Chapter 763 ā Tears of a Devil
These were things that had long ago vanished from his world and he did not even dare to dream about them any longerā¦
From the moment he had begun to absorb Ye Mufengās devil soul, the only things that were left in his world were pain, ruthlessness, despair and an icy hatredā¦ If an average everyday life was heaven then his life had become complete hell .
And Xiao Lingxi had become the only source of warmth in his entire universe .
She was the only reason he had stayed at Floating Cloud City all this time . As long as he could just catch a glimpse of her once a day, it would bring him endless satisfaction . Iit even made the enormous pain he had to endure while absorbing the devil origin almost bearable . But when it came to drawing closer to herā¦ he had never dared to do so before, because to everyone else, he was terrifying devil god, and it was only in front of Xiao Lingxi that he would feel madly ashamed of the boundless inferiority and timidity that was birthed in his heart .
Because he had long ago stopped regarding himself as a human, and now he only thought of himself as an ugly and repulsive devil; a devil whose soul had been completely stained with filth .
He thirsted for the death of Yun Cheā¦ he had originally thought that Xiao Lingxi would not consent to ever see him again after he had left Floating Cloud City that day . He thought she would only be repulsed by him from that day forth, feeling only loathing and hatred for him . During the three months before his duel with Yun Che, he could not control the urge to return to Floating Cloud City so that he could see Xiao Lingxi again . He only gazed at her from afarā¦ because he was afraid that she would find out .
Today, she had not only dragged him back from the borders of death, she had even taken the initiative to recognize him as her brother and become his family, giving him a new home again .
No one knew that her every word and action had such a profound effect on his very soul . It was as if a raging blizzard had blown through his icy world .
He was caught up in a fantasy that he did not dare believe inā¦ but after that Fen Juechen drew back in fright, his body shrinking backwards as he shook his head vigorously, āNo, it canāt beā¦ it shouldnāt be like this, youāre definitelyā¦ definitely doing this so that I will stop going after Yun Cheās lifeā¦ā
Xiao Lingxi replied in a very forceful tone, āBig Brother Fen, every single word that I have said, and the vow that I have just made, has come from the bottom of my heart! Ifā¦ if it was because of Little Che, why would I get Big Brother Under Heaven to bring you backā¦ā
āNo, you donāt understand!ā Fen Juechen shook his head even more vigorously, his eyes closing shut as his face was filled with pain, āRight now, Iāve becomeā¦ a devil, a devil who is filled with sin and only lives for vengeance, you canāt understand thisā¦ you canāt understand at all!ā
āYouāre the one who doesnāt understand!!ā Xiao Lingxi shouted, āBig Brother Fen, do you still remember how, for the sake of protecting me four years ago, you suffered a broken arm at the hands of your brother Fen Juecheng? Yet you still refused to let go of himā¦ This is something that I, Xiao Lingxi, will remember for the rest of my life . So how can someone like this be a devil!?
āDuring your time in Floating Cloud City, I always thought that you were constantly suffering . You made yourself cold and cruel, and you even called yourself a devilā¦ But you did all of this for the sake of avenging your family . A true ādevilā is someone that is selfish and brutal . How could a true devil give up his own humanity for the sake of his dead relatives and plunge himself into a world of pain!?
āI am afraid of the danger that you pose to Little Cheā¦ but what I am even more sure of is that from start to finish, you have been blameless and you have only ever been a victim this entire time . At the very least, you are definitely not the villain that you make yourself out to beā¦ā
āNoā¦ do not speak any further . ā Xiao Lingxiās words did not put him at ease, on the contrary, his expression grew even more tortured as he clutched both hands to his head, āYou donāt understand, you really donāt understandā¦ I really have become a devilā¦
āI donāt have the right to be treated this way by you!ā
āWhether you possess the qualifications or not is not something that Big Brother Fen can say . ā Xiao Lingxi replied in a soft voice as she shook her head, āFor me, the word āfamilyā is sacred . In my entire life, the only family I have ever had was Grandfather, Little Che and the newly-returned Xiao Yun . I have never ever once thought of calling someone who was unrelated to me by blood family . But Big Brother Fen isnāt the sameā¦ When the Divine Phoenix Army descended on our Floating Cloud City, it was Big Brother Fen who protected us and protected the home where Little Che and I grew up in . So to me, Big Brother Fen is not only a good person and my benefactor, he is also a true hero!ā
Fen Juechen, āā¦ . . ā
āSo, I will always respect and feel a sense of intimacy with Big Brother Fen . If Big Brother Fen is willing to become my elder brother, then we can rely on one another, and protect our family together . To me, that will be a most fortunate event that will bring incomparable joy to my heart . If Big Brother Fen rejects me, I will definitely be very sad and despondent . ā
Fen Juechenās body trembled as it froze in place . He stood there, stock still, his eyes glazed over, as if he had become a statue .
āBut it seems like Big Brother Fen does not want to be part of my family . ā Xiao Lingxi raised her head and looked at him, her eyes clouded by sadness and loss .
