It was a vain expectation. I was still 7 years old, and now I was facing the face of my first brother.
“Am I crazy?”
I was waiting when the Ernst couple leaving the mansion for a moment before I came out of the snow, and then I was caught by Eugene and pulled back into the room.
I stared at him as I’m wearing a blanket in front of the fireplace. He wasn’t compelled to understand my doings just before.
It wasn’t long before I almost froze to death, and again, as I was back in that thin, indoor gown, I couldn’t help it!
I just want to came back to where I first opened my eyes. I just wanted to go back and wake up from this dream!
“Don’t be annoying. It doesn’t matter if you’re crazy or not. Do you know who cares if you do that? Why don’t you go in?Why are you doing something so useless!”
“It wasn’t useless.”
There that came weren’t beautiful, and I couldn’t help them. Besides, I was a bit annoyed by Eugene, who interfered with
what I was doing.
Maybe it’s because he doesn’t know. I have been buried in the snow for an hour and a half, and I thought maybe i’ll be back to 20 years later.
Damn, I just wanted to last an hour more. But Eugene wobbled his eyebrows because of my poor attitude and told me to go back inside.
“Why do you do this bothersome thing for? I just couldn’t see Ernst’s attitude here.”
Oh, of course you are. Ernst and his family have been everything to you from the past. I thought like I was sarcastic inside, then I dragged my butt closer to the fireplace.
“I thought you think I went outside to die, so you still want me to live now?”
I was sarcastic, as if Eugene could watch me light up. By the way, it is Eugene who looks emotional in this way.
The next thing I saw in my eyes was Eugene’s full body mirror. I stared at the person reflected in it.
A little girl crouching down with a blanket over her head. The hair exposed under the red blanket was pale white silver hair.
The reason that the Ernst couple projected their daughter Arina who died to me, was probably due to my hair. Erich, who resemble her, have the same hair color as me.
I wasn’t looking out of place among them. The only difference was that the color of my eyes was dark purple, not the same colour as them.
Did my face look so much like Arina Ernst?
In fact, I had never seen her in a portrait.
But it was hard to say I was like an angelic girl who was smiling brightly in the picture. And that Arina resembled myself, who seemed unable to eat.
“I’m hungry.”
Suddenly, since I came here, I realized that I had never eaten properly.
Of course, only a small meal was eaten at the request of the Ernst couple, but since this morning when they were away, I don’t eat anything. I’m starving.
“Give me rice.”
“Ha?”
Eugene was not able to hide his embarrassment at my imposing request.
“Are you telling me to bring you some food to eat right now?
“Uhuk! Kh! Alas, I’m still sick. I can’t even go out there again. My eyes are just tingling… “
As I say it, I felt that he was stopped by my self-talk. Yes, if you have a conscience, do you feel remorse?
Honestly, how much have you bothered me in the meantime? When will you have time take care of me again? I looked up
at him pretending to be sick.
“I haven’t eaten anything since breakfast.
I’m hungry.”
Eugene was making a speechless expression. It was similar to the expression he had when he found me in the snow before the full moon.
Then he mumbled out of the room as if I was being absurd. His eye said that he couldn’t understand why he should have do what I just asked him.
Well, he’s still too young. Is the barrier to his heart lower than I thought?
Not long after that, he came with a hot soup on the tray and brought it to me.
“Oh, it’s hot!”
“Water..”
“Shut up.”
I grumbled inside and ate the soup again and again. Until the plate in front of me
became an empty plate. It didn’t take long.
But I wasn’t full yet, so I wanted to eat again, and I noticed Eugene glance. He
was staring at me with his face crumpled.
Looking at his expression, I felt that it was too much to ask for more soup.
By the time of the evening, the Ernst couple will return, and I think I could eat dinner at that time, so I pushed the plate and lay down.
Tak. Tak.
Flames burning in the fireplace. It danced
in front of my eyes and waved. Ah, it seems like I was a bit full that my mind start wandering.
Even in dreams, when it was time to fall asleep with a hungry stomach, everything looked the same.
Eugene, who always know what to say to me, was also quiet for some reason, and the room was filled with still silence.
Tak. Tak.
“I want to go back…”
It was a moment when I stared at the flying fire. Alas, I want to go back! When I
was 27, It was a putting freedom in front of my nose! My marriage! My wedding dress!
Uh, So when I was shedding blood inside, I heard Eugene’s voice quiet for a while.
“You….”
“Hey!”
It was at that moment that someone broke the silence and came into the room. Oh, it’s you again.
When I heard the unnamed title and the sound of his voice, it was Cabel, the second brother. I didn’t look back, I just lay rusted with a blanket around.
I’m sleeping now! I have no consciousness now! That’s why I can’t even hear the second brother calling me now!
“What, are you sleeping?”
“Cabel, knock before you open the door.”
“Ah, brother. It just between us.”
Between us, he say! This is my room! To get permission, you take it from me, not from Eugene!
“But why do you sleep like this?”
What was even more surprising was that it wasn’t really malicious, so it wasn’t a spit.
“Hey, wake up!”
Stop shaking, man! I wake up because of
cabel that comes close and shakes my body. I frowned.
“Hey, get up quickly! Let’s play with me!”
“Cabel. You better rather go to your room
and read a book.”
“But books are not fun.”
“Then go hanging out with Erich. You have to hang out with someone of the right level.”
When I heard the two guys talk to each other, they bickered slowly. Well, let’s play
together, he say. He was a monster boasting with stamina.
So, playing with him always ended up a torture for me. But what are you trying to do with me who hasn’t healed yet?
Besides, Eugene is Eugene. He pretended
to be so elegant that he and I weren’t good enough to play together and say that there’s nothing he like.
Rather, it’s you guys who are barbaric than me in my eyes! It is unfair! It’s cylindrical!
“Erich isn’t more fun than a book. Hey! Wake up!”
Cabel shake me again and again. I pretend to continue sleeping, but it seems like the intensity is getting stronger.
Eugene, who knows I’m not really asleep, sighed a little from behind. Oh, but wait a minute. Stop shaking. I just ate before, and you suddenly shake it.