In B City, Lian Jun had indeed found who the suspect was, and thanks to Shi Weichongâs call, they pinpointed Li Jiuzhengâs position.
Gua Nine stopped typing and said, âThe targetâs phone is on a highway near the L city and is moving rapidly. The target shut it down after the call; itâs impossible to continue tracking.â
Shi Weichong raised a hand to wipe his face, slumping against the sofa. His last hope this was a misunderstanding disappeared.
Li Jiuzheng claimed he was in Chengdu and never left. He also said that he received a call from Shi Jin last night, but they didnât talk. However, Lian Junâs subordinate located Li Jiuzheng not far from B cityâand judging from the direction, it seemed that he had just left B city and was moving towards L city. This was completely different from what Li Jiuzheng said on the phone.
Whatâs more, Lian Jun got a recording of Shi Jinâs last call the previous night. It proved that not only the teenager did speak after the call connected, but he asked for help and reported his location in detail.
A number of subsequent surveillance videos from the street monitoring showed that a black car made a short stop on that street last night. The time coincided perfectly with the time when Shi Jin hung up.
Lian Junâs subordinates found all Shi Jinâs personal belongings in a garbage can not too far away. By calling up a nearby surveillance video, they determined that the person who had thrown them out was the driver of the same black car.
All the clues pointed to Li Jiuzheng. Earlier, Shi Weichong couldâve comforted himself that there was no evidence Li Jiuzheng was in that car, so he might not have been involved. However, the call just now made it impossible for Shi Weichong to deceive himself any longerâhis fifth brother, whom he considered the most righteous out of them all, took away their wounded youngest brother and lied about it.
He couldnât figure out why Li Jiuzheng would do this. After all, he had never shown obvious malice towards Shi Jin.
âMaybe Jiuzheng just wanted to help Xiao Jin with his injuryâŚâ He tried to give a reason for Li Jiuzhengâs actions, though he didnât believe it himself.
Lian Jun slid his wheelchair from behind the desk. âIf that was true, he wouldnât hide Shi Jin. Gua One, book tickets to Chengdu, and send someone to follow Li Jiuzhengâs car.â
âUnderstood.â Gua One nodded and stepped away to take care of it.
Shi Weichong said with a frown, âEven if Jiuzheng took Xiao Jin away, itâs not as if he will hurt himââ
âAre you sure? Are you completely certain Li Jiuzheng bears no grudge against Shi Jin?â Lian Jun interrupted, getting right to the crux of the matter.
Shi Weichong was stunned into silenceâno, he wasnât. Everyone in their family, including himself, had absolutely no goodwill towards Shi Jin until they saw how heâd changed.
For them, Shi Jin used to be nothing but an eyesore. The negative emotions, accumulated for over ten years, couldnât be casually covered up and dismissed with a âprobably.â He was well aware why nobody had been openly hostile to Shi Jin before. Li Jiuzheng had never shown anything on his face, but who could be sure what were his real thoughts?
Lian Jun saw him unable to answer, and the corner of his mouth hooked up in a sneer. âYou brothers are truly ridiculous, each more than the last. Exactly what atrocities has Shi Jin committed against you?â Then he moved his wheelchair away and left, not bothering to glance back.
Gua Two and others hurried to keep up with him.
In a blink of an eye, Shi Weichong was the only one left in the study, thinking about Lian Junâs final words. He pulled up the New Yearâs message Shi Jin sent him last night. The more he thought, the tighter his fingers gripped the phone. Finally, he also got up and strode away from the study.
The bumpy car ride wasnât conducive to recovering from injury. Though Shi Jin sobered up, it wasnât for long; soon, he became dizzy, then broke out in a fever. Forget watching out for the opportunity to run away, it was difficult for him to even keep awake.
It didnât take Li Jiuzheng long to notice the teenagerâs state. He looked at him sideways and his fingers twitched, however, in the end, he chose to ignore him.
A few hours later, when the pale winter sunlight began to fade, the car finally stoppedâthey reached Li Jiuzhengâs destination.