āIā¦ Iā¦ā Under her unrelenting gaze, the man, who had caused a Divine Phoenix Army that was two hundred thousand strong to tremble in fear and had filled Yun Che with a profound dread, was all of a sudden at a loss for words as he was completely flustered .
āAnywaysā¦ā Xiao Lingxi said as she laughed once more . Her blossoming smile caused the world in front of Fen Juechen to explode in light, āI have said all I have wanted to say, and Iāve even sworn such a venomous curse . So I donāt care if Big Brother Fen is unwilling to accept this little sister of yours, because he will always be an elder brother to me from now on! From now on the Xiao Clan will always be Big Brother Fenās home, and this room will always be yours as well . When Big Brother Fen is at home, I will take care of Big Brother Fen as if he were my own elder brother, and Iāll share both the good and the bad with Big Brother Fen from now on!ā
āHowever, if Big Brother Fen does something wrong, as your younger sister, I will not hesitate to criticize and correct you!!ā
Without waiting for Fen Juechenās reply, Xiao Lingxi stood up, a pretty and coquettish smile appearing on her face, āItās decided then! Big Brother Fen is badly wounded right now, so no matter what, you canāt resist me! Soā¦ā
āGive me a moment, Iāll be back straight away!ā
Xiao Lingxi finished her little monologue and immediately scampered awayā¦ but before long, she pushed open the doors yet again and she carried a set of clean gray-white clothes in her hands .
āBig Brother Fen, all of the clothes that you were wearing are tattered and torn, and theyāre really stinky too . Put on some clean clothes first . Big Brother Fen isnāt used to relying on other people and it looks like youāve already recovered quite a bit of strength, so you can definitely wear these clothes by yourself . I wonāt ask Big Brother Under Heaven to come and help . ā She said as she smiled merrily, gently placing the clothes into Fen Juechenās hands, āRight, these are Little Cheās old clothes, so they should fit rather well . ā
When Fen Juechen, whose heart was numbed by his internal turmoil, heard the two words āYun Cheā, a violent emotion instinctively stirred in his heart, āYunā¦ Che!?ā
āYes!ā Xiao Lingxi paid no attention at all to the irregularity in Fen Juechenās voice and aura and she still smiled sweetly as she replied, āThese are the clothes he left behind before he left the last time, and I just laundered them not too long ago . I know that Big Brother Fen truly hates Little Che, but the clothes didnāt do anything wrong . A mighty person like Big Brother Fen definitely shouldnāt be so petty that he wonāt even let a set of clothes offā¦ Iāll go and boil up a new batch of medicine, so Big Brother Fen needs to be good and wear these clothes . Iāll be back once the medicine has finished boiling . ā
Xiao Lingxi gave a gentle smile as she turned around to leave, closing the door behind her .
The world had suddenly fallen into a dead silence, and Fen Juechen felt his heart beating in his chest with such clear intensity .
He sat there blankly for a very long time, before finally stretching out a hand towards the clothes beside him .
The clothes were folded in a neat and tidy manner, they were completely clean and one could still smell a faint fragrance emanating from them .
These were the clothes of the person he hated the most, Yun Che, and he hated him so much that he hated everything associated with himā¦ he should have been completely repulsed by them, tearing these clothes into shreds and going into a simmering rage . Butā¦ at this moment, his heart was bereft of any rage or killing intent when he held them in his hands . Even the act of picking up the clothes was subconsciously done in a careful and gentle manner .
āWith the heavens as my witness, I, Xiao Lingxi, take Big Brother Fen as my elder brotherā¦ from now on, I am part of Big Brother Fenās family and my home has also become Big Brother Fenās familyā¦
āYouāre the one who doesnāt understandā¦ I am afraid of the danger that you pose to Little Cheā¦ but what I am even more sure of is that from start to finish, you have been blameless throughout, and you have only ever been a victim the entire time . At the very least, you are definitely not the villain that you make yourself out to beā¦
āā¦So to me, Big Brother Fen is not only a good person and my benefactor, he is also a true hero!ā
āIf Big Brother Fen is willing to become my elder brotherā¦ To me, that would be the happiest and most fortunate thingā¦ā
āI donāt care if Big Brother Fen is unwilling to accept this little sister of yours, because he will always be an elder brother to me from now on! From now on the Xiao Clan will always be Big Brother Fenās homeā¦ā
Xiao Lingxiās voice, her every word, and her every action, resounded in his heart again and again as it rippled across every corner of his soul .
The soft sound of dripping water was exceedingly clear in this quiet space . Fen Juechen dazedly hung his headā¦ and a damp moistness began to silently spread to the corners of the gray clothes in his hands .
He extended a trembling finger and touched his faceā¦ his fingertips coming into contact with a long trail of wetnessā¦
I had clearly already become a devil that had erased all traces of his humanity and emotion, a devil that was only left with sin and vengeanceā¦
Whyā¦ do I still have tearsā¦
His fingers were trembling, but his soul was shuddering with even more ferocity . He did not recognize the emotion that filled his soul right now . The only thing that he was aware of were the tears dripping uncontrollably down his face . He could not stop themā¦
So it turns out that Iā¦ could still beā¦ āhumanā, huhā¦