Kate and Jackās eyes turned to the doorway. Jude clicked his tongue and threw a blunt tone at him as he approached this way.
āYou didnāt have to come.ā
āWhat are you talking about? You said I could come, didnāt you? Iāve talked to the director and seeing that Iām off duty, I have to come and see her. Oh, are they your friends?ā
āEh? Oh, yes. Iām Kate Layton. Youāre Judeāsā¦ā
āCo-worker. You can say Iām his partner.ā
My partner is a dark brown-haired, warm-hearted nice guy, not a fox like this. Jack, who couldnāt tell what was going on inside his head, smiled gladly and asked him to shake hands.
āHey, this guy looks like heās in quite a different standard to be Judeās partner. Hey, Jude. What happened?ā
āWhat the hell, what different standards.ā
āNo, itās because your partner looks like a medical or law school graduate. Your name isā¦?
āJoan, my name is Joan Nelvis. You can just call me Joan.ā
āYes, nice to meet you. Jack Layton, the guy who bullied Jude as a kid, doesnāt he have any post-traumatic syndrome or trauma?ā
āJaa-aa-ck.ā
Jude poked Jack in the ribs with his elbow. Jude smiled face to face at Jack, who was laughing out loud jokingly.
āDonāt worry, I wonāt be able to stand being hit and teased if Iām getting PTSD. How can I survive with such a glass heart when I run around a bloody scene every day?ā
āOh, it was like that. This one, I canāt even swear in front of you from now on.ā
āJude.ā
A quiet voice called his name. At the end of his glance, there was a slightly anxious look. ā Anxious look? It was uncharacteristic of him. The little smile disappeared from Judeās face. The light-brown-haired young man leaned close to Jude and whispered low ā but clearly audible to Jack and Kate.
āWould you like to take a look? The case we were in charge of yesterday. Some new facts came out. Itās a bit awkward to talk here.ā
āHuh? Oh, uh.ā
āGee, is that what brings you here? Thatās a big deal.ā
Jack frowned pitifully. Joan smiled.
āIām sorry, New York police are so busy. Isnāt NYPD that the turnover rate is going up these days?ā
āNo, thatās not what Iām saying. If you need a place to talk quietly, why donāt you go to the second floor? The kids are down here, so the small reception room there will be empty, too.ā
āYeah, I donāt want to talk about bloody stuff at the party. Iāll be right back.ā
A short gaze met in the air. The blue-grey eyes bent slightly as if they were smiling. Jude put the glass he had briefly picked up on the table and slowly headed for the second-floor stairs.
* * *
The second floor was quiet. The sound coming from the lower floor was weak, but that was all. Kkiik, kkiik. Every time his feet stepped on the hallway of the long wooden floor, a slight creak stimulated his ears. Before entering the small reception room, Jude stopped and turned at the end of the long winding hallway. Alvin, who stopped three steps behind, stood in the dimly lit sunlight. A composed, resonant voice rang first.
ā-Itās been a long time.ā
āThatās true.ā
āThank you for coming.ā
Jude looked a little displeased as he turned his gaze. Last night, as promised, the cell phone rang without fail, and Judeās response on the phone was simple. āIām coming.ā He closed his cell phone after saying that, and the phone call didnāt come back. Alvin smiled. He looked quite different from his smile on the first floor.
āIf I ask you why you thought of comingāā
āāYouāll be angry.ā
āI will.ā
A peal of faint laughter rang in the air. Alvin is one step closer. Flinching, Jude bites his lips. His feet stopped for a moment. The voice was still soft.
āWill you be angry if I hug you since Iām happy to see you?ā
The answer didnāt come out. He didnāt know what Alvin took his expressionless face for since he kept his mouth shut, and Alvin slowly moved his feet and stood in front of Jude. His arm, which rose up with a stiff movement as if he was unexpectedly nervous, hugged Jude a little hastily. The smell of shampoo and unknown soap lightly brushed his nose. A faint sigh-like breath burst out. The light brown hair that tickles his neck must be a wig. No, is it dyed? A gentle voice flowed out to his ears.
