I roll over with the blankets wrapped around me. Gentle light shines in through the windows and I pull the covers over my head. After a nice long rest, I sit up and roll out of the bed. I shiver from the loss of warmth and it wakes me up quite a bit.
My head still aches with a dull pain and I close my eyes. I guess I need to watch the alcohol from now onâitâs as though my headâs going to crack open. I roughly comb my messy hair and when I open my eyes, Iâm shocked because Iâm shirtless.
Iâm pretty sure I donât have any weird habit of sleeping nude.
Last night. What happened last night?
I try really hard to conjure up the memory but itâs like looking through thick fogânothing seems real. The last thing I remember is seeing the old geezer, and getting in an argument with him and then drinking with Murong Yu. I look down and spot some bluish and reddish marks but Iâm pretty sure I didnât get hurt. So where did these come from?
I scour every corner of my brain but when I get no answers I simply give up.
I leave my room after washing up. The morning sun paints large golden blots on the limestone path. The cool, moist morning breeze hits my face. I look up at the sky; the weather is gorgeous, not a cloud in sight. The skyâs a clear solid blue. I can hear faint sounds of splashing streams and of windy gra.s.slands from outside the city walls.
It was spring when I accompanied General Zhou here and now autumnâs coming. Time has gone by so fast.
I feel kind of guilty when I remember the old geezerâs angered expression from last night. It was my first time seeing him since I entered the army and now I really regret driving him away like that. Maybe if I had just been a bit more patient he mightâve given in and brought me away from this place. Yet, what can I do but sigh in regret now that heâs left?
I head towards Murong Yuâs room, wondering how he would punish me for waking up late when a few of the personal retinues of his appear from around the corner ahead with plates and gla.s.ses in their arms. They all have tense, anxious expressions on their faces and sneak whispers to each other from time to time but when one of them spots me his troubled expression immediately disappears.
âMy friend!â He claps my shoulder, beaming. âWhy donât you do us a favour and bring these to His Highness for us?â
Puzzled, I inquire. âBut didnât you just come from over there?â
Without waiting for me to finish, they stick the things into my arms.
âHis Highness has been in a really bad mood since He awakened, for some reason, and weâre all too scared to go inâwhat if His Highness puts us on the block even when we didnât do anything wrong?â
Unsatisfied with their explanation, I retort. âOh, so Iâm not scared? For your information, I donât wanna be on the block either!â
âOh no, no, no. That wouldnât happen. We all see how His Highness treats you. Donât you worry about it, my friend!â
In the end, I canât out-talk them so I brace myself and march over to his room. Looking through the window, I see that his backâs to me. He doesnât have his armour on, just a loosely-fitted robe and his hair has only been gathered simply into a single bunch. Several pieces of paper lie open on his desk as if heâs writing military reports but there are only a few messy lines. A small mountain of crumpled b.a.l.l.s of ink-blotted paper rests on one side of the desk.
Heâs still in a bad mood?
I glance down at the things in my arm: a cold bowl of congee and a few pastries. Itâs obviously breakfast. He hasnât eaten yet, although itâs completely past the time for breakfast?
I finally speak after lots of deliberating.
âIâŠI brought you your breakfast.â
His figure moves the slightest bit. Dazzling sunlight pours through the window sill and onto his shoulders, dragging his tall figure onto the grey floor into a long, desolate shadow.
âHan XinâŠjust put it on the table.â His head turns slightly during his moment of hesitation.
I gently put the food on the table and turn to leave but turn back around when I get to the door.
âUmâŠAt least try to take a bite or two, even if youâre in a bad mood.â I whisper.
He mightâve said something but Iâm not sure. Quietly I tidy up the pile of paper and just when Iâm about to get out the door he halts me. When he turns around, I see an exhausted face of someone who hasnât slept the whole night. His brows tightly knit together and his gaze wanders.
He mumbles after a long silence. âDid youâŠhave a good nightâs rest?â
I nod though Iâm not sure why he asked such a bizarre question. âI drank too much last night. I slept well but my head hurt when I got up.â
He has a strange expression and his eyes start wandering again. Then he nods. âYouâre a light drinker alright.â
Why is he acting so weird today? Discussing drinking with me instead of writing his reports.
He holds my gaze, a blade-like wrinkle in between his brows. His cheeks seem to turn faintly pink but I canât be sure.
âHey.â I point at him. âMaybe you should go see the army doctor. Look at you, all flushed. Youâre probably sick or something.â
I canât help but secretly snicker at this crown prince who canât even take care of himself. I go over to the table and pour a cup of tea for him. He takes it and grins, playing with the cup instead of drinking it.
