Placing both her hands on the wall, she rested her ear against it and closed her eyes.
āā¦Ahh.ā
The voice was calm and subdued. People often called that voice of his ācoldā, but Liselotte had always liked the sound of it.
ā Lord Aloisā¦
Liselotte imagined just what he was doing on the other side of this wall. Surely, he had his back turned to her. Heād be folding his arms, leaning back up against the wall and listening to the sound of his own voice with a serious face.
Without the magic to disguise it as silver, his hair must have reverted to that pale white colour that was his own. His eyes must be a murky and brownish sort of red, to distinguish his familyās centuries of separation from the royal house. His skin would be pale, his body much too lean. He could never have known just how much she envied him, when he said that he never gained weight no matter how much he ate.
Just when was it? One day when she called him a white flower, he got so upset. Really, just when was that? Perhaps it was when they were back in Mohnton. Since then, there was a hard ban on ever comparing him to a flower again.
But, to Liselotte, he would always be a flower. Without being able to choose where it sprouted or move to another pasture, an unfortunate and fleeting flower. She only wanted to protect it from the lashing rain and swirling winds, but in the end there was nothing Liselotte could do.
āNext timeā¦ā
There wouldnāt be a next time.
She knew that, but that cheery voice still came from her mouth. Liselotte was his shadow. So, until the very end, she had to do what she could to support him.
ā Whatās moreā¦
āā¦If we can meet again in another lifeā¦ā
She wasnāt lying. It wasnāt some sort of trick. In her heart, Liselotteās words were true.
āWeāll definitely go through with the wedding properly! You better not forget, okay!?ā
āYeah, yeah. Thatās fine, weāll do it.ā
āItās a promise, alright!ā
As she pressed her ear against the wall even more, Liselotte poured her heart into her voice. She felt like she could hear a soft sigh on the other side of the wall.
āYou absolutely have to-!ā
Liselotte swallowed the words that were on the tip of her tongue.
She turned away from the wall, looking at the closed door to her cell⦠Someone was there.
āā¦Who is there?ā
Silence. Instead, the door opened without a sound.
Liselotteās eyes widened in shock when she saw who walked into the cell. She almost shouted in surprise but covered her hand with her mouth quickly.
Standing right in front of her was someone she knew well.
A lean woman who was getting on in age. That slender build of hers was like a withered branch, but paradoxically there wasnāt a single sign of weakness anywhere on her. She stood straight, her eyebrows pulled taught, as she looked Liselotte over rigorously.
She was a vassal of the Montchat family, as well as Liselotte and Julianās childhood teacherā¦
āā¦Lady Gerda?ā
Liselotte spoke out to her, a note of fear in her voice. Gerda didnāt answer her even with a nod, her expression not changing even a whit. She merely stood silently on the opposite side of the cell, staring at Liselotte.
āW-what happened? How did you unlock the⦠what about the guardā¦?ā
In Gerdaās right hand, there was a knife. She couldnāt see clearly, but she was dragging something behind her with her left.
āI need your assistance, Liselotte.ā
āA-assistanceā¦?ā
āIāll give you the keys. This is the one for Lord Aloisā cell.ā
She held them out to her. When she did, Liselotte finally saw what was behind Gerda.
The heavy thing that she dragged behind her with her left hand was a person. A thin-looking man, who must have been even older than Gerda. Was he asleep? He didnāt seem like he was moving at all.
Liselotte held her breath. She couldnāt raise her voice carelessly now. She didnāt completely understand what was happening, but she knew it was something that had to be kept quiet.
Dropping the man to the floor, Gerda strode towards Liselotte and handed her the keys that she had hooked on the end of her finger. Each key on the loop was numbered. It was easy to imagine that they corresponded to the cells.
āThereās still some time before the lookouts are meant to swap shifts. If you escape out the back entrance, no one will be there to stop you. Once youāre out, go to the left. Once you reach the road, you should know where to go from there. The cell doors are numbered based on the keys.ā
āThe keys⦠L-Lady Gerda, just how did youā¦ā
āAnd lastly, here.ā
Instead of answering Liselotteās bewildered question, Gerda offered her the handle of the knife in her hand.
This knife, just where did she get it from? As a criminal, Liselotte wasnāt allowed a knife to cut her food, in fact she wasnāt even afforded the luxury of a fork.
But all the same, Liselotte took the knife that was held out to her. The blade looked sharp and it felt heavy in her hand. This wasnāt a cutlery knife, it was something closer to a dagger a soldier would wear on his waist.
