My first emotion was desolation. The rumor about me was spread across the school in the matter of days. It was so absurd I couldnât believe the person in question was really me. What have I done to deserve this? Who? Who did this? I had my doubts and anger.
Every day would be a trial from now on⌠I noted absently. There was no getting around this, nothing to stop this terrible rumor.
At least, let me steer my best friend Shiho and Io, who saved me, clear from this mess. I could never let these two get involved. I limited my contact with them to bare minimum. I was left alone, but that was for the best.
If I sat at my desk, doing nothing, maybe they would even lose interest in me. Until then, I just have to endure this until then.
This was nothing, I can get through thisâ
ââYuzuki-san, that whole affair was wildâ
âWild. Who would have confessed to a boy and then dumped him right away?â
âI heard that it was less than a month! And she came up with another man just as fast. Isnât that what bitches do?â
It was true. Whatever my moties, it was the truth.
But why?
Why am I grieving so much even though it was the truth? Why did everyone look so chipper? Why am I being targeted like this?
What have I done to deserve this?!
Before I knew it, I was guilty for something I didnât remember doing.
âI heard she also have an affairâ
âBleh, how could anyone two-time like that?â
âWhat a waste of Top Three. I feel betrayed, who chose her? Shouldnât they consider personality too?â
How did the Top Three have anything to do with this? When have I ever betrayed you?
But that was what rumors are.
I had no right to say. No one listened. They believe what they want to, propagate what they find interesting, disregard me all they want.
I heard gossiping voices everywhere at school. It might seem normal to other people, but it hurted my ear. I wanted to cover down, close my ears, but to what end? They wonât stop.
Every time I heard them, it was like small needles picking at my skin, cold, cruel. Tears welled up, every time I managed to stop them was a miracle.
I thought of things to take my mind off the rumor.
The rest of my highschool life couldnât be much fun now, letâs look back on happy memoriesâŚ
There werenât many. It hadnât been three minutes.
Okay then, about Shiho. She was different from me. She could get along with anyone, yet she still chooses to be there for me, always. When I heard from Io, I had cleared up with her. She got angry, sulked, and cried in relief for me. This time too, she listened and kept her distance.
This time, it went on longer. But it still ended.
IoâŚ
The next thing I knew, I was thinking about him. How couldnât I?
Kind, so kind. Maybe too kind. Even after the loss of the girl he loves, he didnât give upâcouldnât give up. How hard must it be for him to be standing like this. How much strength does it take to help others like me, even if he himself was in pain like that?
I had lied to him. And yet, he helped me earnestly. He canât change the past, Ayaha wonât be back no matter how hard he wept, he had said. My past was unchangeable. I was already raised this way, what I did in middle school was already done. The fact that I had dated several boys will never go away.
Change how you face it. It will take time, but thatâs okay, he told me. I was happy back then, even though nothing was solved, but it did help. He was right, itâd be okay, everything would turn out fine, in dueâs time.
Still, Iâm sorry, Io.
âYuzukiiââ
I donât think anything will turn out fine anymore.
âCan I borrow you for a minute?â Yamabuki called me out at the school gate.
Oh, itâs her again.
There was a small shrine next to Kuze High, we went to the playground there. It was surrounded by hedges the height of a grown person. A quick look around told me no one would interrupt. I didnât think I was in any physical danger, even Yamabuki wouldnât do anything rash, probably.
A part of me didnât care. Whatâs worse than this rumor? Perhaps by being beaten by Yamabuki might get me some sympathy, might make the rumor stop. A part of me hoped it would happen. There was no end to this, at the very least, I should get used to it.
Alas, her voice lacked her usual arrogance, she seemed subdued, even. âYou now understand? Now hand me the Top Three.â
âHuh??â
What?!
âIt kinda got out of hand. The point is, you see, step down, and Iâll be fine with it. Hm.â
âWhat are you talking aboutâŚâ No guilt, no remorse⌠this person doesnât believe she was wrongâŚ
I would be surprised if it wasnât her, at this point. But what I couldnât accept was her reason behind it.
