āIām scared of fightingā those words came weakly from the timid Kazuki.
Generally, that would be the normal reaction. Also, we were still only in high school. Excluding Inukami-senpai, Kazukiās reaction was the expected response.
It wasnāt like he was a hero from a story or an arrogant protagonist; he was just a normal young man.
āDuring the time when I fought outside of the Kingdom⦠Fighting with monsters, I was really scared. I nearly froze in place when I first encountered them.ā
āā¦ā¦ā
āBut when they attacked, I desperately⦠desperately resistedā¦ā¦ When I defeated them⦠I once again realized just how optimistic I was viewing this world.ā
āCalm down, Kazuki.ā
Kazuki was different from Inukami-senpai and he was highly sensitive.
In Inukami-senpaiās case, she truly accepted this world while Kazuki only accepted this world to a necessary degree and didnāt think much about it. I could imagine that he was having a mental breakdown.
In reality, Kazuki was getting worked up on his emotions as his light magic was leaking out from both of his hands and illuminated the surroundings. Noticing my words, he suppressed the light magic but his expression was still dark.
āEven the Maouās army, theyāve come to attack us and will try to come kill me⦠That makes me tremendously afraid. But even though I was being a coward, the people in this kingdom were kind and cheered me on. They had expectations⦠Right now, thatās putting more pressure on me than anything else.ā
It was a burden shared by past heroes. Just by being a hero, other peopleās gazes would revere you. I was sure that a great burden was being placed on Kazuki because of that. This wasnāt something people would normally experience.
That was why I could only say one thing to him.
āKazuki, itās fine even if you donāt fight.ā
āā¦ā¦Hah?ā
This conversation with Kazuki⦠how much it would decrease our war potential⦠that was irrelevant. There was no need to involve ourselves in this war since we got dragged into it. No matter how heartless that seemed, Kazuki had that right.
āI mean⦠No one wants to die. I really do understand.ā
āW-wait a moment! If I donāt fight, what are you going to do, Usato!?ā
āIāll be going. Itās hard for me to die after all.ā
Also, I unexpectedly had other reasons too.
Inside the Rescue Squad, for people like Olga-san or Uluru-san⦠Also for Roseās sake.
āThatās not the problem right!?!? Usato, arenāt you also scared of dying!?!?ā
āIāll be fine!ā
ā!?ā
Without thinking, I replied like that.
āI donāt mean it like that, what do you want to do!? Youāre scared of fighting, right!? If thatās so, itās okay to run away!! I⦠and probably Inukami-senpai, the King, Sergio-san, Welsey-san, Sigris-san, Seria-sama wonāt blame you!!ā
āā¦ā¦Ahā¦ā¦ā
Crap, did I overdo it a little?
Kazuki hung his head low while covering his eyes with both of his hands.
*
Iām such a pathetic person.
I avoided everything around me⦠In the end, I couldnāt even face myself. I had no idea what to say to the other party so that everyone would be happy. It was always like this. It was the vice president that everyone wanted after all. It was everyone who wanted to fight that Maouās army. Always, always, always, always, always, I would always try to match with my surroundings. Since everyone wanted it, they would be delighted. I say āeveryoneā but majority are always girls.
That was why being told by Usato to āitās fine to not fightāā¦ā¦ If he were to say instead, āDonāt go out and fightā, I would surely decide to not fight.
But he knew something about me and said those words instead.
āā¦.Iām scared of fighting⦠But you knowāā
At first, I was furious.
They called us out of their own convenience, telling the heroes to fight with the Maouās army and everything⦠But you know, everyone in this country were really good people.
The King, Seriaā¦. Everyone, everyone⦠warm and gentle people who didnāt have anything hidden under them. That was why there was no way I could let danger approach these people.
That was why⦠Even if it was for such a small reason⦠Iā
āI guess I donāt want to die.ā
*
After a brief period of silence while Kazuki was thinking, I heard the words āI guess I donāt want to dieā from him. Did he find his resolveā¦?
I didnāt know what kind of answer he found within himself but I wouldnāt say anything since it was something that Kazuki convinced himself with. ā¦.Or rather, I didnāt have the qualifications to do so.
āI see.ā
āThanks, Usato.ā
āWeāre friends, donāt mind it.ā
āā¦..Y-yeah!ā
S-so embarrassingggggggggggggggggggggggg!!
I wanted to find a hole and hide in it! This wasnāt my character at all! I was supposed to be more of a dry character butā! Ah I should stop it, I canāt change what was done even if I wanted to.
