âŠ.Yeah, right! I thought it might be a much more compellinâ situationâŠa reason she couldnât talk âbout. Donât say that she lost interest in me because of our bodily compatibility!!
Would she deceive me because of somethinâ like that? Eh? Was I that bad? I mean, it was the first time for both of us, wasnât it?
âŠIt was her first time, right?
ââŠâŠâ
My feelinâ of wantinâ to know got much strongerâŠ
But yeah, if I were told, ăSorry, I couldnât tell you that you suck too much. I didnât expect the person, who I dated after likinâ him so much that I told him about my embarrassinâ past, to be such a dead-lay, so my love vanished in one go and I tricked you as I couldnât stand beinâ with you any longerăâŠthat would be quite the ăanswer I donât wanna knowă.
ââThen again, thatâs how reality works, right?
Indra, whoâs knowledgeable in that area, sayinâ so means itâs a common reason for couples to break up.
She ăgot tiredă of me, or I ăsucked too muchă. Guess itâs gotta be somethinâ along those lines. Itâd just mean that I read too much into stuff.
Hahaha.
When I reflexively sighed deeply, Indra told me, âNow, now, itâs just better to not know the reason. If you consider your emotions, that is. Just apply your preferred ăreason for breaking upă. Reality will do with that as youâve ăalready broken upă.â
As her words grated my nerves, I ground her temples.
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ââI visited Lunaâs and my datinâ spots with Indra, but regretted it a bit as I should have listened to Indra and let bygones be bygones.
In other words, all of it was disappointinâ, shabby junk.
âŠBack then, I was still young, all of it looked nice and sparklinâ. I enjoyed the places for just beinâ together with my beloved. We often talked âbout not beinâ able to buy a place as it was too expensive, but planned to buy it someday once we made a break-through.
ââNow, without several years having passed yet, only Iâve been able to fulfill that dream.
Also, the girl next to me right now had skills allowinâ her to make stuff which was several leagues above the things sold in this town, and she faithfully accompanied me while probably havinâ no interest whatsoever.
At the end, we headed towards the guild.
âSorry for makinâ you tag along.â
When I apologized, she stared at me blankly for a moment, before answerinâ, âI told you didnât I? That Iâd even go to hell with you. But, this place isnât hell, so you donât need to apologize.â
I laughed at her, and asked, âBut, itâs a very borinâ town to you, isnât it?â
âI donât think of it as boring, but I guess itâs normal. Iâm going to use this as reference for what might be a standard in this world. âŠI might have enjoyed this place if I had come here as a normal adventurer first,â she muttered with a slightly distant voice.
Thatâs why I caressed her head.
âDonât worry âbout it. Ainât your fault for beinâ broken. Thatâs also why I can enjoy beinâ with you.â
âHmm⊠But, youâre quite the passive guy. Wouldnât you consider something fun just because the person next to you considers it fun?â
âŠâŠ
âItâs not really like that, you know?â
Iâm not that soft-hearted a person. In reality, I encountered many situations where I didnât have any fun while those âround me did.
âReallyâŠ?â Indra tilted her head, but didnât say ânythinâ else while continuinâ to walk.
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Enterinâ the guild, I headed to the reception and gave âem my name.
âIâm Sword of the S-Rank adventurer party ăAllroundersă. Is the guild masâŠâ
âSword!?â
I remembered havinâ heard that voice before and turned âround in surprise.
A grown LunaâŠno. She looks similar but is still different.
ââŠâŠUmm, if I remember correctlyâŠâŠâ
âŠOh right, Luna had a younger sister. She said they didnât resemble each other, and sure, they were different. But now that sheâs grown up, she does look like Luna.
âIvanaâŠwas it?â
Her face beamed.
âŠGreat, looks like I was correct.
âLong time no see, Mr. Sword.â
âŠâŠThatâs someone I didnât want to meet, seriously.
My face cramped up.
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ââIt ainât like I donât have any fault in her sisterâs death altogether. Or rather, I canât really tell either. I canât explain ăwhy she diedă.
Given that Lunaâs other party members werenât locals, I wasnât questioned by their families either. Only Luna came from here. She grew up in the orphanage together with her sister.
Her sister Luna was an adventurer in traininâ as a priestess apprenticeâŠI only learned of it later, but she had formed a party with her fans. Back then I didnât know any of it, and only joined their party after beinâ invited by the leader for my sword skills. In a role as a simple tank.
I was grateful to the leader who invited me for that point alone. A lot more back then than now.
Far from havinâ romantic relationships, I didnât even have any friends. Anyway, I wanted to get friendly with that party as I was happy that theyâd invited someone like me. And I hoped theyâd approve of me as a friend if I obediently carried out my duty as a tank.
Thatâs why I didnât know the partyâs circumstances either. Nor the circumstances of the woman called LunaâŠ