Chapter 44

Chapter 44 \nChapter 44\n

 

In Yu Yang’s room on the third floor of HOG’s base, Yu Yang was sleeping on the bed, sweat between his brows, his pale yellow bangs were wet and stuck to his temples.

 

Yu Yang’s brows were knitted together and his breathing heavy.

 

It had been a long time since he had nightmares.

 

In particular, these few months, Yu Yang would fall asleep as soon as he touched his bed. His body was too tired but his mental state was very relaxed and he did not get worried about anything. His quality of sleep was better than the previous few years and he would occasionally have dreams, but they were concerning Qi Zui. Dreams that involved Qi Zui were all good dreams.

 

Perhaps it was because he was feeling too stressed over the tattooing incident, Yu Yang began to have nightmares recently that had rarely occurred before this.

 

Yu Yang dreamed of the time when he was twelve years old.

 

A crowded room, dark corridors, the blurry face of his step-father…

 

Little Yu Yang seemed to have been hit again.

 

He lost consciousness due to his beating and when he woke up, his whole body was in pain, his face covered in blood.

 

Why he got hit… he could not remember.

 

Yu Yang did not know the reason he was hit every time.

 

If the volume of the television was too loud, he might get hit.

 

If the volume of the television was too soft, he might also get hit.

 

If his books were not properly kept, he might get hit.

 

If his books were kept too neatly, he might also get hit.

 

The floor had a piece of paper scrap, water stains were covering the bathroom countertop, there were clothes that he had forgotten to keep in time hanging on the balcony…

 

These were all reasons he could have gotten hit.

 

His step-father had all kinds of weird reasons to hit him and he would often suddenly explode. The previous moment he would still be talking casually and the next, he would slap him.

 

After a long time, little Yu Yang got used to keeping a distance from people. Even in school, when the gentlest female teacher got close to him while teaching, little Yu Yang would feel very uncomfortable

 

Subconsciously, he felt that the kind and beautiful female teacher might hit his head with a book the next moment.

 

Yu Yang’s mind was muddled from his sleep and he only remembered after a long while that the reason he got hit today seemed to be because he had bitten that scumbag.

 

He had bitten him till he bled.

 

Yu Yang had never properly resigned himself to getting hit.

 

Although he would get beaten up worse every time, no matter how much other people tried to persuade him, he refused to beg for mercy from that scum.\n

 

Even if he could not win a fight against him now, he would be able to win when he grew up.

 

Yu Yang did not believe that he and his mother would be tortured by this scumbag for their whole lives.

 

Yu Yang had always thought that he would rot in this place.

 

Little Yu Yang felt a little dizzy from being hit and kept feeling nauseous. He lost consciousness again.

 

When little Yu Yang in the dream woke up again, he was already lying on the bed.

 

His mother’s eyes were red and she wrung a wet towel to wipe the blood on his face.

 

Yu Yang opened his eyes and asked weakly, “Why didn’t you run just now?”

 

His mother sobbed and shook her head.

 

The reason he was hit just now was that after his school ended, Yu Yang had heard sounds coming from the bedroom.

 

That scum was hitting his mother.

 

Yu Yang threw his back down and lunged over, biting on his wrist.

 

What happened after… he could not remember.

 

Little Yu Yang did not avoid the cloth and suggested again, “Let’s go, I can think of a way out. In the worst-case scenario, I’ll not go to university. At least we can survive… he doesn’t spend any money on you and you have to serve him… without him…”

 

His mom shook her head again, crying.

 

Little Yu Yang closed his eyes, exhausted. He did not know why his mother only knew how to cry.

 

She had never resisted, and when Yu Yang was hit, she did not stop the man, she would just try to persuade him to stop in a low voice filled with fear.

 

Little Yu Yang did not understand.

 

Why don’t you help me?

 

Why don’t you divorce him?

 

But a larger portion of his resentment was towards himself.

 

Why are you just twelve years old?

 

Why can’t you beat him in a fight?

 

Why can’t you earn money?

 

At that moment, Little Yu Yang was not very able to accept close contact with people. After he calmed down a little, he pushed his mother away and went to wash his face.\n 

He did not know where his step-father went, he probably went to drink alcohol with his friends.

 

Little Yu Yang washed his face and held himself up using the wall, shuffling towards his small bedroom. When he passed by the living room, his eyes lit up.