Shi Jin was forced to wake up and get off the car, though his legs were trembling with weakness and almost unable to support him. After Xiao Siâs nudge, he looked up, forcing his groggy head to work⌠and nearly had a heart attack. Li Jiuzheng actually brought him to a cemetery! What was this about? Did he want to kill Shi Jin and get rid of the corpse right away?
âNew Yearâs Day is an auspicious day for worship,â Li Jiuzheng said in a flat tone of voice. He signaled for the driver to wait outside and pulled the teenager toward the cemetery.
âFifth Brother, why did you bring me hereâŚâ Shi Jinâs head hurt and dark spots danced in front of his eyes, making it difficult to see. Dragged forward, he stumbled so often that if it wasnât for the hand gripping his arm, he wouldâve fallen already.
Hearing his hoarse, nearly inaudible voice, Li Jiuzheng glanced at him and stopped. He took out a few pills and fed them to Shi Jin, saying, âEat them, you canât faint now.â
Shi Jin didnât oppose him, but obediently opened his mouth and dry-swallowed the medicine. He took a deep breath, trying to wake himself up, and repeated his question: âFifth Brother, where is this?â
The man continued to drag him along. âThe place where my mother is buried.â
âWhat? Your mother⌠Cough, cough, cough.â Shi Jin spoke too quickly and accidentally choked on the pill stuck in his throat. He bent over, coughing.
Forced to stop again, Li Jiuzheng turned to look at him. The hand that pulled the teenagerâs arm slowly tightened and his expression became a bit scary.
Xiao Si was panicking. For some reason, it felt Li Jiuzhengâs state was terribly wrong.
Taken aback, Shi Jin choked on air, which made him cough harder, his throat painful. He looked up at Li Jiuzheng and waved his hand weakly, indicating he could ignore himself and continue walking.
Right now, Shi Jinâs appearance was truly pitiful. His complexion was terrible, with pale, bloodless lips and cheeks unnaturally red because of high fever. Sick sweat soaked his hair, making it lie flat on his head. The patient clothes he had been changed into were too big and hung loosely on his frame, and he wore his own bloody mess of a jacket over them. His hands and wrists exposed outside his sleeves were blue from coldâit was enough to look at them to know the weather was freezing.
His present appearance made Li Jiuzheng stare blankly for a moment. Then, his expression suddenly sank. No longer talking, he dragged the young man towards the corner of the cemetery.
Shi Jin stumbled after him, not daring to open his mouth again. He spoke to the system in his mind, though: âLi Jiuzhengâs mother died? Why didnât the novel mention this!â
Xiao Si was also astounded. It replied uncertainly,
Shi Jin felt a bitter taste in his mouth. He bit out, âThis damn novel! It didnât mention such an important piece of information! No wonder the progress bar went up when I asked Li Jiuzheng why he wasnât home with his family. It turned out his most important family member passed away; my question poked at his wounds.â
Xiao Si was more concerned about his health than the plot.
âI know, but itâs impossible right nowâŚâ Shi Jin took a look at Li Jiuzheng, who was marching forward with big steps, dragging him along, and struggled to gather his thoughts. âBesides, my brotherâs attitude is simply too bizarre, I feel I can get some information from him⌠Iâll wait and see; I can still keep going.â
Helpless to do anything more, Xiao Si kept adding buffs to him, hoping he would feel better and hold on until help arrives. It prayed for Lian Jun to hurry up and come here soon.
It took the two of them a long time to reach Li Jiuzhengâs motherâs grave. Li Jiuzheng pushed Shi Jin down, closer to the still new tombstone, and pointed at the photo on it: âLook at her, look long and hard.â
Pushed like that, Shi Jin tumbled toward the tombstone. He managed to grab it and stabilize his body, but his knee slammed into the ground. The burning pain let him know it was scrapped, hard.
He frowned, enduring silently. Instead of kneeling, he changed his position and sat down in front of the grave, then raised his head to peer at the photo. After taking a closer look, he was stunnedâLi Jiuzhengâs mother didnât resemble like her son. Instead, she looked similar to Shi Jin, especially her eyes and eyebrows.
