I awake from a shiver. My eyes shoot open only to find a face that I want to beat into a pulp.
The owner of said face, Murong Yu, is sitting by the bed with his arms across his chest. His face is emotionless as though Iâm simply a fruit and heâs carefully deliberating whether to peel me or juice me.
His expression remains unchanged when he sees me slowly opening my eyes. âMorning.â
I suddenly feel a burst of irritation. Itâs his d.a.m.n fault that I ended up like this in the first place!
I feel a sharp pain in my chest just as I try to get up. Scarlet seeps through the white bandage. I canât help but fall back into a pile of blankets and pant as if my life depends on it.
âSave it. Just look at you. You are lucky to even wake up.â
He leans in grinning and pulls the blankets back over me. Thereâs nothing wrong with grinning but his grin is so creepy it makes me shiver.
So creepy it canât get any creepier.
âAlright, okay, okay.â I push his hand away despite the pain. He frowns and grudgingly oblige. I shrug helplessly. âIâll just consider myself unlucky for ending up as your prisoner again.â
He nods, seemingly satisfied. âGlad we have reached an agreement.â
I catch my breath before speaking. âBeing your prisonerâs not that bad actually. The place I sleep in might be a bit cold, the food might be kind of bad, I might have to get beaten up every now and then but besides that itâs actually not that bad.â
His eyes widen as if he didnât hear me clearly. âYou certainly are optimistic, huh?â
âWell, itâs not like being pessimistic will get me out of here. So why should I bother?â I pause before continuing. âBut let me make it clear right now: I really have no information to give you this time âround. So donât try to make me talk or whatever because if you were going to do so you shouldâve left me to die back there.â
He coughs lightly and instantly restrains his grin, putting on a solemn face. âSaving a life is better than any offering to G.o.d. Plus it was naught but a handâs turn.â
âI bet many others died during the invasion this time. Are you going to save each and every one of them?â I canât help but snicker.
The candle flame flickers, casting a dim warm light over the room. Only now do I notice itâs already pitch black outside. I canât decipher the glint in his eyes as they linger over me as if searching for something.
He suddenly turns his head away. âForget it. I know you enjoy battles of the tongue but I shall not waste time arguing with you. Here.â He places a bowl of murky black medicine beside the bed. âThe external ointment has been applied already so drink this.â
Unsure of what heâs got planned I hesitate and retreat back into the blankets.
Irritation flashes in his eyes. âIf I wanted to kill you I wouldâve done so earlier. Why go through the trouble of rescuing you? Not going to drink it? Fine!â
Despite his words, he holds out the steaming medicine steadily in front of me. I shrug, too exhausted to debate any further, and take the bowl, downing it in one go. After all I am under his roof and Iâm in no state to confront him. He might decide to kill me if I really do tick him off.
My body is tense from the pain of the wound on my chest ripping open again. It hurts as if itâs being sliced open once more by a blade until you canât tell flesh apart from bone. I cover my mouth, coughing violently, the taste of iron already seeping in my mouth.
Xie Zhen, you f.u.c.king cold-blooded a.s.shole. Oh, just you wait âtil I get my hands on you.
Suddenly a hand is on my back, patting lightly, and a handkerchief appears before me. I glance up and meet with Murong Yuâs slightly delighted eyes.
I am starting to wonder while wiping my mouth; maybe Iâve been injured too critically. So critically that Iâm hallucinatingâMurong Yu is delighted to see a half-dead person?
âThanks.â
He sits back down and I let out a breath of relief. Feeling a bit chilly I pull the blanket in closer.
âHow many casualties this time?â I ask.
He takes a quick peep at me. âNot many actually. About half of the Rui troops retreated back to South Hill Pa.s.s and the rest surrendered soon after we arrived.â
Then a gloomy shadow dances across his eyes. âBut that good-for-nothing sc.u.mâXie Zhen, was it?âwanted to get on everyoneâs good side. He was so annoying so I simply put an end to him.â
âWhat-!â
The shout not only saps all of my energy but also tugs at the gash on my chest. I instantly feel warm liquid oozing out again. In too much pain to speak, I can only glare at him while wheezing.