āErm, I should probably return to the castle now. Sorry for waking you up at night. Afterwards, Iāll think about it and reach answers on my own.ā
āGood luck.ā
āThen, good night.ā
With the moonlight illuminating the path, Kazuki jogged away. His back somehow seemed stronger than before.
I saw him off till I couldnāt see his back anymore. I started walking back to the lodgings while giving a big yawn. Tomorrow I would have training to prepare for the Maouās army. It wouldnāt do if I didnāt go back to my bed soon.
āFuah~ ā¦..Iām sleepy, Iāll go back and sleep.ā
āWellll~ was that what people refer to as menās friendship? I sure got to see something nice.ā
I heard a voice from behind.
But as I knew who was speaking, I didnāt turn around. For the time being, I should say something back.
āI am truly sorry, Iām sleepy so I have no time to bother with you so⦠If itās possible, leave it for tomorrow⦠Inukami-senpaiā¦.ā
I didnāt notice her at all but I wasnāt that surprised since it wasnāt that weird for her to be here.
āā¦.Huh? Your reaction is a little odd? In this kind of situation it should be āW-why is Suzune-senpai here right now!?ā or āUwaaaah!! Suzu-tan is hereeeee!!!!ā shouldnāt you be raising your voice like that!?ā
āPlease donāt change how I address Senpai⦠Well anyhow, I bet since itās Senpai, you noticed that Kazuki was acting oddā¦ā
āSuzune-senpaiā and āSuzu-tanā I had never called her like that even once.
From what it looked like, Inukami-senpai noticed Kazukiās unusual state as she was the president of the student council. Most likely, she chased after Kazuki when she saw that he left in the middle of the night.
Good grief, she should have come out in the beginning if she was hereā¦. Well, she was reading the situation in a sense.
āHey, why is it that Usato-kun is somewhat dry towards me? Did I do something to offend you? If you can, I want you to tell me so I can fix it right away.ā
āWhy are you that frantic about it⦠Or rather, Senpai should return back to the castleā¦ā
āā¦.Iām almost about to cry.ā
āGood joke.ā
Something like Senpai crying.
No, if she really cried, I would probably be kneeling down on the ground (Dogeza) but since she said āIām almost about to cryā herself, it should still be fine.
I thought I would be walking back but thanks to the appearance of Inukami-senpai, I was once again stopped.
Next to me was Inukami-senpai who was looking at the moon while emotionally muttering,
āIt seems Kazuki-kun has gotten over it now. In certain sense, he was always lacking something from being isolated by the same sexā¦ā
āā¦.Iā¦. really did want Kazuki to run awayā¦ā
The words I spoke to Kazuki were my true thoughts.
If you didnāt want to fight, wasnāt it fine to just not fight? Was it absolutely necessary to go to a place full of death and dangers? Somehow that was sad.
While I thought so, I looked towards the direction where Kazuki took off.
I didnāt know what she was thinking but Inukami-senpai placed her hand on my shoulder.
āā¦Usato-kun⦠do you not want me to fight?ā
āThatās for sure. But Senpai doesnāt think āI donāt want to fightā at all soā¦ā
āā¦ā¦ā¦.Then, if I told you I didnāt want to fight, would you comfort me!?ā
āWhat are you saying? You.ā
āFufufu, youāve finally dropped the honorifics.ā
I really donāt know this person anymore.
As expected, Kazuki and Inukami-senpai were fundamentally different.
āI wouldnāt comfort you, Inukami-senpai is Inukami-senpai, isnāt that right? Would you be alright with a junior comforting you, Senpai?ā
āMuu, being a senpai is irrelevant isnāt itā¦ā
āKazuki is a classmate friend. Thatās more than sufficient for me.ā
Turning my back to Inukami-senpai, I started walking back towards the house.
Turning my head back a little, I could see Senpai had her eyes casted down.
ā¦.Maybe I exaggerated it a little too much?
I should follow-up. I felt somewhat bad.
āButāā
āUsato-kun, the bar for capturing and clearing you is a little too high. You should show more of your ādereā side. ā¦.Nn? Were you about to say something just now?ā
āā¦..Itās nothing.ā
āI-I see. I should..⦠return back to the castle soonā¦.⦠good night.ā
āGood night, Senpai.ā
The words I was about to say were stopped by Inukami-senpaiās and I could only remain silent. After bidding farewell to her, I quickly returned back to the lodgings.
ā¦..What was Inukami-senpai trying to do with me? I felt that it was relatively serious.