No, not quite; looking carefully, Li Jiuzheng and his mother had some similarities, such as the contour of their faces and shape of lips. But those eyesâŚ
âWe donât look alike, right?â Li Jiuzheng bent over and put his hand on Shi Jinâs shoulder, touching the photograph with the other. He looked both at him and at the beautiful, gentle woman in it, and whispered, âIâm clearly her child, but I donât resemble her at all. But you⌠She dreamed of a child who looks like her, so Iâll give you to her, all right?â
âŚFucking hell!
The madness in these words caught Shi Jin off guardâLi Jiuzhengâs killing intent toward the original âShi Jinâ was because of such a fucked-up reason! Who would have expected that Li Jiuzhengâs mother looked like âShi Jin?â
According to Xu Chuan and Rong Zhouzhong, âShi Jinâsâ appearance was similar to that of his own mother, so how come it was similar to Li Jiuzhengâs mother too⌠Wait a minute! âShi Jinâ resembled âhisâ mother, and âhisâ eyes looked like Li Jiuzhengâs motherâs eyes. If so, then both their mothersâ eyes looked very much alikeâŚ
Something was nagging at him at the back of his mind, but before he could focus on it, he felt a sudden sting of pain. He looked downâLi Jiuzheng put the scalpel on his neck and drawn a short, shallow line. All the thoughtâs in Shi Jinâs mind immediately fled in the face of an emergency.
âThis time Iâm really going to die!
Xiao Si whimpered, then wailed,
Shi Jin was about to collapse. Do something? He couldnât make head or tails of the situation, what was he supposed to do? He might as well throw himself on the scalpel and end it all! Li Jiuzheng was a complete lunaticâhow could such a dangerous person be a doctor!
Wait, a doctor?
In a moment of unexpected clarity of mind, Shi Jin had an idea. Deciding to go for broke and try it out, he grabbed Li Jiuzhengâs hand holding the scalpel, saying earnestly, âBrother, donât use this, not here, not like that. The scalpel is something used to save lives, donât dirty it because of me.â
Li Jiuzhengâs hand stiffened. His tone abruptly sank and become colder: âDid you think Iâll let you off if you say that?â
âI just want you to let yourself off!â Shi Jin replied, forcing himself to make his body relax and lean on his brother. Glancing at the time of death on the tombstone, he said softly, âDuring all these years you had countless chances to kill me, but you never ever tried. In reality, you donât want to kill me, do you?â
Li Jiuzhend didnât answer, nor did he push him away. He simply gazed at the grave, and his eyes were full of emotions, too deep to be understood by anyone except for himself.
The wound on his shoulder was being pressed, which made Shi Jin uncomfortable. His eyebrows knitted from pain, but he did his best to keep his voice and expression steady. He slowly turned sideways to face his brother and tried to embrace his waist with one hand. Asking Xiao Si to give him buffs, he said, making his voice fall lower and lower, âBrother, I know you just lost your mother and couldnât deal with it, so you acted on impulse⌠This year, it finally became possible to spend New Year with her, but suddenly, she was gone, and you lost this chance forever.â
Li Jiuzheng tensed, and the hand that gripped Shi Jinâs injured shoulder tightened sharply.
Shi Jin threw himself into his eyes and hugged him hard, using this opportunity to push the scalpel away. He patted his brother on the back comfortingly, and continued, âIâm the same as you, this year, Iâm all alone too. My mom died many years ago. I donât know what she looked like, where sheâs buriedâin fact, I have no memory of her at all. Brother, youâre all I have leftâŚâ
The man kept silent, but the fingers clenched on the scalpel gradually relaxed their hold. Instead, his lips pressed together.
âBrother, let me stay with you. Weâll celebrate the New Year together, as before. Everything will pass, itâs all right, itâs all right now.â Shi Jin kept pacifying him, asking Xiao Si to add to him all the buffs it thought even remotely useful.
ââŚWhat are you scheming?â A while later, Li Jiuzheng finally was willing to speak. His voice was low and his words taunting, but he let the hand holding the scalpel drop. Abruptly, his body relaxed and he sat heavily on the ground.