He raises his brows, eyes full of disdain. âTwo-faced sc.u.mbags such as him are the most sickening. It does not make the slightest difference whether they live or die.â
I watch him quietly not knowing what to say.
Iâd be lying if I said I wasnât mad that Xie Zhen hurt me this badly but suddenly hearing that heâs dead leaves me feeling a bit sad. But I bet thereâs someone sadder than me. Thatâs the end of His Excellency, Xie Yunâs bloodline.
My skull seems to be cracking open from my headache. I pat my forehead and let out a deep breath.
Realising that I must look miserable right now I turn to him and say, âHey, itâs late and I need sleep. Do you mind leaving?â
A frown forms on his face before I even stop speaking. âThis is how you thank the person who saved you? By ushering them out?â
I blink innocently and wrap myself tighter in the blankets. âWhat a huge coincidence that mustâve been! The prince himself going down into prison and saving an enemy soldier.â
âThat is none of your business. What you cannot deny is that I went to the prison and found a dying you, right?â
I hesitantly nod.
âBut I guess you have finally got a taste of what it means to be a loyal subject, Deputy General Han.â He leers and I catch a sliver of satisfaction in his eyes. âYou would rather die than betray your country but who knew, after all the obstructions and hardships you return to Rui only to be labeled a spy and almost get killed by your own countrymen! Tsk, tsk. I am not sure whether to admire or pity you.â
âMurong Yu!â I sit up, so angry that I donât even care about my wounds ripping open. âWhat sort of man speaks with such sarcasm? I never asked you to save me anyway!â
âBut you canât deny that you owe me a favour.â He snickers as he looks at me.
I glare at him but canât seem to find any good retorts.
âAnd what now?â He continues casually as if weâre only discussing tomorrowâs weather. âThe country that you pledged loyalty to actually abandons a place they have guarded for decades, retreating with their tails between their legs, leaving behind their own soldiers. AhâŚhow pathetic.â
His words grate my ears.
He shakes his head but the corners of his lips slyly perk up. âEven you, a member of the royal family, the grand nephew of the empress dowager, are abandoned. How pitiful, oh how piti-â
My fuse ignites as he pokes at my scars. I grab a pillow beside me and hurl it at him.
âDonât a.s.sume just because you saved me that you can ridicule-â
He catches the flying pillow in midair and flashes an enigmatic smile. âHan Xin, I had thought your looks were the only effeminate thing. I did not know you had a womanâs personality too, resorting to this sort of behaviour when youâre upset.â
âYou!â
I throw the bowl and it shoots out like an arrow but he sidesteps it. It whizzes past his shoulder and cracks on the ground with a âclunkâ. Immediately I hear shouts from the other side of the door.
âYour Highness!â
âAre you alright, Your Highness?â
âYour Highness, shall we come in?â
âI am fine. Stand down. No one enters without my permission!â He turns and replies then turns back with his usual smile and tosses the pillow back to me. âJust focus on getting yourself back into shape because from the looks of it you could not even escape if you wanted to, let alone anything else.â
I mutter through clenched jaw. âOâcourse Iâmma run away, you idiot.â
He has just stood up but quickly snaps around and looks threateningly at me. âSay that again.â
I refuse to back down from his stare or show any fear even though it hurts like h.e.l.l. After a while he grins and leans in closer.
âI think I should inform you that I was originally quite interested in your stubbornness. I even did some research on the kinds of punishment that would be harsher. I was somewhat disappointed with your sudden escape but now that you have fallen into my hands once more, I think you will find it to your likingâŚâ
Moonlight files through a window and falls onto the floor like frost. The candlelight, on the other hand, seems much dimmer. A chill runs down my spine as I watch that eerie expression of his.
âYouâŚ.â The cats got my tongue again and wonât give it back.
He laughs quite elegantly with a majestic air enough to entrance tons of inexperienced, extremely shallow and superficial women. He could get hundreds, even thousands of young pretty girls lined up for him if he wanted to.
I wonder if heâs married or not.
Because Iâm really worried for that woman.
âEarth to Han Xin.â
His voice rings beside my ears making me jump in my seat. Only when I gather my thoughts again do I realise his face is looming right in front of me. I quickly pull away but his body pushes closer.
