Ye Jiaâs face was burning hot. His mind was gurgling like boiling water. All his thoughts were a mess. He was unable to think clearly.With blood pounding in his ears, he felt a little dizzy.The floor below him felt soft. He felt himself sinking in until his calves were swallowed up.Ye Jia raised his eyes. His eyes were misty.It took him a while to realise that he was in his own room.It was as if he had blacked out. His memories were broken.Ye Jia couldnât remember how he left Ji Xuanâs room and returned to his room ---- More specifically, from the moment the other party said that line, Ye Jiaâs memories were a mess.ButâŚ.The other personâs warmth still lingered on his hands.As if he was shocked by electricity, Ye Jia shot up and rushed into the bathroom.Cold water gushed out, stimulating his skin, but it was still unable to wash away that sensation.Or more specificallyâŚ.the memories he had deliberately tried to ignore earlier was now rushing back to him.The numb and cool sensation when the tip of the nose rubbed against the side of his neck.The rough and hot breaths.The hot palm that silently moved up his waist, the grip tightening.And the other partyâs low, husky, restrained and slightly shaky voice.He called out Ye Jiaâs name again and again.âŚ.Ge.Faster.I canât hold it in anymoreâŚ..Ge.Ye Jia trembled.Cold water dripped from his hands.The young manâs thin and fair skin was dyed with a layer of red.*
During the next few days, Ye Jia deliberately avoided Ji Xuan.Even without needing to investigate, Ji Xuan knew that the other party was trying to find a new place.He knew he had moved too quickly this time.But making things clear sooner was better. At least Ji Xuan wouldnât need to worry about girls coming and stealing Ye Jiaâs attention.He could clearly tell that, compared to when he was younger, Ye Jia had grown out of that youthful stage and was now in the body of a mature young man. Like a carefully carved jade, although Ye Jia himself wasnât aware of it, he was very eye-catching. This not only applied to his appearance, but also his temperament, making him easy to spot within a crowd. Ji Xuan noticed that it was becoming harder and harder for him to look away from the other party, and more frustratinglyâŚ.it was the same for the others too.Ye Jia would usually treat others politely and with some distance. That kind of distance was very alluring but it also created a barrier of some sort at the same time, separating him from them. Even despite this, it didnât stop his pursuers ---- Humans all like to chase after the light. Ji Xuan didnât have the right to say anything about that.----And now, Ji Xuan was certain that the other partyâs mind would be filled with him from now onwards.He opened the door and entered a dark room.The light in here was very dim and of an eerie red colour.There were numerous photos of the same person hanging from the wall.The young man either standing or sitting, taken from the front or from the side; they were all clearly taken from a distance and done very carefully and with a lot of expertise. Even despite being blurry, one could see the other partyâs tall and straight figure.The emotions in Ji Xuanâs eyes were finally released without restraint.His pitch-black eyes shone a strange light that seemed almost obsessive as he took in the photos of Ye Jia on the wall.He slowly took them in, as if he was admiring a rare treasure.Finally, Ji Xuanâs gaze fell onto the last photo.The Ye Jia in that photo was only thirteen or fourteen years old. He wasnât very tall and was on the thinner side. There was no expression on his face as his amber-coloured eyes inadvertently glanced at the camera. His entire being was covered in a soft layer of gold from the sun, making him look heavenly.Ji Xuan slowly reached out and touched the smooth surface of the photo with his fingers. It was as if he wanted to cross through time and the camera to reach the other party.He could still remember the moment he met the other party for the very first time.He was still very young at the time and didnât understand the emotions he felt back then but it was memorable enough ---- He didnât think that he was doing anything wrong. He was just pursuing his heartâs desires.As Ji Xuan got older, he slowly grew to understand the meaning behind this desire of his.He knew very well what he wanted.Ji Xuan raised his head. Dark emotions surged like waves in the depths of his eyes.
