Over the next few days, Shi Jin scoured the files for someone who mightâve been Shi Xingruiâs âwhite moonlightâ but found no clues. Lian Jun, on the other hand, was much more efficientâthe evening of the day he spoke with Old Ghost, he finalized the personnel who would head to the southeast first. The departure was set to the morning two days later.
Gua Two and Gua Three would be the first to go with Old Ghost. Fei Yujing would temporarily stay, waiting to be contacted by the helpers sent by the government. In other words, the group of problematic people accompanying Lian Jun would comprise not only of Long Shi, but also a troublesome lawyer and several third wheels of unknown identity.
Shi Jin heard the news while lying on the bed subjected to Uncle Longâs excruciating physiotherapy. His face, distorted by a grimace of pain, was truly a sight to behold.
âSo, Gua Two and the others are leaving tomorrow⌠Ow! Uncle Long, can you please press lighterâŚâ Shi Jun couldnât help but beg.
Uncle Long patted his stiff shoulders and said, expression callous, âYou need to loosen upâthe tenser you are, the more pain you feel. I canât use less force or the massage will have no effect, and you feel it so much because your muscles are injured. Youâre a man, how can you be so afraid of pain? Grit your teeth and endure, you will get better after two days.â
Shi Jin took a deep breath and forced himself to relax. He glanced at the frowning Lian Jun, sitting next to the massage bed. âDonât watch me, Jun-shaoâI must look pathetic right now.â
âDonât talk, youâll bite your tongue.â Lian Jun touched his sweaty forehead. Although he knew he shouldnât, he still asked, âUncle Long, are the massages necessary?â
Uncle Long made a face. âJun-shao, itâs enough you refuse to cooperate with treatment, donât try to corrupt Shi Jin too. Of course theyâre necessary, or his muscles wonât heal properly and his recovery will take much longer. Let Shi Jin choose on his ownâwould he rather suffer a short time or continue lying in bed unable to move?â
âNo, donât stop, Uncle Long, donât mind my whining,â Shi Jin hastened to change his stance. He took Lian Junâs hand and squeezed it comfortingly, reassuring him, âIâm fine, donât worry. You know I just canât keep my mouth shut.â
Lian Jun continued to frown but said nothing more. He wiped Shi Jinâs sweat with a towel lying on the side then retreated a bit, motioning for Uncle Long to continue.
âGood boy. Thatâs right, if you cooperate, youâll get better sooner.â The doctorâs expression eased. After he finished massaging Shi Jinâs back, he grabbed Shi Jinâs waistband and unceremoniously pulled his pajama pants down, exposing his underwear.
Shocked, Shi Jin bounced like a frog and twisted to stare at Uncle Long with incredulity.
Lian Junâs hands on the wheelchair armrests twitched, eyes shifting slightly to the side.
âWhy are you gaping at me? Donât you know you need to get undressed for a massage?â Uncle Long returned his stare with a glare of his own then went around the bed to pull his pants completely off. Noticing the focus of Lian Junâs gaze, he grunted, walked back, and patted Shi Jinâs thigh like pork at the butcherâs, praising, âYou have a nice, perky butt, young man, your legs arenât bad either.â
Fucking hell, Uncle Long, you act like a practiced old rogue.
Shi Jin couldnât take it anymore. He turned to Lian Jun and said, voice cracking a bit, âJun-shao, maybe you should leaveâŚâ
âIâll get clean clothes, you should want a shower after the massage.â Lian Jun didnât make things difficult. He moved his wheelchair around the hospital bed and left the ward without looking back.
Shi Jinâs mood suddenly became complex: he was a little lost, a little unwilling to let him go, and a little unconfident. He let out a quiet sigh. âXiao Si, your Darling is the embodiment of politeness and chivalryâŚâ He didnât want to look at allâŚ
Xiao Si did not answer. It was completely silent as if it didnât exist at all.
Puzzled, Shi Jin called the system again: âXiao Si?â
Xiao Si still didnât say anything. It might as well have disappeared.
After a moment of pondering, Shi Jin recalled that Xiao Si hadnât spoken since the day he and Lian Jun became a couple. Shocked, he jerked, instinctively wanting to get up, but Uncle Long pushed him down, rebuking, âWhat, a minute after kicking Jun-shao out, you change your mind? You miss him already? This isnât a teen romance movieâlie down and donât move, or Iâll take off your underwear too and let you wait for Jun-shao with a bare ass!â
He barely finished speaking when Xiao Si proved it was still there by letting out a piercing shriek:
The painfully loud howl in his skull knocked Shi Jin back onto the bed. Feeling as if his head was splitting, he uttered weakly, âXiao Si, you⌠youâŚâ For a while, he didnât know what to say.
