âIâm scared of fightingâ those words came weakly from the timid Kazuki.
Generally, that would be the normal reaction. Also, we were still only in high school. Excluding Inukami-senpai, Kazukiâs reaction was the expected response.
It wasnât like he was a hero from a story or an arrogant protagonist; he was just a normal young man.
âDuring the time when I fought outside of the Kingdom⌠Fighting with monsters, I was really scared. I nearly froze in place when I first encountered them.â
ââŚâŚâ
âBut when they attacked, I desperately⌠desperately resistedâŚâŚ When I defeated them⌠I once again realized just how optimistic I was viewing this world.â
âCalm down, Kazuki.â
Kazuki was different from Inukami-senpai and he was highly sensitive.
In Inukami-senpaiâs case, she truly accepted this world while Kazuki only accepted this world to a necessary degree and didnât think much about it. I could imagine that he was having a mental breakdown.
In reality, Kazuki was getting worked up on his emotions as his light magic was leaking out from both of his hands and illuminated the surroundings. Noticing my words, he suppressed the light magic but his expression was still dark.
âEven the Maouâs army, theyâve come to attack us and will try to come kill me⌠That makes me tremendously afraid. But even though I was being a coward, the people in this kingdom were kind and cheered me on. They had expectations⌠Right now, thatâs putting more pressure on me than anything else.â
It was a burden shared by past heroes. Just by being a hero, other peopleâs gazes would revere you. I was sure that a great burden was being placed on Kazuki because of that. This wasnât something people would normally experience.
That was why I could only say one thing to him.
âKazuki, itâs fine even if you donât fight.â
ââŚâŚHah?â
This conversation with Kazuki⌠how much it would decrease our war potential⌠that was irrelevant. There was no need to involve ourselves in this war since we got dragged into it. No matter how heartless that seemed, Kazuki had that right.
âI mean⌠No one wants to die. I really do understand.â
âW-wait a moment! If I donât fight, what are you going to do, Usato!?â
âIâll be going. Itâs hard for me to die after all.â
Also, I unexpectedly had other reasons too.
Inside the Rescue Squad, for people like Olga-san or Uluru-san⌠Also for Roseâs sake.
âThatâs not the problem right!?!? Usato, arenât you also scared of dying!?!?â
âIâll be fine!â
â!?â
Without thinking, I replied like that.
âI donât mean it like that, what do you want to do!? Youâre scared of fighting, right!? If thatâs so, itâs okay to run away!! I⌠and probably Inukami-senpai, the King, Sergio-san, Welsey-san, Sigris-san, Seria-sama wonât blame you!!â
ââŚâŚAhâŚâŚâ
Crap, did I overdo it a little?
Kazuki hung his head low while covering his eyes with both of his hands.
*
Iâm such a pathetic person.
I avoided everything around me⌠In the end, I couldnât even face myself. I had no idea what to say to the other party so that everyone would be happy. It was always like this. It was the vice president that everyone wanted after all. It was everyone who wanted to fight that Maouâs army. Always, always, always, always, always, I would always try to match with my surroundings. Since everyone wanted it, they would be delighted. I say âeveryoneâ but majority are always girls.
That was why being told by Usato to âitâs fine to not fightââŚâŚ If he were to say instead, âDonât go out and fightâ, I would surely decide to not fight.
But he knew something about me and said those words instead.
ââŚ.Iâm scared of fighting⌠But you knowââ
At first, I was furious.
They called us out of their own convenience, telling the heroes to fight with the Maouâs army and everything⌠But you know, everyone in this country were really good people.
The King, SeriaâŚ. Everyone, everyone⌠warm and gentle people who didnât have anything hidden under them. That was why there was no way I could let danger approach these people.
That was why⌠Even if it was for such a small reason⌠Iâ
âI guess I donât want to die.â
*
After a brief period of silence while Kazuki was thinking, I heard the words âI guess I donât want to dieâ from him. Did he find his resolveâŚ?
I didnât know what kind of answer he found within himself but I wouldnât say anything since it was something that Kazuki convinced himself with. âŚ.Or rather, I didnât have the qualifications to do so.
âI see.â
âThanks, Usato.â
âWeâre friends, donât mind it.â
ââŚ..Y-yeah!â
S-so embarrassingggggggggggggggggggggggg!!
I wanted to find a hole and hide in it! This wasnât my character at all! I was supposed to be more of a dry character butâ! Ah I should stop it, I canât change what was done even if I wanted to.
