âItâs not just because youâre his daughter . Think about the reason why Caitel first decided to let you live . â
âWhat? Was it not because Iâm like a bug to him?â
Even though I said it, it still felt gave me a pang of sadness . He giggled upon hearing my answer, but Dranste shook his head right away .
âReally think about it . Do you honestly believe Caitel spared you over something like that?â
Of course not . I knew thatâs not the reason . Though I had never thought about it before . His unusual seriousness made me sigh . His quiet low voice exhorted me to think . I just wanted to ignore him, but I was the one whoâs curious about the answer . I was lost in thought . It was Dransteâs black and blue eyes that reached the end of my subdued gaze .
ââŚbecause I canât fight back at all . â
I still thought about these sometimes . What would have happened if I had cried and struggled when Caitel grabbed my throat . I didnât ask anyone for it or ask for an answer, but I knew instinctively . Iâd be dead if I had done it . Dranste nodded at my answer . I added another one to it .
âWas I a creature he can kill at any time if he wants to?â
âAnd didnât do it because he doesnât feel the need to take such a weak life . â
With his mouth wagging, Dranste added a word . I then wrinkled my forehead at that sight .
âThereâs no need to keep me alive . â
âBut thereâs also no need to kill you . â
It was incomprehensible, but Dranesteâs reply was not unconvincing . Yeah, well, he could kill me any time, so he didnât feel the need to kill me . Why is that though? He whispers quietly as if to answer my question .
âAnd youâre so loyal to Caitel that on one would ever imagine that you could betray him . â
I bite my lips without realizing it . I had such a vague realization .
I see . I was just desperate to survive, and I guessed that was what might have looked like to the eyes of others . Even now, I was the most gentle in Caitelâs hands .
âYes, no matter how much you wander around Caitel, he didnât find the need to dispose of you . Thatâs who you are . Youâre the only one who can approach Caitelâs heart right now . â
I didnât know why heâs telling me this .
However, his eyes told me that this was the truth .
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