Running away from the voices calling me from behind, I just ran without thinking. Drank some cold air and cooled my head. My cheeks were so hot that I didnât know if the weather got hotter or if it was just me.
âWhy did he have to make me so mad?â
This was so annoying.
As soon as I thought I ran enough, I just sat down on the ground. My hands were already covering my face.
Why did I do that? Why did I say something about not having a mother? Ah, damn it. Shit! I just said whatever that came out of my mouth, but it wasnât good.
Darn, how would I face Serira from now on?
Oh, I was going crazy.
I suddenly wanted to see my mother. Now she was quite old, so she was not the same as before, but I still wanted to see my Korean mom. I felt so upset. I knew their position, but was it okay to use such a phrase already? It looked like I had really turned into a child after being coddled all this time. My mind must be regressing in age to suit my bodyâŚOh, stupid, why did I say that all sudden? Seriraâs face stiffened when I said that. How could I go back?
âShould I just die?â
If I die, then I wouldnât have to worry about all this. Should I really die? Today I first realized that embarrassment drove a suicidal impulse. I was so embarrassed that I wanted to die.
After a bit of self-blaming, I stood up. Anyway, where was this place? I didnât know where it was, but since I didnât go outside the garden, I was definitely somewhere around the garden. This garden truly was bigger than I know.
âThey must be worried by now..â
Thatâs the only thing I could think of at the moment. No matter how much security they raised inside the palace, I was obviously still the only princess in this country; thus, the threat of having assassins after me were relatively high. Of course, nothing else was directly targeting me except the first assassination attempt I had received.
I was not the kind of person who could walk around like thisâŚ
Still, I didnât have the courage to go back by myself now. I would rather die than go back now. How could I get back to them when I made that mess? After all, all I could do was to walk around.
Should I go back towards where that blue-haired lady was?
Or maybe towards the winter tree. At that moment, I could see a little boy from a distance.
âWhat are you doing over there, you idiot?â
He shrugged his shoulder over my voice. I could have just ignored it, but he was so close to me; it was as if he was seeking my attention, so I just went closer to him. Graecito crouched for a moment and soon looked up as if he had made a big decision.
âIâm not an idiot!â
âThen what are you?â
âIâm Graecito!â
Did I ever say I didnât know heâs Graecito?
Shrugging his shoulders, I went to the side where Graecito was sitting and sat on a space with a little distance from hi,. Itâs embarrassing to sit too close.
âFine, bunny.â
âI said Graecito!â
âAlright, rabbit.â
ââŚâ
Graecitoâs efforts to imprint his name were in vain, for I had no intention of calling him with his real name. Why would I call you something so pretty when heâs not even cute? Well, I guessed he was a bit cute since he acted like a child. He couldnât even answer my questions straight when he was even bigger than me. How could this be Seriraâs son? Tsk tsk. He didnât look like Serira for sure.
I felt pity for him rather than hating him because heâs just a child, but Grecito suddenly looked at me with little an apologetic eyes.
He knew he did wrong, didnât he? However, I didnât intend to forgive him immediately, so I pretended not to know him and turned my head away. I knew itâs harder for him to talk to me if I did this, but I didnât want to forgive him easily! If he couldnât stand this much coldness, how could he live in this harsh world?