I was jealous of that child even though I was not a little baby who never got a motherās love . I finally saw what had been ambiguously appealed to me since Silviaās gave birth to the twins .
Of course, I was not complaining about my situation right now . However, I finally realized what I had been missing from Serira after seeing those two . I did think Serira tried her best to be a mother figure to me, but I already knew what it felt like to be loved by my own mother because of my former life⦠I wanted to see my mother, although sheās not here .
It was not like I had never experienced a motherās love before⦠Perhaps, I was selfish .
Assisi called me . I calmly organized the ripples of my mind and turned my head .
āLetās go see Dad . ā
Assisi couldnāt even ask me back out of the blue . I wanted to smooth out the middle of his forehead with my index finger, but I couldnāt because I was short . Damn it, a chicken instead of pheasants, I held Assisiās legs and smiled .
āI feel like I havenāt seen daddy in a while . ā
Since dad and I were close, we ran into each other from time to time besides eating and sleeping, but these days, I didnāt feel comfortable enough to ambulate, so I intentionally avoided him . Something was bothering me, indeed .
Assisi was amazed because he knew me so well .
What was he asking? My feelings? What was in my mind? I couldnāt tell anymore .
However, the important thing wasā¦
I would only become more desperate if I continued to desire something I couldnāt possibly have . Whether or not I missed my mother, there were plenty of people who loved me as much as any mother would . People who cared about me for who I was . People who loved me . So then, I shouldnāt ask for more .
āAssisi, youāll make an excellent father someday . ā
Assisi nodded upon hearing my words .
I was being sincere, but Assisiās expression has subtly changed . Then he held me in his arms and smiled . It was a smile that looked empty somewhere .
āThereās no chance Iāll ever be a father . ā
Huh? Why not? I stared at him as if asking him what that meant, and Assisi smiled again .
āShall we go inside now?ā
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