Xiao Si cried out in delight,
Shi Jin let out a sigh, relieved that his plan to make Li Jiuzheng feel they were both similarly pitiful worked. He sat down too, worming himself into his arms, and rubbed his shoulders soothingly. âBrother, if you feel sad, then just cry. Iâll stay with you.â
Scientific research showed that hugging and crying helped to relieve stress and tension, making people feel better afterward. Shi Jin simply hoped his brother would vent and let go of some of his killing intent.
However, Li Jiuzheng didnât cooperate with him. Although he didnât push him away, as his mood slowly calmed down, his eyes exhibited their usual cold indifference. âOnly weaklings cry. Iâm not a weakling,â he said.
ââŚâ Shi Jin suddenly regretted not watching more tearjerking talk-showsâmaybe he wouldâve learned from the hosts how to make people cry.
The progress bar still hovered in the danger zone; apparently, Li Jiuzhengâs killing intent was still there. Shi Jin weighed his options and said obligingly, âThen Iâll cry for you! Iâm not strong at all. When my mother died, I was too young to understand and I donât know if I had ever cried. We suffer the same kind of pain, but you canât cry, so Iâll cry instead. Itâs okay, Iâll always be my brotherâs sweet little quilted jacket.â He let Xiao Si give him a little buff, then sniffed and burst into tears. He cried as if the world was ending; soon, Li Jiuzhengâs shoulder was soaked.
Li Jiuzheng: ââŚâ
âWaaaah, children without the mothers are like grass on the roadside, nobody cares about them. Nobody cares about usâŚâ Shi Jin cried and cried, and then started to bawl loudly. While he was at it, he inadvertently rubbed his snot on Li Jiuzhengâs coat.
Li Jiuzheng, who was a bit mysophobic, stiffened and tried to push him away.
Shi Jin was weeping his heart out here, so how would he let himself to be pushed away? He put his good arm around his brotherâs neck and hugged him tighter. Inwardly, he howled at Xiao Si, âWhat the hell is this buff?! I feel so freaking miserable I could topple the Great Wall with my tears!â
Xiao Si whispered timidly,
Shi Jin: ââŚBoohoo!â
Accompanied by the whistle of the north wind, the sun was setting.
The two brothers sat in front of the tombstone. One was staring at it blankly, his hands limply hanging down, his eyebrows wrinkled, and the expression of forbearance in his eyes; the other was hugging him and crying his eyes out as if the sky had to burst into tears too for him to stop.
When the occasional grave visitors saw this scene, they couldnât help but imagine some blood-and-thunder drama with a tragic ending. They sighed, then shook their heads and walked away.
It took more than an hour for Shi Jinâs crying to subside. Then, the dehydration, hunger, and fever reminded about themselves, along with some other negative conditions. Shi Jinâs consciousness began to fade. Because of the cold, he couldnât help but to curl up and try to burrow into/snuggle up to Li Jiuzhengâs arms.
âWhen she met Shi Xingrui, she was just a naive girl, not even twenty years old,â Li Jiuzheng suddenly spoke. His voice was soft but lacking emotion. It caused Shi Jin to wake up a bit, and he rubbed his head on his brotherâs chest to prove he was listening.
âShe was the last woman Shi Xingrui pursued⌠That was before your mother appeared. Although Shi Xingrui abandoned her immediately after I was born, she still clung to this illusionââsee, your father cares about you, he hasnât looked for another woman, maybe heâll come back to us one dayâ⌠These ridiculous thoughts made her indulge in her fantasies more and more. Finally, she sank into them completely.â
Shi Jin opened his eyes, a little dazed.
âBut, in the end, this was just her delusion. Your mother appeared and it shattered⌠Then she had another oneââlook, that woman and I look alike, your father simply coveted her younger body, but it doesnât matter; when she has a baby like me, her figure will also change, and then your father will realize who is better⌠Your mother is special, and you are special too.ââ
Shi Jin struggled to prop himself up and see his brotherâs face.