âI say thereâs no hope for you now. I was waiting for you to fall down naturally, but it seemed that itâd be a hassle that way. See? If you step down, nice and clean, people might forget you, Iâll take that attention from you. Win-win?â
What do you mean by âno hope for youâ?
Whatâs nice and clean?
Whatâs win-win?
What is this person trying to break a deal with me?
âYou did all that⌠Just for this?â
âI said it got out of hand, didnât I? I get it, I get it, I went a little overboard, but itâs a mutual thing, half my fault, half yours.â
Wait. Mutual?
âWhy?â The audacity! âJust for this?! IâŚ!! Screw you!!!â I screamed until my throat hurt. A wave of dizziness hit me. I canât take more of this, it was nauseating, driving me insane.
All for such a trivial thing.
Because of this person, my pastâŚ
âI hate thisâŚâ
What should I do? How? What�
Aah, Io. Io.
âHelp meâŚâ
âYaa, can you hear me? People of Kuze High.â
A shadow against the hedge, moving towards her. A voice I had come to get used, pitched lower than usual in an over-the-top manner. The voice of the person I wanted to hear the most, the person I wished he would come.
âAhâŚâ
Fixing the little microphone on his lapel, he entered the playground.
âYou again?â Yamabuki scowled.
Io quickly put his hand over the microphone.
Tch, tch, he clicked his tongue. âBe careful, okay? Weâre in the middle of a live stream, okay? Letâs not mention each otherâs name. Well, you canât possibly know my name though.â
Yamabuki paused, trying to figure out what he meant. Me too, sagged against something, but I couldnât care. I might have caught up to what Io was up to in normal circumstances, but now I could only be a mere spectator.
He took his hand off the mic and spread his arms as if giving a speech.
âNice to meet you, club people of Kuze High, I suppose the go-home club will have to catch up to this later. No, no, not ânice to meet youââ Itâs been a while since I have seen some of you. This is the Angel of Kuze High speaking. Hm, thinking back, this is my first time speaking in public, so maybe âNice to meet youâ was proper.â
I looked at the school building peeking from the trees. A moment later, an echo of his speech reached her ears.
âEither âThe Angel was realâ, or âSomeoneâs fakingâ, think about this however you want, but let me say my piece. Let me borrow the broadcast room for a moment. Sorry for using a voice changer, but itâs my policy. Also, I am not inside the broadcast room, so thereâs no point in going there. Think of this as listening to a radio and resume your club activities.â
He covered the mic again and took a deep breath, once, twice. Sweat beaded his forehead and neck, his knee and fingertips were trembling. He was just as scared.
But if thatâs so, why was he doing this?
âSorry, Minato. Iâm late.â He gave me a faint smile.
I should be worrying about him getting caught in this mess too, yet⌠Yet, maybe if he was here, then everything might turn out fine.
âAnd on another record, sorry. I should have asked for your permission, but itâs now or never. Get mad at me all you want when this is all over.â
He eyed me apologetically before uncovering the mic.
âTo the remaining teachers, I apologize. I know itâs your duty to stop this unauthorized broadcast, but I canât stop. You might come across Fujimiya Shiho standing guard, she was there on my order, so please refrain from harsh punishments.â
Shiho? Even her� And standing guard?
âNow, let me tell you a story.â It was, by all means, dramatic indeed. He glanced at me once. âThere is a rumor going around Kuze High right now. Yuzuki Minato, a student in the seventh class of the second year, was a bitch who switched men in middle school, and to lay low, she came to Kuse High. I am sure you all have heard that.â
Click. His earlier apology now made sense.
âBy my honor as the Angel of Kuze High, I declare the rumor falsehood.â
Yamabuki shifted uncomfortably, but like her, she was lost for words. Interrupting during this broadcast could have never gone well for her, she bit back her retort and watched grudgingly.