âErm, I should probably return to the castle now. Sorry for waking you up at night. Afterwards, Iâll think about it and reach answers on my own.â
âGood luck.â
âThen, good night.â
With the moonlight illuminating the path, Kazuki jogged away. His back somehow seemed stronger than before.
I saw him off till I couldnât see his back anymore. I started walking back to the lodgings while giving a big yawn. Tomorrow I would have training to prepare for the Maouâs army. It wouldnât do if I didnât go back to my bed soon.
âFuah~ âŚ..Iâm sleepy, Iâll go back and sleep.â
âWellll~ was that what people refer to as menâs friendship? I sure got to see something nice.â
I heard a voice from behind.
But as I knew who was speaking, I didnât turn around. For the time being, I should say something back.
âI am truly sorry, Iâm sleepy so I have no time to bother with you so⌠If itâs possible, leave it for tomorrow⌠Inukami-senpaiâŚ.â
I didnât notice her at all but I wasnât that surprised since it wasnât that weird for her to be here.
ââŚ.Huh? Your reaction is a little odd? In this kind of situation it should be âW-why is Suzune-senpai here right now!?â or âUwaaaah!! Suzu-tan is hereeeee!!!!â shouldnât you be raising your voice like that!?â
âPlease donât change how I address Senpai⌠Well anyhow, I bet since itâs Senpai, you noticed that Kazuki was acting oddâŚâ
âSuzune-senpaiâ and âSuzu-tanâ I had never called her like that even once.
From what it looked like, Inukami-senpai noticed Kazukiâs unusual state as she was the president of the student council. Most likely, she chased after Kazuki when she saw that he left in the middle of the night.
Good grief, she should have come out in the beginning if she was hereâŚ. Well, she was reading the situation in a sense.
âHey, why is it that Usato-kun is somewhat dry towards me? Did I do something to offend you? If you can, I want you to tell me so I can fix it right away.â
âWhy are you that frantic about it⌠Or rather, Senpai should return back to the castleâŚâ
ââŚ.Iâm almost about to cry.â
âGood joke.â
Something like Senpai crying.
No, if she really cried, I would probably be kneeling down on the ground (Dogeza) but since she said âIâm almost about to cryâ herself, it should still be fine.
I thought I would be walking back but thanks to the appearance of Inukami-senpai, I was once again stopped.
Next to me was Inukami-senpai who was looking at the moon while emotionally muttering,
âIt seems Kazuki-kun has gotten over it now. In certain sense, he was always lacking something from being isolated by the same sexâŚâ
ââŚ.IâŚ. really did want Kazuki to run awayâŚâ
The words I spoke to Kazuki were my true thoughts.
If you didnât want to fight, wasnât it fine to just not fight? Was it absolutely necessary to go to a place full of death and dangers? Somehow that was sad.
While I thought so, I looked towards the direction where Kazuki took off.
I didnât know what she was thinking but Inukami-senpai placed her hand on my shoulder.
ââŚUsato-kun⌠do you not want me to fight?â
âThatâs for sure. But Senpai doesnât think âI donât want to fightâ at all soâŚâ
ââŚâŚâŚ.Then, if I told you I didnât want to fight, would you comfort me!?â
âWhat are you saying? You.â
âFufufu, youâve finally dropped the honorifics.â
I really donât know this person anymore.
As expected, Kazuki and Inukami-senpai were fundamentally different.
âI wouldnât comfort you, Inukami-senpai is Inukami-senpai, isnât that right? Would you be alright with a junior comforting you, Senpai?â
âMuu, being a senpai is irrelevant isnât itâŚâ
âKazuki is a classmate friend. Thatâs more than sufficient for me.â
Turning my back to Inukami-senpai, I started walking back towards the house.
Turning my head back a little, I could see Senpai had her eyes casted down.
âŚ.Maybe I exaggerated it a little too much?
I should follow-up. I felt somewhat bad.
âButââ
âUsato-kun, the bar for capturing and clearing you is a little too high. You should show more of your âdereâ side. âŚ.Nn? Were you about to say something just now?â
ââŚ..Itâs nothing.â
âI-I see. I should..⌠return back to the castle soonâŚ.⌠good night.â
âGood night, Senpai.â
The words I was about to say were stopped by Inukami-senpaiâs and I could only remain silent. After bidding farewell to her, I quickly returned back to the lodgings.
âŚ..What was Inukami-senpai trying to do with me? I felt that it was relatively serious.