The system fell silent again and didnât answer.
Cowed by Uncle Longâs threat, Shi Jin didnât dare to make any big movements, so he only covered his face with his hands. He recalled a certain painful experience during Lian Junâs birthday and said, preparing for the worst, âXiao Si, Iâm sorry.â
Xiao Si still didnât say anything, but intuition told Shi Jin it was listening.
âI know you deeply love your Darlingânow you must feel like I stole him, and hate it. You have every right to be angry with me.â
Xiao Si:
âYou can swear at me and shock me with electricity, and I wonât say youâre noisy anymore even if you cry a lot,â Shi Jin said bravely. To coax his system, he was willing to suffer!
Xiao Si:
Since it still didnât speak, Shi Jin closed his eyes, gritted his teeth, and said with difficulty, âIf you still wonât forgive me, then the only thing I can do is break up with your Darlingââ
Xiao Si interrupted, screeching like a banshee.
Shi Jin pressed his temples, both hurting and happyâjudging from the screamâs intensity, his system seemed completely fine.
He was relieved, but Xiao Si was going crazy. After it screamed, it burst into heartbreaking sobs, interspersed with pitiful, inarticulate blubbers: and and
Shi Jin listened for a while and felt he was on the verge of going crazy too. âDonât cry, my head hurts. Iâm sorry, I was wrong. I was just scaring youâI was worried something happened to you. I donât want to abandon your Darling, I promise.â
Xiao Si cried harder then choked out,
âCross my heart and hope to die! If I lied, I will immediately become a eunuch!â Shi Jin swore.
Xiao Si screamed again and finally stopped crying. After a moment, it whispered,
Shi Jin obediently gave the expected reply: âWhat wish? Tell me.â
Xiao Si said quickly,
Shi Jin tugged his ear: âCome again?â
Xiao Si answered, impassioned!
Shi Jin fell silentâthese remarks sounded quite familiar. He rummaged through his memory, carefully examining the times when he heard them, and found he seemed to have a bit of a misunderstanding about the system in his brain. His expression instantly became indifferent. âOh. Then continue to cry.â
Shi Jin had felt a little sorry for the system, yet it turned out it had long had impure thoughts! He felt cheated!
Xiao Si choked and began to cry again.
Shi Jin ignored it coldly, gnashing his teethâcrying? Then cry, cry harder, maybe the tears will cleanse your dirty mind!
Xiao Si heard his inner voice and was overwhelmed with grief. The intensity of its wails immediately grew.
After such physical (massage) and mental (Xiao Siâs crying attack) torture, Shi Jin laid weakly on the bed wearing only a pair of underwear, feeling he was about to breathe his last and despising the whole world.
When Uncle Long finished the massage, he didnât even cover Shi Jin with a blanket but simply left, like a heartless scumbag after he got what he wanted.
So, when Lian Jun returned with clean pajamas, what greeted him was the sight of Shi Jin sprawled bonelessly on the hospital bed, âproudlyâ presenting his almost naked flesh.
His hands pushing the wheelchair wheels froze. His gaze quickly swept over Shi Jinâs body, then he looked away. He came closer and pulled the blanket over the teenager, asking kindly, âDo you want to take a shower?â
Shi Jin gave him a sideways glance, comparing him with the Demon Lord, Uncle Long, and Xiao Si, the God of Crying. He couldnât help but feel the warm, gentle Lian Jun gave off a holy light. He determinedly climbed to his knees, threw his arms around Lian Junâs neck, and put his head on his shoulder.
In this cold and cruel world, only this embrace could bring him a trace of warmth.
The blanket slipped off, revealing Shi Jinâs bare body. Lian Jun hurriedly hugged him and asked, stroking his back, âWhatâs wrong, does it still hurt? Maybe a bath will be better.â
Xiao Si:
Shi Jin: ââŚâŚâ
If Shi Jin had heard this sound before, he would have foolishly thought Xiao Si had indeed only hiccuped. However, now that he was aware of some of the systemâs hidden thoughts, he knew it mustâve been âstimulatedâ by something.
He glanced down, looking at his bare bodyâs lack of distance to Lian Junâs. He made a depressing discoveryâit wouldnât be Fei Yujing and the official third wheels who would be an impediment to his romance, but Xiao Si, his own 24-hours online system.