âNo, the truth was according to the rumor, but the context was completely different. This is what happened: I received a plea from Yuzuki Minato, a special case. It wasnât a normal love consultation but about how sheâŚliked too many people, and had trouble being single-minded.â Through gritted teeth, he went on, âOf course, it was absurd. âKuzeâs Top Three have such problems?â, I wondered. However, she was truly troubled. That was why she tried having relationships with men, to find a way of being single-minded. That was what happened.â
He continued speaking, and with it, more of my secrets came to light. But I found that I didnât care. This was way better than this twisted rumor. This was the only way. And I knew that he did this because he cared for me.
âBut there was no cure for Yuzukiâs Falling-in-love Peculiarity, so she decided to remain single. She decided that as long as she still liked several people at once, she would never date anyone. Thatâs the truth behind the rumor.â
It was as if I had been freed from a chain I never knew existed. Why did I even keep it a secret? Whatâs wrong with telling people. Like that, I feltâŚÂ free.
âShe had repented for her past. She regretted what she had done, she had called herself âthe worstâ and âselfish JKâ. Well, I thought so too.â
âBut she also said that she will get it fixed. She will do anything, anything, to become normal.â
I said thatâŚ
And you said you would do anything in your power to help me too.
âWuzuki and I tried everything. We met up and thought about it over and over. In the end, we got no clue. She even cried when we concluded that thereâs no way.â
Ah, he cooked that part up. Bad guy. Hm, although I did cry.
âIn the end, sheâs still a âselfish JKâ. However, she wonât answer to any confession and wonât date anyone until she gets rid of her condition. Please understand that she never had the intention to play with anyoneâs emotions. To Yuzuki fans out there, confess to her all you want, but you stand no chance.â A smile touched his lips as he loosened himself. A bit.
Idiot, that was unnecessary.
âBy the way,â his relaxed posture disappeared as fast as it had come. He eyed Yamabuki dangerously.
âYou guys have quite enjoyed that rumor, huh. Have you ever considered her feelings? I know,â he then said softly, âI knew people love rumors. All the more if it was in a bad way. How was it? The unseen face of the school beauty? Hilarious, wasnât it? Amusing, no? Letâs add some spice, letâs assume, why not? It was the person in questionâs fault, youâre delivering justice?â
The earlier whisper rose into a crescendo. His cold rage was overwhelming. How would the students react, I wondered. Even I got goosebumps listening to him.
âI heard it from someone else, if itâs false then itâs not my fault. If itâs true then all the more reason to spread the rumor. She canât resist, so letâs get a peek. She deserved this, so let her hear when she walked past. Itâs fun, isnât it? Everyoneâs doing this. What a pity, but thatâs her problem, I donât care!â
I had been holding back all along, yetâŚ
I thought I had come to terms with this, yetâŚ
âYou have fun? After listening to me, is it still fun? You still dare call her a bitch? If you still then I wonât say anything, have fun with your club activities. Do anything you want, I donât want to waste my time on creatures like you. But if you have any feeling of guilt befitting a proper human being, listenâŚâ
When I saw his face. When I heard his indignant criesâŚ
[TN: Pardon the language.]
âFuck off!!!!!!!!!!â
Tears got the better of me. One⌠two⌠then a stream of tears.
âShe had struggled, had been tormented!! She had been blaming herself for who knows how long!!!! She had suffered more than she deserved to, and when she was about to move on!!!! What was done was done!! Thereâs a punishment, but itâs not your fucking role!!!! It should be between her and those men she dated, not you!!!! Face the truth!! Live with it!! Never say you didnât know!! Iâll never let you trample on her feelings ever again!!!!!!!!â
I gasped and blinked repeatedly.
Against my will, I started whimpering. I canât stopâŚ
âThe past was hers and hers alone!!!! No matter what kind of love it was, itâs not your plaything!!!! Listen with your damn ears, those shits who started this rumor-!!!!â
Aah, IoâŚ
Youâre⌠Youâre trulyâŚ
âDonât sully peopleâs past and their love with your filthy handsâ!!!!â
I wanted to take a good look at you, yetâŚ
Yet the tears blurred your faceâŚ
Io! I wanted to scream.