 

The lower drawer of the television cabinet in the living room was open.

 

That was where his step-father kept his money. Normally, his step-father would take money from, there to pass to his mother and have his mother buy groceries and alcohol.

 

Perhaps it was because his step-father drank too much today that when he was walking, he was in a daze and had forgotten to lock the drawer.

 

Little Yu Yang walked over slowly and took out a banknote from inside and went out.

 

Yu Yang’s house did not have a fixed telephone line and the telephone booth in his neighborhood had completely stopped working a long time ago. He ran to the neighboring street and found a convenience stall. He threw a dollar over and said vaguely, “I want to make a phone call.”

 

These days, there were too few people who came out to borrow a phone. The convenience store owner looked Yu Yang up and down. The wonder did not ask any questions and passed the telephone forward.

 

Little Yu Yang’s fingers trembled slightly and he quickly dialed a number.

 

After he finished making the phone call, little Yu Yang ran back home.

 

On the way home, little Yu Yang’s heartbeat sped up, there were even hints of a smile on his face.

 

Little Yu Yang ripped off the bandage his mother had wrapped around his arm and gathered up his courage, then used all his strength to grasp onto the wound, blood instantly seeping out.

 

Yu Yang returned home and washed his hands clean, lying on the floor.

 

Little Yu Yang fainted again, but this time, he was very relaxed. This should be the end.

 

He was not sure about how they would survive in the future, but it was fine. He could watch computers at an Internet cafe or help out at a restaurant that did not care too much about who they hired. He did not believe that he could not earn enough to keep his mother alive.

 

As long as they were alive, it was enough. It was better than watching his mother get hit every now and then.

 

He was fed up.

 

Little Yu Yang had been woken up by the noise.

 

His eyes had begun to swell and he could not see clearly. He saw his mother explaining to the police.

 

Little Yu Yang struggled to stand up. He had yet to speak when he heard his mother explain to the police meekly…

 

“Young child… Mischievous, got into a group fight…”

 

“There’s no domestic violence, the child isn’t under his father’s control…”

 

“It’s our family matter…”

 

“No, everyone in the neighborhood knows that this child is ignorant and gets into fights all day long…”\n\n 

His mother had been the same as usual, only hiding at the doorway, crying in a low voice.

 

Little Yu Yang had been hit by the man till he was unable to even speak properly. He stuttered, “If you have the ability to, you can beat me to death… If I die, you can go to jail and let my mother live out her days freely…”

 

What he got in response were punches that increased in strength.

 

In the end, Yu Yang did not get beaten to death.

 

After he gained consciousness and revived, he ran.

 

Before he left, he asked his mother again if she wanted to leave with him, that no matter what, he would ensure that they could get by.

 

The woman who had been submissive her whole life shook her head, losing hope while feeling helpless. She even wanted to convince Yu Yang to not leave.

 

Little Yu Yang pushed away his mother’s hand and left, without even looking back.

 

When Xie Chen was helping Yu Yang with his counseling sessions, he tried to have Yu Yang let go and forgive his mother.

 

He hinted to Yu Yang that his mother was not unmoved. She just did not want to anger her husband and wanted to protect the child in her womb.

 

Yu Yang looked at Xie Chen quietly and asked, “Am I not her child?”

 

Xie Chen was speechless.

 

Yu Yang was unable to accept other people touching him. The pain of his body and his emotions had continuously added up and caused him to have a serious misunderstanding, causing him to treat everyone who got close to him like his stepfather.

 

To have him let go, there must be a breakthrough. However, there was a mother who Yu Yang both loved and hated.

 

Xie Chen tried it multiple times. Aside from causing Yu Yang’s emotions to become more extreme, it was useless.

 

He had no other method and could only convince Yu Yang to try desensitization treatment. As for the parts in his heart that he was unable to let go of, Xie Chen could not do anything to help.

 

Yu Yang wiped the water droplets off his hands and picked up the watch he had placed at the head of his bed.

 

His phone vibrated once and Yu Yang turned his head, frowning slightly.

 

It was a message from an unknown number.

 

Yu Yang picked up his phone…

 

Yu Yang deleted the message and went to eat breakfast. Then, he headed for the training room for practice as usual.

 

During the practice match, Yu Yang received a few more messages.

 

Yu Yang looked at the messages coldly and did not delete them again.

 

What was supposed to come would eventually come.