Once I reached my room, I kept myself in there and stayed like that; I had to understand my feelings first . Assisi wanted to look after the children and the mother . I brought them over to treat them, but I wasnât feeling good about it .
Of course, it was a moral thing for anyone to save the weak and heal those who were unjustly victims of violence, but I didnât have the energy to put my heart into those principles .
I didnât understand what had happened .
I was just confused because I couldnât figure out Assisiâs reason for such a reaction . No, it was scary as if I didnât even know who Assisi was; it felt like the man who used to sit quietly with me had died .
What the hell was that? It wasnât the reaction of someone who saw something unfair happen . It was more like a freshly opened wound .
I didnât know . I was confused because I couldnât figure out why Assisi had such a reaction .
While he was called the Black Knight, he killed everyone, regardless of who it was, as if his father gave the command . It was the same for women or children . Since he was so used to seeing violence, he wouldnât even blink an eye even if any violent acts happened nearby . He used to be casual, no matter what was being done .
Something switched in him . I was confused because I didnât know why .
Assisi raised his head as I called his name .
The gaze I encountered was silent .
Assisiâs golden-green eyes were as impressive as ever . I always thought they were pretty, but now, I was scared to look into them .
âCan I ask what happened to you out there? I really canât get my head around that situation . â
The first rule of all the guardian knights was that no one would move without orders from their masters .
Even if the orders were given, the safety of their masters had to be their top priority, and they would never leave their side . That was why any member of a royal family would have 2 to 3 guardians with them; unless there was a select reason, the guard would be the first to die .
Assisi had been like that till now since I ran away from home . He loosened up a little and wandered with ease .
Things had changed . Although I hadnât given any order, Assisi moved . Of course, I didnât want to stop it . I just wanted to know why Assisi did that .
âIs it so difficult to answer? Can you give me a simple reason?â
That was his only answer after a long silence .
An apology instead of a reason offended me a little . I didnât want to hear that right now .
âWhat are you sorry about?â
No, what the hell is heâŚ
âI will take responsibility for my actions . If something happened on the trip, I would take responsibility for that too . Whatever punishment Ria would give me, I will accept it . â
I wanted to understand his reason, not to be angry at him . I didnât even think of punishing him . The principle of a guardian knight was simple, and not all knights had to live like that, so it could be tolerated .
However, Assisi, bowing his head even if he didnât do anything wrong, was incomprehensible . I wanted an explanation, but Assisi decided to be ridiculous instead .
âSo you canât tell me your reason?â
Assisi looked down . It had been a long time since I saw Assisi bowing his head that way .
I thought that I should understand, but I couldnât help but feel sorry . It was because situations like that could come again; I needed to know the reason . Couldnât he talk to me?
Right now, it seemed wrong . He was confused and flustered .
Valer entered after opening the door and looked at me .
âWho told you to come in?â
They should stop doing things on their own accord . I never told Valer it was okay to enter my room, but Valer came over and grabbed my hand anyway . What was he doing?
âCome, come, come with me . â
âLet go of me! I havenât finished talking yet!â
I still had a lot to say to him!
I refused and tried not to move, but Valer was also a knight . He quickly pulled me out . I felt exhausted, fighting him and trying to pull myself away . Damn, rotten knights!
âJust leave that alone . â
No, it wasnât like I did something wrong .
âUncle must have had a reason for doing that . Okay? Calm down . â
I wasnât angry, just frustrated . Ugh, it was crazy .
I didnât like it . Why were they treating me as some kind of a narrow-minded person? I could try to understand his reason too!
Not this one . I just wanted to know his reason, so tell me! I didnât like the âJust becauseâ or an âOh, that is rightâ answers . Those were not the answers I wanted at all .
What was it? I felt wounded to be kept from the reason .
âCanât you just act like you didnât see that?â
I was out of words at his answer . Pretending not to know? Was I drunk or something? I had no idea what was happening .
I wanted to pull my hair out . No, turn bald while scratching it out . I was being mistreated .
No, what was I doing? What would he do if he spoke the truth? Did someone threaten him?
Honestly, my words lacked confidence, and I gave up on the issue . As I turned away, Valer tapped my shoulder .
âBy the way, what are we to do with the kids?â
Valer pointed to the kids Assisi brought . I sighed, looking at the children .
No matter how pissed I was at the situation, I had to fix it .
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