âIâll go call the doctor.â I walk towards the door without looking at him. âBetter solve the problem early on. I need to see him too anyways.â
He whips around and looks at me. âWha-whatâs wrong?â
I shrug and point at my neck. âI donât know. These weird bluish reddish marks just appeared out of nowhere.â
He seems to hesitate for a moment before tossing his cup aside, his uneasiness nowhere to be found the next moment.
He comes quickly towards me but I frown and wave my hand. âNo, thank you, Your Highness; I think Iâll just get the doctor.â
I slip out of there before he gets close.
Heâs clearly acting strange today since morning. Normally, when Iâm serving him, he would bicker with me if heâs free. We would throw retorts back and forth and it would generally be a good time.
But today, the atmosphere is very unusual, no, strange, to be precise.
By lunchtime, he still has an anxious look, his gaze remains jittery and he doesnât talk to me as much. And when I serve lunch, he eats one more helping than usual. Also, he would mutter to himself âWhy? Why?â or have a serious look as if heâs brooding over something very important.
Finally he is able to settle down and sweep all the paper b.a.l.l.s and inky paper off of his desk and then spread brand new pages out to write on. I turn to leave after I prepare ink and make tea.
What a nice afternoon; itâd be a waste to not take a nice long na-
âWhere do you think youâre going?â
I stop in my tracks and meet his focused gaze.
âTo take a nap of course. My head still kind of hurts for some reason.â I casually say.
He looks as though he choked on his own spit when he heard what I said. He looks around and points to a chair behind him. âDonât go anywhere. Sit here. So I can keep my eyes on you.â
I bite down angrily and shuffle grudgingly over to the chair. He perks his lips and goes back to his work.
For moments, the sound of ink brush gliding across quality rice paper fills the room. A faint fragrance of ink hovers in the air and the blazing sun coming from the back of the room warms the whole room up.
I donât know when the book I have been reading falls into my lap. I lean back into the chair, my eyes drooping down. Finally I give into the Sandmanâs invitation to some high tea. My sleep is light as always; I can still hear some tiny rustling of paper through my dozing.
Then itâs heavy footsteps, of a soldier, and also clanging of metal against the ground.
The personâs words seem to be interrupted. Then there is ruffling of cloth.
âLet us take this outside.â
Tranquility returns to the room. Unintentionally I shift in the chair. The chairâs arm digs into me and I open my eyes.
The sunlight is still pouring into the room leisurely, sprinkling golden spots everywhere. I yawn silently and sit up straight.
âYes, Your Highness, the prisoner has been identified as Duke Yu Qing of Rui.â
I hear Murong Yuâs delightfully proud laughter. âLet us see what else they have got up their sleeves now that all the dukes of Rui have either been killed or captured.â
The proud and elegant Duke Yu Qing is the only person in the royal family who doesnât have a care for status or wealth and has never got involved with the court and politics. He has spent all his gifts and talents on a grand project to collect literature of numerous famous poets and writers. Is Great Rui in such danger that even Duke Yu Qing must go to battle for it?
My brain is a cl.u.s.ter. My knuckles are turning white from holding onto the chair.
Even Duke Yu Qing has gotten captured?
âRui has been going downhill since Duke Zhao Ruiâs uprising twelve years ago. The members of the royal family have declined and now even Lord Book-Worm here has been forced to go into battle.â His voice is filled with vain and contempt.
âIt is common knowledge that the current Emperor Wen is ill and stays within the confines of his palace all year long. With no royal heir present, I wonder what will become of the throne if he dies of stress from this war.â
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âWell put, Your Highness,â the person speaks in a low tone in an effort to suppress delight. âPresently our menâs spirits are high. If we take this opportunity to attack, surely we can take South Hill Pa.s.s with no problem and aim straight for the capital city!â
âNo. South Hill Pa.s.s is easy to defend but difficult to attack, not to mention Zhou Zhenluan himself is stationed there. We must not act hastily if we are to be victorious.â
âAccording to our double agents, Zhou Zhenluan has much on his plate. The Minister of Defense, Xie Yun, has placed many of his own people into the army to restrict Zhou Zhenluanâs actions. Conflict between the two is becoming more heated by the minute.â
âTsk, tsk. To think that they would fight amongst themselves at a time like this. Well, better for us that they do; victory looks more promising by the minute. Only South Hill Pa.s.s still standsâbut not for much longer!â
âYour Highness, once South Hill Pa.s.s falls under your steeds, your military accomplishments will stack higher than ever. With enormous military power in hand, fighting for the throne will be like taking candy from a baby-â
âSilence!â Murong Yu barks.
The person immediately slaps his own mouth three times as punishment.