He grabs my chin forcefully. âYouâre an interesting one, arenât you?â
Puffs of hot air hit my face making me kind of uncomfortable. But he has a firm hold on me so I turn my face away and wave my hands. âIf you want to torture me, fine, go right ahead, but at least wait âtil I recover. Please leave now.â
He chuckles as if he heard something hilarious.
The pressure on my throat leaves and I gulp for air while glaring loathingly at the culprit for my near-suffocation.
He paces slowly to the door, sparks dancing in his eyes but no words coming out. Then he leaves with a grin.
Sloppy piles of books lay before me, already defiled by yours truly. I rub my eyes and lie back onto my pillow, sighing here and there with my eyes shut. Other than reading on my bed, I could do nothing but eat, sleep, drink and apply medicine for the past couple of days. Well, either read or go off to la-la-land.
Murong Yuâs been a nice chap though, getting me a stack of books to relieve me of my boredom but when I think of the torture heâs going to put me through once I recover, I canât feel any grat.i.tude towards him.
SighâŚ
SighâŚ
I survey the quiet room blankly then grab some blankets and wrap myself in comforting warmth.
The sunlight is just right outside. It streams through the carved windows and forms spots on the floor, making the room feel even more desolate.
My mind starts to wander and I think, if that guy was here, Iâd at least have someone to bicker with. I mean it beats lying on my bed alone with nothing to do.
At least itâd be sort of fun.
My chest is starting to ache with pain again. The gash that Xie Zhen left was too deep, after all. The doctor said that if it was the tiniest bit deeper and a fraction more to the right even the reincarnation of the legendary Hua Tuo could not save me.
Of course, when Iâm all snug inside this cozy cotton blanket, I admit, albeit bitterly, that Xie Zhen wouldâve probably had better aim if Murong Yu hadnât invaded with his men at that time and startled him.
I let out another sigh, flipping through the pages of the book in front of me and then wrap myself tight with the blanket.
Thatâs enough wandering. Why waste your energy thinking about that useless stuff. What is important right now is recovering and finding an opportunity to escape. As to where I shall escape toâŚ
Well, I havenât exactly decided yet but surely not the capital and I canât stay here either. Murong Yu-
As soon as I think about him my lips start twitching uncontrollably. Iâve had the worst luck ever since I met him. Iâve literally gone to h.e.l.l and backâseveral times! Could it be that our birth signs arenât compatible?
The slightly opened door is suddenly pushed open and I hear footsteps stop by the bed. I know who it is so I point to the table. âPut it on the table. Iâll eat it later, thanks.â
Iâve barely finished when my blanket is ripped away. A chilly breeze hits me and I shiver. I reach out and take the blanket back. âIâm sick right now! You can torture me after Iâve recovered!â
As expected, Murong Yuâs voice comes from above. âYou sure are energetic for a sick person.â
I roll my eyes at him and ignore him by turning away. This sort of thing happens every day and Iâve gotten tired of wasting my words on him.
Unexpectedly, he sits down on the edge of the bed and flings my blanket to the other end of the bed. âIt is time to apply your medication.â
Then he starts taking my clothes off. Startled, I struggle a bit and almost fall off the bed but he pulls me back and forces me to stay still.
I initiate my last line of defense when heâs twisting the cap off the bottle. âCâmon man⌠I mean every day! Donât you find it troublesome?â
I canât hear any emotion in his voice. âDo you not find it troublesome to resist, every day, and end up like this anyway, every day?
Not wanting to deal with him anymore, I relax and bury my head into the pillow and let him apply the ointment on me. The lashes from the whippings havenât healed completely yet and every application is just as hard to bear as the original whipping. Iâm having trouble breathing because of the pain and no matter how I move itâs agonizing.
âHeyâŚcanât you beâŚa bit gentlerâŚI meanâŚdo you even know how to do this?â
âHey. Itâs my first time, too. Just bear with it.â He says casually as he pushes aside wet hair on my forehead.
What. The. h.e.l.l. Keep your hands, which are supposed to be applying ointment, to yourself!