Although he was willing to give Ye Jia time, it was now taking too long.Perhaps he should do something.Ji Xuan lowered his head and greedily kissed the edge of the photo.âŚ..Gege, youâre mine.*The sky was slowly brightening. The sun was peeking through the horizon but the sky on this end was still dark.Even if he left to go to school now, it was too early.But Ye Jia chose this time to avoid running into Ji Xuan.He opened the door of his room.The lights outside were off. Everything was only dimly lit from the lights outside. Something dark seemed to be on the ground.Ye Jia, who didnât expect it, stumbled over it. Just as he was about to collapse onto the ground, a pair of arms caught him.The other partyâs arms were strong and firm. They managed to prevent an accident from happening.Ye Jia supported himself up using the door frame and looked over at the other party in surprise:ââŚ...Ji Xuan?âThe young manâs defined face was unclear in the dark but his eyes were startlingly bright:âGe.âHis voice was a little hoarse.Ye Jia felt uncomfortable being looked at like that. He subconsciously took a step back and averted his gaze, but he tried to sound calm, âWhy are you here?âHe only now realised that the other party hadnât changed his clothes, he was just wearing his school uniform. There also wasn't anything on the ground, just the carpet.Ye Jia couldnât help but frown, âHow long have you been waiting out here for?Ji Xuan obediently answered, âSince last night.âYe Jia knitted his brows even more, ââŚâŚ.Why?âThe other party tilted his head, his eyes not leaving the other party. He didnât hide the emotions in his eyes:âGe, youâve been avoiding me the past few days, no?â
Ye Jia, ââŚ..No, itâs just your imagination.âAlthough there was darkness hiding it for him, Ji Xuan could still see the other partyâs face turn red.Ye Jia hardened his heart, âMove aside, Iâm leavingâŚ.âUnexpectedly, the other hung his head and apologised, âGe, Iâm sorry.âYe Jia stopped in place.The young man sat onto the ground and carefully grabbed his pants. His actions were very gentle, as if he was afraid of being cast away, âIâm sorryâŚ..It was my mistake to have those feelings for youâŚ..âHe said, âI will definitely hold myself back and not let you see anything like that again.âJi Xuan pursed his lips. His voice was low and pitiful:âGe, please donât ignore me.âYe Jia stood frozen in place. It was unknown what he was thinking.Ji Xuanâs voice was soft, almost about to scatter in the air.He raised his eyes and repeated with fragility and unease:âPlease donât ignore me.âYe Jia slowly took a deep breath and then spoke up with difficulty, ââŚ..Get up first.ââNo.â Ji Xuan stubbornly shook his head, âI wonât get up until you agree.âYe Jia furrowed his brows. He reached out to pull him up.He held the other party but the moment he touched his hand, he was startled.It was burning hot.Looks like that feeling earlier wasnât his imagination. The other partyâs body temperature was shockingly high. It felt like burning charcoal.Ye Jia was shocked, âWhatâs going on?âHe reached out to touch Ji Xuanâs forehead.It was very hot.
âYou have a fever.â Ye Jia frowned, âHurry and get up.ââNo.â Ji Xuan shook his head stubbornly. His black eyes were bright like a sharp knife.Ye Jia couldnât convince him.He sighed, ââŚ.Iâm not angry at you.âMore specifically, he was angry at himself.Not pushing the other party away and allowing their originally simple relationship to change into something more complexâŚ.Ye Jia felt that he was at fault.âThen donât move out.â Ji Xuan stared at him earnestly.ââŚ..Fine.â Ye Jia could only agree.He pulled Ji Xuanâs arm, âHurry and get up.âJi Xuan finally got up this time but, because he had been in the same position for too long, his legs had gone numb and he couldnât support himself. Ye Jia instinctively reached out to catch him.Ji Xuan was taller than him. He fell heavily onto Ye Jiaâs shoulder.The young manâs scent immediately enveloped him. Ye Jia immediately recalled the memories from that night --- The heat, the mess, the touch. His body stiffened.He stood in place for a few seconds before finally reaching out to support Ji Xuan, âShould I call the butler?âAs soon as he asked that, he belatedly remembered that the butler had asked for leave a few days ago saying that he had some family matters to attend to.A while later, he sighed and put down his bag, ââŚ..Forget it.ââIâll take you back to your room.âJi Xuan was tall and also very heavy. By the time he got him back to his room, Ye Jia was covered in sweat.Just as he was about to put the party down onto the bed, Ji Xuan suddenly moved closer to Ye Jiaâs ear. His breath was hot and his voice was hoarse from the fever, âAt the very leastâŚ.gege doesnât dislike me, yes?âYe Jia subconsciously flinched and roughly threw the other party onto the bed.He stared at Ji Xuan for a moment and then turned to leave.Watching the other partyâs leaving figure, Ji Xuan raised the corner of his lips.âŚ.Not denying it is good news.He glanced at the hidden dark room in his room.Looks like he should sort that out when he has time.Otherwise it would scare gege.After allâŚ..From what he could see, it was only a matter of time before gege moved in.