback and said blankly,

“Why did the power go off at night? The street lights outside are still on…”

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“Maybe we forgot to pay the electricity bill.” Feng Fei made up a random excuse. “I’ll pay the bill tomorrow.”

Hai Xiu laughed and tried to help. 7sDYyf

“You can pay the bill with your mobile phone! Here, I’ll help you…”

“I forgot the account number, so I can’t pay.” Feng Fei felt miserable, and insisted. “It’s the middle of the night; we don’t need electricity right now anyways. Now stop fussing, and go to sleep.“

Hai Xiu had to listen to Feng Fei, but he soon thought of something else.

“Did you wash up yet? I can help you hold up your phone for the flashlight.” 7DgUpo

“No need.” Feng Fei said hurriedly, “Just lie down, I don’t need anything.”

Hai Xiu sat on the bed, using the dim street lamp outside to watch Feng Fei change his clothes, and lie down beside him.

Feng Fei’s left face was still a bit swollen and felt hot to the touch. He was afraid that Hai Xiu would find out if he accidentally brushed against his face, so he lay a little bit further away and said, “Let’s go to bed. It’s already late.”

Hai Xiu nodded and lay down, but after waiting for a while, Feng Fei didn’t seem to have any intention to come closer. YZ1EK9

Hai Xiu waited for a little while more, but Feng Fei still didn’t move.

Hai Xiu was a little disappointed.

Usually before going to bed, the two of them would lean against each other and would say things that could only be said when they were alone. When both of them felt sleepy, Feng Fei would kiss him, say a few words of love, then they would cuddle each other to sleep.

But Feng Fei didn’t do anything today. Jtzev6

Hai Xiu carefully reflected on whether he had done something wrong, but he couldn’t think of anything. His thoughts shifted to the conversation with Feng Xuan downstairs just now….

He thought about how Feng Fei was called out for too long….

Hai Xiu woke up instantly, did Feng Xuan say something to Feng Fei?!

Hai Xiu seriously recalled the conversation between himself and Feng Xuan. His memory is very strong, and he could recall almost every sentence he heard just now. Hai Xiu analysed and filtered each and every sentence in his mind, but he couldn’t think of anything wrong with what he had said. xvbWeY

Did he unconsciously touch Feng Xuan’s bottom-line without being aware of it?

Did Feng Xuan tell Feng Fei something bad about him?

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Feng Fei had said that when he came back, they’ll talk about what Feng Xuan had said to him, but even after a long time had passed, Feng Fei had no intention to talk to him about it.

The more Hai Xiu thought about it, the more scared he became. He was almost certain that Feng Xuan had said something to Feng Fei! Q3IDiJ

Hence, Feng Fei was reluctant to pay any attention to him or care about him, and was not talking much, while lying on the other side, unwilling to be close to him.

Do you hate yourself?

Hai Xiu felt a little uncomfortable.

While Hai Xiu was thinking wildly, Feng Fei lay on the other side, thinking in his mind that he couldn’t beat Feng Xuan anyway….. BSvFYG

Hai Xiu turned over gently, feeling uncomfortable no matter how he lay down. He knew that Feng Fei had not fallen asleep yet, and after hesitating again and again, he asked quietly, “Feng Fei… are you angry with me?”

“Ah?”

Feng Fei laughed and asked, “Why would I be mad at you? Still haven’t fallen asleep yet?”

Hai Xiu wanted to ask what Feng Xuan had said to him, but he didn’t dare to ask. Hence, he confirmed, “Really ….. you’re not angry?” GiOBnQ

“No, what happened?” Feng Fei leaned over and touched Hai Xiu’s forehead, saying, “were you scared by the blackout?”

“No!” Hai Xiu hurriedly said, “How can I be so timid?”

 

“What’s the matter?” Feng Fei pinched Hai Xiu’s ear. “Aren’t you sleepy? What are you thinking about?” Dy0 6S

Hai Xiu pursed his lips, and because he was shy, his voice was low as he said, “You today….. You haven’t kissed me yet, I can’t sleep.”

In the darkness, Feng Fei felt like he was about to turn into a wolf.

Feng Fei endured and endured, turned over, and kissed Hai Xiu’s forehead. He smiled and said, “My fault, I forgot about it. Okay, let’s go to sleep.”

Although it was just a kiss on the forehead, Hai Xiu was already satisfied. He felt much better when he touched the place where he had been kissed. He tentatively said, “Just…what did your elder brother tell you?” UfEIFz

“Mmm….”

Feng Fei smiled and said, “He asked me what plans I had for the future.”

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Hai Xiu was puzzled. “What’s next?”

“It’s just after the college entrance exam, it’s still a mess.” Feng Fei rested on his arm and looked at the ceiling. “My brother thinks that I’m not capable of being responsible for my future.” ftPKoL

Feng Fei turned his head to look at Hai Xiu and said, “When my brother was young, the one thing my dad repeatedly said to him was — before making a decision, think about the worst consequences and whether you can bear them.”