But I bear with it until the end despite my complaints. Swear to G.o.d, I canât let him do this next time, or else, I might just die from this and not from that dead b.a.s.t.a.r.d Xie Zhen.
He cleans up the medicine and I put on my clothes while getting up. He sits down quietly at the table, takes a cup and pours tea into it. Heâs not wearing his armour today; instead itâs just a light-coloured robe. His hair is partly tied up and his expression relaxed. Itâs as if heâs come for a hike and not for war.
Except for that black sword by his waist, of course.
He picks up the cup and shoots a look at me as if heâs contemplating and searching at the same time.
âHan Xin, do you want to know how many prisoners weâve captured?â He swallows some tea and smiles leisurely.
I roll my eyes at him and reply grudgingly. âOh, Your Highness, I think you should consider visiting the army hostesses instead of bickering with this sickly person. You should certainly take advantage of this break in the war and enjoy yourself to the fullest.â
If I were him I would rather have delicate women in my embrace than applying ointment on someone.
He just keeps smiling as if he hasnât heard me. After a bit he says, âOf course I will visit them but now is not the time. They tell me Jiangnan in Great Rui is a place of gentle drizzles, red cherry blossoms and green weeping willows.â
Looking up, he recites:
Fair lands lie in the southeast;
The center of the Wu provinces,
Hangzhou has always flourished.
Misty willow trees and exquisitely carved bridges;
Emerald green beaded curtains sway in the wind,
A hundred thousand residences scatter unevenly across.
Spreads of forest snake along the sandy sh.o.r.es;
The rugged waves crash and form snowy froth,
The endless Qiantang River protects the city.
Pearls and jewels line the markets;
The people dress in vibrant silks,
Rushing to display opulence.
The overlapping mountain peaks about West Lake are gorgeous;
There are sweet olives in the third month of autumn,
And ten li of lotus flowers.
Woodwinds play on sunny days;
Water-chestnut collectorsâ songs fill the night,
Delighting old fishermen and lotus picking girls.
The ivory flag posts of a thousand men
Listen to the flutes and drums, wine in hand;
Revel in the splendid scenery, rhymes in mind.
I shall paint this landscape down one day
And display it in the Imperial court.
My stomach tightens and my arms and legs go rigid but his eyes are sparkling. âFrom what I hear, the women from south of the Yangtze are all graceful, agile and as beautiful as flowers in bloom; every frown, every smile, every scold and every tantrum is filled with pa.s.sionâby far, much better than any hostess we have here. And let me tell you, I am a very patient man.â
Not waiting for him to finish, I blurt out. âYouâre going for South Hill Pa.s.s?â
He sips some tea before replying. âSo what if I am? It is only a matter of time. No need to be so alarmed.â
He looks up at me with a satisfied smile. âI hope you are not planning to stay a loyal subject after all this, are you?â
He has a casual expression but his eyes speak confidence. My mouth opens but no words come out.
âMy troops are going through some calibrating these few days. When the time comes, bringing down South Hill Pa.s.s, no, even the capital of Rui, will be a piece of cake.â
Hearing his words makes me dumbfounded and the hairs on my neck stand up. I rush off the bed after a momentâs hesitation and stumble a few steps. I speak once I find my balance. âNo way. South Hill Pa.s.s was made and kept since the establishment of the country itself. It wonât fall just because you say so.â
He stops but bellows out in laughter the next moment. He puts the cup down and walks towards me.
The Yan have always been a tall people. Iâm actually considered tall amongst Rui men but Iâm still some fractions shorter than Murong Yu. With his back to the light, his expressions and features are all hidden in the shadows and yet his body emits an apparent and powerful aura that rests on your shoulders like dead weights. He comes in closer, not giving me any possibility to escape.
He spells out. âThe city might be dead but the people in it are alive.â
I glance up a little bit and see him smirking delightfully.
A thought flies through my mind: heâs sayingâŚthere is a spy!
âAnd also,â he leans in even closer, lips almost touching my ear, âI suggest you do not even attempt to run away. You do not want to tempt me a second time. The punishment will be more than you can handle.â
I look into his black eyes and remain quiet; his brows dance upward and a satisfied smile spreads on his face.