āOnce you use it, make sure to take it with you. It may end up being of further use. Make sure to have Lord Alois change clothes with him before you do it. Iāll stay clothed as I am. Our clothes match as prison uniforms, after all.ā
āLady Gerdaā¦?ā
āOnce youāre outside of the cell, thereās no magic sealing curse. So long as you aim inside the cell from outside, you can use magic. With that, I think you know what you have to do, butā¦ā
Gerdaās eyebrows didnāt flinch.
āMake sure to leave the body in the room once you make the stab. Keep in mind that thereās an obvious difference in severity between self-inflicted wounds and a wound inflicted in anger. Steel your heart and donāt shy away from what you have to do. Also, make a mess of the room so that it seems like there was a struggle. Always keep in mind just how the scene will be perceived by others.ā
āā¦You mean to swap them? That man and⦠Lord Aloisā¦?ā
āIf they think that heās died in prison, then there wonāt be any pursuit. So, disguise the corpse with your magic. It was all I could do to match genders, so make sure that the magic is intricately cast.ā
Liselotteās breath ran shallow.
Disguising a corpse as Alois with the intention of fooling people into thinking he had died in prison, and then helping him escape. With the corpse being a doppelganger for a time, heād have a lengthy head start on any pursuers. The better the disguise, the more time Alois would have to put distance between himself and the capital.
With Liselotteās ability, even other mages should be fooled by the deception. If the āreal articleā hadnāt appeared at the trial, they would have all been fooled to the end, after all.
That said, a guard would still have gone missing. For whatever reason, a criminal was murdered in jail, and on the same night, an unrelated guard disappears from his post. Even if they donāt notice the disguise straight away, this would raise peopleās suspicions. In effect, he could potentially only have until they realize a guard is missing before the pursuers would be hot on his tail. He wouldnāt have enough time.
But, if he didnāt run, the only thing that awaited him was death. Liselotte had no choice
āā¦I understand. Then, letās go to Lord Aloisā cell. At the very least, we have to make sure that Lord Alois survives, even if heās alone.ā
āNo.ā
As Liselotte plucked up her determination, Gerda cut her short.
āThe people who will have āescapedā are the traitorous servant who bore a grudge against her master as well as the guard who conspired to help her. Two people.ā
āTwo peopleā¦?ā
āThe woman seduced the guard over to her side and then killed both the master she resented and his lover before escaping. If that is the motive, then it wonāt appear so unnatural. There will be two dead bodies. Likewise, two people will escape.ā
Liselotte couldnāt comprehend just what she had said straight away. As Liselotte looked at her with confusion, Gerda let out a faint sigh.
āWe canāt leave Lord Alois to wander the world alone. In order to escape, he needs your help. Using your magic, you can deceive the eyes of any pursuers.ā
āB-But, Lady Gerda⦠thereās only one body to substituteā¦?ā
āThere will be a second.ā
Gerdaās words were just as impassive as ever. As if she were just speaking as she usually did. In the same tone that sheād tell a maid her cleaning schedule for the day, she continued to speak to Liselotte.
āDid I not say it earlier? Only the gender matches. So, youāll have to be very careful with how you cast the magic.ā
Just as that thin and frail body paradoxically stood strong, so too did her eyes remain unwavering. The knife in Liselotteās hand felt all the more heavy.
Gerda alone was the only person in the room who matched that description. After she had handed Liselotte the knife, she had looked her up and down, making sure that their clothes matched.
Simply put, thatās how it was.
āā¦Are you serious, Lady Gerda?ā
Liselotte looked up at Gerda. Even in a situation like this, she stood tall, not a single crack appearing in her expression.
āThis is hardly the time for me to make jokes. If you understand what Iām telling you, then please do it quickly.ā
āBut⦠butā¦ā
But, there really wasnāt time to argue. Liselotte herself knew that all too well.
Gerdaās plan made sense. It would be better for Alois to have the magically gifted Liselotte by his side than to try and escape alone. There were only prisoners and guards in this jail. It would be difficult to prepare a womanās corpse. Therefore, they had no choice but to use the only one that was the most readily available.
She understood. Using other people like this, they had been doing it for a long time. Just how many sacrifices had they stood on in order to reach the royal family like they had?
āLady Gerda, are you truly fine with thisā¦?ā
Gerda blinked silently in Liselotteās direction for a moment. Then, she nodded.