I wanted to cry out.
I wanted to say thank you.
But I just sat there dazedly.
Not yet, the rational part of me said. The mic was still on. Yamabuki was still there.
Io cleared his throat once. âApologize, I went off track. One last thing,â he inserted quickly, â if you really wanted a rumor material, then feel free to use me. The Angel is not an urban legend. I am real, and I have always been looking over your love. When youâre troubling with your romances, please expect my helping hand. However, I am not quite good with special cases like Yuzuki this time, so please be gentle with me. And if possible, I would appreciate it if you donât search for my true identity, that should be the best for both of us.â
Silence. Silence of resignation and determination. It couldnât be easy for him to come to light like that, but for my sakeâŚ
âAnd those of you I have met in the past, please take care of the remaining Yuzuki rumors. With that, Iâll consider what you owe me even. Please, do me a favor. Now, if youâll excuse me.â
He unceremoniously took off the microphone and shoved it into his pocket.
âNow, Yamabuki,â he said.
She winced. âHeih?!â
âI wonât forgive you, remember that. This isnât me letting you goââ
âWhat?! Whatâs with that cringe speech! Do you even have any proof that I did?!â
Didnât you just admit earlier?
She was probab;y rattled by Io, I sighed inwardly.
âProof? Is there any proof needed? Do you, when you spread this rumor? I have no intention of listening to your excuses, so shut up.â He took a step closer. âApologize to her. Grovel to her feet. If you ever dare do this again, and Iâll call the mob on you. Wanna headline? âYamabuki, bitch who would do anything for the limelightâ? Iâll show you a hell you canât even imagine, and it wonât end. Iâll personally make sure that the label sticks with you until the day you die.â
HellâŚdie⌠I knew it, heâs the devil.
âW-who do you think you are? Whatever with the Angel, but I already know who you are? Iâll make sure the whole school knows!â
âAhh, thatâs badd, pleasee, donât!â he burst out laughing.
Thatâs a waste of time, Yamabuki. I tried that once, didnât work. Not at all.
He clutched his sides and laughed as if it was the most hilarious joke he had ever heard. âAhaha, you canât even comprehend how much trouble youâre in if you do that! What an idiot!â Another fit of laughter. He then continued between wheezes, âHey, idiot, I donât care, just apologize, will you?â There was a cold menace in his words, it was even more disturbing than plain threats.
âUghâ
She stared back definitely like a cornered dog, but finally gave in to Ioâs pressuring glare. Yamabuki gritted her teeth audibly before she slowly bowed.
âSorry.â
âDo you think Iâd forgive you?â
âSorry⌠I overdid it, maybe. I wonât do it again.â
I wiped my cheeks, dabbled the corner of my eyes with the blazerâs sleeve. I leaned closer to yamabuki.
âDaâââmn you!!!!â
It seemed that I was another idiot here. But, I see, it felt good, as if a weight was lifted from my shoulders.
Yamabuki stepped back in surprise and her mouth was half open. She looked a bit like an idiot, as Io would say.
Io sniffled approvingly and joined, âWell, I have one more bad news for you.â He sucked in a breath. âEven Minato fell from Kuzeâs Top Three, it wonât be you who got promoted! Please, know your place!! You probably ranked last in Plus Four!!â
âNgh!!â
Yamabukiâs mouth worked silently, stunned. Her shoulders shook and her cheeks turned bright red. Her lips parted and she cried out, âT-tch! I-I am not! You twoâŚ!! Youâre the idiot hereâ!!â Tears and makeup smudged her face. Seemingly unable to think of a better retort, Yamabuki ran away.
âRemember the headline! Donât try anything silly!!â Io shouted after her.
âIoâŚâ
âFinally over, I suppose.â he gave me a tired grin.
Seeing his lopsided smile, my heart skipped a beat. When was the last time I met him? Days? A week? It seemed like ages.
âOtsukare, you did great.â
Yeah, thatâs right. I had been holding back ever since then. IâŚ!!