âI shall not hear such words again. Not even I can protect you if they get out.â After a momentâs pause he calmly speaks again. âTaking the Pa.s.s down in the shortest amount of time is the only thing that should be on your minds presently.â
The person tentatively continues. âYour Highness, Youâre out here all by Yourself while, from what our people back in the capital tell us, Your brothers, theyâve began to take action. And His Majestyâs health has been unstable lately, Your HighnessâŠâ
The entire yard is quiet save for the wind and the leaves that it disturbs, disturbing the peaceful afternoon at the same time.
âI-I shall consider what you have said. You may leave.â
âThank you, Your Highness. I shall take my leave now.â
Hearing all this, I feel kind of down. Iâm not sure whether for the inevitable conflict between his brothers or for the seemingly dim future of Great Rui, or perhaps for my own unknown path.
Murong Yu doesnât speak another word for the rest of the afternoon. He just puts on his armour and goes to the training field without a word.
I witness his armyâs might from afarâa wave of black that knows no boundaries. Metallic sunlight flashes coldly off the iron plates and stings my eyes. A black gold-embroidered generalâs flag flies up into the air, billowing in the wind, a single character âYanâ written boldly in silver. Black helmets and iron plates stand in rigid formation below the platform.
Murong Yu stands in glistening silver armour, not a hair out of place, the white eagle feathers on his helmet glow as if alive, emitting beams of icy light. A scorching but dazzling light radiates from his body that forces you to shy away.
I canât help but admit, such a person means fortune for Yan but doom for Great Rui.
With prestige flowing in his blood, he cannot allow any disdain, therefore the battlefield is his best stage. On the battlefield, he is a soldier who slays his foes with a wave of his sword but in the near future he will reach the absolute pinnacle and become the sovereign ruler of the Yan Empire.
G.o.d has never been fair.
And the difference between me and him would be understated if I said he is the clouds and Iâm the dirt.
But itâs all right because Iâm okay with what I have and what I can and cannot have.
Murong Yu gathers many of his men in his room after supper. It looks as if theyâve got very important matters to discuss.
I sneakily head to the prison. The guards know that Iâm Murong Yuâs personal retinue so they donât give me a hard time.
It becomes colder as I pa.s.s through the dim walkways and deeper into the prison. A rotten, moldy smell hits me and I have to hold my breath. The torches squeak and wheeze on the walls and cast shadows and figures everywhere, making it all the more creepier. I donât stop until I reach the innermost cell.
Is that famous scholar of a lord locked in that tiny cramped place?
Under the dim torch light, I catch a glimpse of a person sitting in silence in the corner. His light body frame seems weak and frail. He looks miserable under the flickering lights; his face is so pale itâs transparent. His eyes are tightly shut as if in deep sleep but his pale slender fingers are slightly quivering.
I gently crouch down, not wanting to disturb him.
It is him, after all, Duke Yu Qing.
Suddenly he starts coughing violently and my heart clenches. âAre you alright, my Lordship?â
His eyes slowly open and he stares at me, fazed, like he doesnât know me. Only after a minute does he slowly but surely call out my name, âHan Xin.â
âI knew you were still alive.â He sits up a little and moves towards me with a light smile.
I nod guiltily and he smiles again. âItâs not easy at times like these.â
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âDid they hurt you, Your Lordship?â
He shakes his head and his smile disappears.
âNo. Iâm a duke, after all. They would not dare.â He looks up at me and asks. âBut I bet they put you through a lot, huh?â
I lower my gaze. âJust a few whippings, nothing really.â
After a long silence, I continue. âYour Lordship, has it really gotten to the point that even you mustâŠ?â
âYes,â he says with such ease itâs like heâs talking about someone else. âIt has.â
He heaves a deep sigh and the sparkle in his eyes fades. âIâm just a book lover; Iâve devoted my life to ink and paper. Now that Iâve failed, I do not wish for anything but a clean, n.o.ble death.â
I bite my lips and gaze at him. His eyes are dark and his expression clear as usual as if heâs seen past life and death. Iâm not sure what to say all of a sudden.
He studies me from the corners of his eyes. âI havenât seen you for quite some time; you look more and more like him.â
âI beg your pardon?â My body shakes and I look up, shocked.
He stares at the half-feet-wide hole in the wall as if he hasnât heard me, as if heâs forgotten about my existence, as if heâs talking to himself.
âTwelve years. If only he had succeeded twelve years ago, Great Rui wouldnât be what it is todayâŠâ
âGreat Ruiâs establishment was based on scholarship; many of the royals are scholars. But only him, only he was skilled in martial arts, if only he was the emperor now, if onlyâŠâ
I canât help it any longer and I reach in through the bars to grab his shoulders.