āThe only reason my body exists is to fulfill the hopes and dreams of the Montchat family. Whether in revenge or in sin. No matter how many people were betrayed or sacrificed over the years, the fact that the four houses of Mohnton have pledged eternal allegiance to the Montchat family is an immutable fact.ā
To that end, she was even willing to lose her life. Willing to be stabbed and disguised in order to conceal the true nature of the murder.
āThe only thing that is important to me is the Montchat family. For the sake of the Master of the house, as well as his family. For that reason, I never had a family, never had chil⦠No, we donāt have time to talk freely like this.ā
Closing her mouth, Gerda shook her head softly, not changing her expression. When she looked back again at Liselotte, her face was as stern as ever.
āLord Alois is the last remaining member of the Montchat family. From now on, you must protect him. Make sure to fulfill his wish⦠Even if that may not be revenge anymore.ā
Liselotte looked at the ground.
She could only breathe.
ā Protect Lord Aloisā¦
She was the one who had always wanted to stay by his side, more than anything she had wanted to be the one who supported him the most. If this was the only way she could continue doing that, then Liselotte had no choice other than accepting this.
Liselotte was a shadow and a fake. She had deceived others, lied to their faces and even betrayed them. Just like the original nature of the Montchat family, a shadow in the dark.
āā¦Lady Gerda, thank you for everything youāve done.ā
As she said that, Liselotte readied the knife. Gerda didnāt move a muscle, waiting silently.
āBoth myself, and Lord Alois as well, you taught us so many things. From morning to night, every single day⦠Lady Gerda, you were always so strict, I was a little scared of you.ā
How to win a personās trust, how to deceive others, how to act in public. As a teacher, Gerda had taught Liselotte everything she knew. When Liselotteās talents became obvious, she left her parents and studied under Gerda for many years.
Gerda was scary. She never showed kindness, she never let her run away until she had completed her work, and she couldnāt remember just how many times she ended up crying.
āButā¦ā
She knew both of them better than anyone. She was patient, and never gave up on trying to teach them. Even though she often scolded them, she also praised them for their hard work.
āI think I have more memories of being with you than my own parents, Lady Gerda.ā
Gerda looked at Liselotte.
Thinking back, Gerda had never averted her eyes from Liselotte at all.
āLiselotte.ā
As Liselotte trembled with the knife in her hand, Gerda called out to her. Even in a situation like this, emotion didnāt sway her voice.
āMake sure to do the magic right. Use up all of your power if need be. Youāll deceive them. This time, surely, youāll defeat that man.ā
Just as always, that voice of hers was unemotional and unfeeling. Those taught eyebrows and straight back never changed until the very end, like they were inherent parts of herself.
Butā¦
āItās alright.ā
The very edges of her mouth raised ever so slightly. It was too subtle to call it a proper smile.
āThereās no way you wonāt win. Because youāre my student, after all.ā
But⦠it was definitely a smile, of sorts.
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Dusk was beginning to settle outside of the prison.
At the edge of the western sky, the red sun was just barely visible above the horizon. In the east, a half-moon had begun to rise with a dark blue sky.
The wind felt warm on their faces. Summer in the capital was warmer than in Mohnton. As the wind blew, the clouds swirled, covering up both the falling sun and the rising moon. It soon grew darker.
āā¦Are you alright, Liselotte?ā
Julian, dressed in the uniform of a guard, looked back at Liselotte. Quickly wiping something away from her eyes, she forced a smile for his sake.
āThereās no problems, Lord Alois. Iām just a little tired because I used up too much of my magic, thatās all.ā
āI see.ā
With that answer, the conversation died away.
Julian walked silently. It had been a while since theyād escaped the prison. After getting off the road and fleeing into the woods, they hadnāt encountered any signs of pursuit yet.
They may really be able to escape. Once they got rid of their bloodied clothes, they should be difficult to track.
āAfter all, no matter what path we take, there are always dead bodies along the way, isnāt there?ā
Looking at his hands, Julian sighed. Heād always been stepping upon the corpses of others to move forward, and now heād done the same to escape.
After stepping on so many corpses, walking on and on, this is the place he found himself.
Julian found himself with nothing. He couldnāt complete his familyās revenge, nor could he ever return to Mohnton. He had no idea just where those bloodied feet of his could step next. He was like a bird who had left the nest for the first time.
āā¦Just what am I supposed to do now?ā
He was at a loss as those words fell from his mouth. As he sighed, he looked up at the sky, but he hardly saw it.