âWaaaaaaaaaaahhhhâââââ !!!!!!â
Sorry. Thank you, Io. Io. Io. Io!
âOw! Minato! Youâre strangling me! Donât bury your face in my chest! AhhâŚ!!â
âWhy did you come here! Why?! Why risk your identity! Why did you use all the favors for me! Why is Shiho even there! Why?! Why did you go to such length⌠for meâŚ!â
âOi, oi, donât ask me all at once. Today was a test run, just checking the broadcasting. Saw you going somewhere with Yamabuki, so I moved up the schedule. I donât have the manpower, so I asked Fujimiya.â
âO-ohâŚâ
âSorry, I told your secret to the entire school. But thatâs the only way to counter the rumors. You werenât responding to my calls, so I got the ok from Fujimiya⌠not that it excuses my actions. You can get angry all you want now, Iâm sorry.â
âI know⌠but what you did. I canât blame you. And your secretâŚ?â
âIâm fine. Iâve taken precautions. Even if it manages to slip, then Iâll just hole up in my house,â he assured, âI have everything planned out.â
âBut! You donât need toâŚâ
âDidnât I say Iâd help you? Iâm fine.â
My heart squeezed. Somehow, my arms decided to hold on to him tighter.
âBesides, I need something with as much impact as Kuzeâs Top Three. A speech from Angel was my only card strong enough to counter it. Like it or not, youâre damn popular.â Ahaha, he laughed smugly. âActually, the favor my consultants owe me, I canât find a better way of using them anyway. I told you, right? Thereâs a lot who owed it to me out there,â he said amusedly.
His secrets, the favors he saved up until now⌠all for me.
He really is an idiot, huh? Andâ
âAnyway, this should settle things down. So⌠cheer up.â
âYeah⌠Yep.â
Maybe I might not be able to cheer up now, but at least I felt relieved. I canât be sure if anyone would actually listen to him, but as long as he is here, maybe everything will turn out just fine.
This personâIo, would surely see me to the end.
âAndd⌠When will you be letting me go?â
ââŚâ
âHey!â
âI-Iâm still crying.â
âI have a handkerchiefâ
âI donât want you to see me cryingâ
âWhat a pity. I wanted to see a beautyâs crying face again.â
âIdiot.â
âI think both of us overused that word today.â
âIo?â
âHm?â
âThank you, really.â
âYeah.â
He put a hand on my back and began patting. With his motions, more tears came. I buried deeper into his chest and continued sobbing.
How embarrassing it would have been, if someone saw us like this, I wondered.
Not that Iâd pull away from him. Can I stay like this forever?
âAlso, Minato.â
âWhat?â
âI sent you a message sometime before.â
âThe day before the rumor?â
âIâll talk about it, just listen.â
âIs this really the time?â
âIt should be good news to you. Iâve been waiting to tell you.â
âWith us still hugging?â
âYouâre the one clinging to me,â he sighed exasperatedly.
His hot breath fell on my head, my shoulders jumped.
Since a while ago, my bodyâs been acting weird.
âI talked with Yukito. He said that thereâs another way of fixing the Peculiarity of yours.â
â???â What?
âUhh⌠You just have to beâŚâ An awkward pause, âmadly in love⌠with someone.â
âMad in love?â
âYeah⌠Someone you really, really like, so much that others seem insignificant.â
Really, really likeâŚ
âHmph.â
âJust a speculation. Just so you know there might be an alternative. I get it, being mad in love isnât something you can do just by thinking. It might be a while until you find the guy, but⌠letâs keep trying until then.â
âHahhâŚâ A sigh escaped my lips.
What is this emotion? Why do I feel so happy yet annoyedâŚ
âHehh, you donât look so happy. We got a new theory though?â
âThatâs not going to work.â
âBut, why? The theory itself makes sense, itâs probability is also high too, despite the time it might take.â
âIt wonât! Weâre done with this theory!â
I could sense his quizzical look even without looking up. âEh⌠Okay?â