āā¦ā¦letters, phone calls, news, occasional crossings at the crime sceneā¦ā¦that was enough. I thought it was enough to put this emotion to sleep. Itās been like that for a long time. Even when you were far away, my thirst disappeared just by thinking about you.ā
āBut.ā
āItās not easy anymore. I didnāt know it would be so nice to see you in person. Iām at a lossā¦.. because this is my first time feeling like this.ā
āYour first love doesnāt come true. Oh, my God, Iām glad to hear that.ā
Alvin laughed briefly. The hand that held him didnāt fall off easily. It was not known whether the warmth that is being passed on now came from his clothes or from his body. A voice without any inflection leaked through Judeās lips.
āIf that feeling gets serious, do you think you can kill me?ā
He was silent for a moment. Alvinās voice, which came out shortly after, was also smooth.
āI donāt think so right now.ā
āYouāre not sure whatās going to happen?ā
āIsnāt that the same with you Jude? Itās rare for people to live with all the maps of their future. Even if you draw it, does time guarantee that youāll only follow that path?ā
His voice bore a faint smile. Jude soon ended up laughing.
āYes, thatās true.ā
āWhy did you come today?ā
A question that caught him off guard flew in. Closing his eyes in a bit of a languid mood, Jude answered in a passing tone.
āI donāt know. Iām not a person who draws a map of all the reasons for what I do.ā
āWas it because of me?ā
āā¦ā¦and Iām not the kind of person who has a taste for picking on people who arenāt suspects. If youāre going to do this, get off.ā
A peal of cheerful laughter burst out of his hands as he pushed his shoulder away. Alvin, who hugged Judeās back and shoulders tighter as if he was playing around, opened his mouth with a lulling voice.
āShall we go in and talk? The reception room, he said it was empty.ā
āNo.ā
A firm voice popped out cutting off Alvinās words. Alvin suddenly raised his head and looked at Jude. Jude looked at the ceiling with a slight frown.
āWhatās wrong? What happened?ā
āNo, I donāt like the reception room.ā
āWhy? Did something happen here? Is this where Jack bullied you?ā
āNo ⦠Rather than that, Iād rather be here.ā
He hesitated a little. Alvinās eyes were asking for an answer. Jude, who was beating his hoof on the floor several times, said with a long sigh of resignation.
āI donāt like the fireplace here.ā
āFireplace?ā
āYeah, thereās a big fireplace, and I feel bad when I see it, so when I stayed here, I didnāt go anywhere near the reception room, even though I didnāt tell the kids because I didnāt want to be teased.ā
āWell, you didnāt think a monster might pop out of the fireplace, did you?ā
āI donāt know.ā
When Judeās face frowned heavily upon what he said like a joke, the smile faded slightly from Alvinās face, and Judeās eyes were slightly out of focus as if he were looking at a distant mountain.
āI donāt know⦠Whether itās a ghost or a goblin or a monster. I thought something bad was going to come out. My least favourite place in this orphanage was next to the fireplace in the reception room.ā
āā¦..Really? Why, have you never thought about it?ā
āI just didnāt approach it. If I get close to the fire, Iāll only get burned. I guess there was an accident near the fireplace when I was a kid.ā
As Jude shrugged, he could hear someone walking up the stairs from below. Jude quickly loosened Alvinās arm at the kkiik, kkiik sound of footsteps getting closer. After a while, Jude burst into laughter as a doll appeared at the corner of the hallway over there. Dressed neatly in a striped black suit, the man was the host of the party.
āGeorge, whatās going on?ā
āOh, Iāve got something to talk to Lyle about in the reception room. The person next to you isā¦?ā
āOh, co-worker, co-worker. Joan Nelvis. Joan, thatās George McNeil. Next to him is Lyle Trace. Georgeās the one who funded most of the party today.ā
āHello, you can just call me Joan.ā
āOh, yes. Nice to meet you. What brings you to the second floor? You donāt enjoy it down there.ā
āWe came here for a minute to talk about business. Now, weāre going downstairs, so you guys can talk.ā
Lyle, a small-built man with thin gold-rimmed glasses, bowed to Alvin as if he were flexing. Maybe there was a twist somewhere, but his narrow forehead was flashing with sweat. The manner of licking his lips and rubbing his palms did not look very comfortable. Georgeās face was also stiff and deep wrinkles were already formed. If you get wrinkles on your forehead at this age, youāll suffer from old age earlier. Jude, who only murmured briefly inside, soon passed them and came down to the first floor. It seemed at first glance that Alvin, who was following him from behind, quietly raised his mouth and smiled as if mocking someone.