There was no moon gazing upon the world. The sky was clearer than the one I had always seen. The numerous stars were sewn into the clear, cloudless sky, all shining in their own way. It was so pretty.
Looking at those lights, I was relieved since I felt like my knowledge from my previous life about space and the universe could still be applied here. Relieved that even though this was a different world, itâs not completely different from the world I knew.
Oh, when I had come to think of it, it wasnât exactly that there was no moon.
âWhen will Acclise rise?â
I stopped walking and looked back at Caitel. I was looking at the sky, then I was looking at a person. However, my neck was hurt since the distance of the skies and his head was not much different in my perspective. Maybe I had to wear a cast around my neck.
I walked ahead, and Caitel followed me. Thatâs how the two of us took a walk. Well, what I wanted to do was to walk with Caitel while holding his hands, but there was a sad fact lurking behind it. Itâs that he was way taller than me.
Damn, the walk I wanted was probably possible after I was a little taller. Sob sob, I wanted to be taller.
âThe last one went down around May. That was two years ago. It should rise around June next year.â
âAwwâŚâ
Therefore, I had to wait for quite a long time. Itâs like waiting for the Olympics.
Acclise. Itâs a moon that stays in the sky for three months every three years. Then, the sky would turn dark for another three months.
However, it was a little different from the moon I thought. Acclise was huge enough to cover the whole sky, and the nights were bright just like a white night phenomenon. A festival would be held during the three months when Acclise was in the sky. During the rest of the three months when even the stars hid away, people prayed for peace. Well, it was the same as waiting for the Olympics. When the Acclise came up, all kinds of international academic conferences and competitions would be held all over the country.
âDo you want to see it?â
âYes!â
Of course, who wouldnât want to see a moon that huge? Iâd like to see it even if it meant I would forget my previous life. I heard itâs such a big moon. How big was it to look like that? I was curious. I just couldnât imagine it.
âHmm?â
I was holding my hand on my lips in agony. Caitelâs big hands dug in. Oh, itâs cold. The temperature below my body made my forehead frown.
What the hell was he doing?
Despite my scary face, the hand glanced over my lips and touched my forehead. Then he patted my hair. A hair a little over the shoulder caught the tip of Caitelâs finger.
I raised my head so I could see Caitelâs eyes, who lowered his body in front of me. Bloody red. Crimsonâs red eyes. It was as if someone had carved a ruby into pieces.
You hadnât done it for a while, and now he was doing it again.
Whatâs the matter with him this time? Well, dad?
âAriadna.â
Huh? Why was he calling me all of a sudden? Caitel stared silently at me, and my head started tilting. Maybe he wanted to do that âtalk with eyesâ thing⌠but hey, dad, I couldnât read peopleâs minds. Why donât we have a good conversation then? I could talk to people now, couldnât I?
âYour name is too long.â
âYou named me, you punk!â
I wouldnât be angry with him if this was the only name I had. What was it again? Damn, what was my full name again? Oh, shit, I totally forgot!
âAriadna Lereg Ilestri Pre Agregiant.â
Yeah, thatâs the name. I was nodding my head, and suddenly I felt a sense of hypocrisy. Oh, my God. Wait, Caitel! This guy, he memorized my full name? Really?!
Oh, it just happened in front of my eyes, but this was a little surprising. I thought he didnât know my name because he didnât love me enough to remember that since it was so long. I couldnât even memorize it either.
âRia!â
I shouted. Thatâs what everyone called me. It sounded like a common name, so I didnât really like it though. However, everyone called me that. Elene, Serira, and even Ferdel.
âRia?â
Yeah, Ria!
I nodded as Caitelâs hand touched my head. Wait, itâs too damn heavy.
I was not just saying that to mock him either. It really was that heavy. Oh, even hands are heavy to me. Children, tsk tsk. I complained in the inside but didnât express it. That was because of Caitelâs depressed eyes made me mute.
When I saw someone who looked like that, I really didnât know what to do. I felt like crying. I really, really didnât know anything. What did he wish to do? What did he want from me? What was it that he wanted to do? Life was better when heâs fighting with Ferdel, or going on a rampage with his sword. When he signed like he already lived his life and gave an empty look, then I didnât know what to do. What should I do for you, you damn father of mine? Huh?
âTel!â
I thought heâd never show me this face again. I wonder if I felt this way because I couldnât see him often now? I felt pity for something. As I pointed at him and smiled, Caitel lowered his gaze to my finger. I turned my finger and now pointed at me.
âRia!â
I then gave him a big smile.
Itâs not easy to pretend like I didnât know heâs wearing a mask to cover his expression, but I smiled at him. Just like a baby who really didnât know anything. Therefore, Caitel could relax in front of me. He smiled. He barely made his lips move, but it seemed like a smile to me.
âYou mean Iâm Tel?â
Yes, I was glad he understood me.
Since my fatherâs name was Caitel, if I wanted to call him by his nickname, it should be either Cai or Tel. Cai sounded too sharp, and Tel was simpler and shorter. Caitel Reshu Bivizel Rouan Agregiant. This long name wasnât even my name. Why did I memorize it so well?
âOkay.â
He patted my head gently though his hands were heavy. I smiled brightly, bringing my head to his touch. Caitel smiled quietly as usual.
âYou were like a dog before, but now youâre more like a cat.â
âA cat?â
A dog sounded like an insult, but why did a cat sound like praise? I was a little embarrassed. What was the difference between a dog and a cat? I just knew they were different species.
âDoes that mean Iâm pretty?â
âSays who?â
âHey, you punk!â
Then what did he mean? This guy! Tell me the truth!
âNo?â
ââŚâ
I asked him again, but Caitel clenched his mouth tight. Really, he closed his mouth like he wanted to be mute forever.
Huh, look at this guy?
âThen what?â
I asked with a frown, but Caitel just shut up. Hey, why wasnât he answering? He said I was like a cat! What the hell did that mean? Why wasnât he answering? Oh, he shouldnât tell me it was swearing again. This punk! A sudden surge of sorrow came to me. I loved this guy because heâs my father, how miserable life was.
However, Caitel stood up since he couldnât ignore my gaze. Hey, hey, did he just ignored me? I grabbed Caitelâs clothes as he looked back.