Just imagine it: in the future, when he wanted to be intimate with Lian Jun, they would barely touch or hug, and the duck calls would start echoing in his brainâŚ
Xiao Si screamed with indignation,
Shi Jinâs face held no expression. âA system of the highest integrity who spies on my thoughts?â
Xiao Si was left at a momentary loss of words. Finally, it gritted its metaphorical teeth and said reluctantly,
Shi Jin was taken abackâhe was only teasing Xiao Si, who knew this would be what he got out of it? He couldnât help but try it out.
The progress bars flickered, turned grey, and the world fell quiet.
Huh, for real?
Shi Jin quickly activated them again and was about to express his surprise to Xiao Si when he heard the systemâs muffled sobs. It cried, aggrieved,
ââŚâŚâ
Shi Jinâs heart softened, and he began to coax the âcrying child.â
A person and a system communicated happily in their minds, for a while completely forgetting about Lian Jun, who waited to take Shi Jin to the bathroom. The older man didnât get an answer for a while; puzzled, he withdrew a bit to look at Shi Jinâs face and found the teenager was lost in his thoughts, changing expressions all the time and apparently having a great time all by himself.
Lian Jun: ââŚâŚâ
Shi Jin noticed his gaze and sat back, focusing on reality again. Still thinking about Xiao Si, he couldnât help but say, âJun-shao, actually, I have a son for us⌠uh, or maybe a daughter. Itâs a very cute child. Iâll introduce them to you when thereâs a chance.â
Xiao Si quacked again, this time in pleasant surprise. Bashful, it whispered,
Shi Jin said promptly, smiling at Lian Jun: âI was just kidding. So, about that shower?â
Xiao Si:
Lian Jun: ââŚâŚâ
After taking Shi Jin, suspected of having a temporary drop to his IQ because of the torturous massage, to the bathroom, Lian Jun rang for a nurse to change the bedding.
Once she left, he recalled Shi Jinâs âson or daughter,â and couldnât help but glance at Shi Jinâs various belongings.
âA son, or a daughterââwas there anything⌠His gaze swept around the hospital ward, finally settling on the tablet.
Since Shi Jin was recovering, there wasnât much he could do every dayâbasically, nothing more than eating, sleeping, playing mahjong, and poring over Shi Xingruiâs information. Lian Jun thought for a moment. He picked up the tablet, quickly browsed through its contents, and touched the mahjong app icon.
When the game launched, it opened to the character page. Lian Jun discovered Shi Jinâs avatar was no longer the basic character, but an adorable puppet with a small pet curled at its feet. It seemed newly purchased.
His heart skipped a beat. He logged into the account Shi Jin made for him.
His own character had changed too: now it was also a puppet, only slightly different in style from Shi Jinâs, and another pet sat by its legs.
These characters were obviously a setâa coupleâs character set.
Lian Jun felt something stir in his chest. He switched the accounts back and forth several times, then called for somebody to bring him a second tablet and logged in separately. He put the tablets together, looking at the characters side by side.
Loversâ character set, the two pets, a son or maybe a daughter⌠Lian Jun covered the lower half of his face with his hand. He stared at the two pages, spellbound, until the sound of running water in the bathroom stopped, then hurriedly closed the app and put Shi Jinâs tablet back on the bedside cabinet.
Since Shi Jin said he would introduce his âchildâ to him âwhen thereâs a chance,â he would respect his choice and pretend he didnât know anything.
He was in quite a good mood.
When Shi Jin came out of the bathroom, he found the expression in Lian Junâs eyes was a bit strange: profound, indescribably tender, and somewhat excited. His heartbeat sped up, but he pretended to be calm. âIs something wrong?â
Lian Jun shook his head. Taking his hand, he said, âI just feel Iâm not fair to you⌠I canât give you a lot of things ordinary people can give to their lovers.â
The word âloverâ prodded Shi Jinâs heart. He immediately squeezed Lian Junâs hand and refuted, âHow exactly arenât you fair to me? You provide me with food, housing, and clothes, pay me a salary and give me work bonuses. When Iâm sick, you even personally take care of meâyou call this ânot being fairâ? As for what âordinary people give to their loversââyou mean dating? Going out for a movie and such stuff? I donât care about that. Weâre together every day; if you want, every meal can be our date. And you always give me anything I want. For example, the information you checked for meâwhat âordinary manâ could give me this?â
âSophistry,â Lian Jun accused, but the smile on his face widened, and his pale complexion looked much rosier.
Seeing him like this, Shi Jin couldnât help but smile too. He was still savoring the word âlover.â He felt the world was truly wonderfulâhe was the person Lian Jun called âlover.â
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Shi Jin, who had slept through a large part of the day, woke up in the dead of night and found he couldnât fall asleep again. Finally resigning himself to the inevitable, he opened his eyes and sat up. His thoughts began to wander aimlessly. He glanced at Lian Jun, who slept on the foldable bed on one side, and poked Xiao Si.
