There was something in my heart I didnât know. It could be my mistake, though. Maybe itâs just a moment of disagreement. There must be some reason why Caitel did that to me.
One could describe this feeling as hope.
However, it broke apart as I greeted the morning.
He didnât come to bed. I thought Iâd see him when he came to bed.
When I checked the empty seat where his presence had disappeared, I feel uncomfortable. Even though I felt awkward thinking about him, I thought something would happen when I see him in person.
Thereâs no such thing though. My mood was falling apart once again. A short groan came out of my mouth. This felt a little different from the dirty mood I had yesterday. I felt really pathetic.
âPrincess, youâre already awake!â
I wasnât happy at all when Serira opened the door and appeared. I spent the day whining on Seriraâs arm yesterday, but I couldnât do that today too. No, my situation was something she couldnât solve in the first place.
âNow, letâs take a bath. You have to look especially pretty today!â
Huh? Why?
As I leaned my head, Serira held my cheek with her hands.
âHis Majesty will be going away for war. You have to see him off, donât you?â
I didnât want to. Did I have to go?
I curled my lips to tell her I didnât want to, but I couldnât make a proper sound because my cheek was caught up on her hand. Whatâs this?
Serira smiled. It seemedas if she was doing that on purpose.
What was she doing!?
âYou have to go no matter what. Letâs go wash up. Shall we?â
I really didnât want to!
However, my opinion was always ignored! Always and as always! Damn, everything would change if I could speak properly. Whatâs good about learning how to talk? Oh, thereâs one. Only then would I become human. Yeah, well, thatâs good for me, too. However, as it stands now, everything else was still the same!
âNow, Princess, brush your teeth, wash your face, too!â
âNo! I donât want to!â
If I did this, then I have to go see Caitel. I didnât want to see him!
âThen Iâll do it for you.â
I had no choice. Serira smiled and began to wash my face with her hands. Plus, she even brushed my teeth too. Oh, this made it hard for me to resist.
While I was frowning with embarrassment, I had already finished washing my face and brushing my teeth. Now, I had to go and see Caitel like this. Oh, no. I doidnât like that thought. I really hated it.
Then should I run away like this? If I ran away and hide somewhereâŚ
âCome on, Princess, itâs over. Youâre clean.â
At that moment, my heart melted away because Serira smiled brightly at me. Oh, no. I was screwed. Frankly speaking, I didnât care what happened to anyone else, but Serira was different. If I ran away, she would definitely get in trouble, and maybe sheâll get punished.
Sure, Serira was my nanny and the one who oversaw everything about meâŚ
Ugh, but I really hate it!
âCome on, itâs time for a delicious meal. You like this princess, donât you?â
I had been making an ugly impression since a while ago, but Serira still touched my cheek and smiled.
What the hellâs so good, Mom?
Of course, the food was delivered to my room. I knew I would not have breakfast with Caitel, but I thought maybe I could see him during breakfast.
⌠Unfair. Itâs so unfair.
He shouldnât be nice to me in the first place if he would be like this! I felt terrible if he suddenly ignored me. Wait, since when was I so docile?
âIâm not eating!â
âItâs your favorite meal. Do you really not want to eat it?â
âI donât want to eat⌠Ugh!â
When I opened my mouth, Elene threw a spoon into my mouth. I grabbed the spoon and glared at her. What was she doing to a princess?
âYou shouldnât refuse food like that. Do you know how many people waste away if the princess goes hungry?â
I didnât know anything about that! Still, it was a success to tie my feet.
Elene smiled and brought another spoonful of food into my mouth. I didnât want to eat it. Oh, really. Why was I born as a princess!? It was such a dumb thing to whine about; I bet someone would flip if they heard it. Well, yeah. I knew itâs annoying. Thatâs why Iâm sitting here like a good girl and eating my meal.
âShe ate well. How pretty you are.â
âNow letâs go pick out your dress. A pretty one!â
What dress!? I just want to go back to sleep! However, as always, regardless of my opinion, I was already going to the dressing room in Eleneâs arms.
âIâm not your toy!â
âI think the blue dress would be good since it symbolizes peace.â
âThe decorations are too colorful. How about this white dress?â
âDonât you think itâs too dull?â
âThen what about this one?â
âIsnât it too colorless? How about this?â
Pick anything. Why did they have to take so much time and energy to choose a dress? Of course, I knew they were trying to make me look prettier than anyone, but now everything just felt awry to me. Oh, am I even a real kid?
I felt pathetic about myself. I was sorry for being so uncool.
âOh my princess, you are so prettyââ
I was not that pretty.
The clothes I had on were neatly designed and a little frill on the sleeve was pretty cute. Yeah, well, this was pretty. However, I was scared now that I was all dressed up.