Chapter 446

Chapter 446: 446

Chapter 446: The Emperor’s Daughter 446

Probably because I wept out loud during the day, I managed to fall asleep rather quickly . I opened my eyes, only to find the night sky . I smiled bleakly at what I saw .

It was still night . Looking at the black sky, it felt unlikely for the night to end quickly .

All right, it had been a while since I slept so good at night .

The dark landscape accompanied my feelings . It seemed so quiet and lonely, yet it calmed me .

“Assisi, you there?”

I wasn’t asking . I just said it because I wanted him to come out; I knew he was there .

Unsurprisingly, I heard a sigh from the outside; the door opened after a long gap . Assisi opened the door and entered .

It was a familiar scene I had always seen since Assisi became my guardian knight .

I smiled as I watched Assisi approach me .

“Sorry . ”

Assisi was shocked at my sudden apology . He was surprised, but I just shrugged it off .

“I was grumpy, and Assisi kept on accepting everything, so it seemed like I acted out of context . ”

I approached Assisi, who stopped .

“Can you forgive me?”

I knew that he would forgive me; that was why I asked it, but I felt horrible . Assisi, who was caught off guard by my sudden apology, pitied me .

Hesitating for a moment, he nodded .

I smiled .

Assisi’s hand was as cold as ever, but there was a warmth I could feel .

“There was always something I wanted to ask . ”

I opened my lips .

“Dad and you aren’t just lord and knight, right?”

Yeah, it was something I always wondered .

No one really answered my question . I tried to think of an answer, but I could never get one .

After a while, Assisi nodded .

“I have to repay Your Majesty for something . ”

I wanted to ask what it was, but my mouth didn’t open . I felt like I shouldn’t push too far .

As I smiled, Assisi’s face went dark . What was it?

I grabbed Assisi’s hand . It meant that he didn’t have to say anything if he didn’t want to, but Assisi’s head dropped with a darker expression .

“I… I am a cursed child . ”

“Huh? What does that suppose to mean?”

I was embarrassed .

‘What was he talking about?’

Assisi spoke as if it was a grave matter . Like he wasn’t kidding . To prove his seriousness, Assisi continued .

“I will make the people around me unhappy, and someday I will lead them to hell, a child who shouldn’t have been born . ”

What bullshit was I hearing? I was a little angry .

“Who said that?”

“My father . ”

I went quiet without realizing it . I held my breath .

Assisi, who observed to confirm my reaction, bit his lip thinking back on the painful words he spoke . However, he didn’t stop talking .

“When I was young, before bedtime, my father would punish me . He said that I had to be punished because I was the child of the devil . Even when my skin would tear apart and bleed, even when I couldn’t scream out loud anymore, I had to get punished . ”

“It’s alright . You don’t have to talk about it . ”

Although the man before me would swing a sword all day, the pain of his past distorted his face . I was sorry to see that; I tried to make him stop, but Assisi was set on talking about it .

With a shaking breath, Assisi shook his head and began to talk again .

“My father loved my mother, but my mother couldn’t love him back . No, I am not sure if she loved him or not because I didn’t know my mother . ”

Assisi’s mother was Lady Sicelia . I thought she was simply the previous King’s concubine, but the woman was a mother and a wife . It was something natural, but it came with a strange shock for me .

“I don’t know if it was because of my love for my mother or simply because I hated it . I don’t remember much, but my childhood was sick and painful . ”

So, that was why he couldn’t stand still when children were getting hit .

Although he didn’t talk about it, I would have acted out of the memories I had if I was in that situation . I resented what I did and pitied him .

Wounds on Assisi’s body .

I always assumed that his wounds came from his long experience on the battlefield .

“You don’t have to say it all . ”

“No . ”

Assisi shook his head firmly .

“Let me speak . ”

I didn’t mean to stop Assisi’s words . He just seemed to be in pain . Even his expression made me feel terrible, and I didn’t want him to go down the painful road once again for me .

It must have been painful to remember what happened; just speaking out would create new wounds on him .

Nevertheless, Assisi was firm on wanting to speak, and I didn’t stop him anymore .

“It was because my father ordered me to hold a sword, but I did it because he wouldn’t hit me when I was holding a sword . I had no purpose with a sword . I held onto it and escaped . Those who helped a broken boy like me were Ferdel and Silvia . ”

I knew then why Assisi had very few people around him . I could also see why Ferdel and Silvia were constantly worried about Assisi . I always assumed that it was because Assisi wasn’t great at socializing .