âWho is he? Your Lordship, who is he? And what does he have to do with me?â
Duke Yu Qing looks steadily at me as if trying to find something from my face and then he shakes his head. He grabs onto my hands with strength as though he wants to break my wrists.
âPromise me one thing, Han Xin!â
I try hard to suppress my surprise and anxiety and nod. âAnything, Your Lordship. As long as itâs within my abilities, consider it done.â
âReturn! You must return!â
He holds my gaze and smiles hopelessly. âI have one son, not yet one. I hope you can take care of him for me.â
âWhy does Your Lordship say such things? You shall return too!â
I donât understand. Why is he, Duke Yu Qing, suddenly asking me to take care of his son?
I glance back at him but I feel his smile has turned cold.
âYou really take after him. Perhaps, perhaps you can fulfill his will.â
He suddenly releases my hand and sighs again. He cups my face with soft hands and he looks lovingly at me in the way a father looks at his son.
I cautiously ask him after much thought. âCan Your Lordship tell me, who this âheâ is? And what does he have to do with me?â
âDo you really want to know?â He leans motionless against the cell door and cracks a tired smile.
âThere is no need to know!â
A thunderous voice booms near my ears and I quickly turn around. A silhouette is standing a couple of steps away in between the torch and me.
His figure is stiff and tense like metal. I canât decipher anything from those midnight orbs that are raven like the night sky. He rushes forth, grabs me by the wrist and drags me out before I get a word of complaint out of my mouth. I only feel a sharp pain from my wrist amidst the push and shove.
âLet go of me, Murong Yu!â
He keeps pushing on pretending to not have heard me. Weâre outside in the blink of an eye. Everything is covered in a light veil of white by the cool moonlight.
I stop after prying his grip off and yell at him. âAre you crazy? Heâs just someone Iâve known for a long time! And why did you have to interrupt him?â
He whips around with a ridiculous smile and steps towards me. I automatically back away. I can feel a cold aura coming from his eyes.
âI am crazy.â He says as he comes closer. I back up step by step. He seems like a completely different person today.
I feel my back press against the wall and I start panicking. With nowhere to go I can only look him straight in the eye.
âDo you really not remember what happened last night?â
I feel something heavy in the air pushing me down and I squeeze out a few weak words. âI told you, I got drunk and forgot everything.â
âLies. You do remember.â
Are you kidding me? I donât need you to tell me what is in my own brain or not!
âYouâre acting up. Go take a cold shower!â I donât want to continue this conversation so I lift up an arm to push him away and leave.
His voice sounds extremely close. I instinctively raise a hand to block him but the moment my hand touches him itâs tightly restricted by his. His handâs cool just like glacial ice. I wiggle my hand around in an attempt to break free but he only tightens his grip.
âI told you to not move, Han Xin.â His lips feel really close to my ears.
âAlright, okay, tell me what you want then.â
We stare at each other and the silence seems to freeze time. He suddenly steps closer, imprisons me in between his arms without answering my question and brings his body closer. I struggle but to no avail.
âJust what are you doing?â I hiss.
Little blasts of hot air brush my face. Itâs a bit ticklish. He lifts my face up and studies it with a burning look. Before I know it his lips are on mineâa bit cool like his hand. My body freezes over, letting him do as he pleases.
My head spins, my limbs are restricted, my breath is stolen and an irresistible power replaces the cool sensation from before with an overwhelming heat.
He releases me only after a long, long kiss. I canât help but pant for fresh air.
âThis is what I wanted.â His voice is husky and stiff.
I calm myself down and glare at him with clenched jaw.
Donât think you can do as you please with me just because Iâm a prisoner.
âI said before, if you like men you can go to a brothel! I wonât let you belittle me like this just because Iâm your prisoner!â
He stops and the grip on my arm quickly tightens. âYou think Iâm belittling you, Han Xin?â He sounds a bit upset.
âIf not, what is it then that youâre doing right now?â I question.
I glare at him and buckle around trying to break free.
A playful smile dances on his lips. âYou really think so, Han Xin?â
I look daggers at him while he laughs softly by my ears. I think his jaw is clenched.
He leans in, his breath brushing my neck. âI really want to crack that thick skull of yours open and see what exactly you have inside.â
I frown. What s.h.i.t is this guy spewing? I canât make head or tails of this.
His lips are on mine again before I get anything sorted out. He pries open my teeth and his tongue swipes over every single place in my mouth, not allowing me to hide, forcing me to respond.
âMmm.â My head spins from anger and I try to push him away with all my might.
The next moment a frightened shriek disturbs the peaceful night.
âYu! Wh-What are you two doing?!â