Darkness had truly spread across the nightscape now. The moon had been obscured behind the rolling clouds and not a single star could be seen twinkling anywhere.
ā Surely, I have to continue our revengeā¦?
If he didnāt⦠then wouldnāt his entire life up until this point be a total waste?
The Montchat family had long since done the dirty work of the royal family in the shadows. Whenever one head of the house died, he passed on his anger and grudge to the next generation, entrusting them with their shared debt.
He couldnāt afford to run from it now. It was tantamount to a betrayal of his familyās history.
āLord Alois.ā
Walking up beside him, Liselotte quietly took Julianās hand in hers. As she looked into Julianās eyes, her smile seemed pained.
āAre you worried?ā
Julian didnāt answer her. But, Liselotte took that as affirmation.
āThen, shall we⦠do something terrible?ā
āWhat now? Iāve already committed so many crimes.ā
āThatās right, but thereās still one more. Why donāt we commit the worst crime of all?ā
āWorse than treason?ā
Liselotte nodded. Even through the darkness, he could tell that her smile was genuine.
āWhy donāt we run away together?ā
āā¦Lieseā¦?ā
āWhy donāt we leave this country behind and go somewhere far, far away? If we had to go somewhere, Iāve heard that the weather in the south is lovely. As far away as we can get from Mohnton in the north, as well.ā
Julian blinked, stunned. He never expected to hear words like that from Liselotte.
ā Run awayā¦?
All the sacrifices that had gotten them to this point, could he just throw them all away like that?
āDonāt be ridiculous, Liese. If we do something like that, just how could we face everyone who died so far? Just what would they have died for?ā
Both his father and mother had died for the sake of their revenge. Gerda had also sacrificed her life for Julian. A slew of people whose names he never even knew. The Montchat family stood upon a mountain of corpses that stretched through history. All for the sake of revenge on the royal family.
Julian now stood alone atop that mountain. Even thinking about running away would be a betrayal of what he stood at the summit of.
āThereās no way I could ever be forgiven. Not if I betray all the expectations that had been entrusted in me.ā
āIsnāt it fine, even if youāre not forgiven?ā
Liselotte laughed. With her hands behind her back and her golden hair flowing down her front, she took a deep breath.
āWeāve always been doing things that could never be forgiven. Itās not as if weāre some kind of saints. Both the path behind us, as well as the path ahead of us, are paved with the blood of the dead.ā
No matter which path the Montchat family travels down, it will always be covered in darkness and shadow. They will always walk upon the path of the dead. Even if their revenge succeeded, that wouldnāt wipe their sins clean.
Liselotte gave his hand a light squeeze as she tilted her head.
āWeāve always lived a life where we lied and betrayed everyone we met. Then, just one more betrayal wonāt really change anything, will it? So, in the end, canāt we just commit the worst crime of all?ā
Julian still couldnāt answer her.
This revenge was something that had been decided before he was even born. His entire life had been dedicated to it. If it was impossible to complete in his generation, it was his duty to entrust it to those that came after him.
āEven if you have to bear their grudges, their disappointment and their hatred, letās turn our backs on all this, Lord Alois. There was no way we were ever going to be forgiven, after all.ā
Escape, go into hiding, and throw it all away. Live on, whilst carrying the burden of their sins in their hearts.
Heād never thought about doing that.
āSo, letās just do whatever we like. Whatever wishes you have, Lord Alois, Iāll make them come true. Of course, if you decide to keep pursuing revenge on the royal family, Iāll follow you until the end.ā
The night breeze ruffled through Liselotteās hair. He looked down at his hands through the darkness.
They were still stained with blood. But, they had always been, and heād never regretted it.
Following the wishes of other people, Julian had walked that path. But now, Liselotte was the only one who stood by his side.
Nobody pulled Julian down the path anymore. The path to that revenge was gone, heād lost the means to fulfill that long-held goal of his family.
ā What do I wantā¦?
Julian closed his eyes. He knew that the days ahead would be hard. Whether he decided to continue with his revenge or give it up entirely, he would always be living in the shadows.
It might be a kinder fate to recklessly charge into the royal palace and be put down by the sword. In fact, facing the executionerās axe would have been easier than what lay ahead. If he had lived and died still following the path, then he would never have to consider something as terrible as this.
ā What do I wish forā¦?
Just what did he want do? He couldnāt think of anything.
But, he remembered a promise he made.
White flowers and a white dress. Spring really was a good time for a wedding.
But, spring had passed now, of course.
So, he had to keep on living⦠for a least one more year.