“But Your Majesty never approached me nor avoided me . ”

“Sounds like my dad . ”

“Which was why I felt comfortable with Sil and Ferdel . All I needed was a little comfort to live . ”

Just telling his story, Assisi’s expression softened .

I noticed that my dad saved Assisi from his abusive father .

“I never thought that after such a past, I would grow up to be normal . ”

Assisi bowed his head .

I just waited .

How was I supposed to comfort him? I didn’t know what to say, and I didn’t want to say something wrong and hurt him .

Ugh, stupid!

I held Assisi’s hand tightly, making sure he wouldn’t pull away .

“It wasn’t your fault . ”

I was trying to tell him that he was loved . After knowing the hell Assisi had to walk through and the sorrow he had to feel all on his own, my heart ached .

I went to hug him, just like he used to when I was younger .

“It wasn’t your fault Assisi . ”

Right, it wasn’t his fault . He was never in the wrong .

Whatever it was .

I was certain . Assisi bit his lips .

“Then…”

Assisi asked .

“Where did it go wrong?”

His troubled expression returned . I held him a little tighter; That was all I could do .

“It wasn’t your fault . It didn’t happen because of you . ”

He wasn’t bad, and he didn’t do anything wrong .

What did it mean to be a parent if he would harass his child? Through love or hatred, a child could be lifted or lost .

There was no other relationship apart from parent and child, which could harbor love and hate .

A relationship that wouldn’t break even with abandoned hope .

“My blood is made up of two evils . The blood of a woman that could love no one, and a man ruined by love . ”

A voice filled with grief .

“There is no woman in the world that I can truly love, for I am twisted . For that same reason, I am not sure if I can love my child properly . There is no guarantee that my child will grow up well . This cursed bloodline ends with me . No one ever will get sick or feel pained…”

He sighed .

“So, a child like me must not be born again . ”

A depressing declaration .

I couldn’t say anything; I just held Assisi in my arms .

‘Please make my Assisi happy . Please don’t let him feel pain anymore . ’

“You said that I could leave anytime I wanted, Ria . But the truth is, I can’t live a single day apart from you . ”

“Why?”

Assisi laughed bitterly at my question .

I couldn’t even notice what kind of expression he had .

“I just didn’t want to feel pain; the moment I grabbed the sword and took away someone’s happiness, I realized that I didn’t deserve happiness . It wasn’t my will to drive so many to death, but it was something I did . I know that they were unforgivable and deadly sins . ”

I wanted to deny it, but I couldn’t get myself to speak . Assisi’s words continued .

“And since I’m such a person, you are the last thing that I will be greedy about . ”

“Huh?”

“I just want to be with Ria . ”

I was the last thing he would be greedy about; what could it mean?

I shook my head and wanted to say something, but I couldn’t think of any . My head was in a mess .

Assisi smiled while looking at me . A different smile .

“This moment makes me so glad that I feel sinful; I can’t hold on to more than this . This is right for me,”

“But Assisi…”

“Princess . ”

Assisi pulled my hands .

The hands which held mine were huge .

“You are the only one I can protect . ”

Said Assisi in a quiet tone .

“So I will give all my happiness to the princess . ”

‘What is that? That is messed up . ’ I complained .

“Can’t Assisi just be happy?”

“At this moment, I am very happy . ”

Assisi smiled .

“I am happy . ”

But…

He looked at me .

“To watch you be happy is what I want . ”

Happiness differed for each individual, but this was too much . I really knew that it was too much .

I released his hand and stroked his cheek, his eyes looking into mine .

“My happiness is seeing Assisi be happy . ”

The knight who had been by my side since my childhood .

My knight in shining armor .

“Which is why we…”

It was difficult, but I smiled as brightly as I could .

“Should be happy together rather than wish for one-sided happiness . ”

No matter how happy I was, how could I enjoy it if Assisi was suffering?

“How about that?”

Assisi was family . Being a part of the family didn’t mean we had to be connected with blood . If Assisi, who lived his life protecting me, couldn’t be called family, then I had no right to consider anyone else .

Assisi hesitated at my words .

“How can I do that?”

I smiled .

“This princess allows it . And you can . ”

Since we needed each other so much, we kept clinging on desperately to the relationship we formed .

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