“Later, our dad was busy all day, and my brother taught me that he always said this …… “, Feng Fei’s mouth was still painful when he spoke. He rubbed the corners of his mouth and gritted his teeth, “said to use this logic before the start of a fight ……For example, when I was in junior high school, I really liked a watch that a friend of mine had for a while, but I couldn’t afford to buy it. My friend wanted to give it to me but where’s the fun in that?? So I exchanged my brother’s new PSP with him instead.”

Hai Xiu, “Pfffttt!!”

Not bearing to recall the past, Feng Fei sighed as the corners of his mouth twitched, and said, “when my brother found out, he picked up a tennis racket and started beating me after he finished saying this same sentence, and chased me all the way from the second floor to the street. Thank goodness for my fast running skills; or else, he would have beaten me to death …… You know how fast I run, right? Laozi, this is a life-saving skill developed by playing kids!” fd7ODb

Hai Xiu buried his face in the pillow and couldn’t help laughing.

“But then he stopped hitting me so much, and I’m not that crazy anymore,” Feng Fei became a little angry when he remembered what happened just now. “He’s actually crazy too!! When most elders hit children, they usually hit the thighs a few times. What about him? Except for the back of the head, he hits wherever his hands can reach!”

Hai Xiu hiccuped and explained for Feng Xuan, “He must have just wanted to hit you at that very moment, but when you run, he’s bound to miss and hit you on some other body part.”

“Can I not run if he hits me?” Feng Fei glanced at Hai Xiu. “You still speak for him?! If he beats me to death, where would you find such a good man (husband)?!” vfLJsn

“Won’t speak for him, won’t speak for him,” Hai Xiu apologized, and laughed again. ”It’s easy to see that your brother has a heavy hand, which is why he beat you so much, but he knows when to stop, you see…since his beating didn’t leave any scars on your body.”

“He still dares to leave me with scars?!” Feng Fei snorted, lay down, and slowly said, “But it’s also thanks to him… His beatings kept me in line. Although I am not honest, I have never done anything crazy.”

Hai Xiu whispered, “Then… why does he always worry about you?”

“Oh, you just said that,” Feng Fei said. Just now, didn’t he know that I really did something out of the ordinary? Feng Fei thought about it and said, “He did not say anything in particular to me, just a reminder so that I could understand earlier what I should do next and how I should go down the road in the future” RAiFdH

Feng Fei looked at Hai Xiu and said, “My elder brother is afraid that I won’t succeed in the future, that I would be a loser and would drag others down with me.”

“You won’t!” Hai Xiu said firmly,” You will do great in the future.”

Feng Fei smiled, said, “What if I’m not great? What if? Are you afraid that I will become your burden?”

“Not afraid,” Hai Xiu shook his head easily. “Then I will become great, and we can live well.” c0lZJg

Feng Fei’s heart was beating fast.

Hai Xiu was embarrassed after saying this, and he blushed and said, “No matter what, I won’t regret it. I’m too lucky to be able to… know you. I can’t be too greedy. No matter what happens, everything will work out for the best, and I don’t care about anything else.”

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Feng Fei took a long breath. “Don’t worry, just for you, I won’t really become a waste.”

Hai Xiu’s heart felt warm and he nodded vigorously. uevPs4

“Let’s stop talking and go to sleep,” Feng Fei turned sideways, he let Hai Xiu lean on him, and put his arm around him again and smiled. “Is it alright this time?”

Hai Xiu chuckled, and Feng Fei asked, “Then how do you sleep when you’re in your home?”

Hai Xiu hesitated while saying, “Just… sleep by yourself.”

“Thinking of me while you are sleeping? Tsk….“ Feng Fei rubbed the person in his arms and laughed in a low voice saying,“Really acting like a baby….Sleep” rhoXKQ

No words were spoken after that. Early the next morning, Feng Fei woke up and gently lifted Hai Xiu’s arm off his body and slowly slid off the bed.

Feng Fei walked into the bathroom, looked in the mirror, and cursed silently, pei pei.

Feng Fei’s left cheek had swollen and the slit with a small amount of blood at the corner of his mouth. TheRed and purple bruise couldn’t be more conspicuous.

Feng Fei cursed, and thought about it, then went to his parents’ room. 8PNHug

Feng Fei looked through his mother’s dressing table for a while, picked up a few small bottles, opened them, and smelled them, but he couldn’t tell what their actual purpose was. He opened a makeup box again, turned out the bottles and canisters inside, carefully read the English labels on them, and found a few things that could cover up a bruise.

Feng Fei carefully recalled how his mother did her makeup and took out a few brushes, but he didn’t know exactly how to use them, so he found one that was just the right size and held it in his hand. He touched the bristles on it, and found that it was soft.

Feng Fei picked up a small bottle of makeup and unscrewed the cap. Looking at the dropper-like head inside, he didn’t know what to do with it. So, he put the dropper aside, poured the liquid in the bottle directly to his palm, and just as he was about to pat it on his face, he saw Hai Xiu standing in the doorway astonished,“Feng Fei…“

Feng Fei,”…” GmWSIu

Hai Xiu looked at the cosmetics on the dressing table, then at the small bottle in Feng Fei’s hand and the small brush he was holding, swallowed hard, and said with a difficult tone, “so what…I just came to ask you, what do you want to eat this morning? You…is your makeup done?”

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