Li Jiuzheng looked at him impassively and reached to touch his cheek. âThen she went mad, in the real sense. In the beginning, when she woke up, she didnât believe she had been thrown away. She ignored the existence of your mother and came to believe you were her child. She blamed Shi Xingrui not coming to see her on meâbecause I resembled neither my mother nor my father, so he hated me, and abandoned her because of that. Later, she even suspected I was swapped at birth. Donât you think itâs funny? I was right in front of her, but she thought it was you, whom sheâd never seen, that was her son.â
âBrotherâŚâ Shi Jinâs heart ached. He wanted to comfort him but had no idea what to say.
âGenes are such a strange thing. I had a lot of things I couldnât understand, so I studied medicine.â Li Jiuzheng covered the lower half of the teenagerâs face and watched only his eyes, spellbound. âLater, I learned a lot of things. I learned why I donât look like my parents, and that my motherâs fantasies were actually a mental illness. I tried my best to treat her, taking care not to let her condition worsen⌠When, finally, Shi Xingrui died, I was sure she would wake up for realâŚâ
âBrother, donât talk anymore.â Shi Jin pulled away the hand blocking his face and tugged at it, trying to stop the words pouring from his mouth.
Li Jiuzheng put his hand down. On his face, there was no expression at all. âBut she died. She woke up and lost all her will to live. It didnât matter how hard I tried to keep her here, she died, right in front of me. She blamed me until her last breath, asking why couldnât I look like her.â
Shi Jin quickly grabbed his hand again and said, âItâs not your fault, she was just sick. The one to blame was Shi Xingrui, and your mother was ill. Itâs not your fault, Brother.â
âI almost made the same mistake as her and fell into the same madnessâif only you were never born, if only you really were her child⌠But this has nothing to do with you. Youâre just a child who had lost his motherâŚâ Li Jiuzheng slowly pulled out his hand. It seemed as if thick walls went up in his eyes, hiding all his emotions inside and preventing others from entering. âYou can go, Shi Jin.â
Xiao Si cried out,
Shi Jin blinked in surprise, then scowled at Li Jiuzheng. âFifth Brother, I wonât go. Stop thinking too muchâthings will get better.â
âGo away.â Li Jiuzheng stopped looking at him and picked up the scalpel on the ground. He glanced toward a nearby path. âThat man is coming to pick you up. When he saw you, he came straight this way⌠Leave, I donât want to see you again.â
Taken aback, Shi Jin looked in the direction he pointed to and saw a familiar figure sitting in a wheelchair. His eyes brightened and he got up, wanting to rush to his side. He took a step forward, then stopped and turned back, bending over to snatch the scalpel from Li Jiuzhengâs hand. He struggled to pull the man up from the ground, saying, âNew Yearâs Day is an auspicious time to worship the ancestors. Now that we are done, itâs time to go back and continue celebrating.â
Li Jiuzheng frowned and got up, reaching for the scalpel. âGive it back to me.â
âNo, itâs mine now.â Shi Jin stuffed the scalpel into his pocket, then grabbed his brotherâs hand and pulled him in the direction of Lian Jun. âI said Iâm going to accompany you. Neither of us has parents, so itâs only right to spend the Spring Festival together. Come on, letâs go. Iâll make you dumplings when we get home.â
Li Jiuzheng did not move. âIn Chengdu, we donât eat dumplings on New Yearâs day.â
Translatorâs Notes:
âSweet little quilted jacketâ [č´´ĺżĺ°ćŁč˘] â refers to the close relationship between parents and child (almost always daughter). Itâs a metaphor for the childâs love and care for parents: like a quilted jacket, he or she would accompany them closely and let them feel warm.
âLady Meng Jiang Weeps Down The Great Wallâ â a famous Chinese folktale, with many variations. Lady Meng Jiangâs husband was pressed into service by imperial officials and sent as corvee labor to build the Great Wall of China. Lady Meng Jiang heard nothing after his departure, so she set out to bring him winter clothes. Unfortunately, by the time she reached the Great Wall, her husband had already died. Hearing the bad news, she wept so bitterly that a part of the Great Wall collapsed, revealing his bones. (Wiki â or google it)