âHey, actually⌠Why did Lian Jun suddenly kiss me that day? Did he like me already back then? Since when?â
Every time, the way his brain worked caught Xiao Si off guard. It said, voice dry as dust,
Its words made Shi Jin feel awkward, but he was thick-faced enough to say, âI was still in shock, Iâm only coming out of it now⌠And Lian Jun is such a fine man, why would he ever fall for meâŚâ
Xiao Si was not going to let him have any uncertain thoughts about this relationship! Never!
It made him feel shameless, but Shi Jin admitted the system wasnât wrong.
He gingerly climbed down from his bed and approached the folding bed. He crouched down beside it to watch Lian Junâs sleeping face, feeling as if he was still dreaming. âHe actually likes me, itâs incredible.â
Xiao Si redoubled its efforts:
Shi Jin thought back and realized this was indeed true. While it wasnât glaringly obvious, he couldnât deny Lian Jun had been more indulgent toward him than his other subordinates.
Instantly, he felt as if his heart was filled with warm honey, sweet beyond belief. He couldnât help but stand, lift the corner of Lian Junâs comforter, and squeeze his not-so-small body onto the narrow single bed, and hugged Lian Jun like a cuddly bear.
Xiao Si:
âNow I can sleep.â He wriggled to the edge of the bed to give Lian Jun more space and closed his eyes, content.
Lian Jun never budged the whole time as if Shi Jinâs not-so-stealthy movements hadnât disturbed him at all.
Shi Jin couldnât help but open his eyes again and watch Lian Jun for a while longer. He sneaked a kiss on the corner of his mouth and murmured, âGoodnight,â then closed his eyes once more.
A while later, when the breathing of the person next to him deepened with sleep and the arms hugging him relaxed, Lian Jun slowly opened his eyes. He reached out to embrace Shi Jin, pulling him from the edge of the bed to the middle, and gently stroked his back.
âSilly boy,â he whispered, his almost inaudible voice overflowing with satisfaction and happiness. âGoodnight and sweet dreams.â
When Shi Jin woke the next morning, he was alone on the folding bed and the room was empty. Lian Jun had left at some point.
He sat up and blinked for a while, confuse. Abruptly, as if a switch was flipped, he threw the comforter off, struggled out of the folding bed, and rushed back to his own. He picked up the tablet and frantically skimmed through the information on Shi Xingrui.
Xiao Si, shocked by his sudden actions, asked,
âI think Iâve got a clue!â Shi Jin answered excitedly as he flipped through the data. âIf you like someone, how could you bear not seeing that person, not being with them? With Shi Xingruiâs personality, if he loved someone deeply, even if the person he loved didnât love him, he would surely tie them to his side by any means. So, there can only be one reason why I canât find any such personâhe had no idea where he or she was! He mightâve not even known their name!â
The system was puzzled.
âIt was still before the invention of mobile phones and the popularization of the internet. In that era, the only long-distance communication there was were letters. It was a way of making friends that has almost completely disappeared nowâpen pals! They didnât need to meet or know each otherâs real names, they simply exchanged letters, completely anonymous if they wished, like todayâs internet chat! Have you heard about online relationships? Perhaps even someone like Shi Xingrui, who didnât reveal his inner thoughts easily, had someone he could bare his heart to.â
Xiao Si was even more baffled.
âDonât underestimate the charm of words,â Shi Jin answered. His hand slowed, and his eyes grew brighter and brighter. Suddenly, he slapped the tablet, exclaiming, âThis is it! Shi Xingrui submitted pieces of writing to a newspaper since he was in elementary school; every now and then, it earned him a bit of money so he could contribute financially to his family too. He started with essays, then, as he grew older, it became short stories and poetry. In most families with such children, there will be a lot of letters and correspondence records, but thereâs no mention of it in the data! That proves Shi Xingrui deliberately erased this information!â
Finally understanding, Xiao Si became equally thrilled.
âVery likely!â Shi Jin was so excited he couldnât help but clutch the tablet and run out of the ward, eager to share his new findings with Lian Jun.
Translatorâs Notes:
âWhite moonlightâ [ç˝ćĺ ] â the so-called âwhite moonlightâ is someone unforgettable and forever unreachable, someone you love but canât have (often the first love). This person is forever depicted as the ideal lover in your heart who can do no wrong. It doesnât mean he or she really is like this, only that you think about them that way. (courtesy of azure_seaâs post)